Originally posted as a long one-shot in a series "Odessey" following "From out of Nowhere"
written back in– 07/04/2012 with Shelbylou's help
BETA – for this chapter-back when it was written - was Gottahavemyncis. Thank you again for that.
Just Let Go:
The start of something new between two people is a beautiful thing, but what bumps in the road will affect their relationship? And more to the point, will their relationship survive?
He stretched out his arm to wrap his lover in an early morning embrace, finding instead only cold emptiness where the man had lain the night before. Immediately filled with a sense of foreboding, he found the last remnants of sleep were quick to leave him as acute worry settled in its place. While this relationship was still fresh and new, he'd gotten past the last persistent shred of worry just yesterday that all of this was a dream, so this had to be real. Real enough they'd driven to Leroy's house late yesterday, prompted by the older man's request that they embrace both their homes within this relationship. But, what was this? Blinking to clear the sleep from his eyes, he barely waited for them to focus before wiping his hand tiredly across his face as his eyes continued to adjust to the light of day.
Easing himself up into a sitting position against the headboard, he sent his eyes around the room as best he could without moving any other part of his body, as if by doing so, whatever doom was coming his way would instantly befall him. His heart skipped a beat when he finally came across the man who had rocked his world so completely that there was no turning back; standing at the window, curtain in hand as he leaned against it looking out. There was something about the slightly slouched posture that drew attention to the fact that the man obviously had something less than pleasant on his mind.
Stealthily slipping out of bed, he silently picked his boxers up off the floor by the bed and padded out of the bedroom, heading to the stairs so he could leave his new lover with his thoughts. Instead, he chose to focus on what they would both need this early in the morning: coffee. Making quick work of pulling on his boxers before he walked down the stairs, he soon made it to the kitchen so he could start the pot going early on its brewing cycle. As he stood watching it begin to percolate, he had a sudden change of mind. What he really wanted to be doing didn't involve interrupting his partner's reverie with coffee; but with the tender, loving attention he'd been wantonly working to return ever since this odyssey into a new relationship with him had started a mere two days ago.
With this new facet to who he was becoming thanks to his lover's example of freeing his inhibitions and consistent encouragement that he do the same so they could focus solely on making each other feel good and happy, he couldn't help but wonder why it had taken so long. These past two nights they'd spent together ultimately deepened their relationship through the trust it took to be so intimately open with each other and it had been nothing short of amazing. He was almost overwhelmed with ideas of what he wanted to do to show the man how very much he meant to him.
But with this experience still being new to him, his nerves still rose to the surface causing him to tremble with the boldness of his insatiable desire. Taking a deep breath, he stopped off in the guest bathroom to take care of his morning business and brush his teeth before heading back upstairs with a determination to follow through on his desire to do everything he could to not only pleasure the beautiful man upstairs, but to show him the depth of what he was feeling for him.
His mind traveled back to last night when this incredible journey had turned the corner for him, taking with it the last of his worry about the rocky and emotionally draining start they'd had. Closing his eyes for a moment, some of the most treasured moments from less than 24 hours ago came back to him vividly like a video clip that had been seared into his mind.
Those strong yet gentle hands strayed along his body like fiery paths of molten heat searing Tim everywhere they touched from his ears, down his throat and over to his nipples where they gently tweaked and twisted the sensitive nubs. Having such a sensitive area played with brought a hoarse cry of delight from the young man who was at Leroy's tender mercy. Suddenly, his new silver haired lover leaned over and gently took an aroused nipple in his mouth and gently sucked it between his lips before nipping it sensuously with his teeth. Tim groaned with pleasure at the action and found himself hardening even more; especially when the abused nub was licked soothingly before the identical attention was turned to his other one.
It was too much and Tim's body arched up off the bed. He came hard with a hoarse cry as his lover held him tight and soothed him through it. "Oh…Bo…!"
"You know what a turn on it is that you can cum just from having your nipples played with?" Gibbs whispered throatily into his ear. "And while we're at home, it's Leroy, remember?"
He swayed, now, the new memories bringing with them the burning heat and desire that was already steadily building towards that insatiable state where he had to have more of his lover's touch or he'd go insane with need. Leaning against the wall outside the bedroom door, he listened to his own ragged breathing as his mind greedily reached back for another lust filled memory to fuel the fire that was growing hotter in his loins.
The older man licked and nipped Tim's mouth, pushing his tongue into the sweet, willing warmth. Groaning with hunger and lust, he took what he needed, moaning against the tender, swollen lips relentlessly in response as the young man's tongue started to languidly dance with his own. At times, Tim became the aggressor and tried to take dominance which Leroy freely gave until he once again dove in, effortlessly taking the helm back. Eventually, they had to pull away from each other, both spent and gasping for breath.
Tim arched forward with a full moan of pleasure pushing his chest more firmly into Leroy fingers. His eyes held Leroy' crystal blue gaze as he was driven towards the peak of pleasure once more. It was so sensual and so erotic that Tim's mind was blown with sheer pleasure and dare he say it, love? Tenderness? Oh, the ways this man could show tenderness! It blew Tim's mind but left him craving more at the same time. The older man teasingly applied more pressure to his touches as he continued to caress and even lap and nibble on his lover's nipples, bringing forth a low moan of ecstasy from Tim and a smile to his own features.
Leroy smiled around one of the nipples he was once again erotically abusing. Tim knew the older man discovered Friday night that Tim liked having them played with, but that he now knew just how much…He kissed each one before trailing kisses down Tim's body, following the treasure trail of hair towards his prize. Tim whined slightly when Leroy wouldn't take Tim in his mouth just yet, but moaned in pleasure when he did stop briefly to lap at the tip of the semi hard member that was starting to take interest once again.
And when he moved away as Tim's hand caressed the back of his head and blew gently over the tip, Tim's senses were overwhelmed, he struggled to breathe while his body was washed in white-hot need and beginning to tremble. He sat up and leaned on one elbow so he could grasp at Leroy' arm to pull him up. Leroy complied and made his way back up. Tim hooked his arms around Leroy' waist to hold on when the older man nipped and licked at the pleasure points on his neck and ears. He succumbed to his lover's caresses with wanton willingness, burying his head in the comforting shoulder he now rested upon, as he felt himself fully harden to the point where he was throbbing once again.
"Turn around." Leroy quietly spoke with a groan of arousal as he gently pushed Tim off his shoulder. He helped his new lover turn around on the bed so he was on his knees and stood up off the bed briefly. In the moment of stillness that came next, Tim realized his new lover was taking a moment to enjoy the sight of Tim's milky white skin and slender body. Smiling, Tim watched him as he quickly grabbed what he needed from his nightstand drawer before leaning over his shoulder to speak in his ear.
"Tim, will you let me…?"
"Leroy, after everything else, you're really asking me?" Tim teased and turned his head to give Leroy a soft smile.
Leroy groaned and breathed heavily , cluing Tim in to how hard he was working to push down his own building pleasure while he knelt behind his bed partner. Leaning forward, the older man rubbed his hands down Tim's back and caressed the round globes of his backside. He popped the cap off the lube he had just retrieved and made short work of preparing Tim. The young man was so ready and full of anticipation, he found himself breathing a sigh of relief when the older man finally lined himself up and pushed in gently so that Tim could get used to his girth, once more. Once fully seated, his new love leaned forward and wrapped his arms around Tim to pull him back gently so that he was sitting in his lap; Tim's back leaning against Leroy' strong chest.
Tim moaned loudly as he was filled and reached down to run his hands along Leroy thighs. "God, Leroy! yes!"
One of Leroy' hands moved from where they rested on Tim's stomach and sensuously moved upwards, his fingers quickly coming to rest on one of Tim's easily aroused nipples while his other hand trailed downwards and wrapped itself around Tim's's upper thigh. Those fingers once again blazed a trail on Tim's bare skin and gave the briefest of squeezes before rubbing down to his sensitive inner thigh and coming back up to tease his navel. At no time, did the older man touch Tim's now obviously swollen and ready rod or heavy balls and they stayed waiting to be lavished with attention. There was so much pleasure being poured through his veins, Tim didn't mourn the wait. In fact, all he could do was live in the moment, his body's responses pure and honest as the words just poured from him as uninhibited now as his body's physical reactions.
"Oh, Leroy!" Tim moaned feeling more pleasure than he'd ever before experienced in his adult life. "That feels so good, Leroy." He murmured with genuine appreciation. It was nearly impossible to remain still, he was so aroused and burning with a need for something he had yet to understand, even though it was no longer brand new to him. As Leroy' hands roamed and played his body like a finely tuned violin, he started to move gently in perfect union with his lover, his rhythm soft and sweet. He didn't even realize he had snuggled his head back into Leroy' shoulder as his breathing panted out from the sensations he was feeling. His hands clenched hard on his lover's thigh and he heard that voice that always drove him over the edge.
That's it, Tim." Leroy urged gravelly. "Just let go."
That was all he needed and after the highly erotic build up and the foreplay…oh God the wonderfully beautiful foreplay…Leroy' arousal roughened voice tipped him over the edge and he came hard with Leroy' breath hitching as the older man's orgasm followed.
"Oh, God!" He whispered now, caught up in the raw need that came back to him with the memory. "Stop it!" He scolded himself. "I can't go in there like this. He's not in the mood and I won't force it!" Shaking his head, he stood up straight and walked back to the guest bathroom. He needed time to calm and cool his libido with a cold shower or at the very least a cold sponge, before heading back to the master bedroom and his lover with the hope that he could fix the problem of whatever was on the older man's mind.
Stepping back inside the bedroom, he was almost relieved that the object of his desire and the subject of his thoughts hadn't moved from where he'd left him. Padding up behind him, he gently placed his hands on the man's shoulders and began sensually massaging them, in hopes of not only helping him relax, but also allowing him to trust that he could let go just as he'd so relentlessly encouraged Tim to do over the last two days.
"Hey. You okay?" he asked the older man. His quiet voice held a hint of worry at the thoughtful, morose body language that now held his lover in its clutches.
"Mmm." Leroy replied just as quietly as he allowed himself to relax into Tim's touch. "Fine. How'd you sleep?"
"Like a baby." The younger man replied. "Then again, sleeping in your arms pretty much guarantees a good night's sleep."
Leroy huffed out a laugh as he turned around without losing contact with Tim's hands. Stepping up closer to him, he ran a hand through Tim's hair, brushing it back from his forehead as he looked carefully into his eyes. "You sure you're alright?"
Tim nodded silently, too keyed up to speak.
"What aren't you telling me?" The older man asked quietly. "Something's wrong."
Unwilling to let the man keep thinking that, Tim let out a sigh and looked back at him with a touch of guilt. "Only if you consider it wrong to want you so bad, I can barely handle being this close to you without dropping to my knees right now and swallowing you whole." The quiet admission seemed to be torn from the younger man's heart.
"Tim." Leroy groaned at the mental image the younger man had just provided him.
Tim looked away in embarrassment.
"No. Don't." the older man gently scolded. "Talk to me."
"It's taking every ounce of strength I have, not to take you in my mouth right now." Tim admitted huskily as he looked Leroy straight on, his hands unconsciously reaching for the man's hips to pull him closer. "But, I know I can't."
"Why can't you?" The quiet question was accented by the older man moving closer so that Tim's hands slid onto his hips, just as the young man had wanted to do himself.
"I can't expect you to be willing to put up with my insatiable…" Tim stopped, more embarrassed now than before.
"Let go." Leroy reminded him. "Just be yourself. We've already talked about this, remember?"
Tim nodded silently, unable to look away from those blue anchors holding him steady.
"Say what's on your mind and do whatever you feel comfortable doing."
"Even if that means not being able to get enough?" Tim asked doubtfully. "What if you don't want what…?"
Leroy head slapped Tim gently and smiled softly while he shook his head. "Well, yeah. If you can't get enough, you let me know. We'll work on it."
Tim's look of incredulousness brought out a genuine smile from the older man. "You don't see me complaining do you?"
"Thank you." Tim offered before he leaned in for a tantalizing kiss. He pulled back and looked into Leroy' eyes again. "I really do want you right now." He warned before kneeling before his lover and massaging the strong, athletic thighs. With a glance up to the handsome face, he smiled and reached round to caress the older man's ass.
Leroy sucked in a breath when Tim took him in fully and used his teeth to graze the sensitive stripe under his hard member. This is what he'd hoped the last two days would do to his new young lover; to free his inhibitions and let himself enjoy the act of just being together and learning to love each other both physically and emotionally. He reached down and ran his hands through Tim's soft hair and groaned.
"That's it, Tim. Just let go…"
