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Chapter 31

I was in pain. That was the first thing I noticed.

I had the sense that I'd been out for a long time. My body was stiff when I tried to move, and my head hurt.

Slowly, I opened my eyes and blinked. I was in a room that I didn't recognize.

"Bella!" a familiar voice next to me whispered. "Can you hear me?"

I turned my head towards my left. Jasper was sitting by my bed, holding my hand. He looked so worried…

"Jasper," I murmured, dazed by the pain.

"Oh, Bella," Jasper sighed in relief. "You gave me such a scare. How are you feeling?"

Blinking, I realized that there were more people behind him. It took me a while because of my splitting headache, but I saw that my whole family was there, looking extremely concerned.

There was a woman who was sobbing quietly…

"Mom," I stated.

Jasper glanced behind him, then moved out of the way so that Renee could take his place. She took my hand gently, as if afraid to hurt me.

"Oh, Bella!" Renee sobbed. "You scared me so much! Do you have any idea how worried I was when I heard the news?"

I didn't know what she was talking about. I was extremely slow today.

"Where am I?" I wondered dully.

"You're in the hospital, Bella," Carlisle said, stepping forward. "You've had…quite an accident."

I stared at him. What was he talking about?

And then, I realized that something was wrong. My stomach was too flat.

I gasped.

"What, what, what?" Renee asked frantically. "Are you hurting? Where, honey? Where?"

I pushed away her hand and struggled to straighten up into a sitting position. There were two needles in my left hand that made it difficult, but I succeeded.

Breathing hard, I demanded, "Where's my baby?"

Everyone froze. Then, they glanced at each other uncertainly.

"Is my baby alright?" I asked desperately. "Is she out? How is she? Is she okay?"

"Bella…" Jasper whispered, looking pained.

I stared at him, wide-eyed. Why were they all hesitating? Couldn't they understand how desperate I was for news right now?

"Bella," Carlisle said quietly. "Your baby is gone. You've had a miscarriage."

My heart stopped. What?

I couldn't breathe. I merely stared at my father-in-law in bewilderment. Why was he telling me such a lie?

"C-Carlisle," I stuttered. "Why…why are you lying to me? Is it bad? Is that why you're lying to me? Because…because it's impossible. You know it's not possible. How can my baby be gone?"

"You were pushed down the stairs," Carlisle said, his expression grim. "You rolled down the entire way, and your weight practically crushed her. I'm sorry, Bella, but it's true. You've had a miscarriage."

I started hyperventilating. It couldn't be true. It just couldn't.

"Oh, Bella," Alice whispered, tears in her eyes.

I couldn't see anything. There were tears in my eyes, blurring everything. It couldn't be true. It wasn't true.

"Tell me you're lying," I demanded feebly. "Carlisle, tell me!"

Carlisle's head lowered. "I'm sorry, Bella."

My breathing just got faster. It couldn't be true. No, my baby. She couldn't just be…gone.

She'd been everything to me. She had been my reason for enduring during the last four months. My reason for living. Without her, I would've given up on Edward months ago.

She had been my whole life. I'd sworn to do anything for her, which was the reason why I'd vowed to make things right with Edward again. She'd been my everything. And now, she was gone.

How was I going to live?

I started shaking my head vigorously. "No…no…" I began murmuring, softly first, then louder. "No…no…NO!" I finally screamed. "NO!"

I finally lost it. I began crying hysterically, shaking my head violently. I had to. I couldn't do this. I couldn't believe it. I was denying the truth.

I screamed and grabbed my hair. I was finally going insane.

My family was getting alarmed. Renee tried to restrain me, and even Esme joined in pleadingly. Alice started crying harder, and Jasper's face hardened. I saw Emmett's face, torn from watching his sister break down, and my father… Charlie couldn't look at me. His eyes were trained onto the ground.

I grabbed objects that were around me and began throwing them. Cups, pitchers, metal trays, get-well cards, flowers, vases…

"No, Bella!" Alice cried, joining in the struggle in trying to calm me down. She tried to stop me from trying to rip the needles away from my arm.

I succeeded in ripping it away from my skin and threw it down on the floor. I tried to get out of bed, but Alice was ready for me this time.

She grabbed both of my wrists and held it securely.

"Bella!" she whispered. "Bella. You need to calm down. Shh… it's going to be alright…"

My shoulders sagged and leaned on her shoulder, sobbing hysterically. "My baby…my baby…Alice…my baby…"

"I know," she whispered. "I know, Bella. Believe me, I know."

Renee and Esme were crying silently as they watched me. Carlisle and Charlie looked unusually grave as they avoided looking at me, and Emmett and Jasper were stone-faced as they stared at me.

I realized who was missing. The one who had made all this happen. The one who was responsible for my baby's death.

Edward was standing in the corner of the room, away from the rest of the family. He stared at me with agony-filled eyes with regret etched on every inch of his face.

I stared at him as I sobbed, accusing him silently of the crimes he'd committed.

Edward's Point of View

Bella.

Bella was hurting. She was getting hysterical as every second ticked by.

I was such a jerk. I hadn't even realized how important the baby was to her. She must have been, what with me being gone all the time. I'd hurt Bella so much.

The baby would've been Bella's whole life. Her reason for living. For breathing. How miserable she must have been to have been married to someone like me. How many hours had she spent, hating me?

I knew that there was no way she could hate me more than I hated myself. I was regretting my actions. So much that I wanted to kill myself.

But how could I? I didn't even deserve to do it. Bella held my life in her hands, even as she sobbed. It would be her decision whether I lived or not.

I knew that I would do anything she wanted me to do. I owed it to her. I didn't have a choice.

The miscarriage had been my fault. I hadn't realized how much I'd messed up. If only I had listened to my siblings and stopped, none of this would've happened.

I felt like I had woken up from a dream. Everything was so clear, and I could understand everything. I understood what a jerk I'd been these past few months, and I knew exactly what I'd done wrong. How could I have done so many wrong things in a matter of a few, short months?

If I could turn back time, I would give anything to do it. If only I could reverse everything… If only I could go back to the time when I could still stop everything… If only…

Now, Bella was paying for my mistakes. She was hurting so much because of something I'd done. I'd committed an awful sin against her. How was I going to repay her? How?

I couldn't even stand together with our families. I'd even lost the right to do that.

Charlie and Renee had stared at me with such disgust earlier, and Carlisle and Esme had looked so disappointed in me. Emmett had merely ignored me, while Alice had hit me as soon as she saw me.

I couldn't look up to meet Jasper's eyes when he'd come rushing into the ER of Harvard Medical Center. He'd looked furious when he saw me, but the fact that his precious sister was on the verge of death put me out of his mind. He hadn't spoken to me once since he'd come, and that had been three days ago.

Bella had been asleep the whole three days after the accident. Carlisle had told us that it was because her whole body was in shock. She would need time to protect herself.

But seeing her now, she didn't seem protected. She seemed more vulnerable now than ever, and more fragile. She was skinnier than she'd been before her pregnancy, and she was paler than usual.

I'd left her briefly after her condition had stabled. I'd had a job to do.

Tanya had looked horrified by what she had done, but that was no excuse. Though everything was my fault, I couldn't leave her be after what she'd done to my Bella.

She'd protested and pleaded. She'd begged and even cried. But nothing she said could make me take her back. Her seductive charms had absolutely no effect on me anymore, and I'd been as cold as I could be when I told her that we were over.

She'd been allowed to attend her classes so far, though with two FBI agents guarding her constantly in case she tried to escape. She seemed to be shocked by what she'd done. She had done many things, but she'd never come close to nearly murdering someone.

Tanya's family was suffering too. Her sisters and brothers-in-law were being criticized openly by the whole world. Their businesses had failed, and they were begging their sister-in-law to apologize to everyone.

I'd opened my eyes and realized what I'd done. I'd broken up with Tanya, and had even pressed charges against her for hurting my wife. But that was it.

My fate now rested with the young woman that was sobbing hysterically into my elder sister's shoulder.

I couldn't seem to look away as I stared at her remorsefully. She stared back at me, and I could see the silent accusations in her eyes.

Finally, I couldn't take it anymore. My eyes lowered, and I stared at the tiles of the hospital room. The picture blurred as tears stung my eyes.

I turned away to hide them, and I slipped out the door quietly, unable to endure her piercing gaze.


AN: Sigh. So sad… I think I would be just as hysterical. Wouldn't you?

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