Disclaimer: I play with them and then return them (relatively) unharmed.
Author's note: The word of the week is Independent. And I came out with this. I'm adding an Author's note at the end.
Independent I
Lisa's staring at him, like always, since he turned up. She can picture his look of dulled agony perfectly. She wants to ease his pain; truth is, she's terrified to really understand it.
She's calling his name out – no reply like always – and there's a flare of anger and resentment.
She misses the old Dean, the one she loved and who she had Ben with. Now, every time Dean looks at Ben, it's almost with hatred, a deep-rooted resentment.
She misses the Dean that was independent of this agony; independent of his brother, family and demons. (Was he ever really?)
Author's note - the sequel: Ok, so I don't even know if anyone will care about this drabble but I thought I'd explain my thinking a little bit. The Dean that Lisa dated, pre-show and the Dean that saw Lisa briefly for that one episode prior to Season 5 is completely different to the Dean post-season 5, in my opinion. This Dean's just lost his brother, has been to hell and tortured souls there, lost hope as much as anyone can and can any non-hunter really appreciate that? I don't think so. I don't think Lisa will be able to understand all that he went through. I don't think she's want to understand. Hence, that one little line. As for Ben, I can imagine Dean resenting Ben, insofar as the lack of childhood both he and Sam had, and with Sam gone, I think the pain's too raw for him to really like his son. I think Lisa and Dean are a case of putting-up-with-it, he because of his promise and she because how harsh would you have to be to kick a guy, who just lost his brother, out? So anywho, this is why I'm very anti-Dean-and-Lisa. At the moment at least. Maybe Season 6 will change my mind? (*squee*)
Ps. I'm seriously sorry for making my author's note longer than my drabble. I've written two more for you guys, to make up for it. ^_^
