Face to face I have no idea what I am doing. I am above him. He is there, I feel him through thin fabric. My bare chest to his thinly covered one. We both are more then worse for the wear, but it has no real play here. We are both here. A ton of hell worked through and a hell of a lot more. But we have both been on the other side of that door. We have both been through the pits of hell. Apart and together now, and we are still here. We are still in one piece. No one has been hurt beyond repair. I hope.

"What are we?" I stare at his confused but happy face.

"Shh" I smile as I descend, my mind doing a whole lot of holy crap am i really doing this. Then my mouth is on his and I don't even go slow. My teeth find his plump lower lip and I latch on. My teeth give a gentle tug as my tongue licks it. I hear a soft groan and know it's not from me so I take that as a good sign and move on. I'm not brave enough to fully go forward. At the last second I chicken out. Thank god he doesn't.

His hand that had been passive beside us was at the back of my head the minute I started to back away. They weren't tight and I could feel is worry but try to show him how much I know what is going on. He still backs off a bit just as we are about to get to where I need. Our mouths are side by side. I hear him breathing hard. I feel him trying to get control.

"I know what is going on. I know who I am with and what is going on." I whisper into his cheek.

I pull back and we lock eyes. His dart all over the place before locking on mine then going to my mouth.

"Thank the fates" Then I am pulled down into him. Lord have mercy I have never been kissed like this.