It was easy to drift off there in my safe haven, it was a peaceful feeling. Waking up to an empty space though was not as easy. There is a panic, there is a void and dread then I hear pots and pans, smell some coffee and hear whistling. Then I do something I haven't ever done. I scoot over to his pillow lay my head into it sideways so I can smell him and just lay there. Listening to the sounds of someone in my space moving around and I smile. I know who is there and I don't freak out. I don't try and think who is there or how do I get them out. I know who it is and I can imagine how he is moving around, how he looks right there. Well not right because I know it is a pretty much bare space, it wasn't a home but how he makes the most of it and makes it as homey as it has ever been. I smell him, I hear him and in my head I can see him. It seems like the best dream come to life.

I find the best position and stretch out in his place on the bed. Next thing I know a hand is shaking me and my heart falls, I knew it had to be a dream is the first thing that comes to mind. Then his voice breaks the fog.

"Hey sleeping beauty, you need to scoot or I am eating this all myself using your back as a table." I am tempted to roll over and offer somewhere else but instead I just stifle the comment but not so much the smirk.

"Sure, no problem" Pushing myself over and up to sitting.

"Don't think I don't know what you are thinking perv." The laugh plays all over his face. "Mind out of the gutter."

After he sets down a tray I had no idea I even owned on the end of the bed I expect him to sit down but instead he goes over to the thick drapes on the window and pulls them back. It washes the room in all kinds of natural light. I blink hard a few times as my eyes adjust. It is the first time I think I have ever seen the room in natural light. Looking around I can see why some people might like it. Myself I will need convincing.

"There we go, lets try to learn that we are not vampires. Sound good? Great" he doesn't give me a chance to answer before he is laying a napkin on my knee and putting a fork in my hand. "Eat, you need your energy." I do as told but my mind is back in the gutter when it wonders what I need my energy for.

"We are getting out today." I look at him blankly not sure what to make of it so I do as I have learned to say nothing and wait for him to explain. But he doesn't.

"Out? Out where?" I try to keep cool and show I am chill and all that crap I used to show. How the hell did I use to do that?

He takes his time chewing then a long drink of coffee. Wipes his mouth and I throw my napkin at him.

"Okay," he laughs and I some of the worry washes away. "I just thought it's a nice day and I need more then this pair of sweats or a dirty tux, the bird needs food and in the food department you are lacking as well. So we are going to get you dressed in real clothes," he has a remorseful sound to his voice at that as he eyes me and I get a bit of a thrill. "we are going to take a drive and remedy said issues. Are you okay with that."

I wish I had it in me to protest his taking over and taking charge but the fact is I can see that I had kind of pussied out on life and have no clue what day it is let alone what is going on outside this room and this bed. Hell I was shocked to see that it is daytime. So I nod and as he takes the tray and once again kisses my nose and nods for me to shower I am hit with it.

"Take charge is kind of doing it for me." He laughs and winks at me.

"Good to hear now get to cleaning up." I am halfway to the bathroom as he yells down the hall. "And no dancing this time, don't want people thinking I am beating on my guy or something."

The doorframe to the shoulder hurt I am sure, if I could register anything other then his words.