"Translation, are you done being a little bitch and going to be a grown up?" he gave a little snort. "Yes, I think I have my vag safely packed away for now."
"Well good then. Now you want to go first or should I?" my turn to snort. I never would have guess him like this. "what's so funny?"
"Nothing, just you are full of surprises that's all." the look of really now on his face is another pleasant one.
"No, really, I think I am pretty cut and dry, a man of schedule and routine. I am someone you can set your clock to. You on the other hand." he rolled his eyes and rubbed his eyes before his hand sweeps down the side of his face and cups the side face to jaw. I cock a brow in a dare and just give a shrug and and eyebrow rise. "What?"
"Nothing, not a thing. And I think you should probably lead this all off. Being so cut and dry and all." I get the look again and now it's my turn. "What?"
"Nothing." I figured that would be what he would say. He has let me lead us away from the nitty gritty to many times now. "Why did you come at me like that in there before?"
Fun over, I have been shut down. "Because I wanted you?" I'm not sure how raw I want to leave myself right now.
"I was talking about us Ed."
"No you weren't you were talk about 'him'" I can't help the snarky tone it just has to be there. "You were pointing out how great he was, all the things he was and how he was and reminding me,"
"No I was mapping it out, telling you about my life. You don't think that it pisses me off every fucking time I hear about your past? How it hurts and dis a hole in my gut every single time you talk about it. How oh must have been my this time through rehab, oh it was after this bender? That shit hurts too, but I don't cut you off. No matter how hard shit is this is how you act like a grown up."
Guess I got the what for and every bit of rebel child wants to stomp my feet and act like a brat. Every part of my you can't tell me what to do teenager demands I slam a door. And an over powering part of my junkie wants to scream fuck you and get high. I choose to try a new route.
"Sorry, I was feeling like you were stacking the cards against me and I wanted to get at least something. Even if it was just physical, at least that was something." I can't look at him. I just pick at the seem on the back of the couch.
"Don't you know? I really wish you would look at me." he waits and I still stair at my fingers play. "Fine, but you have to know I can be long winded and I wasn't pointing out you faults. If you hadn't attacked you would have known that."
I heard the snarky snort out of myself and can't even care. I am in my pouty little boy mood. Not proud of it but I am.
A/N: hey all getting caught up with life again. All this hippie mom stuff and to top it off my 20yr is this weekend and I am being bullied into going by the old crew. GRRRR lol but gonna be getting stuff out. Trying we are getting to the last mrphhhhmmmumblish chapters... Lol promise I know what is going on... Thanks to those how read and stick with it! Loves to the reviewers. And yup that's it my plea to stick with me... WUBBIESS!
