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Scorpius kept his arms tightly wrapped around Lily, hoping it would keep her from leaving. She hadn't spoken for quite some time, and his mind was running wild with possibilities of what she might say when she finally did speak.
"Scorpius?" She sighed heavily.
He ran his fingers along her arm before speaking. "Yes?"
"I don't think I can face my family yet." She wasn't sure how she could ask him what she wanted without it coming off as something else completely.
"We don't have to go in yet," he said, feeling a small sense of relief to have a little more time with the amazing and completely messed up girl next to him.
"I mean, I don't think I can face them tonight. I think if I get a little rest or at least a little more time, then they can cool off."
Scorpius seemed to register what she was asking, but didn't want to be presumptuous. "Well I do live with your brother," he said, "but if you like we can go to the manor. I still have my old room there, and there are plenty of guest rooms."
Lily wasn't sure she wanted a guest room. She felt like she could use the comfort he brought her. Once she agreed Scorpius apparated them to the manor, but not before letting Vera know, so the family wouldn't panic.
Lily was pretty sure that her family would be upset at her even more for running away from the problem, but she just couldn't face it all yet. Once they arrived at the manor Lily's legs felt unsteady. Scorpius, seeing this, scooped her into his arms, and carried her into the manor.
He quietly took her into his old room and laid her onto his bed. Lily looked around admiring the tasteful Slytherin decorations. He had a bookshelf with several books, and if Lily were more awake she would surely be eager to look through them. On his desk she spotted a picture of Scorpius, Al, and her. She couldn't recall taking the picture, but was smiling and then smacking Al on the arm. Scorpius stood next to Al in the picture and was watching the two with a large smile in his face.
"When did we take that picture?" Lily mumbled sleepily.
"Just before Al and I left Hogwarts. You don't remember?"
Lily looked at the picture, trying to recall the day it was taken. She finally gave up and just shrugged. Scorpius smirked at her as she closed her eyes and rested into the bed. He covered her in his silky blankets and got up to leave.
Lily reached for him. "Please," she whispered. "Stay."
"Lily, I really shouldn't." He looked as if it pained him to say no. His eyes were cast down, so she couldn't see the gray, and his eyebrows creased in the center as he ran his hands through his messy platinum hair.
Lily tried to hide her own hurt, unsuccessfully. "Oh, ok." She rolled away from Scorpius and pulled the blankets tighter around herself. She tried to distract herself from the feeling of rejection that washed over her with thoughts of the disastrous evening, but wasn't successful. Lily felt like that sealed the end of their relationship. A tear fell down her face just as she felt the bed dip. She quickly wiped it away and rolled over.
Scorpius sat at the edge of the bed, his head in his hands. "I just can't say no to you," he sighed. Lily wasn't sure if he was speaking to her or himself. He finally turned to look at her. "I really shouldn't stay." He said.
"Why not?" She asked. She felt hurt at his words and thought he didn't want to be with her.
"I can't do it, Lily." Lily looked at him, showing her confusion. "I can't be around you, this close to you, without more. I want you, all of you, to myself." He took a deep breath, feeling the need to explain his actions, so she could finally understand. "I haven't written to you, despite my desperate desire to, because it was just too painful." Lily watched him as he spoke and it was clear that even speaking of it was painful. "Those months were torturous and slow. When the wedding was approaching I didn't allow myself to think of the fact that you would be there. And then when I saw you…" he let out a long breath. "You were too beautiful. You always are. At first I couldn't take my eyes off you, but then I forced myself to. You had a date, which I assumed was probably your boyfriend. I remember him from Hogwarts." Scorpius shifted in the bed lightly. It was a small bed, barely big enough for him. He'd taken off his dress shirt, and was now in a t-shirt, but Lily could feel the soft material of the dress pants against her bare legs. "You seemed happy with him, so I figured I would let you be happy. But then I saw him dancing with Rose, and allowed myself a little hope. Then Lupin came along." His face transformed slightly for a moment before returning to normal. "I watched you, saw you had been drinking too much. And then you were on the dance floor with him, and he started putting his hands all over you. You didn't do anything to stop it, but I couldn't stand it, and then Al was there, seeing it all too. So I went to stop it. I honestly never meant for anyone to find out about everything. And I truly am sorry." He finally finished. "But this Lily," he gestured to her and then himself. "This feels right, doesn't it?" He didn't wait for her to answer. "Without you I fall apart. I need you."
Lily wasn't sure she'd ever heard Scorpius speak so much. And now he was looking at her, wanting some kind of response. She wasn't sure what to say, but then thought of her time at Hogwarts after he'd left and things were over between them. It went by in a blur, because it was too painful to focus on. She had never felt so empty in her life than during those months. Her life had fallen apart in a way. She threw herself into her studies, because that was all she could do to keep her mind from thinking of Scorpius, because thinking of him hurt too much. Her friendship with Jason was safe, because she knew he would never force anything that she didn't want. He was one of the few good guys at Hogwarts that understood the concept of friendship. Lily was sure that if she wanted Jason would have been all too willing to enter into a real relationship with her, but that wasn't important. What was important was that she wanted Scorpius, and she couldn't ignore that.
"I need you too," she finally said. She sat up and reached her hands up to his face. She placed her hands on both sides. She wanted to savor the feel of his face in her hands. She pulled him to her, placing a soft kiss on his lips. He didn't respond, causing her to pull away.
"Lily," his voice was serious, and face pained. "I can't do this if we're just going to break up again tomorrow."
"We wont," Lily said in desperation.
"I wish we could go back to the start," he mumbled.
"Why cant we?" She said. "Nothing's stopping us from starting over."
"Yes," he said forcefully, "something is. I can't just pretend these past few months haven't happened." He took another look at her over his shoulder and gripped the sheets tightly. Releasing them he stood up. His actions were slow, reluctant.
"I want to be with you," Lily said quietly.
"You have no idea how much I would like to believe that." He took two large steps before reaching the door.
Lily was sitting up in the bed, the silky green covers at her waist. Scorpius stopped before opening the door, taking another long look at the girl he loved. Her eyes were wide and her hair was no longer in its neat style. It fell past her shoulders in a mess. Her cheeks were flushed pink, but Scorpius couldn't help but admire her, finding her more beautiful if that were possible.
"Scorpius, please." she said. He loved the way his name sounded when she spoke it. "I love you." Her voice was soft, but not ashamed. He froze at her declaration. His gaze slowly transformed from longing to hunger. He crossed the room in two long strides and was at her side. He pulled her up from the bed, so that she was standing with him.
"Do you mean that?" He asked.
"Yes," she breathed as he traced the contours of her face with his finger. He touched her cheeks, her jaw, but hesitated at her lips.
"Please," he said, "say it again."
"Scorpius, I love—" She was cut off by his lips against hers. They were hard and urgent, and Lily was struggling to find a rhythm, as they always had before. Soon she realized that there wasn't a rhythm, that he was pouring his need for her into the kiss, so she did the same.
When they finally pulled apart Scorpius was smirking at her, which she used to find irritating, but was now relieved to see.
"I'm sorry," he said apologizing for the harsh kiss. "I've been keeping that in for far too long."
Lily smiled, grabbing the fabric of his shirt at his waist. "Kiss me," she said, her tone commanding. Scorpius liked her forcefulness, and did as she said. The two collided into each other, the kiss not quite as harsh as the previous, but even more intense. Scorpius backed Lily to the edge of his bed without breaking the kiss. Before he was fully aware of what was happening Lily pulled him onto the bed with her.
They continued kissing, the heat between them explosive. Lily's heart was racing, at the feel of Scorpius' body against her own. They had come close before, but he stopped them, and she wasn't sure he would again. She wanted to be with him, and this made sense because she loved him. Still, it was something that she hadn't given much thought to, and now that they were there, she wasn't sure she was ready for it. Lily decided not to fight it, because she had been without him so long, and it felt right. Scorpius broke the kiss, and began kissing his way down her neck. His hands moved against the fabric of her dress, grasping handfuls. Lily leaned her head back, giving him better access to her neck as he nibbled wanting to taste every inch of her. While one of his hands was full of fabric, the other roamed her body, beginning at her waist, and moving to her thigh he began working his way up. Lily gasped as his hand slid under the fabric of her dress, pressing his palm against her thigh. The skin contact was almost enough to make her explode. He moved his lips back to hers, this time kissing her softly. Scorpius groaned before pulling back. He didn't release her, and kept his hand on her thigh for the moment. The lay there, breathing heavily, hearts pounding. He placed his forehead against Lily's looking at her through his long lashes.
"I'm sorry," he said. "I shouldn't have lost control like that. It is difficult when you look so beautiful."
Lily felt a small stab of disappointment. "You don't need to be sorry. I want it too."
At her words Scorpius groaned, and pulled back from her, removing his hand from her thigh. He stood up, leaving Lily feeling empty at the absence of the warmth of his body. It was only momentary, as he moved to lie next to her.
"Still, we shouldn't make rash decisions like that. I don't want you to regret it when we finally do." Though neither said the word, both knew what they were talking about.
Lily nodded, because he was right. It would be her first time, and it shouldn't happen on impulse, and when she was still slightly under the influence of the firewhiskey from earlier.
"You'll stay with me?" She asked him.
"As long as you want me," he said simply.
"I will always want you, Scorpius. I've been so stupid."
"Hush, love." He pulled her into his arms. He spoke softly as he stroked her bare arm. "Let's go back to the start. We both made mistakes, but they shouldn't define who we or where our relationship goes."
Lily took comfort in his words, and his soft voice slowly lulled her to sleep.
Lily awoke the next morning with a slight headache. The previous night's events came rushing back to her in a blur, but she remembered every moment with Scorpius. She remembered the feel of his body against hers, and his soothing voice as he reassured her that everything would be ok. Although it was a new day, it didn't stop her mind from the panic that arose at the thoughts of her family. She no doubt made things worse by leaving and staying the night with Scorpius. But somehow she didn't care as much. Thinking of Scorpius and the evening they ended up spending together, there was no regret in her. This time, she felt their relationship had a real chance. She wouldn't be leaving for Hogwarts, and Teddy was surely out of her life now. She shifted slightly, struggling not to move Scorpius. Their legs were entangled, and she was sure he would notice the lack of her warmth if she moved. The slight movement must have jostled him more than she thought, because he stirred and awoke after a moment.
He looked down at her through sleepy eyes with a goofy smile. His usually messy hair was even messier, making him look younger. Lily looked at him, with a smile on her own face. She kissed him quickly on the cheek and pulled back.
"Good morning beautiful," he said as he sat up. "I could get used to this." He touched a piece of her hair, running it through his fingers.
"Good morning." She said. "And what could you get used to?" At first Lily thought he meant fighting and making up, which seemed absurd to her. Her mind was still slow from sleep.
"Waking up with you."
"Oh," Lily said looking down. She could feel her cheeks heating up. "Me too," she said shyly.
"Should we have some breakfast?" He asked sitting up fully and rubbing his eyes.
"Um," Lily hesitated.
"What's wrong?"
"Well, it's just, are your parents here?" She asked the question uncertainly, feeling self-conscious.
"Yes," Scorpius said, not seeing the problem.
"Well, what will they think? And I don't have anything else to wear." Lily was still in her wedding clothes, and hadn't thought to bring a change of clothes for obvious reasons. She was feeling extremely awkward, and when he smirked at her she wanted to tackle him. "It's not funny," she pouted.
"Actually, love, it is." He grabbed her chin, still smirking. "You look too tempting with that pout. I don't think I can handle it this early in the morning." Lily wasn't sure what he meant by that, but didn't have a chance to ask. "You can wear some of my old clothes. My parents won't mind, and my mother will be so happy to hear that we're back together. My mum asked about you a lot." Lily as surprised to hear that his mother had been asking about her, though she did think the two of them had hit it off pretty well.
"Really?"
"Yeah, mum really liked you." Scorpius stood up, pulling her with him. 'There's no need to be self-conscious. You are beautiful, and my parents would never judge you." Scorpius thought about it a moment, but didn't say anything else on it. He went to his dresser and grabbed a shirt and sweatpants and handed them to Lily. "You can use the restroom to get dressed. I'll wait here."
Lily took the clothes and went into the restroom. She felt like a mess and when she looked in the mirror she saw why. Her hair had gone from curly to frizzy, her eye make up had run, making under her eyes dark. Her dress was wrinkled, and in utter disarray. The first thing Lily did was use the bathroom. She then found the spare toothbrush. She took her time washing her face, taking off all the makeup from the previous night. She looked up, happy that her face looked better at least. Unfortunately her hair was a lost cause. The flowers no longer looked elegant, but now looked like she had been taking a walk in a garden and fell into a bush. She pulled the flowers out, which seemed to take forever. She sprinkled water in it to calm it down, which helped a little, but it was still a complete mess. She couldn't seem to help the frizz, and running her fingers through it just made it worse. Wishing she had brought something to tie it back, she settled on it the way it was. She quickly changed out of her dress, feeling foolish. The clothes were still much too large, but at least the sweat pants stayed up on her waist, albeit loosely. Finally she exited the restroom and reentered Scorpius' room. He was lounging on his bed, in sweatpants and a shirt, similar to the ones he gave to her. He was reading a book when he heard her enter. He looked up and smiled.
"You are so beautiful, Lily Luna."
"Don't patronize me."
"I would never," he promised as he stood up and reached for her. He pulled her to him, holding her close. "You are always beautiful, but I love seeing you without makeup."
Lily smiled into his chest, breathing in his scent.
"Let's go eat," he said releasing her and pulling her toward the door. Lily's nerves began to rise again as Scorpius led her through the house. She would be more than happy to see the Malfoys again, but preferably when she had a nice long shower, and her head wasn't pounding.
A/N: Yeah…that chapter didn't go as planned. I know I promised that Lily would face her family this chapter, but like I said this isn't how I planned it. I wanted to dedicate some time to Lily and Scorpius, which is what this whole story is about. So next chapter is Lily and the Malfoys and then her family.
So now I need your opinions! Should Lily face her family alone or with Scorpius? I have several ideas for this story, so it isn't coming to a close anytime soon. With that said, would you all like me to take some time to write for my other stories or keep the chapters coming out faster for this one? I feel terrible for neglecting the other stories.
Anyways, I just want to say thanks to all my wonderful readers. You guys are super great, and I would love to hear your opinions on the questions above. Also is there anything you want to see more of, i.e. Lily's brothers, Teddy, Victoire? Please review if you have a chance, they always make me smile. Yeah, I'll shut it now.
