Chapter Nine

Sasuke sighed as he ran his hand through his dark thick hair,when was class going to end? It was getting so dark haired male rested his head on his palm,glancing at Naruto who was writing down his notes. Sasuke soon began thinking of a proper way to apologies to Naruto,he wanted to apologies today, after the tutoring session was over. He just had to do it today, he couldn't take all this guilt anymore.

Sasuke soon face-palmed as he realized, he wasn't writing down his notes like the rest of his classmates, he uttered a sigh,and decided to Just as he began writing,the bell rang,Sasuke shrugged and got up. Placing all of his belongings in his bag. He had four more lessons to go,and how on earth was he going to finish his day?

He just spent the rest of the day,with a mind clouded with thoughts, he ignored the teacher's lectures and proceeded thinking of a way to apologies. Maybe he could do it straight foreword? But that'd be to weird,he could tell Naruto that he needed to talk to him?But that sounded weird also or maybe he could just explain how wrong he was,and then apologies,that seemed like a good idea, but what if it went wrong? What if The Blond wouldn't forgive him? He clearly didn't want that to happen , he would never forgive himself , if it came to that.

A scene of Naruto hugging himself , flashed in Sasuke's mind, he slightly winced , placing his head between his surly didn't want to live in this guilt forever. Only if he wasn't so blind from the start ,then none of this would've happened.

Time flew by and the bell soon rang,alerting the students that they finally can head back home, "Finally." Sasuke muttered to himself, as he swung his bag behind his back . He exited the classroom, but it took him awhile to make it to the school gates , hence fangirls were swarming all around him.

Sasuke looked foreword, to see Naruto , leaning against a wall,with arms crossed over his chest,staring at the ground. He seemed deep in thought , he didn't even notice Sasuke's presence until he called his name.
Naruto was soon ripped from his thoughts , and was startled a bit, he accidentally made eye contact with Sasuke for a brief moment , but cut it off, by looking at the ground, again.

"S-Sorry." Naruto whispered ever so lowly,but The Uchiha manged to hear it once again Sasuke felt an arrow of guilt strike his heart,he just made Naruto apologies for making eye contact with him. Sasuke felt that whenever he was with The Uzumaki, he'd make him feel like trash,and he didn't want that to happen, making him sad wasn't what Sasuke wanted , at least he didn't want that to happen, but he already guessed it was to late,he did make him feel like trash,maybe even lower than trash.

After twenty minutes of walking both of the teens finally made it,to the Uchiha mansion. They both greeted everyone from the Uchiha family , and made their way to Sasuke's room. Everything went like always,Sasuke teaching Naruto,basic rules of the subject he was teaching him,while trying not to scold him for being so clueless .

After an hour, Naruto excused himself and left to use the bathroom. Sasuke checked his watch,while cursing under his breath, the session was about to be over in a few minutes , and that meant he had to apologies to Naruto in a few more minutes ,too.

Naruto entered the room, sitting down, with a confused expression that was washed upon his face, as he saw Sasuke whom was staring at his watch,not noticing his presence, Naruto had to clear his throat, in order to get his attention, and he succeeded.

"Oh,you're back" Sasuke sighed , Naruto frowned to himself , thinking that the Uchiha,hates his presence .

" Naruto..." The blond,looked at Sasuke,quite curiously , he never called his name, only if he needed too, so why was he calling him now?

"Yes,Sasuke?" Naruto said,feeling his heart,drop.

"There's something,I've been meaning to tell you," Sasuke bit his lip,after he finished his sentence,with eyebrows furrowed,as if he was in some deep stress.

"Why don't you look at me?" Sasuke asked,glancing at Naruto,who stood their,surprised,at his sudden,but deep question.

"Aren't you the one who told me,not too?" Naruto said,lowering his head,at the memory,of that terrible day.

"If I see you looking at me again, I won't hesitate to put you in jail!"
Everything came back to the memories, he'd tried to forget, came back to him in a flash.

Sasuke gasped,staring at the small figure that was in-front of him. He did tell him that, how can he be so stupid? 'He' was the one who told Naruto,to not make eye-contact with him ever again,but why did Naruto still remember? The only time,the blond glanced at his black orbs, were today, and on accident.

The Uchiha felt his heart drop 180 degrees ,below the ground.
'Now's the chance' Sasuke thought.

"Look,Naruto,I know what I've done to you is,something unforgivable," Sasuke sighed. " I did horrible things to you,when you were my closest friend, I neglected you,hurt you,rejected you and made you think about suicide many times...what I'm trying to say is...I'm sorry."

Naruto stood their stunned, he waited for Sasuke to say those words for so long, but why wasn't Naruto happy? Instead of, feeling happiness, he felt somewhat...angry.

The blue-eyed male, just wanted to run away, he wanted to escape all this pain, that Sasuke caused him. Sasuke was the cause of everything painful , and apologizing, wasn't going to do it, even though, Naruto would've forgiven him a few days ago, but Itachi made him realize he was a person, and he had every right to live, just like any-other human being. A simple 'sorry' just wasn't going to do it.

"Why are you doing this to me?" Naruto asked,trying not to cry nor yell at the other male.

"What do you mean?" Sasuke asked, clearly confused.

"I'm a human too, Sasuke!" Naruto rose his head, to finally make eye contact with the Uchiha. "You...You hurt me, rejected me, bullied me, and hated me! I've been through hell because of you, you made my life hard then it already was!"

"Naruto! I know what I done was wrong, but I'm sorry! I truly regret what I've done to you!"

"Do you have any idea how it is to come back from school with a bruised body almost every single day?" Naruto felt a hot tear roll down his cheek. "I-It was hard, really hard, Sasuke..."

"Naruto..."

"Even though, I really want to forgive you, but I can't...all this pain, can't simply be erased" Sasuke looked at Naruto, feeling guilty , of how he treated him.

"I...I really want to forget everything that happened, I just want things to go back like how they used to be..." Naruto said, with tears rushing down his bruised cheek,

"Naruto, I can't live with all this guilt anymore,all I'm asking you, is too, forgive and forget," The Uchiha, furrowed his eyebrows in anger, but he soon realized he rose his voice, and sighed, placing his hand on his forehead.

"I do want to forgive you... I do want to forget, but I can't..you've hurt me, and caused me deep wounds in my heart, I can't just forget everything, like it never happened." Naruto, looked away frowning, drying his tears. He really did want to forgive The Uchiha, but it wasn't easy, like he had imagined.

"How about you start by looking at me again? Look into my eyes Naruto, forget what I said," Naruto tried to hiding the blush, that was creeping on his cheeks, it wasn't the right moment, he didn't want Sasuke thinking of him as a fag, Like he always said, in the past.

Naruto slowly lifted his head, gulping the big lump in his throat, he had a dust of pink on his cheeks , he soon made eye-contact with Sasuke, blue orbs locked with black orbs, Naruto finally got to look at those beautiful eyes again, those eyes he missed so much.

"Can you try now? Can you forget now?" Sasuke asked.

"I...I don't know,Sasuke" Sasuke just sighed, looking away, with an annoyed expression written on his face.

"I'm sorry.."

"Don't apologies, it's isn't your fault." Naruto , glanced at Sasuke before asking:

"D-Do you still think,I'm disgusting for liking another boy...?" Naruto hesitatingly, asked,

"Naruto,I didn't mean what I said back there, I just... I thought you're my friend,you're the first person, I've ever opened up,too, and...when you said you loved me, I felt betrayed, and I was confused, I ignored my heart and did something I really regret now, something I wish I haven't done...I hurt you"

"Do you really feel that guilty?" Naruto asked, and Sasuke nodded.

"It's cause, I saw everything,"

"Saw everything? What do you mean?" Naruto asked.

"You and Itachi.." Sasuke trailed off.

"Y-You heard everything?" Naruto said, taken a back, at Sasuke's words, he never knew, that Sasuke would actually over hear them. The tall male, just nodded, in approval.

The Uchiha, ran his hand through his thick silky hair,muttering cruses under his breath. Things, didn't go like he had planned, but at least, he got this guilt off his chest, even if Naruto haven't fully forgiven him yet, things seemed to look better.

"The tutoring session is over," Sasuke,picked up his books from the table,

"Oh yeah, sorry," Naruto apologized once more. But Sasuke just hated how much he apologized, it just made him feel more guilty, The Uzumaki always had apologized over everything, making seem it was his fault, when it clearly wasn't,

Naruto gathered all his belongings and placed them in his small bag,he held his bag with both of his hands and exited the young Uchiha's room,uttering a 'goodbye' .

Sasuke closed his door, and fell on his bed, closing his eyes. 'When were things going to get better?" Sasuke thought. Things were getting complicated between him and Naruto, he just wanted to go back to being friends again.

He just hoped he was doing the right thing.