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Chapter 13

The next morning we were bringing Amaya home from my house. She was ready to go back plus she knew she had something to do in the village. She wanted to be there to help.

"Are you ready to go, Amaya," Hinata asked and then looked at her. Amaya looked like she was lost in thought. She was still packing her bag although Hinata was helping. I didn't think Amaya really wanted to go back to the village. Amaya had sent me a letter two weeks ago telling me so.

In the letter she told me that she missed her grandparents. Amaya had received a letter from her grandmother telling her that her grandfather was sick again. She told me that she wasn't really sleeping well because she was really worried about him. Amaya doesn't really like talking about her family much. I guess it's because she didn't know what it felt like to really have a father. For three years she knew her mother, but she can't remember much about her. To me Amaya was lucky she had gotten three years with her mother. I didn't get jack with my mother or my father. I wasn't going to say anything to her though because I didn't want to upset her though because her emotions were all over the place and she may stab me. She has once already when she was angry. Amaya did send me letters when I couldn't visit her to let me know how she is and how it's going with the pregnancy.

I looked over at her. She did look a little down, but she wasn't really talking either. That meant she was sad. I shot Hinata a look, but she didn't catch it. "Amaya, are you ready to go?"

Amaya looked up to see that Hinata was talking to her and nodded. She really didn't want to go home. I could see it in her eyes, but I knew she wasn't going to say anything to anybody.

"I just have to go to the bathroom before we leave," she responded.

Hinata looked over at me. "I wonder what's eating at her."

"I'm starting to wonder the same thing, but I'm pretty sure I know what it's about," I responded. Hinata knew that I wasn't going to share Amaya's business, but knew she was worried about her. I was still really happy that Hinata and Amaya were getting along really well.

"You need to talk to her. You are the only one that can through to her when she's like this. I wish she would talk to me," Hinata responded.

"You're right. I will try to talk to her," I responded. We were both worried because there was a sad look in her eyes that was never there before. Amaya was normally always happy. Maybe it was her hormones getting to her, but I doubted that. I didn't know how to deal with her lately because she's been really mood. I liked tickling her because she laughed.

Amaya came out of the bathroom and all of us were going to head out. Sakura and Sasuke were coming with us because we could always get attacked on the way. I wanted to fight and she would need to be protected. Amaya told me she could protect herself, but I refused to let her. She was pregnant and it wasn't good for her or the baby.

I was still worried about her. On the way Amaya wasn't talking much to anyone. Hinata was trying to talk to her, but when she did she wouldn't get an answer. When we first met she was pretty talkative, but lately she has gotten worse. It really wasn't normal for her.

"Do you think we will run into another enemy?" Sasuke asked.

"I hope we don't, but we might," I responded.

"I doubt it will be too long of a fight," Amaya said. She finally said something. I smiled up at Hinata. She smiled back. I laughed thinking about what she said. The last fight really was a joke. Fuyuki was just a terrible fighter. He didn't know how to fight. He thought he was the toughest thing in the world. My Rasengan tore him down a lot.

"Well the last fight we had was a joke."

"One hit and he was dead," Sasuke put in. I smiled with pride because I was able to protect people from a worthless enemy without Kakashi's help.

"You killed him in one blow?" Hinata asked giving me a concerned look.

"Not really one blow. I hit him first, but then I decided to use Rasengan and then he went flying and died. It has to be one of my strongest moves," I responded. I didn't want her to worry, but I know Hinata was. She never heard about that story. I never told her because I never thought it was important. Sasuke also agreed on me with that one. I thought Chidori was powerful too.

She was glaring at me a little bit. I sighed knowing this was going to have to come out eventually. Amaya told Hinata not to work because her boyfriend was strong. I'm glad that Amaya had faith in me. Amaya smiled when she said that. Hinata kind of smiled back and I smiled as well.

"We should be able to get there without fighting. I don't want you to get hurt. It will worry me a lot," Hinata said. I could feel myself getting annoyed. I didn't want to be because I knew she was worried, but still I could take care of myself.

"Don't worry about me, Hinata," I told her.

"I am going to worry. I am your girlfriend after all. I don't like that you fight so much," she responded glaring at me even more.

"I know you are going to worry, but I can honestly take care of myself. I have had too since I was a kid. Wasn't I the one that that inspired you to be strong? I want you to be able to trust that I will be safe," I responded looking at her dead in the eye.

"You did, but still you need to be careful. There are worse enemies than Fuyuki out there," Hinata responded. I knew she was right about that. Orochimaru was still out there, but I didn't know what I would ever do if I saw him again.

"You are right, Hinata, I know there are stronger enemies. I can still take care of myself. I can be strong by myself as well," I responded.

"I am right about the enemies, but you are wrong about being strong by yourself. You need others around to be strong. Not just you by yourself," Hinata responded. I am scared that were getting into our first argument. I never wanted to argue with her…

"I can, Hinata, believe me. I can take care of myself. I have for years. Do you realize that?" I asked her. I could see angry tears about to spill out of her eyes. I didn't want to make her cry, but it was the truth. What she said next really took me aback.

"You wouldn't be alive if it wasn't for us. We are who take of you when you were hurt. You should be grateful to us!" Hinata screamed at me. Her words stung me I didn't know what to say. I was getting angry at that point. She knew I was the most hated person in the village. Did she forget? Did she forget that I didn't have parents? No one took care of me as a child. I took care of myself.

"Did you forget I am the most hated in the village? You don't have to rub that in my face," I said angry.

"I was not trying to rub that in your face. I was just trying to tell you that you do need us. You need someone to help you. You can't do everything on your own," Hinata said. She was trying to keep the tears from falling, but they were about to.

"That is what it seemed like you were doing. I never needed anyone. I still don't need anyone. You don't need to worry about me. I don't need you to take care of me either," I said to her. Amaya, Sasuke, and Sakura were just staring at us. Amaya walked over to Hinata because she wanted to comfort her, but I knew Hinata had something else to say. "Say what you need to say."

"I love you. I don't want you to get hurt," she said. I know what I was saying to her was hurting her, but at that moment I could care less. I was really angry. I wasn't thinking about anything, but what she said to me.

"If you loved me…we wouldn't be talking about this anymore," I said. I wanted to drop the conversation so we could just continue to walk.

"You are the one that isn't being reasonable. You need us and you know it. I know what happened to you as a child was terrible, but you should be able to lean on us when you need help. I just want you to be careful. Is that too much to ask? You are not being careful at all."

I wanted this fight to end. I was just done with it. I just couldn't help, but think about what happened years ago. "Do you think it's my fault that I have been hated for years? The fourth Hokage put the nine tails inside of me. I didn't have a choice. Do you think it's my fault someone decided to throw a kunai at me?"

"No, but..." I didn't let her finish what she was saying because I really didn't want to talk anymore. I guess I was being childish, but all the thoughts that made me cut in the first place were coming to me. I ran off because I was still angry as well. I wanted to let off some steam. I didn't want to fight with her, but what she said...made me think about a lot of things. It stung me in the worst possible way.

I was walking around the forest. I wasn't really paying attention to anything. I pulled out my kunai and ran the blade down my skin. I could feel myself calming down. I knew what I was doing was wrong, but the thoughts were still plaguing me. She was making me remember all of the bad times. I wondered if she or Amaya could sense that I was.

I was surprised that I even spilled my guts about the nine tails. She never knew that. I never told her because she probably would hate me just as much as everyone else. Hinata knew that I was hated, but now she knows why I was. Hinata will never understand what it's like to be hated. She will never understand what it feels like to have a demon inside of me. Hinata will never have a demon inside of her. I hope it never happens to her either. I hope she knows I love her though. I will always because she gave me the happiness no one else could.

I cut myself with the blade again. It felt so good and I hadn't done it in a while. I remembered how great it felt. I also remembered how relaxed it made me feel as well. I hadn't had any of the thoughts about being a beast that everyone was afraid of. The lonely feelings were coming back as well. I just wanted to crawl into a hole and die.

I wanted to take a break from Hinata. I knew she probably needed break from me too. The best option for us was to be away from each other for a while. Breaking up would be the best option. I know it was my fault for the argument, but I was still angry. What she said stung…I know she felt bad, but we did need a break. Plus she could never understand what I went through. I could only tell her and she would still never get it. That was the problem.

I decided it was time to go back to see what everyone was doing. I also needed to talk to Hinata about what I was thinking. I don't think she would agree. I now didn't want to be alone because I probably would kill myself if I wasn't. I cleaned the blood off of my arm. I cleaned off the kunai as well. I rolled my sleeves down and walked to everyone.

"Naruto," Hinata said when she saw me. I didn't answer her at first. I was still angry with her.

"What?" I asked.

"I want to apologize," she responded. I just looked at her with disgust. I didn't feel bad at the moment for the sad look on her face. I don't know if she knew she hit me in a weak spot. She will pay the price for the pain I was feeling.

I didn't really have a response to what she had to say. I just started walking and everyone followed behind me. Amaya was holding Hinata because I saw that she was shaking. My heart was starting to melt, but I was still angry. They were afraid I was going to hurt someone. I hurt myself already I didn't need to let them know.

I decided I was going to break up with her…I needed to be alone for a while. I needed to recollect my thoughts. I knew we would get back together when we both let off some steam. We were strong.