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Chapter 14

Hinata had a big frown on her face. I was upset so I didn't care. We shouldn't have gotten into an argument so stupid. It was my fault because I was being childish. I was not in the mood for anything at the moment either. I didn't need the stress of the thoughts.

It is a lot of stress being in a relationship. I cannot deal with the stress. I hated stress and I know most people do. I was making the right decision. I didn't want to hurt the love of my life, but we needed a break for a while. I didn't want her to stay with her father so hopefully she would be able to stay with Sakura. I hated that he was abusive. He didn't have a right, but if he thought he did he should have be in a mental hospital.

"Hinata, we need to talk alone for a couple of minutes," I said to her.

"Why?" She asked me. I knew she was scared of what I was going to say to her. I would be scared of what she had to say if she was angry at me. That was our first fight and hopefully our last until we got back together. I did want to get back together with her when my feelings were settled.

I had to think about what I was going to tell her. She has been there for me in the last two months that we were together. She was everything that I could ever want. I love Hinata more than anything. I know she also loved me unconditionally as well. Hinata knew I was hurting myself and I hoped she would not say anything. Well I knew that Amaya knew first, but I don't think she would say anything either.

Hinata is still upset about it because she doesn't want me to get hurt. She also has seen me do it a couple of times. Of course I was on top of her so she couldn't stop me. She would always watch as the knife dug into my skin. I didn't want her to, but she did anyways. I still wanted it to be our secret. I know she may something now that we are going to breaking up.

I did not want Hinata to see how much pain I was going to be in. I could feel it getting worse every second that was going by. It was just terrible. I know it would take some time for me to get out of this funk. I also didn't want to put pressure on Hinata because of me. I do love her regardless if we are breaking up or not. I do need the time apart though. I don't want her to feel the pain that I was feeling either. I don't want her to cry or worry over me.

I know that if I keep her on the emotional roller coaster both of us we may not heal. I know that her wounds would get deeper and she would be in more pain. She won't have the physical pain because I would never hit her either. She already went through it at home. I could never do that. If I wasn't upset I would just hold her in my arms.

My hardships were my pain not hers. I knew that she deserved someone better than me. I knew I could never really satisfy her. I don't think I will be able to lift the burden that I have put on her shoulders. I don't want to see her emotionally in pain. I don't want anything to help her.

"It is important," I said to her. Amaya looked at me and she knew that I was thinking. I know that Hinata couldn't possibly know what I was thinking about. Amaya gave me a sad look. I just needed to do what I had to. Sasuke and Sakura was confused as to what was going on. They didn't need to know until later

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I didn't want anyone to hear what I was going to say. I asked her to walk over to the tree.

"Hinata, I don't really want to hurt you," I said. I could see the pain in her eyes.

"I know you don't want to hurt me. I don't want to hurt you either," she said. She already has, but I wasn't going to say that to her.

"I want you to know that I love you and I always will," I responded.

"I love you too," she said.

"I hope that you can forgive me. I acted irrationally, but what you said hurt," I responded. I think she was catching on to what was happening with us. I could see her lip quivering a little bit. I kissed her on the cheek. She apologized again and I nodded because I knew she was. "I want to take a break. I know we need it."

"I understand," she said. Tears were flowing down her cheeks again. I wiped them away. I didn't want to see her cry.

"I only want to do this because I do not want to hurt you. If you stay with me for the next week you will get hurt. That is not something I want you to see. I really want to sort out my feelings. I still have feelings for you. I still love you and I know once I get over this we will be stronger than ever. I think it will take me a week to sort everything out. Please wait for me."

"I will wait for you," she said with a smile glowing on her face. She knew that we would be strong because we were always strong together.

"Thank you. I know I only need the week because my feelings will be straightened out. I really want us to be happier. I don't think in my current condition I will make you happy," I responded.

"You make me happy all the time. You saved me from my father. You have helped me get stronger. I need you in my life, but I know we need this break," Hinata responded. I wiped more of her tears away.

"I never thought I made you happy, but to me it didn't seem like you were happy," I responded. I could see in her eyes that she was surprised as if it wasn't true. I didn't believe that it wasn't though.

"I'm really sorry. I didn't mean to make you feel that way at all. I love you and have nothing, but respect."

I smiled and hugged her. We did kiss for a second. We both knew that we were still in love. "I respect you as well."

I told her that I wanted her to stay with Sakura. Hinata sighed, but she was going to ask her to stay with her for a little while. "What is going through your mind?"

"I don't know what is going through my head," I responded.

"You aren't thinking of doing anything bad are you?" She asked. She had a terrified look in her eyes. I didn't really know what to say. I wasn't really thinking of hurting myself, but I knew that I would. I think it was just a comfort to me now. It was all the stress getting to me. She was crying again at that time.

I made her promise that she wouldn't say anything about it. She nodded, but I knew that she wanted to tell someone. At least anyone, but I still wouldn't let her and just deny anything.

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We walked back to the others. They were worried about us. Hinata was still crying as we walked back towards them. I didn't like seeing her that way. We were talking about small things. We were trying to keep our mind off of our breakup.

I know the crying was only because she didn't want me to cut. We may have broken up, but we were still in love. She didn't want me to hurt myself though. She thinks it could kill me. It might, but I was willing to take that chance.

Sakura ran up to Hinata when we came back. Mainly because Hinata was crying, but she didn't know what it was about. I knew it was because of my cutting and not because of our breakup.

"Hinata, are you okay?" Sakura asked hugging her tightly. It looked like Hinata couldn't breathe in that embrace.

"We broke up, but I'll be okay," Hinata responded.

"You what!" Sakura yelled. She was glaring at me. I sighed and held my head. I was getting the worst headache already.

"He broke up with me. It will be fine though," Hinata said. I don't think Sakura believed what she was saying though.

"Why would you do that?!" she exclaimed. Her voice was getting on my nerves.

"We are getting back together in a week!" I yelled back at her.

"Don't lie to me!"

"I'm not! Now leave me alone!" I just walked away from them. I knew that I wouldn't be left alone for long.