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Chapter 17
I watched as blood was dropped out of my wrist. I slit them open because I lost someone that was important to me. Everything that was going on was my fault. I should have known that my life was never going to amount to anything. I was not going to clean the cuts. I didn't want to because everything Sasuke said about me was true. Everything Sakura said was true. Hinata didn't deserve a terrible person like me. She should have someone that will never hurt her. Everything that was said was mean, but I deserved it.
I didn't really care as I slipped into unconsciousness. I was lying on the cold hard ground and I hoped that no one would find me. I would die where I was lying. I knew they would find me though. I still didn't want them to.
When I came to I was in a bright room. I didn't know where I was and I personally didn't want to find out where I was. When the door opened I looked over to see a nurse staring at me. She looked familiar, but I couldn't remember who she was. I knew then I was in the hospital. I didn't die like I wanted too.
"Doctor, the patient opened his eyes!" the nurse exclaimed. Her voice made my head hurt a little bit. The doctor walked into the room and I could see her glaring at me. Tsunade was my doctor and I knew she would be furious with me. It might have been because I tried to commit suicide.
"Why the heck were you in the woods bleeding by yourself?" She asked…her tone was very angry.
"I don't want to get into it. How did you know I was bleeding by myself?" I asked her. I was guessing that I was found by Amaya and brought me here.
"Amaya and Hinata found you and brought you here. Amaya could sense you were in trouble. They found you and you were dying. She brought you here when she couldn't get you to become conscious. She treated your wounds before you got here. She tried anyways. I healed you after everything. You should thank them for bringing you here. Where did all the cuts and scars on your arms come from?" Tsunade asked me.
"I'm not telling you where they came from. You can guess what happened. I don't want to thank her. I wanted to die. My life is worth nothing," I responded. Tsunade looked at me weird. I didn't know why and at that point I didn't care. I was still alive.
"How could you think that about yourself? Your life is worth something. You shouldn't have wanted to do. Why can't you tell me what you were doing?" she asked in a gentler tone. She was just as worried as Hinata and Amaya. Tsunade gave me a weird look I didn't understand when I didn't respond.
"Please, don't worry about me," I responded. She didn't say much because I knew she was going to worry anyway. She told me a few others wanted to see me. I knew it was probably Hinata, Amaya, Sakura, and Sasuke.
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"Naruto, are you okay?!" Amaya exclaimed when she came into the room. She was crying.
"Yes, I'm fine," I responded. She smacked me on the back of the head. I didn't get mad at her for doing so. I know it's because she was worried. I know she didn't want me to die. She didn't want to lose me. She didn't want to lose anyone that she cared about. She was mad because I tried to kill myself. I knew Amaya also wanted her child to have a father. She didn't want the child to grow up like she did.
"You scared me a lot! What were you thinking?" She asked. I knew I scared her because I almost died.
"I know I scared you, honey. I'm sorry," I responded.
"Hinata and I have been crying for hours because we were worried we lost you!" Amaya shouted out me. I looked down because I knew that Hinata and Amaya were going to kill me when I get out of the hospital. "Both of us are upset that you have done what you did. I wanted to make sure lived through this for all of us. For me, your child, and Hinata. I am not going to be around much longer. I can feel it."
"Stop saying that! You are not going to die," I responded. I really just wish she would stop saying stuff like that.
"It is going to happen! It is my destiny…" she responded.
"Please stop saying crap about destiny," I asked her.
"No, you know it's the truth," she responded. I sighed because she knew her destiny can change. I still hated hearing about destiny because of Neji. He almost killed Hinata and that set me off. I wanted to protect her.
"You think that's the truth, but I'm going to protect you," I responded.
"I am strong. I don't need protection. Our little girl is who will need to be protected," she responded. I reassured her that I was going to protect both her and our little girl. She told me she was going to go because Hinata wanted to see me…
"Naruto," she responded when she entered the room. She ran up to me and was crying on my chest. I was rubbing her back trying to calm her down. "I'm sorry."
"Why did you do that, Naruto?" she asked.
"I lost my best friend because of Sakura. I know what I said was out of line, but what she said back was out of line as well." I responded still rubbing her back. She was lying next to me now. I know she was upset that I tried to kill myself. She was one of the people that found me.
"Well you shouldn't have said all you said to her," Hinata said. She was agreeing with Sasuke.
"Did you hear all that she said to me?" I asked.
"Yes, but what you said is wrong."
"What she said was worse. You know it. Why are you sounding like Sasuke? I guess you don't care about me like he said. You probably also agree with everything Sakura said as well. I'm nothing to you…I will never be anything…." I responded. I was hurting. I wanted to cry.
"No, I don't agree with her. Don't say those things," she responded.
"I don't believe you. I just want you to leave. I don't want to talk to you anymore," I said. Tears were rolling down my cheeks.
"Naruto…I'm…." I cut her off.
"Please just leave," I asked her. I pushed her off of me and showed her the door. She was crying when she left. We were just causing each other more pain. After she left I fell asleep. I didn't want to see anyone else. I didn't want to be around anyone either. I didn't want to Sasuke or Sakura to come into the room either. I don't think they knew why I was in the hospital. I doubt that they both cared. I was not Sasuke's friend anymore so what's the point.
I still can't regret anything that I said to Sakura. She said things that made me think of my past. That didn't help me at all and I was not in the mood to see them.
