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Chapter 18

I woke up and Kakashi was in my room. He had a disappointed look on his face like I disappointed him. I didn't even want to look at him. I know he was probably worried about me as well. He smiled down sadly at me. "Good morning, Naruto."

"Good morning," I muttered. I wasn't in the mood for drama. I knew that drama was probably going to happen because it always does. Drama happens especially when someone gets hurt because of their own stupidity. I felt stupid for almost dying. I really need to thank Amaya for rescuing me.

Kakashi was looking out the window, I was looking down at my wrapped up wrists, and we weren't really speaking. Now I was really wondering what was going through his mind. I didn't like the silence between us. I should have never opened my mouth to Sakura like that. I wouldn't have lost my best friend. Sure, he hurt her because of me once, but of course he was going to defend her this time. All the words she spoke were true. I am a complete monster. I shouldn't walk this earth…

"Naruto, what's been going on with you? I have noticed you have been a little quieter when around everyone. I know you are happy with Hinata. That was the only time I could see a smile plastered on your face. It also looks like you've been losing weight. Have you been taking care of yourself?" Kakashi asked. I wasn't going to let him know that I was hurting myself. I knew he cared, but how much did he really care?

"I've been fine, Kakashi-sensei," I responded. I don't think he was going to give up. He shot a glare at me.

"Bull crap! You haven't been yourself at all in the last couple of months. I'm going to get to the bottom of it!" I heard him yell. I looked up at him. He looked to determined to find out what I've been hiding from him. He would never find out unless Hinata or Amaya were to tell them. If they did…they would break a promise to me.

I didn't even look at him anymore. I think he could tell that he was angry because he was just worried. "I told you I'm fine. I just lost my best friend. I want to be on my own. "

He did as I asked and left. I had too many thoughts going through my mind. I knew that when he found out he would be hurt. Everyone would be hurt because I knew they cared. They just want me to be happy.

I looked out the window and found myself listening to the birds. They were calming me down. More thoughts entered my head. I wondered what he would do when he found out that I was cutting. I knew the old lady probably was suspecting something along those lines, but I really hope that they don't find out. That would be bad for me.

After that I shut my eyes and prepared for some more rest. I knew I would need that if I had more visitors coming to see me. I figured that Hinata was going to come by to see me. Honestly I wasn't sure if I wanted too.

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A few hours later I heard a knock on my door. My ex best friend and his girlfriend walked into the room. They both looked at me. I didn't look back at them. I could feel their stares and it was getting really irritating. Why were they here anyway?

"What do you want?" I asked with anger in my tone. I knew they were here just picking a fight with me. They looked at each other and then at me.

Sasuke walked over to my bed and sat in a chair next to me. "We are sorry, Naruto, we just were mad that you were talking to Sakura like that. I mean she was saying worse stuff than you were. I just lost my cool. I still want to be friends with you. We've been best friends for almost a year. I don't want to give that up."

"I'm sorry too, Naruto. I crossed the line. I shouldn't have said anything rude to you. I was just angry that you and Hinata broke up. You two were just such a cute couple. You shouldn't have broken up. You fought because she was worried about you. It's good to have at least some people in your life that care. I don't want to be in between yours and Sasuke's friendship. Please just accept our apology." Sakura said. She was looking at me deep in the eye. I turned away from them again. I really just wanted to be left alone, but I knew that I wouldn't.

"I forgive you. Now please can you leave? I need to sleep more," I said. I yawned and they smiled. I was just glad that they didn't ask why I was in the hospital. I think they found out from Amaya that I attempted suicide because I lost my best friend. I needed to see her and Hinata next. I wanted to apologize to them and thank them for saving me.

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I was looking out of the window when a nurse came in. She was taking my vitals. I didn't really get the point to it. I heard another knock on the door. I just yelled come in and Amaya was standing in front of me. She had a smile plastered on her face. I could tell it was a fake smile. I knew she wasn't happy at all, but I wondered if it was because it had something to do with me.

"Hi Naruto," she said so softly I could barely hear her. I wanted to grab her and hug her, but I know she probably won't let me. I know she's mad at me. It was my mistake.

"Hi Amaya, are you okay?" I asked her. She shook her head no and I held my arms open for her. She came and lay down in my arms. I could feel the tears on my shirt. I wonder what is going on with her. We didn't speak for a while. She was still crying and she didn't want to talk. I was rubbing her back most of the time.

Eventually my rubbing her back caused her to fall asleep next to me. I was really worried. Amaya was never all that emotional. I know she's pregnant and her emotions are running all over, but she was acting stranger than usual. I knew when she wakes up that she will not want to talk about it.

I saw Amaya shaking in her sleep. I put my arm around her and she calmed down. Tears were streaming down her face even though she was asleep. I was sad to see her like this. I knew she wasn't going to wake up for a while. After a little while longer Sasuke had shown up to my hospital room. I shushed him so he wouldn't wake up Amaya. She was cranky when she was woken up from a nap.

"Do you think you can get some clothes for me to change in to? I'm getting out of here soon." I told him.

"Sure, I'll be right back." He responded and I handed him my key. Amaya was starting to stir when he was leaving. I was finally going to be able to talk to her about what was going on with her.