Chapter Six: I'd Rather


"I thought sometime alone

was what we really needed

you said this time would hurt more than it helps

but I couldn't see that

I thought it was the end

of a beautiful story

and so I left the one I loved at home to be alone

and I tried to find

out if this one thing is true

that I'm nothing without you

I know better now

and I've had a change of heart

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else

I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself

I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart

I'd rather have the one who holds my heart"

- I'd Rather by Luther Vandross


Location: Montpelier, VT

Date: Friday March 27, 2015

*right after Olivia and Fitz fought*

Fitz was furious; he couldn't believe his father took Olivia's side. He unlocked his car and placed the kid's bags into his truck. After he had buckled up both Gerry and Isabelle, he turned on his engine and left immediately following Preston and Noah. He gripped the steering wheel as anger was still fuming from his body. He felt betrayed by his family. They were his family, so why were they taking her side. He could hear his children's giggling in the back; little did they know it was slowly melting his heart.

It had been ten minutes and he was trying to calm down; he didn't want his children to witness this side of him. However, every single time he would calm down a little bit Amelia would call him and his angry would rise once again. He needed to breathe and just take a deep breath. He grabbed his phone and turned it off. He didn't care what was happening at home anymore. Unless someone was dying, he didn't give a damn.

The kids were in the back seat watching 'Finding Nemo' which Fitz found very ironic since they would be fishing tomorrow. A small laugh escaped his lips, as he thought about it. He looked into the mirror in his truck as he saw Isabelle stuff a handful of goldfish in her mouth and Gerry eat the goldfish at a normal pace. He couldn't help himself from smiling. He was so in love with them, they were the best thing in his life.


Fitz was about twenty minute from the forest when he needed to make one more stop for gas. As he got out, he swiped his card to pay, then picked up the gas pump, and put in his truck. Preston was beside him filling up his car too. He walked to Fitz and asked the elephant in the room.

"What's going on with you and Liv? I know you two are going through a divorce, but what happened back there?" Preston said referring to the loud argument at his in-laws house.

"Nothing, Olivia's just being Olivia, only caring about what's best for her," Fitz said trying to tell Preston to let it go.

"Fitz, what did she do? I know your angry and upset, but maybe this story isn't as black and white as you think." Preston said now really trying to get Fitz to talk to him. Although he looked like he calmed down a lot since they left his parents, he was just a ticking time bomb waiting to blow up.

"Everyone in the family knew Rebecca was raped and they hid it from me. They had Olivia wipe it under the rug, and they didn't even tell me. I'm angry at her for not telling me." Fitz said speaking harshly, knowing that Preston more than likely knew about the rape before he did too.

"You said everyone knew?" Preston said.

"Yes, EVERYONE. Family, friends, people at my job. Everyone knew." Fitz yelled a little louder than he intended.

"Then why are you only mad at her? Why aren't you mad at anyone else?" Preston asked.

"BECAUSE SHE'S MY WIFE. I expect to be kept out of the loop by my family, but Liv… I trusted her; she was supposed to tell me." Fitz said now getting more upset. He took the gas pump out of his car, grabbed his receipt and got back into his truck.


They arrived at the forest thirty minutes later. Fitz was getting everyone's bags, Preston was getting the tent, and Noah was helping carrying the snack bag. Gerry was pushing Isabelle in her stroller while carrying their backpack with toys Olivia packed for them. When Preston found a spot that he liked he set the tent down and started to assemble it with Fitz's help. Gerry and Noah were playing with sticks while Isabelle was incoherently talking to her stuffed animal.

They finally got the tent up as the sun was setting. The sky was beautiful. It was breathtaking; the baby blue sky with a touch of orange and pink was a perfect blend. It resembled something you would see in a photo frame in a home. It was peaceful, something Fitz needed in his life. He started the fire, knowing it would be getting dark soon.

The flames grew hot and filled the bonfire with their wrath and fury. The orange and yellow flames were blackening and charcoaling the firewood. The fire grew more intense, as it warmed the chilly night. The boys grabbed some hot dogs to heat up; Fitz made Isabelle's first so it could cool down. They smothered their hot dogs in ketchup, mustard, relish, and whatever else condiments they wanted. Isabelle was eating on her daddy's lap when she noticed something behind him. She smiled, no longer wanting the hot dog. She reached behind him and grabbed the piece of chocolate.

"DADA." She said as she picked it up. Fitz knew immediately that she found the candy. He couldn't stop the smile that spread across his face. Anytime she said his name and looked up at him with pouting lips he was putty in her hands. This little girl who wasn't even two years old had him wrapped around her fingers and the fact that he made her with Olivia made him love her even more.


Kathleen and Elizabeth were on their way out to the forest, it had been thirty minutes and they still hadn't said a word to each other still shocked unable to comprehend what was going on. She was still praying that Olivia was okay, she couldn't fathom what would happen if Olivia didn't make it.

"She's going to be alright, right?" Kathleen said in a whisper.

"She's going to be alright," Elizabeth told her with certainty. She had to be alright, if not for Fitz, for her kids she had to be alright. Kathleen broke down; she needed to get all of it out before she saw Fitz because she was going to need to be strong for him.

Kathleen wiped her tear-stained face, she wiped her nose as she sniffled. Her fingers went to her mouth as her lip began to quiver. Olivia was one of her best friends; they met in high school. Kathleen was the one who introduced them to each other, this was killing her, but she needed to push her emotions to the back of her head. Her brother needs her, he needs her more. When she was home later with Preston, she could break, but right now she needs to be strong. She needs to be Fitz's rock.


As they walked through the forest, they could hear the giggles from their niece and nephews. It broke her heart knowing she was about to break theirs. As she came into view, nobody noticed them except Noah.

"MOMMY!" Everyone's head whipped towards them; Kathleen placed a fake smile on her face, she didn't want to have to explain to her son why she was upset. Preston and Fitz weren't naïve to believe they just showed for fun. If they were here something happened, and by looking at their bloodshot eyes, it was something horrible. Preston ran to her and hugged her. A tear escaped her eye as she tried not to break down in his arms. She pulled back her head so she could look him in the eye.

"Can you pack up and head back home? Elizabeth will stay and help, but I'm going to need to take Fitz." Kathleen said as her nostrils flared and she tried to regulate her breathing. Preston was becoming more worried by the second as he rubbed his hands up and down her shoulders.

"What happened?"

"Liv… Liv was in an accident." The words came out as a whisper, like saying them out loud made them real. A tear escaped her eyes and rolled all the way down her face. "We need to get to the hospital fast, it's… it's really bad." As she said the words, she broke down.

Fitz came up behind her, his tears threaten to escape his eyes as he prepared himself for what she was going to say. She just looked at him and grabbed her mouth as a loud sob came out. He knew it was Olivia because if it were one of their parents she wouldn't be here. His salty tears started to stream down his face as he thought of the last words he said to her. He clutched his heart and looked into her eyes.

"Liv... Liv? Is she… is she dead?" He could barely let the words escape his lips. The words were so quiet Kathleen was surprised she heard them.

"She's in surgery right now, it's not looking good. I'll explain in the car, we really need to get going." Kathleen kissed her husband and told him she loved him as she and Fitz ran towards her car.


Kathleen had just told him everything about Olivia's accident that she knew. Fitz was screaming this cry; this cry, it was heartbreaking. He was clasping onto the armrest in his seat for support as his entire body began to shake uncontrollably. His cries were soft little sniffles at first until he lost it all, the wave of pain overcame his body and he broke down. His face was one of someone who was in extreme agony who didn't know if he could go through it again. His eyes were burning, as his chest was tightening. She was possibly gone, out of his life forever. Within an hour, he looked as if he'd aged ten years. The world around him was no longer in color, it was a dull gray, and it would stay gray until he was able to see his wife was okay.

Fitz wanted to ask Kathleen a million questions, but he was unable to speak. His words were caught in his throat; it was as if someone was choking him. He could barely breathe. He was less than ten minutes from them emergency room and he was unable to prepare himself for what he would hear when he walked into the hospital. He wiped his eyes trying to stop the tears from falling. He cleared his throat and just took a deep breath.


He ran through the hospital as fast as he could, he needed to get to the waiting room. He asked the lady at the front desk where it was, as soon as she responded he began running again. As he walked into the room, he saw a woman wearing a white doctor's coat start to speak.

"Olivia came in with multiple blunt trauma to the chest, and with a six-inch piece of metal impaled into her right lung. We did an emergency thoracotomy and we were able to remove the object and drain all of the blood from her lung. She still has a tube in her lung to make sure no more blood gets in there for now. We should be able to remove it in a few days. The surgery went almost perfectly."

He took a deep breath as he heard she was okay. The weight of the world was lifted off of his shoulders as he heard her say that. However, that weight was only off his shoulders for a few seconds before it was slammed back down on him when he heard her speak again.

"Olivia and the baby are both doing just fine."

Baby? Olivia wasn't pregnant, that why they were in the middle of this divorce now because he got a vasectomy. This was impossible. The doctors must have got the patients mixed up because his wife was not pregnant.

"Baby? That impossible." Everyone turned around to see Fitz was in the room. Dr. Price knew this had to be Olivia's husband, just the way he looked she knew.

"Mr. Grant?" She asked questioning if this was him or not. "No disrespect but I was just in surgery for over four hours with her as I listened to a heartbeat fill the room the whole time. She is pregnant, and when you go into her room, you can see for yourself."

"But it's impossible," Fitz said.

"Olivia is a healthy young woman; if she is sexually active, she can get pregnant. Unless she isn't having sex or had a full hysterectomy it's not impossible."

"I had a vasectomy, it is impossible," Fitz said now knowing in his head that he was right, it was impossible. Right?

"Just because you had a vasectomy doesn't mean you can't get her pregnant. One in every ten thousand vasectomies grows back together. It is possible. If you are unsure, you can always go get your sperm count tested and they should be able to tell you if you are fertile or not." She said as she looked at Fitz, then she continued.

"As for Olivia, she is in ICU. She will be there until she wakes up. We ask that only two people visit her at a time. Please make sure you wash your hands before you enter the room, we don't want Olivia to get an infection from germs as her body is still somewhat open. I will warn you now she doesn't look like you think. She is hooked up to a lot of machines and has a lot of tubes in her body."

"Thank you, when can we go see her?" Maya asked immediately wanting to see her daughter.

"You can go see her now, she is in room twelve. I made sure she was placed in the VIP room, there is a couch in there for you to Mrs. Pope," Dr. Price said. Fitz eyed her, why would she assume that Olivia's mom was staying with her instead of him, her husband.

"There is no need, I will be staying with Olivia tonight," Fitz said with certainty.

"Umm… Sir, you can't…" Maya quickly interrupted Dr. Price.

"Thank you. We got it from here, if we have any questions, we will be sure to page you." Maya walked Dr. Price out of the waiting room. As she walked back in Fitz was fuming.

"WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON?" Fitz screamed. He was so confused and no one else in the room was so he knew there was something that they weren't telling him.

"Fitz why don't you take a seat," Maya asked nicely.

"I don't want to sit," Fitz said now wanting to know what the hell was going on.

"Fitzgerald sit down," Big Gerry yelled at him. Fitz sat down, and Maya began to talk.

"When Olivia filed for divorce, that wasn't the only thing she filed for." Maya had taken a deep breath before she said the next part. "She filed for her power of attorney to be changed. As of right now I am Olivia's power of attorney. Olivia's medical condition can change at any moment. Right now she is fine, but at any given moment or second in the middle of the night that can change. If that does happen, I need to be here with her to make sure she can get the immediate care she needs." To say Fitz was angry with Olivia was not the word. How could she do this? Did she really think that because of their divorce he wouldn't do what was best for her in a serious medical condition?

If Olivia were not injured, he would be so pissed off at her. She was keeping all of these secrets from him. First the pregnancy, second the fact that she changed her power of attorney. This was becoming way too much to take in, within a few hours.

"Okay." Fitz didn't have the energy to fight with them. "But I want to see her first, and I want to be by myself." They all agreed they would let him see her first. "And I want to be called if ANYTHING happens. I mean ANYTHING." Maya shook her head up and down, letting him know that she was okay with that. He left the room on his way to ICU to see Olivia.


Fitz washed his hands slowly making sure he got every part, he didn't want her to get an infection. He grabbed the paper towel and dried them, as he opened the door, he saw her. She looked broken but was still the most beautiful woman to him. He couldn't move he was stuck in place as he watched her. He blamed himself for her lying in the hospital bed, although he didn't do it, he still blamed himself.

He gained the courage to walk towards her. He was now close to her face, he could see all the bruises. He placed a gentle kiss on her forehead as teardrops were falling down his face.

"I love you." He whispered to her after he kissed her.

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry." He's voice was beginning to crack, as he grabbed her hand.

That's when he heard the sound; it was the most beautiful sound he ever heard. It was a repeating thumping rhythm, a heartbeat. The heartbeat echoed in his ear, as the noise filled the entire room. The external electronic fetal monitor on Olivia's stomach was registering this sound; he watched the monitor's screen as it told him the baby's heartbeat was one hundred fifty-four beats a minute. That sound meant that he created another life.

He pulled back the bed covers, and lifted Olivia gown, and placed his hand on her stomach. As soon as his hand made contact with her stomach, electricity passed through his body, like a sign from God telling him to say hi to his baby. He slowly began to rub her stomach, and his heart was just melting. He still couldn't believe Olivia was pregnant. He was unsure and honestly had no clue if the baby was his. He believed that she loved him and that she wouldn't cheat on him, but it still seemed impossible. However, there was a chance it was his and if it was, he didn't want to miss any more time than he had already. He leaned towards Olivia's stomach and kissed it.

"I love you baby," Fitz mumbled into her stomach.


Fitz stayed with Olivia for over thirty minutes until Maya walked in the room. She gave Fitz time by himself, but she needed to see her baby. As she walked in she saw Fitz laying his head near her stomach on the bed. One hand was on her stomach while the other was holding her hand. He looked so peaceful in her embrace. He stirred in his sleep when he heard the door open; as he opened his eyes, he saw it was Maya.

"How is she?" Maya asked smiling.

"She's perfect." He said as he began crying once again; he knew he was going to have to leave in a little bit.

"Preston and Elizabeth are back with Belle and Gerry. Why don't you take them home, and go rest? She will perfectly fine, I will call you if anything happens, and if you want an update call me. Okay?" Maya said trying to get him to go home, he looked exhausted and really needed some rest. He nodded his head up and down, walked outside, and got into his car with his two children.


Home to Fitz was the home that he shared the past six years with Olivia. As he pulled into the driveway, he unbuckled his car seat. He grabbed his children and walked into his home. This home was familiar but at the same time it was very distant. He walked upstairs placing Belle on the couch so he could put Gerry to bed first. As he tucked his son into bed and kissed, his forehead telling him that he loves him. He walked back downstairs picking up Belle and then walked to his bedroom placing her on his bed. He wanted to sleep with Belle, she was the closest thing to Olivia he had. She was her blood, she was a part of her and was a spitting image. He got undress and went to his drawer; there were still some of his clothes in it. He was going to grab one a shirt when he saw one on the floor. It was his 'Navy' shirt that Olivia loved to wear; it was inside out, which was a sign that she already wore it. As he picked it up, he was engulfed with her aroma, the smell of her body after she got out of the shower. He put it on and grabbed some pajama pants. He laid in bed snuggling up to his daughter as he kissed her head telling her he loved her. As his eyes got heavy, he drifted off to sleep dreaming of Olivia.


Maya was lying on the couch in Olivia's room just watching her sleep. As a mother, this was one of the hardest things she has ever gone through. She was watching her daughter breathe through a tube. As she was lying down, she saw the door creep open letting her know someone was coming into the room. It was a nurse coming to check on Olivia. She saw Maya, and immediately apologized thinking she woke her up.

"I'm so sorry, if I knew someone was in here, I would have been quieter coming in."

"It's fine, I wasn't sleeping," Maya said.

"I'm sorry I forgot to introduce myself, I'm Samantha. I will be Olivia's nurse checking in on her throughout the night." Samantha said smiling.

"I'm Maya, Olivia's mother. How is she doing?" She asked Samantha as she was checking Olivia's monitors.

"Olivia's blood pressure is good, no bleeding around her incision, and her baby is doing good. I would say she is doing perfect considering what kind of surgery she was in today. I will be back in an hour to recheck on her if you need anything fill free to page me." Samantha responded as she walked out of the ICU room.

As soon a Samantha closed the door, Maya laid her head down and pulled the covers up near her face. She closed her eyes, letting her body succumb to the sleep she so desperately needed. As her breathing evened out, you could hear a very faint snore as she slept.


A scream pierced Fitz ear as he woke up, Isabelle was beside him bawling her eyes out. She was crying so hard that she was gasping for air. The pearl shape tears were falling down her face as she stared at Fitz. The scream that she let out was painful; it was the kind of scream that made your blood run cold. Fitz started crying, he knew the only way she would calm down was by Olivia's voice, and she couldn't help at the very moment.

Fitz grabbed his phone off his dresser and went to his voicemail, as he put it on speaker. He played the voicemail that Olivia left him a while back.

"Hi baby, I tried calling but you didn't answer. I'm on my way home; I will see you in a bit. I love you."

The second Olivia's voice played she stop crying. Unfortunately, the voicemail was short so the second it ending she was hysterically crying once again. Gerry woke up and walked into his mother's bedroom. He was rubbing his eyes. He walked to his daddy.

"Come here daddy," Gerry said. Fitz looked at him so confused; he picked up Belle and followed Gerry. Gerry walked into Belle's room and turned on the iPod.

"How do I,

Get through one night without you?

If I had to live without you,

What kind of life would that be?

Oh, I…

I need you in my arms, need you to hold,

You're my world, my heart, my soul,

If you ever leave,

Baby you would take away everything good in my life,

And tell me now

How do I live without you?

I want to know,

How do I breathe without you?

If you ever go,

How do I ever, ever survive?

How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?"

The sound of Olivia's voice filled the room. It was the song he heard her sing to Belle a few weeks ago. Belle's thumb went straight to her mouth as she sucked on it vigorously. She snuggled closer to her father body, and she drifted off to sleep.

Gerry walked out of Belle's room going back to his room. He climbed back into bed pulling the covers up. His stuffed animal was clutched in his arms as he squeezed it tight. He quickly fell asleep once again as he could softly still hear his mother's voice singing.

Fitz was still in disbelief, he couldn't believe he was hearing her voice. He checked the iPod making sure it was on repeat and then he sat down on the glider. He closed his eyes as thoughts of Olivia swirled in his mind. Hearing her voice put him to sleep was the best gift from God he could ever ask for.


Date: Saturday March 28, 2015

The next morning Fitz woke up and he wanted to go straight to the hospital. All his sisters and Vanessa were at his parent's house. He drove to his parent's house and dropped off Gerry and Belle. When Gerry saw Vanessa he screamed, he was so excited. Vanessa was his favorite aunt; that was most likely cause she was always around. Belle went to Kathleen's arms, as they waved goodbye to Fitz.

When Fitz arrived at the hospital washed his hands before he knock on the door to make sure he could come in. Maya opened it and saw Fitz. He walked in and walked straight to Olivia. Maya left the room to leave them alone. Olivia was still asleep she hadn't woken up since the surgery. He came to her side and kissed her again on her forehead. However, he lingered his lips longer on her forehead than he did last night. He proceeded to again pull up her gown and kissed her stomach again, saying hi to their baby. He started to rub her head and began speaking to her.

"Hi, baby. The kids are doing good; they don't know about your accident yet. I'm not sure exactly how to tell them, but they will be fine. You want to know why because they are our kids, they have your strength and they know their mommy will pull through." Fitz took a deep breath. "Livvie… I'm sorry, and when you wake up, I'm going to tell you every second until you believe me. I shouldn't have yelled at you, and I sure as hell shouldn't have called you out of your name. I love you Olivia, never forget that baby. So I need you to come back to me, you need to come back to me Livvie."

He had kissed her forehead once again before he left her hospital room. He had to go to an appointment he made with Dr. Michael Zahm, after hearing that Olivia was pregnant he scheduled a sperm count test to see if his vasectomy reversed on it own.


He walked in the doctor's office as he signed in with Hannah. He knew that Charlotte wouldn't be there; she was fired after releasing his file to Olivia. The doctor's office fired her due to her violating the HIPAA law. Hannah escorted him to one of the back rooms and told him the doctor would be right with him. Dr. Michael Zahn walked into the room where Fitz was.

"Hey, Fitz. How are you doing?"

"I could be better. I just found out my wife was pregnant and I was confused because I got a vasectomy, I wanted to get my sperm count checked to see if the vasectomy reversed and the tubes grew back."

"Okay. It's not as uncommon as you think, that why we usually recommend you come in once a year to get your sperm count checked. "

"Well I guess we will found out then."

"I also wanted to extend my sincere apologies about your file being released. It was an extremely busy day, Charlotte was a young college student and it was her first day of work. She did not have the property training and was not completely aware of the policies. So I take full responsibilities for your file being released." Fitz nodded his head, he was upset at the lack of competence at the doctor's office, but was honestly not worried about it at that very moment. Dr. Zahn walked out of the office and grabbed a medical container. He walked back into the room.

"Come with me."

He took Fitz to a particular designated room. This room had magazines of women in full nude, it also had a TV with videos of pornography. Dr. Zahn stepped out of the room. Fitz unfastened his pants and pulled them down along with his boxer briefs. He didn't need the videos or magazines; all he needed was his imagination. His thoughts traveled to Olivia as he started to stroke his long thick member. Pictures of Olivia in lingerie swarmed through his head. Her firm plump ass in a white thong provoked his member to twitch. His impressive erection was now standing at complete attention. He was stroking his cock with his hands giving particular attention to the head; the strokes were fast and precise as he was on the edge on cumming. As he imagined Olivia's full lips around his massive member, he was slowly coming undone. His breathing was now becoming heavier. A couple more strokes and Fitz made a grunting sound as he released the warm white fluid into the container.


Vanessa and Rebecca were talking about Olivia and her surgery; little did they know they had an eavesdropper. Gerry was standing outside Rebecca's room, they didn't even know he was there until they heard sobs coming from outside. The opened the bedroom door and saw Gerry crying.

"Is mommy dying?" He said.

Their hearts just broke for him. They didn't know what to say, Rebecca wanted to get her mom, but she was at the hospital. She ran downstairs to get the next best thing, Kathleen. Kathleen was pissed, how could they be so careless. Now she was going to have to be the one to break his heart. As she walked upstairs, she saw a devastated Gerry. He was crying, begging for Olivia. She had texted Fitz quickly before she helped Gerry.

Kathleen: Gerry overheard the girls talking about Olivia and now he's really upset. Call me when you can.

She walked to Gerry picking him up as his body clung to hers. He was holding on for dear life. He was sobbing in her neck, as teardrops were staining her shirt. He wasn't saying much except for repeating the same thing over and over. "I WANT MY MOMMY."


Fitz saw the text message from Kathleen and rushed to his parent home. He honestly didn't want to tell the kids anything until Olivia was awake so she could help, but now the cat was out of the bag. He walked in the home and knew Gerry was in the master bedroom, he could still hear the sobs from the foyer. The closer he got he could hear him praying to God.

"Please don't… please don't take my mommy. I promise I'll be good. Please… please don't take my mommy God."

Fitz's heart shattered like a piece of glass dropping to the floor, his heart was breaking. He opened the door and saw Kathleen and Vanessa trying to comfort him, but nothing was helping. He nodded his head letting them know that they could leave, that he had this. He walked to Gerry and picked him up. Gerry just broke, if he thought that the crying was bad earlier, Gerry was hysterical now. He was talking so fast Fitz barely could understand him.

"I don't want mommy to die. Daddy, I promise to be good. I promise. I don't want mommy to die. Daddy make God not take her. I want my mommy. I want my mommy."

Gerry was emotionally dying, this was extremely hard on him, and no one could relate to him except for Isabelle, and she was too young to understand. Fitz was tried of seeing his baby crying hysterically so he lied to him.

"Mommy is fine; she is okay. Mommy isn't going to die. Do you hear me? Mommy isn't going to die." Fitz had no idea of Olivia's condition or if she was going to be fine, but he couldn't stand to see his baby cry anymore. Gerry stopped crying immediately and looked him in the eye.

"You promise daddy?" Gerry said with pleading eyes.

"I promise." Fitz made an empty promise, but it was needed. He needed to comfort his son, and the only way he knew how was to promise him that his mother was okay.

Gerry stopped crying but was still very clingy. He didn't leave Fitz side all night; he even slept in his bed with him. He refused to even go to the restroom without his father. He needed the constant reminder that everything was going to be okay, and for him that was having Fitz by his side the entire time.


Date: Sunday March 29, 2015

Fitz woke up tangled in his sheets; his whole side of his body was extremely sore from Gerry kicking him all night. He got up used the restroom and turned on the shower. As the warm water was beating down on his skin tears escaped his eyes, this was the only alone time he had, so it was the only time he had to break down. For ten minutes, he stood under the water stream until it started getting cold. He washed his hair, and when he started washing his body, he hear the scream of death. He ran out of the shower to see Gerry with bloodshot eyes and a face drenched in tears. When Gerry saw Fitz, he ran to him and held on to his body for dear life.

"Where did you go?" Gerry said through tears.

"Everything is okay. It's all right, Daddy just took a shower." He calmed Gerry down. Fitz still needed to finish his shower and Gerry wasn't going to be leaving his body any time soon. So, he undressed his son and brought him in the shower cleaning him up along with himself.

After they were done taking a shower and got dressed, they woke up Isabelle. She was extremely happy; she was naïve and didn't know what was happening around her so she was genuinely happy. She squirmed and wiggled as Fitz was bathing her and changing her. Once everyone was bathed and dressed, they walked downstairs. Fitz placed Belle in her highchair; he cut a banana up and put it on her tray. She grabbed the tiny pieces of banana smashing them in her mouth. He made an omelet for himself and Gerry. Fitz quickly ate, but Gerry played with his food since hearing the news about Olivia he lost his appetite. Fitz grabbed a ziploc bag and placed some Fruit Loops in it for him and then they buckled themselves in the car to go to the hospital.


When he arrived at the hospital his sisters were in the room, so he had to wait to see Olivia. Maya took the children downstairs; she wanted to take their mind off of Olivia so she took them to the gift shop. Fitz was thankful to have some alone time; he walked to his father, Big Gerry. He needed to talk to someone and his dad was the only one who would understand. They sat down in the chairs down the hall from Olivia's room. As Big Gerry looked in his eyes, he could tell his son wasn't getting any sleep. His eyes were red and puffy. He knew this accident was taking an extreme toll on his son.

"How are you?" Gerry said looking Fitz in the eyes.

"Okay," Fitz said trying to remain strong.

"How are you really Fitz?" Gerry said again knowing he was lying.

"My wife is lying in a hospital bed with tubes in her mouth that are breathing for her, and the last thing I told her was that she was a selfish bitch. Gerry thinks his mother is dying and is stuck to my hip. On top of everything else she's pregnant, and I don't even know if the baby is mine. How do you think I am?"

"First off that baby is yours, don't ever assume that Olivia cheated on you. She LOVES you. She loves you, Fitz, she will pull though for you, for her children. She will make it." Big Gerry said assuring him.

"But what if she doesn't?" Fitz said quietly under his breath.

"Then you go on, you forgive yourself, and you be the best father for your children. I know, I sound very heartless now, but that's what you will do, you will move on. It won't be easy, it will be a long, painful road for you and you children, but you will move on." Gerry said looking in his eyes.

"I can't do that. I emotionally will die. I won't survive without her. I need her." Fitz said as he was wiping his eyes.

"Then you fight for her, you be her rock right now, you be there for her when she can't be there for herself. You be her husband. You be the man she married. Okay?"

Fitz nodded his head and hugged his father as he walked towards Olivia's room. He walked into the room, took off his jacket, and grabbed her hand; he was going to do what his father said. He was going to be her rock, be her husband.


It was a little past midnight he was home, and in bed when he heard a noise coming from Isabelle's baby monitor. It wasn't a cry, or the sound of Olivia's voice softly singing in the background, it was a noise of something moving in her room. Fitz got up to see what was happening in her room. When he walked in he didn't expect to see what he saw. Gerry was cuddle on the floor with a pillow and blanket while clutching his stuffed animal that he thought smelled like Olivia. Fitz bent down to pick up Gerry and take him back to his room when he started wiggling, attempting to get out of his father's grasp.

"NO!" He finally wiggled out of Fitz hold and was back on the ground. Fitz bent down to the floor.

"Gerry you can't sleep on the floor baby. You can sleep in my room if you don't want to be by yourself, but you can't sleep on the floor." He said trying to convince Gerry to leave Isabelle's room.

"No! I want to stay in Belle's room." Gerry said now turning his head away from Fitz. Fitz didn't understand why he wanted to stay in Belle's room.

"Why do you want to stay in Belle's room?" He asked. Gerry turned his head back to look at Fitz.

"Cause I want to hear mommy's voice," Gerry said now crying.

Fitz picked up his son and sat in the rocking chair he rocked him to sleep. He wiped his sons eyes and kissed his forehead. Fitz also eventually fell asleep listening to such a beautiful melody.


Date: Monday March 30, 2015

It was a little after five o'clock in the morning when Maya was woken up out of her sleep by a noise. Olivia was choking on the tube in her throat. She immediately pressed the nurse button and told Olivia someone was coming and to calm down. Samantha came rushing in the room, she saw Olivia fighting her intubation tube, she immediately began to remove it, she page the doctor letting her know Olivia was awake. Maya walked into the hallway to call Fitz and let him know she was awake.

It was early in the morning when Fitz was woken up by his phone ringing. If someone was calling this early, it was about Olivia. He picked Gerry off his lap and placed him in the rocker by himself and ran into his bedroom to grab his phone. He saw it was Maya and quickly answered it.

"She's waking up, Olivia's waking up."

That all Fitz needed to hear, he ran into his closet to get dressed. He grabbed his phone, keys, and wallet placing them into his pants. He went to Isabelle's bedroom grabbing both of his children. He went to his truck buckling up both of his still sleeping children. He sent his mother a text message letting her know he was dropping them off at her house. When he arrived at his parent's, his mom and dad were both standing outside. Big Gerry grabbed Gerry's still sleeping body while Amelia grabbed a sleeping Isabelle. Once the kids were out of the car, and safely in the arms of his parents, Fitz speed as fast as he could to the hospital.


There were doctors and nurses swarming around Olivia's. After about thirty minutes, they were just finishing checking her out. They were checking her strength, blood pressure, and oxygen level. The nurse asked her pain level; Olivia was in pain, but not extreme pain so she told her a five. She was looking around the room for her mom. She knew that she was there when she first woke up but had no idea where she was now. Samantha gave her some medicine and then she told her that if she needed anything to push the nurse button on the bed. She walked out of the room. The door squeaked opened again and Olivia was expecting to see her mom, but that's not the face that stared back at her. It was two deep blue eyes that stared at her. Her heart sped up; as she was so surprised he was there. He walked to her slowly. Olivia's eyes followed his every move. When he got to her, he bent down and placed a gentle kiss on her forehead. He closed his eyes and savored this moment; he craved this exactly feeling for over the past forty-eight hours. As his lips left her skin, his body instantly ached for her once again. He rested his forehead on her forehead for a couple of seconds. Then he backed up and started at her smiling.

"Hi."

"Hi."


AN: I decided to updated early again. So I left you all on a happy part, not a cliffhanger this time. I would like to thank everyone for all of the support. I am honestly blown away from all of the love you guys are showing me. I already have 70 followers and almost 100 review; and the story is only been up for eleven days. OMG. Just thinking about it makes me so happy. How did you all like this chapter? Do you think Olivia is going to be mad at Fitz or not? I'm really excited to see all of your reviews. If you have any questions I will try my best to answer them without spoiling the story. Until next time. (Which will be Friday.) :)