I NEEDED A FOUNDATION WITH CHAPTER ONE TWO AND THREE IN ORDER TO BUILD ON. AND TRUST ME I KNOW WHAT I'M DOING. SOMEONE SAID THIS STORY IS GOING IN THE SAME FORMAT LIKE MY OTHER STORY, NO IT'S NOT. I PROMISE
As Fitz froze, he started crying, his tears falling on Olivia's stomach. "Please say something," Olivia cried, but he didn't say anything. It then occurred to Olivia he was aware she was pregnant. "Why didn't you say anything if you knew?" Olivia asked. Fitz wiped his eyes and got off her. "Because you want to do away with it." He answered her, sitting on the bed. Olivia got up and sat beside him too, and then she started sobbing, "Fitz, I'm sorry, things are just too messed up to bring a baby into this. And I didn't want to hurt you." Olivia tried to touch him but he shifted away from her touch.
"When are things never going to be messy with us?" Fitz asked her through tears.
Olivia covered her face with both palms and cried some more. "I want this baby too, but I'm not ready, Fitz, please try to understand." Fitz got up and started pacing back and forth. "Should I leave?" Olivia asked him.
Fitz stopped pacing and looked at her with despair, "walking away has always been your solution when it comes to us. Instead for us to try and come up with a better solution, you're talking about leaving. If you want to leave, leave. I'm done chasing after you." He said angrily and sat on a chair, waiting for her to leave, but she didn't move an inch.
They were both silently sobbing at this point. "Olivia, we can make this work, if we work together. Please don't give up my baby." Fitz pleaded.
Olivia looked at Fitz with a frown on her face. "It's my baby too. This is not all about you, you know. Not everything is about you."
"But yet it's all about you. Why would you want to give up on our baby without much of a fight?" Fitz accused her.
"How can you say that, do you think this is simple, easy for me? Why can't you put yourself in my shoes for once? Do you know what all this is going to cost me? We can try and maneuver our way with your divorce but Mellie is refusing to sign that, and you can't put a gun on her head for her to do it. I'm going to be destroyed from all this, but you don't seem to mind. I don't know…."
Fitz interrupted her. "There's this new technology on fetus transplant, we can try that….."
"I've read on that after a client of mine mentioned it." Olivia interrupted him, adding "the risks level is just too high and more to that, it is illegal. The baby and I might not even make it, Fitz. The baby is likely to survive but not me." Olivia opting out on the fetus transplant.
"And the only solution you have is an abortion? How about you travel somewhere, when you're about to be visible, then come back after the baby is born? We can look for somewhere nice for…." Fitz couldn't finish his sentence.
Olivia cut him off. "…And for the baby to be a secret for the rest of it life, to carry on our legacy of secrecy? And what about my job? Am I supposed to give up on that? Fitz, do you really think I haven't gone through every option, do you really think I'll give up on our baby without playing all my cards?" Olivia asked.
Fitz threw both hands up, standing up from where he was sitting. "You always have cards left to play. But I can see your mind can't be change with the abortion." He started pacing back and forth again.
Olivia thought she would be more relief if Fitz could be there with her for the procedure. "Fitz, please I want you there with me during the procedure, please I need your support." Olivia begged, getting up from the bed, walking toward him.
Fitz got really mad. "You must be out of your mind. Do you really think I'm going to assist you in killing another child of mine? I don't love you that much Olivia." It came out from his mouth before he could take it back.
Olivia froze at the 'killing another child of mine' line, and then broke into tears, she was out of breathe she couldn't breathe properly. "So…..so, you…you…. blame me for Jer…..Jerry's dead? You have….this…this against….me all this…this while? This means no matter what,….. you're….you're….. always going to….to.. have this aga..inst….against me."
Fitz wanted to say no, and that he was sorry, but then Olivia started packing her things to leave. "Yes. Do what you do best, leave if you want. I'm not chasing after you anymorey." Fitz shouted behind Olivia as she was leaving
Fitz then called Dr. Walker and said he has his approval to go ahead with the fetus transplant procedure, without Olivia's knowledge.
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Abby was deep asleep when she heard Olivia banging on her door. She came out and saw her crying like the world has come to an end. As Olivia entered Abby's place, she fell on Abby arms, crying heavily. Abby hugged her and held her until she was calmed. Abby could see Olivia wasn't in the mood to talk about whatever that was going on. She arranged a place for her to spend the night. As Olivia cried herself to sleep, her usual nightmare started. She shouted out loud until Abby had to come out from her room to wake her up.
"Olivia, get up you're having a nightmare" Abby said, trying to get her up.
Olivia got up and buried her face into her pillow saying, "I'm sorry. When is this going to stop?" She cried out
"When is what going to stop?" Abby asked her not sure if she heard her correctly.
Olivia removed her face from the pillow and covered her face with her palms. "Whenever things are not right between him and me, I keep having this nightmare about my kidnapping" Olivia told Abby.
"Should I sleep here with you?" Abby asked her.
"No, is OK, thank you. Go back to sleep please" Abby didn't want to go but Olivia insisted and she went back to her room.
Olivia gave up going back to sleep. She was now trying to figure out the day she got pregnant, but no specific event came into her head. When she later on fell asleep it was late in the morning. Abby saw how exhausted she looked and decided to let her sleep, and then left for work.
Fitz saw Abby at work and was dying to ask her whether she has spoken to Olivia, just to know how she was doing, but fought the edge not to. He told his secretary Charlotte to work with Abby concerning anything with the press, and avoided Abby the whole day.
When Abby went back to her place, she found Olivia still sleeping. She brought her some hot tea and wake her up.
"Thanks for letting me crash. I'm sorry about yesterday, banging on your door and screaming from the nightmare." Olivia said, still exhausted from the fight with Fitz.
"Olivia, is OK. I'll always be here for you, just like you're always there for me. What did he say when you told him you're pregnant?" Abby asked, not having the patience to wait until when Olivia was ready to talk about it.
"He knew already" Olivia answered, wearily.
"How come?" Abby asked, confused.
"I don't know, maybe Dr. Walker, I really don't know." Olivia replied and sipped on her tea
"I thought Dr. Walker said patient doctor confidentiality?" Abby asked then brushed the question off, adding a different question. "He's not onboard with the abortion, right?"
Olivia was fighting back tears now. "Yes, and he then blamed me for Jerry's death" She replied and looked away from Abby.
"Oh God, Are you serious?" Abby held her arm to console her, then saw the hickies on her cheeks and shoulders from Fitz's kisses yesterday. "Hope he blamed you after all these?" Abby asked, pointing at the love bites on Olivia's shoulders and cheeks.
Olivia then saw the marks and understood what Abby was trying to insinuate. "Abby, he'll never….. and yes, it was after" she replied, and covered herself up with what she was wearing.
"No wonder you were like that yesterday. I've never seen you like that before" Abby felt bad for her. "Don't worry, you guys would soon overcome this storm just like the others," Abby added.
"How can I try and make things work with him when he believes I am responsible for his child's death?" Olivia tried to explain but the tears started forming up again against her will. "I know, somehow, I'm the reason for his son's dead, because if not of my father, his son would still be alive. But for him to have such thought too hurts."
Abby believed deep down Fitz didn't really blame Olivia for Jerry's dead "No, you're not responsible for Jerry's dead. And I'm sure he doesn't really think so too, he must have been hurt and that was his best way to get back at you."
"I know people say what is in their hearts when they're angry" She looked away from Abby, trying hard to stop the tears from falling.
"But he did say he was sorry afterward, didn't he?" Abby asked.
Olivia shook her head, covered her face with both palms, but couldn't stop the tears from falling anymore. "He said… h…..e…he doesn't lo…ve…. me that much….. and if…if…if I want to…..to leave I….I should leave, and that he's…..he is…. done chasing after me." The done chasing after her part hurt her the most.
Abby hugged her at this point, "oh honey, I'm sorry. I'm sure the abortion talks and Jerry's death which is still fresh in his mind brought those words out of his mouth. He can never be done chasing after you. That man loves you more than any love I've ever witnessed in my life"
Olivia didn't want to think about Fitz's love for her at the moment. "I'll be going for the procedure in a few days." She whipped out her tears.
Abby held Olivia's face, for her to see she wasn't alone in this. "You are not alone in this, I'll be going with you, ok?"
"Thanks" Olivia said and hugged Abby.
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On the other side of town, Cyrus contracted Charlie to look into Olivia's activities to see if there was anything going on with Olivia that would be beneficial to him.
"I want you to follow her, stalk her or whatever things you spies do. I need to know what's going on in her life" Cyrus explain to Charlie
"Yes chief, I got you." Charlie answered. "I've been dying to have something interesting to do since after the B613 shutdown." He smiled licking on his lollipop, walking away.
Cyrus called Charlie back and said to him. "Don't you ever say the word B613 around me, you got it?"
"Chillax Chief." Charlie said and left.
After Charlie left, Cyrus also called Ethan, and asked him to befriend Charlotte so they could keep a closer eyes on whatever thing the President might be doing or not doing.
Ethan was more concern about how Cyrus was doing. "Sir, I'm so sorry about your dismissal, you're the finest chief of staff to have over lived. How are you doing Sir? Are you OK?" Ethan asked Cyrus.
"Yeah, yeah, yeah, whatever, just do what I asked you" Cyrus replied and cut off the line.
Mellie on the other hand was getting tired of Cyrus keeping her in the dark about what he was doing, and hired Leo also to look for what she could get from the divorce, that'd cause great pain to Fitz.
"Leo, I know you are a consultant but not as good as that whore Olivia Pope. But I want you to look into my husband the President, yes I know he's the President, tough job for you. Look for anything that he holds close to his heart so I can use it for trade and barter in our divorce."
"Madam Senator, you're not the first lady anymore so be careful how you talk to me. And more to that weren't you his wife? How come you don't know what is close to his heart." Leo asked sarcastically.
"Leo, Leo, Leo, I haven't signed the divorce papers yet, so, technically, I'm still your first lady. I know who is close to his heart, but since as I can't have a person, you need to look for something else. Now go to work." Mellie dismissed Leo.
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It was the day for the procedure. Fitz and Olivia were both restless the whole day. Fitz couldn't get his mind off Olivia and so did Olivia. They didn't close their eyes the whole night before, and hasn't spoken to each other since the day of their fight. But has been dying to see each other or just to talk to each other to know how the other person was doing.
Fitz biggest fear this day was, what if Olivia didn't make it out alive with the secret fetus transplant that Dr. Walker was going to carry out without Olivia's approval? He was thinking, wouldn't it be better hating her alive than dead?
Olivia biggest fear this day was, was she ever going to be able to live with herself knowing she was deliberately hurting Fitz and herself? Was aborting this baby her only card left to play? Has she really lost her spin on things? And why should she care what the world thinks of her when people are always going to be judged no matter how good or bad they were.
Fitz was in the Oval office drinking scotch, while Olivia and Abby were in a car on their way to the hospital for the abortion procedure. They were both reminiscing at the same time the day the baby was conceived.
Olivia remembered Fitz begging her to join him on the G8 summit's trip, and she, trying to pretend like she wasn't interested because she had a surprise install for him.
Fitz remembered after giving up on Olivia's refusal to join him on the G8 summit's trip, and then, he got his greatest surprised ever in his life, finding her onboard Air Force One. Up till today he has no clue how Olivia was able to convince the Marines to let her onboard, he begged her to tell him how she went about with it, but she didn't crack. He tried to get the details from some of the Marines but they all smiled, saying they had no idea what he was talking about. Fitz smiled at this thought, saying out loud "she always get what she want no matter what." His mind then came back to what she'd be doing to his baby in a few minutes, and he frowned.
Olivia remembered how she was able to convince the head of the Marines because he owed her a favor and the rest fell in line. The memory of Fitz playing the pilot and her a flight attendant was very vivid in her memory. Olivia remembered the flight attendant's attire she bought for herself, and when she wore it, Fitz told her no flight attendant should ever dress like that or else passengers would want to eat from their bodies and take them home afterward. Olivia smiled at that memory.
Fitz memory went back to the pilot's uniform Olivia bought for him, how small and tight it was, and him complaining it was too tight, but Olivia told him she loves it when his biceps are trying to break free from his shirts, and that it does things to her he couldn't even imagine. He remembered how serious Olivia looked, ripping the shirt off him afterward, "my little wild cat" he called her that day.
They both remembered how the love making was different from what they normally do, how passionate and funny it was, how they almost laughed through it all. They both remembered looking deeply into each other's eyes and smiled before reaching climax at the same time. And that was how this baby was conceive, with love and a lot of laughter, they both thought at the same time.
Fitz smiled at that thought, about how marvelous the love making was that particular day, and empty his class of scotch. Olivia blushed at the thought of Fitz collapsing on her body and being unable to move, as if everything inside of him was empty into her.
Olivia bit her finger nail and blushed some more about that memory. Abby saw Olivia blushing, and asked her.
"What are you thinking about that made you blush like that?"
Olivia came back to the present and answered Abby, "nothing."
"You must think I'm a kid," Abby smiled at her, shaking her head.
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When they got to the hospital, Dr. Walker asked Olivia to have some time alone with herself in the operating room before they could start the procedure. While Olivia laid down, thinking about her life's choices, Dr. Walker called Fitz and informed him Olivia was ready. And asked him on his red light to start the fetus transplant procedure. Everything and nothing was going through Fitz's mind at the same time. "Sir, I'm waiting for your orders," Dr. Walker said. "Do it" Fitz replied with anger and threw his private phone on the wall that scattered into pieces immediately.
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A few seconds later, Mellie entered the Oval office with the signed divorce papers, telling Fitz she has signed the divorce papers but she has just discovered Fitz and Olivia has a house in Vermont and she needed Fitz to sign the documents of the house over to her. "This is your signed divorce papers." Mellie showed Fitz the papers in her hand, "but for me to hand this over to you, I need the documents of the house you and Olivia have in Vermont."
Mellie didn't know she met Fitz at a very bad time. Fitz took the papers from Mellie, and scattered it all over the oval office. "I don't need your stupid divorce papers. You can pick them up and shove it up your ass for all I care. And I'll burn down the house in Vermont than give it to you. Now get out."
"I know I can't destroy you right now, but I'm going to run that your whore Olivia Pope out of DC. I promise you that." Mellie dialed Kimberly Michelle's number in front of Fitz, saying, "A tell all interview with you, Kimberly. At 6:00 pm today."
"As if I look like I give a dame. Get out." Fitz shouted again
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While Olivia was still having the alone time with herself. She remembered the discussion she had with Fitz in the house Fitz built for her in Vermont. Fitz telling her how all he could offer her right now was his undying love, and how he would never be able to give her a normal life, her telling Fitz 'NORMAL IS OVERRATED.' She smiled at the memory, and then thought of what she was about to do to their baby, who was created with nothing but pure undying love. She held her stomach and said, "I'm very sorry for trying to do this to you in the first place. I hope one day you'd forgive me. I'm going to ask for your forgiveness every day until you're born." She smiled and let out a sigh of relief, talking out loud again, "Mellie and Cyrus, it's time for some frolicking." Olivia got up and went to Dr. Walker, she informed him she won't be going through with the procedure anymore.
"Olivia no, we have to do this" Dr. Walker begged, almost kneeling down, wanting to experiment his first fetus transplant on Olivia, so he could make a name for himself.
Olivia thought Dr. Walker desperation to perform the abortion was a little strange, but brushed over it. "Not anymore, but thanks for everything." She said to Dr. Walker.
"There goes my dash dream and hope" Dr. Walker said disappointedly, after Olivia left. He then tried to call Fitz's private phone about this new development, but Fitz's phone wasn't going through, because Fitz has scattered it into pieces.
Olivia walked out from Dr. Walker's office and saw Abby patiently waiting for her, and smiled at their new found bond that has been growing stronger and stronger as the days goes by. "Abby, let's go." She said to her.
Abby was very shock and thankful for her not going through with it. "Oh thank God, you're not going to go through with it. What made you changed your mind." Abby asked.
"NORMAL IS OVERRATED." Olivia answered.
Abby had no idea what Olivia was taking about. "I don't know what you mean but I'm game."
"Abby I need your attention" Olivia put on her serious face.
"Yes you have it, what?"
"It's going to be a busy week and maybe a few busy months for you Abby, brace yourself. It's not going to be pretty, and I'm sorry, but you choose to be the press secretary." Olivia said, and dialed Diane Sawyer's number.
"Bring it on" Abby replied.
