Fitz reached out his hand to hold Olivia but couldn't find her. He got up quickly, searching for her on the bed. He then fell back on the bed, angry that it was just a dream about Olivia being there, and asking him to just to hold her. He stretched out his arm to check the clock, and it was only 1: am in the morning. He got mad and threw the clock away. A few seconds later, he heard someone flushing in the toilet. He looked around, and a smile appeared on his face because Olivia's stuffs were lying around. He was now certain it wasn't just a dream; Olivia was actually there with him. Fitz waited for about 10 minute for Olivia to come out, but she didn't. When he went to look for her, he saw her checking her flat tummy on the wall mirror with tears pouring down her face. She was begging the baby to forgive her.
Olivia, rubbing her tummy in a circular motion said. "Honey, I'm very sorry for trying to end your life. Mommy was really scared on what people would say. I know is not an excuse. I promise to protect you with the last breath I have. Please forgive me my darling, I'm so sorry. And I pray daddy truly forgive me too. I know he's just excited to have you, so he doesn't wanna be mad at me. You two are the only people that really matters in my life right now. Please, I need you two not to hate me. I'm really scared to face what is ahead. I've been pushing daddy to extreme for a very long time now. One day I know he's going to hate me for good. And I….."
Fitz walked quickly and hugged her from behind. "You should know by now I can't really hate you, even if I try." Fitz said.
Olivia turned around and hugged Fitz tightly, crying. "I'm so sorry. I didn't go through with it. Please forgive me for trying to in the first place. I'm truly sorry. I was really scared, I'm still scared."
Fitz held her tight and allowed her to sob for a while. He sat on a stool and carried her. "Hey, look at me. I'm not mad at you okay, well not anymore. It was selfish of me not to consider how all this is going to impact your life. And you have the right to be scared. Yes, I didn't like the way you went about with it. You always play it tough, wanting to be in control, and I love all that about you. But you don't have to shut me down and take decisions for us when you're scared. Promise me from now on we'll make decisions together? No matter how scary the situation is for you or for me." Fitz held her face for her to see how serious he was.
"I promise." Olivia promised and hugged him.
This will be a good time to come clean with the fetus transplant, Fitz thought. "I did something I need your forgiveness too." Fitz said, with Olivia still in his embrace. He paused, trying to choose his words correctly. "I was very angry at you and I wanted to pay you back by taking a decision without your concern too."
Olivia released herself from him, wiped her eyes and looked at him "What?" She asked him.
Fitz, hoping and praying his confession doesn't end up in another fight, but with the look on Olivia's face, he was now thinking coming clean may be a bad idea right now. He decided to go along with it anyway. "Dr. Walker was supposed to carry out a secret fetus transplant on you, had it been you went ahead with the abortion." Fitz said, holding his breathe.
"Really?" Olivia asked, without any squabble.
"Yes." Fitz answered; a little surprised Olivia didn't walk away and still sitting on his lap.
"No wonder he almost kneeled down begging me to do the abortion, when I told him I wouldn't be going through with it. It would've been his first time doing the procedure." Olivia said.
Fitz was shock with this new information, he had no clue it would've been Dr. Walker first time performing the procedure. "Are you serious?" He asked, thanking God Olivia didn't go through with it. At the same time, felt bad for almost risking her life without proper background check on Dr. Walker.
"Yeah, I thought it was strange but never dwelled on it." Olivia paused and stared at Fitz for some time.
Her stare was a little confusing to Fitz. "What?" He asked nervously.
"So it never crossed your mind you could lose me through that procedure? I thought you love me."
Fitz suppressed a smile, "I don't love you. I'm just using you to fill the void my wife created."
"Fitz!" She called out, smiling too, remembering what she said to Diane Sawyer.
He rubbed his fingers through her cheeks. "On a serious note, that's was all I could think about, losing you. But I was very mad at you. Deep down, I knew I'd forever regret it, whether the procedure went successfully or not. But just to have your eyes, your smile and your lips" He kissed her lips. "And your ass," he grabbed her ass, finishing, "on a little me, was all I could think of."
Olivia laughed out loud at his speech. "I don't think I would've been able to forgive myself if I aborted this." She touched her stomach.
"So, you are not mad at me?" Fitz squeezed her tighter to his body.
"I don't have the right to be mad. You tried to do something I was scared of, you put the baby's life first before your fear. Had it been I survive the procedure and later on found out in the future I never aborted this baby, I would've been relief, and that'd make me love you more. And thank God for that because I don't want to love you more than I already do." She teased him.
Fitz smiled and hugged her tighter again, "I almost didn't tell you. I thought you'll be mad I tried to compromise your life."
"I understand, but jealous though."
"Jealous?"
"The baby is not even here and you've already chosen side."
Fitz kissed her on the lips and smiled. "Don't worry you'd get used to it soon," he teased her too. He then carried Olivia to the bed. He was on top of her, trying to take off her nightwear for a makeup sex.
Olivia asked him to stop. "Can we talk about Jerry?"
Fitz, resting his weight on his elbow on both side of Olivia's body, closed his eyes and hung his head down ashamed of the accusation he made to her some days back. "I didn't mean what I said you know that right?"
"I know, but the thought must have crossed your mind before." Olivia carried his head up for him to look her in the eyes.
"Yeah, but it was because I was hurt."
"So every time you get hurts, are you going to blame me?" Tears started forming on Olivia's eyes. "I know you have the right to, because somehow I'm to be blame….."
"No. Don't say that." He smoothed her hair to the back of her ears. "That was a cheap way to get back at you. But if I really blame you for Jerry's death then I'm responsible for Mellie's rape. I know we are not to be blame for our parents' sins."
Olivia smiled at him, and pinned him on the bed without warning. Fitz was completely caught off guard and totally surprised how fast Olivia did that. She kissed him lightly. "You remember the phone sex you made some time back? How you'll start from the bottom and walk your way to the top? And later on kissed me on the mouth, for me to taste myself?" Olivia asked, taking off his pajamas, walking her way down his body.
Fitz smiled, looking at the ceiling, thinking how he cut off the line on her that day. "Yes, I do. That was some of my best work. I never asked you if you were turn….." Fitz couldn't finish his sentence, he was completely out of breath. He carried himself up on his elbow to watch what Olivia was doing. Olivia was nipping the head of his cock. "OH MY GOD," he managed to say that out loud. The shockwave that took over his body was electrifying. Olivia could feel the current from his body. "Livvie, not nipping please, you know I won't….. " Olivia carried her heard up, speaking like she was apologizing for what she has done. "But I thought you like nipping?" She made a crying face, looking at him. Fitz used his hand to direct her head back to his cock. "I love nipping. Don't cry. Carry on." He played along too. Olivia smiled and took his balls into her mouth. Fitz was still resting on his elbow, looking down as she performed miracle on him. Olivia always loved it when he watched her do this. Something about it made her want to please him more. She could tell he was very close. She stopped and brought her face up to his, while massaging him. "Would you like to taste yourself?" She gave him some light kisses on his mouth, "like really taste yourself?" She asked again. Fitz shook his head in approval, not having the energy to speak, wanting Olivia to continue. "I want to hear you say it." Olivia ordered. "I will love to taste myself." He said, trying to get air into his lungs. Olivia sucked on his lips a little bit and went down on him again, but this time she doubled her pace. Within few seconds, he released into her mouth. She waited until he was done before moving up to kiss him deeply for him to taste himself. Fitz tasted himself and it was amazing. Olivia saw the look of utmost satisfaction on his face, and that was all she needed.
Fitz was still panting. He held her tight for a while then said. "Your turn," trying to go down on Olivia, knowing she needed a release too.
"Nope. I'm good." Olivia replied, walking to the bathroom. She came back with tissue and cleaned Fitz up. After she was done, she rested both hands on Fitz's chest with her fingers intertwined together, and her chin on top of her knuckles, looking at Fitz "Thank you for loving me even when I don't deserves it."
Fitz looked down at her sweet face. "Hey, you do deserve it, all of it and much more." Fitz said and wrapped his hands around Olivia as they both drifted to sleep together.
XXX
On the other side of town, Mellie was pacing back and forth, whining to Cyrus about Olivia's confession to Diane Sawyer. "I'm ruined. My life is ruined. After everything I've put up with. This is how that bitch Olivia repaid me? This is not over."
"You won't listen, if only you listened to me. You are your own worst enemy" Cyrus shouted at Mellie.
"She had to go with Diane Sawyer, Diane freaking Sawyer of all people? And there I was with that good for nothing Kimberly Mitchell, thinking I'll gain sympathy with people of her kind."
"Do you think Olivia is stupid? I told you time and time again for you not to sign the divorce papers, but oh no senator Mellie want a house in Vermont just so she could cause pain to her husband the President, who can build a hundred of that same house without losing a day of sleep. You know what? you are on your own now. I'm done working with a nincompoop" Cyrus said, working away, and then rushed toward Mellie in a dramatic manner "Who asked you to see Kimberly Mitchell in the first place. So Oprah didn't at least cross your mind?"
"You were keeping me in the dark on what you were doing. I had to do something for me." Mellie fired back at Cyrus.
"And congratulation you did something alright. I have something going on right now, and I can't let you into it. You know why? You run your month too dame much."
"Cyrus, we are in this together. Without me you have no chance of ever working in the House White again. I'm your only shot for you to ever be Chief of Staff again. Get it?"
Cyrus laughed sarcastically, and held Mellie by the shoulder. "You're delusional; it's only a matter of time before anyone remembers you as a senator. Your political career as you knows it is over." He chuckled, walked out of the door and banked it. But he wasn't done just yet. He came back in. "You are not a Presidential material and has never been. If not of Fitz and his conscience of not loving you, all these your political craps will be just in your head."
"Cyrus, you can say all you want. I'm still a senator. What are you?" Mellie, not going down without some jabs.
Cyrus shook his head. "I'm going to destroy Fitz and Olivia not because of you, but because I made them who they are today."
XXX
Fitz and Olivia were in bed in the morning, watching Abby address the press. Abby was so out of place, fumbling with the many questions reporters were throwing her way about the confession Olivia made. Olivia couldn't stop laughing at how confuse and out of place Abby was.
"You are evil." Fitz said to her, and switched of the TV.
"Why? She chooses to be press secretary. Nobody forced her" Olivia replied, laughing.
"You are not sure if I ever loved you or was just using you to fill the void my wife created?" Fitz hit her lightly with the pillow and tickled her.
She laughed out loud, and run away from him, begging him to stop. "That was great acting right there," she said to him.
"I'll be addressing the press too. Any help to undo what you did?"
"Nope, no help from me go and slay the dragon yourself."
Fitz got up, and was dressing to start his day, but noticed Olivia wasn't doing same. "No work today?" Fitz asked her. Fitz has always been the one begging her to stay a while longer whenever she spent the night at the White House. But Olivia was always very conscious, talking about not being seen, and wanting to get to work early.
"I'm hungry. Can you call the kitchen for breakfast, please?" She asked instead, avoiding his question which did not go unnoticed by Fitz.
"What do you want to eat?"
"I'm craving everything right now."
"The Chef should just do a variety of stuff then." Fitz wasn't completely sure why Olivia didn't want to talk about work but he wanted reasons. "Olivia, you've never stay indoors in your life even when you're sick, why don't you want to go to work?"
Olivia hesitated for a while then answered him "Reporters are everywhere. And I just want to stay indoors today. Is that a problem" She sounded a little hash than intended. She then tried to soften her tone. "After everything, I just want some quiet. Okay?" Fitz always wanted the world to know about them. Olivia wanted him to enjoy the glory of that, without feeling bad of the effect it has on her career.
"OK." Fitz said and gave her a kiss, telling her he'll join her after his briefing.
After Fitz left, Olivia switched on the television, to see what people were saying about her confession. She wasn't surprised with what every news stations were saying. It was like Mellie and Fitz did no wrong. Everything she said about Mellie had no effect on people. No one was talking about Mellie and Andrew's affair. Everyone was blaming her and not Fitz. People were more sympathetic to Mellie and Fitz. Her old college friends were calling in; talking about how she loved dating married men and older men whilst in college. Fox news dug up old pictures of her past suitors, and they were all older or divorce's men in power. Some of her clients also called in, telling the world they just fired her. She switched off the TV and called the kitchen to bring her food.
XXX
Abby and Fitz were brainstorming on how to handle the multiple affairs that has hit the Grant administration ever since Fitz took office. Abby had no idea Olivia was already with Fitz. She thought Fitz was still worried about Olivia not picking his calls. She decided to give Fitz some advice, concerning Olivia's reluctance to talk to him.
"Sir, I know this is not my place. I know you really want to see Olivia. But don't be hard on Olivia. She's going through a phase she's scared of. Her clients are firing her after the confession she made. And I'm sure not being in control of her job is driving her insane. She promised me she's going to call you after sometime."
"Abby, thank you very much. She came to me yesterday." Fitz said to Abby.
And things just got awkward for Abby. "Oh" was all she could say.
"But what about her clients firing her?"
"Never mind Sir, I think she's going to tell you."
"Abby, please, she refused to go to work today, talking about reporters being all over the place. I know reporters can never stop Olivia from going to work. Did she say her clients are firing her?"
"Yes, Sir."
"I know she doesn't want to tell me because she wants me to enjoy this moment of us not being a secret . And she doesn't want my pity." Fitz ran his hands through his hair in desperation, and added. "Her job means everything to her. What am I going to do? How can I help her?"
"I really don't know Sir. And from the questions the reporters were asking me today, seemed to blame the affair solely on her, but not you or Mellie."
"I noticed that when we were watching you this morning. I'm sure she did too but doesn't want to talk about it."
Abby checked on her watch and it was time for Fitz briefing. "Sir, it's time for your briefing."
Fitz stepped on the podium and everyone was quiet. "I know I have some explaining to do after my ex-wife and Olivia Pope said some interesting stuff about me."
"Sir, Mr. President, Mr. President Sir, Sir, Sir Mr. President." Reporters shouted in union to ask their questions.
"Let me finish before you ask your questions." Fitz ordered calmly. "Yes, I'm in love with Olivia Pope. I'm not just using her to fill any void. And yes, Mellie was aware of this from the get go. Mellie and I have been living together for the politics for almost 18 years now. And no, Teddy did not walk in on Olivia and me two days ago because Teddy has been in Florida for a week now, spending some time with his aunty." Fitz paused and looked through the room. "Now any question?" Fitz asked, and pointed at one lady. "Yes Carla."
"Sir, is your affair with Olivia Pope still going on?"
"Carla, your answer is in the introductory speech I just gave." Fitz answered.
"But sir…." Carla tried to continue.
Fitz cut her off and called a different reporter "Sebastian?"
"Sir, is Olivia Pope correct about you never having any sexual relationship with Jenny Locket?"
"Yes, she is correct." Fitz answered directly.
"So, Sir, you lied to the American people about having a sexual relationship with Jenny Locket?" Sebastian asked.
"Sebastian, are you really asking me that question from the answer I just gave you? I thought you were a smart guy. Paul?" Fitz called a different reporter.
"Mr. President, Olivia says she's in love with you, and now you've just said you're in love with Olivia too, and since you are no longer married. Are you going to married Olivia Pope and make her the first lady."
"If Olivia Pope will have me, why not" Fitz said, and call another reporter. "Rose?"
"Sir, Olivia Pope said the affair started when she joined your primary campaign and your marriage was on rocky grounds. We all know marriages go through all these phases. So, had it been she walked away when she realized she was attracted to you, is there a possibility you'll still be married now?
"The attraction was mutual when she joined my campaign, Rose. More from my end, I pursue her. I made her gave in. She was more reluctant to it because I was married. Even though she knew how dead my marriage was, she didn't want a relationship with a married man. She tried her best to stay away from me. But I knew she was the love of my life, so I didn't give up. I made her see we were meant to be, and at the end, she couldn't fight me anymore. Love prevails. Robin?" Fitz went to another reporter.
"Mr. President, Olivia is a good looking woman. She can easily seduce any man to fall for her. I think I'm in love with her too. She flirted with me the first day we met, and I've never stop loving her ever since, even though I have a wife." The crowd laughed out at this point. "Her suitors have always been political married older men. And she's a fixer, she had you from the get go. I'm sure she's just working her way up the political ladder, and just wants to be first lady…"
Fitz didn't like were the question was going, he cut him off. "I have a country to run Robin. We can't take all day for you to formulate a question out of that monologue. Two more question guys" He called a different reporter. "Mario?"
"Can we say Olivia is the cause of your divorce? Had it been she didn't join your campaign I'm sure you'll still be married to the first lady.
"I thought I just answered this question. But let me try a different approach. Had it been she didn't join my campaign, I wouldn't be President today, and Mellie and I would still be divorced right now, because we made a decision to get a divorce if we didn't win. Last question guys."
"Sir, there is this new technology on fetus transplant, and Dr. Walker has written so many articles about it. Mr. President, have you heard of this?"
Fitz froze for some time, "I've heard of something like that but I'm not a scientist. I'm just a politician. You'd have to refer your question to the fine men and women in that field. That will be all. Thanks folks." Fitz walked off the podium.
XXX
Fitz left the podium and asked Abby if everything went well. Abby said he was terrific and his briefing would calm down the tension in the country a little bit, and maybe shift the focus away from Olivia.
Fitz walked into his room and saw many plates with half-finished food all over the place. He had this shock look on his face.
"Hey don't judge me. I'm eating for two." Olivia on the bed, said to him
"You did all this? I thought Teddy is back."
Olivia waved her hand at Fitz, calling him in for a kiss. "Saw your briefing, you were terrific. Did you tell anybody about the fetus transplant stuff?"
Fitz walked closer to her and gave her a kiss. "That question was a little strange right?"
"Somebody is up to something. And it isn't good." Olivia replied.
Fitz picked up the phone and called on someone to come clean the mess Olivia created in his room. "I think so too." Fitz said, and left to the toilet to ease himself.
When he came back to the room; Olivia was watching The View with one of her clients as guest. The ladies were talking about Olivia being a home wrecker. Fitz joined her on the bed just when Olivia's client was talking about firing her immediately after she made her confession. "Should we talk about this?" Fitz asked her.
"Talk about what?" Olivia, pretending not to know what Fitz was talking about.
"You being fired by client..." Fitz couldn't finish his sentence because Olivia got a phone call from Quinn.
She walked a little further away from Fitz. "Yes, how many do we have left?" Quinn said something and Olivia seemed to repeat what Quinn said. "Five clients?" She rubbed the back of her head and sat on a chair near her.
As Olivia continued her chat with Quinn, Fitz was going through channels. Every channel was blaming Olivia for the affair and none had any solid point to make against Mellie and him. He noticed that was all Olivia has been doing all day, going through channels blaming her for his divorce.
Olivia was still on the phone with Quinn. "We'll have to shut down OPA. Yes Quinn, I know for now until things dies down. I'm sorry. You guys will have full pay during this time. Just close the office and go home. I'll get back to you guys."
Fitz didn't know what to say to her or how to consoled her, since Olivia was putting on a tough front. Olivia turned around and saw Fitz's full attention on her. She didn't really want to talk about what was happening. "I'm hungry. I need more food. Can you order more please?" Not paying attention to Fitz. She started eating the leftovers from the plates she was eating earlier.
Fitz was almost in tears, he has never seen Olivia like this, giving up on stuff, and wanting nothing to do but eat. Olivia saw the pity look on Fitz's face and got really mad. "I don't need your pity. Are you ordering the food or not?" She asked angrily.
"Come here." Fitz said calmly to her, but she didn't move. "I said come here," he repeated.
"I don't want to." Olivia replied quietly. Fitz walked up to her and wrapped his hands around her. Olivia then broke down in tears. "I don't know what to do. I'm left with just five clients. Everyone is firing me." Fitz just held her and didn't say anything until she fell asleep. As Olivia was sleeping, Fitz called Quinn and asked her to give him a list of their clienteles.
