Dean wakes up his head bursting with pain, "oh man hangovers are the worst". He sit up on his dingy mattress, he squints a little because of the light. He throws on a pair of pants and a shirt then he takes an aspirin. Completely forgetting about the women in his bed, who by chance happens to be Joanne. He turns to shut the door to his room when he spots her on the bed. Dean then grabs a piece of paper and pen from the nearby table and writes; Good morning sleeping beauty, thank you for a wonderful night Joanne, I'm sorry I can't stay to see you wake up, I have to go to work. Ps. there's coffee and pancakes waiting for you on the table. Dean quickly makes the coffee and pancakes before he has to leave, while humming metallic. When everything is set he closes the door quietly as not to disturb her sleep. While Dean drives to his job at Carl's Garage he thinks about the night before, how he took her to his favorite dinner, to the drive in movies, and finally to a bar to get stone cold drunk, but she was lady throughout the whole night and Dean was a gentlemen as well. to be honest she was a lot more classy then the other girls he usually brings back to his apartment which was a change, but he didn't feel anything really for her, yeah he was smitten at first but something felt different after their first date, like something was missing from their new relationship. Dean sighs, this is way I'm single he says to himself, nothing is good enough for me. Dean not wanting to think any more puts on one of his cassettes, Led Zeppelin his favorite band, but while driving and losing himself in the music a thought crosses the back of his mind, maybe I'll go see Castiel today.


"He's not in a good mood today Dean, his dose of medication has been changed. He's been having a tough time adjusting to it, and you're not going to convince me to change my mind again, I already got yelled at by my boss for letting you bring in that burger." She says with a stern tone

Dean looks at her for moment and thinks about trying to convince her but lets it drop. Dean then walks over to the waiting room to sit and read for a bit, but when the nurse is gone he sneaks through the personal only door, then he walks down the corridor sneakily. He finally reaches the common room to see Castiel in fetal position. He walks sheepishly up to him. Hey there buddy what's up? Castiel looks up and his eyes are in a glossy drug induced haze.

Are you real or are you in my mind?

"I'm real"

"Highly doubt it, that's what the others would say, but you do look familiar have we met before?" Castiel Said with a head tilt.

"Yes I just saw you Thursday."

"Oh…Oh right…Dean!" He said with excitement

Dean smiles, yeah right. So how are today?

Castiel shrugs his shoulders, I could be better, but you know it won't always be difficult. Castiel stops talking for moment and looks as if he were trying to figure something out. Then he finally speaks up, "do you ever wish Dean that there was a magical pill that could takes away pain and gives you pure happiness without getting addicted to it."

"Yeah, I have but you know life isn't that simple, it's complicated as fuck. I believe if we had a magical pill to take away all this pain we deal with that it would take away from the purpose of life, which to me is to live through all this shit and finally die with the peace of knowing that you have accomplished the most difficult trial that every one go's through, surviving life and all the crap it throws at you. To me I will feel happiest knowing that I survived life, and well dying happy is the biggest eff you to life there is."

"Yeah but life also gives you love."

"Dean thinks for a minute on what Castiel said and finally says. I don't think life gives you love I think we find it on our own, and I really don't want life to take credit for something I achieved."

Castiel looks at him with wide eyes and a big dorky smile." I like you; you're not just a pretty face you know."

Dean caught off guard by Castiel forwardness blushes and turns away from him from a minute. "Umm…yeah well it's just how I feel."

"So do think your brother will see you today?" Asks Castiel

Dean looks down," I don't know, how about you did you see anybody who wasn't here recently?"

Castiel's shoulders sink down; he then looks cold and reserved, "yes. I don't want to talk about it right now, let's talk about something else, ah…how was your date yesterday?"

Dean sits down in the chair next to Castiel, "it went well, but you know I wasn't as into to her as thought I was. There's was something missing, but I think that an excuse to just deny myself any happiness really."

Castiel looks at Dean, I don't thinks it's because you're denying yourself happiness I think it's because you haven't found the right one yet.

"Maybe…I don't know man, I just never had a decent relationship with anyone before, and plus why would the right one even want a drop out from high school."

Castiel looks at him with a bit of pity. "If the girl doesn't like you the way you are then she's not for you. Also don't sell yourself short there are a lot of great things about you that trump you being a drop out."

Dean looks at him, with a smile on his face and says thanks" man; you probably think I'm just crazy."

"I don't think you're crazy, I think you're just human."

Dean just sits there for a while not saying anything, and just thinking of how much of a fool he is for telling a stranger all his secrets and fears, But after a good 20 minutes he decides not to think about too much, because this is the happiest he's been in a long time.