Castiel is walking down the halls of the mental ward looking for a phone, why? He doesn't quite know why either, he just knows he needs to speak to Dean even if it's in the middle of the night. Cas walks subtly around as not to be noticed by the nurses working the night shift. He spots the station where the nurse's rest and flops down onto the floor. While crawling to the door Castiel avidly listens to the nurses complain about one of their coworkers. Castiel smile while holding a laugh for he dealy loves the way people interact, but the he hears them shuffling towards the door and moves out of view. He waits there for five minutes while the nurses talk and talk until finally they leave the personal only courters. Castiel stands up quietly and puts his back to the wall which was not entirely needed to accomplish stealth. He slowly inches his way to the door until he bumps into what seems to be a large person. Dam it he thinks to himself with his eyes closed shut, I must have bumped into one of the oxens of the male staff. He slowly opens his eyes and turns his head to the left and before him was a giant moose of man, but not staff.

"Who the hell are you says Castiel?"

"I could ask the same about you. Says the man"

"I'm a patient here says Castiel."

"Me too, my names Sam Winchester he says while holding out his hand to greet Cas."

"Really? Castiel looks Sam over in astonishment; your brother didn't tell me you were a Sasquatch."

Sam looks at him with slight curiosity, "how do you know my brother?"

"Oh, forgive me, my name is Castiel. I met your brother two weeks ago while I was trying to escape."

"That was you, oh man you had the whole staff freaked out, and it was best thing I have seen in long time."

"Castiel smiles with pride, thanks, but really I just wanted to get a dam burger."

Sam smiles," so…ah what are you doing here in front of this door?"

Castiel quietly says, "well I was trying to use the phone to talk to your brother."

Sam laughs under his breath, "me too he says."

"Okay then why don't we just go and use the phone."

They walk into the staff room and quickly spot the phone. But they both awkwardly bump into each other while grabbing it.

"Oh sorry man, you go ahead first," Says Sam while moving backwards away from the phone.

"Thanks, but you're his brother you should go first."

"No man it's, alright you go ahead."

"No you….never mind I'll just go first, we were starting to get receptive."

Cas then picks up the phone and dials Deans number that he got just yesterday. It rings for a few times before Dean finally answers it.

"Hello?" Dean answers

"Hello Dean." Says Castiel nervously, because he's never really talked to Dean when outside of the ward.

"Cas? What's wrong? Are you hurt?"

"No… I'm fine…"

Dean cuts off Cas, "then why did you call?"

"I…just needed to talk to you about something."

"Well …what is it?"

Cas sighs…"I…this was a stupid idea, I'm sorry."

"No, Cas please tell me what's wrong?"

"Oh, it's nothing really, I'm just having a difficult day, and you always know the right thing to say. I was sitting on my bed early and I felt this huge emotional tide come over. You know how sometimes you could be having the happiest day of your life but then you have this feeling that something missing, or there's something wrong about enjoying yourself, and you just sit there thinking maybe I should just die and then everything awful you ever felt will just go all away."

Deans quite for a second but then Cas hears a muffled sound from the phone.

"Look Cas we've all had those thoughts but I swear to if you just live through this everything will be okay. I know it's not okay right now but by god it will be. I know Cas you feel alone, hell I have felt what you felt before but you should know this, you are loved. So whatever you're thinking of doing, don't do it. Because dam I wouldn't be able to handle this crap life without you."

Cas holds back his tears, "thank you Dean, you always know the right thing to say. I'm sorry…I'm so stupid."

"You're not stupid Cas, you're just human."

"Thank you, umm… by the way your brother wants to talk to you."

Cas looks up at Sam who was holding back tears as well. Sam takes the phone and starts to talk. Cas at this point turns his focus to the door, that he worries will open soon. But before Sam hangs up the phone he hears him say.

"Don't worry Dean I will. I'll make sure he's alright. Okay bye, yes don't worry, now good night.

"So Cas, how about we go steal some candy and watch John Wayne movies?"

"Cas looks up at Sam with slight curiosity and says, John what?"


It was an hour ago Dean got the call from Cas and he was worrying his ass off. He never before had to talk a friend out of suicide. He was shaking and hyperventilating, and hoping to god his brother watches over him. It was a month ago Dean found himself seeking the company of Castiel and in that month he has told him secrets even his girlfriend doesn't know, so losing Cas would kill Dean and that's what's causing his insomnia tonight. So for the past hour Dean has burned into his memory every crack and every crevice of his apparent. While he walks across the floor of his apartment he wakes his neighbor Jo, after an hour pacing he finally decides to go for a walk and as he opens the door to leave he finds jo standing before him.

"Oh, hey Jo, Says Dean with a little surprise."

"Hi, Dean I was just wondering if you were alright, says Jo with a concerned tone"

Dean sighs and nods his head as to say yes, but Jo saw right through his act.

"We both know that isn't true." She says sternly

Dean looks at her for a moment, "fine, I'm going for a walk do you want to come with me?"

"Sure."

They walk down stairs while throwing their jackets on. Dean walks into the cold night and takes deep breath and then lets it out. He looks at Jo. She so beautiful and caring, I'm just stringing her along, she deserves better then what I 'm doing to her, he thinks to himself.

"So what's the matter she asks?"

Dean stops walking, and stands there trying to hold back this emotional wreck that's going to unfold.

"My friend Cas, he's a…not having a good day…he was just talking to me about taking his life…and god ….god I hope I got through to him."

Jo stops walking and turns back to him. You're a good friend Dean. "If you told him that he's important, I have no doubt he will not commit suicide."

"Yeah…I hope your right."

She goes to up to Dean, and hugs him. "I love you". She then stands on her tip toes and kisses Dean, but Dean doesn't kiss back.

"Dean, what's wrong?"

Dean looks at her, with sadness in his eyes. "It's… just you said you love me."

"Yeah I know, it's how I feel about you."

"I know it's…I can't say the same…I'm sorry. I don't feel the same way."

She looks down, and then looks up again, "I knew I was more committed to this relationship more than you." She says with tears in her eyes.

Dean rubs his eyes," I'm sorry…I should have told you early."

"Well, Dean…you are a good friend but a terrible boyfriend. I know you're sorry, you're a good guy but your bad at relationships, and that's okay but before you ever start a new one make sure you know how you feel first, that way the good guys doesn't look like the bad guy." She says not in a bitter tone but in a loving one, and then she walks away into the apartment leaving Dean alone.