And Baby Makes Three

Chapter 4

Nancy didn't have a good night; which in turn meant I didn't either. The soup that I thought would soothe her stomach did just the opposite and made her run to the bathroom over and over again. At 3:30 I fell asleep by sheer exhaustion and when I awoke at 7:30 I found her asleep in front of the toilet. I hated to do it but with her appointment at 9:00 I had to wake her to get going.

"Hey..."

"Wish I could go back to bed."

"Hopefully the appointment won't take long. Why don't you jump in the shower first and get ready and I'll follow you."

I wanted coffee badly but I knew that if she smelled it brewing she would be making more trips to the toilet. I would just have to wait until I was on my way to work.

The appointment went quickly, thank goodness. At least the morning sickness didn't rear it's ugly head during the appointment. Nancy inquired about taking something but the doctor advised against it for now since her levels were good from the urine test. The doctor indicated that they wanted to do an ultrasound at 13 weeks to see how the pregnancy was progressing and to see if there was anything out of the ordinary from the fetus.

I cringed when the doctor said fetus. This was my child - not a fetus that we we're discussing. It's our baby that's going to be here before I know it. I'm already so much in love with. I pray to God every night that he'll protect them; and that I would sacrifice anything for them if need be.

I also wasn't happy that the doctor told us why we needed to make that appointment. In three weeks we would learn if our child was "normal". I know we hadn't discussed all the what ifs that could be wrong with our child due to our ages but no matter what we would deal with any issues and be a happy family. For Nancy, it was another worrisome reason for her to stress about.

On the way home...

Nancy was too quite during the ride. I knew she was trying to process the information that something could be wrong with our baby. I wish I had the knowledge to tell her that the baby was fine but I knew I couldn't guarantee it.

"Talk to me Nance," I calmly told her.

"No," was the reply I got. She was upset and I just didn't want to aggravate her any more then she already was. I wished there was a way to take the burden off her shoulders but the only thing I could think to do was grab her hand, squeeze it, and hold it until we got home.

We arrive home - I park our car in the garage below our apartment building. I tried to remove my hand from Nance's but she wouldn't let go to allow me to put the car in park. Not to upset her I use my left hand to awkwardly put it in park and turn off the engine but manage to without letting her hand go.

"I'm scared," is the first thing she has said since leaving the office with the exception of the word no.

"Of what?" Both of us knew what but I wanted her to say it out loud.

"I'm afraid of finding out that's there something wrong. We finally have the chance to be parents and there could be something majorly wrong with the child. What if we can't handle it?" Nance asked me as tears flowed down her face.

"Yes, there could be something wrong, and if there is we'll deal with it.

"Can we really? We're both super busy with our careers..."

"Listen - if necessary we'll figure it out, okay?" I give her hand a squeeze and let go. I quickly get out of the car and run to her side, open the door, offer my hand to her and help her out. Once out, I put my hands on her shoulders, her hands on my waist, and our foreheads meet, "Listen to me - I love you and love our child. I will do what ever I can do to protect you guys from whatever evil is lurking," I smile at her and just look into her beautiful eyes.

I can see the energy that she had at the doctor's office is soon fading - I only got four hours of sleep - she got less and being pregnant puts your body through the wringer - I know she's exhausted and wants to sleep.

"Let's go upstairs and get you into bed," I suggest to her. She puts her head on my left shoulder, wrapping our arms around one another and I walk slowly with her to the elevator to the floor of our apartment.

The ride up the elevator it seemed like Nance dozed a bit and when we got off the elevator it was easier if I just carried her to our door. I hated to but had to wake her a bit to put her down to get the keys out to open the door. Once in I carry her to our bed and put her down to rest, taking off her sneakers and socks and tuck her in the comforter and she's already asleep. I put everything near her that I think she might need - tv remote, phone, iPad within arms reach just incase she needs it. I don't know if she wants it or if it was just a fluke thing but I take the t-shirt I had on and tuck it in her hands so she has something of me with her. I know it helped yesterday while she slept when I wasn't near her so why not - it just may make her feel better while I'm gone.

Thankful it's Friday - I grab another white shirt and dress shirt and take Gary out to take care of her business and bring her back in quickly. I check in on Nancy I found it adorable that she had moved the shirt in her sleep to touch her face. I grabbed a picture of that as quietly I could but I honestly believe that she was so exhausted that a hurricane or tornado could roar through the apartment and she wouldn't awake. I make a K-Cup, grab a dress shirt and tie from the closet and call for a car to take me to work.

I get to work and I can feel the eyes all upon me. I know I probably look like hell and my behavior the last couple of days would raise anyone's suspicion and ideas about what's going on in my personal life but I could care less. The only person that I have to answer to here is Loren and Nancy over rules him. I have the daily production meeting to attend at 11:30; that gives me 30 minutes to get ready and time to get my thoughts together.

Meanwhile...

Quest Love and member of the Roots are curious or don't like the idea that Jimmy is hiding something from them. They know that Jimmy been acting different - but they want to know why and it's driving them insane. They're not use to Jimmy not telling them everything; being so secretive. Generally he wears his emotions on his sleeve and can't keep any type of secret but this has the Roots completely fooled. His general cheerfulness that he has throughout the day has been down a notch or two and they can all tell he's not as well rested as usual.

When in doubt go to the man who knows everything - Lorne.

"While I appreciate your concern - I'm fully aware of the situation and have it under control. While I know you guys care and everything - just drop it."

"Are you serious?" Quest Love speaks.

"Yes. Just be supportive of Jimmy right now. I promise things will get better soon and he'll be back to his cheery self soon. Just let him be - don't pressure him into telling you how he is or what's going on."

The guys realizing they were not going to get the answers they wanted or needed left Lorne's office more confused and curious then they were when they went in.

Once the guys left Lorne called Jimmy's office to let him know that the Roots were inquiring about him - in a meaningful way.

"I know - hopefully this weekend will be quiet for us. I only got four hours of sleep because she was up all night throwing up - I fell asleep on her because of sheer exhaustion," Jimmy started to choke up. "I found her sleeping on the floor of our bathroom this morning. She's so tired and worried now,"

"Worried?" Lorne interrupted. "Why?"

"In a few weeks her OB wants her to go in for an ultrasound to verify that everything is okay with the baby," he said in between tears. "Make sure that the baby is normal," if you're following. Anyways they scared the shit not only out of me but Nancy as well. She's so scared that if there's something wrong how are we going to handle it. I told her we would do it together but she still is frighten by the thought if there's a problem.

"Jimmy - I wish I could see into the future and say that everything's going to be all right."

"I did the same pep talk to Nance. She didn't say a damn thing on the way home. It was once I parked the car we that she said anything. More then likely everything will be fine and we're worrying over nothing but can't tell that for a few weeks and honestly I'm scared that it won't be but I'm trying to stay positive."

"If something is wrong or whatever, you have my full support on what you need to do for your family. Whether it's taking a day or two or months off you have my blessing. You, Nancy, and the little one are more important then the talk show and ratings. Are you going to be okay today to do the show?"

"Yeah - I just need a few minutes to calm down and compose myself. I'm just emotionally drained at the moment."

"Hopefully this is the worse part and once the next trimester begins baby will let Mommy rest and eat which will allow Daddy to relax a bit too. This weekend - shut your guys phones and the technical garbage off and make it about you two; just being there for each other. Just take a break from the outside world and be selfish about each other. If you open up to her about your fears and thoughts regarding everything, not just the pregnancy, I believe she'll feel better and open up to you more. Okay? I think it would relieve some of the stress that you have pent up and I'm sure Nancy does too."

We end our phone call and I prepare for the production meeting; my heart not really in it; I can't wait to the show over with so I can be with the most be with the most beautiful and amazing woman I know.