My name is Joshua, in a few month i'll be turning eighteen and leave to study overseas. That's most likely what i would have told you if we met months ago but now everything has changed so much… But let's go back to April, I was about to finish High school, i was a top tier student but not the best so a top tier school accepted me but again not the best. I was working out a bit but not too much to be honest i found it quite boring… I used to like japanese culture and supernatural a lot but I was not showing it anymore, you couldn't tell just by looking at me, let's say high school turned me into something more acceptable to the eyes of society. I could tell you a lot more about me but it'd be pointless for the moment.

This summer was hot, maybe climate change nevermind… I was on my way home sweating in this awfully tight school uniform, the bus was full as well but I was not fighting anymore , it was so hot and from the beggining this day was something I wished to forget.
My parents were most likely away on a business trip and they would not come back before June. I was used to it they were both lawyers for a great company so most of the time they were not here. I was in charge of my little sister Emilia she was sixteen , she was quite small even for me who was average, she had long purple hairs falling on her shoulder and on her back. I remember her hairs well since i was the one who gave all of his money to the hair dresser. Back to my sister… she likes to wear sweaters some of them are really weird though… she also liked tights a lot more than trousers or anything else.
Our parents gave me a lot of money since i was the one in charge but I spent a big part of it just to please Emilia, her cute smile was worth any money

Her room was full of cool but useless stuff while mine was quite empty, I just had some books, my computer to work for high school and soon University , speakers and a hidden place where I could store my alcohol. Maybe i did not mention it earlier but I'm alcoholic.
If you ask me why , i wouldn't be able to answer but instead of sleeping i'd rather spend my nights drinking and looking at the sky while listening jazz or some good music with my headphone. Of course no one was aware of this, I mean my dad would not care but my mom would probably send me to some « detox » place , and my sister was too kind if she knew she would spend her night worrying, so i was drinking alone in the night, maybe i was a bit depressed, maybe…. I never wondered about it and kept living doing my best everday and…

« Oh i stop here, This is my stop » I yelled to the driver who just stopped the bus without answering , i left the bus and could finally breath again, i looked a bit for my keys in my back and finally found them ! I opened the door and of course the moment she saw me my sisters jumped on me unaware that i was almost dying because of the heat

« Emilia… could you please let me go » I said sighing , i just wanted to take a shower and sleep for a whole year

« But it's Friday where are my candies » I couldn't answer.. That's right the candies… I wanted to apologize fast but just by looking at me she understood i did forget them, just like last week

She got off me without saying anything and did go back in her room

[Later in the night]

I showered and we ate separately, she didn't even talk to me during the whole night… It was around and i was about to hit the bottle now that she was asleep for sure… But when i oppened my little hideout no wine or Vodka.. i was quite surprised and then i heard someone knock at my door, It was Emilia and she was holding my bottles

« If this is what you are looking for we need to talk… » She said in a stern tone

Maybe i was in trouble or was I just depressing anyway… It seems i won't be able to run away anymore…

« Mind your own business Emilia just give them back to me …. Please » I had no other choice but to ask properly Emilia started martial arts 4 years ago and she was still practicing…. So violence was not an option and even if i twas i couldn't picture myself trying to hurt Emilia. I was about to ask again but i just stopped and resigned myself. I sat on the bed telling her to come with my hand . She slowly came and sat next to me getting sure the bottles were out of my reach she didn't know if i could become mad for alcohol…

« Is.. it every night ? Just why ? » The way she asked … It was obvious she knew the answer to the first question… But maybe she wanted to be sure or to hear me say it…

« It is indeed, and why ? I can't tell you… it's not like i don't want to tell you , i just don't know myslef » my voice was weak i think even Emilia had to get close to listen

« Do you feel neglected by mom and dad ? Or even by me » She said with her angelic voice, she hitted the spot, I felt like i was about to cry and was clearly unable to answer, so she decided to grab my hand tightly , her finger were soft and warm it was like touching silk… I was not looking but I heard her putting the bottles away with her spare hand and pushing me on the bed to lie down with me

« I understand you've always done everything right and never asked for everything … It's late right now, you should sleep, i'll come back tomorrow morning and we will finish this talking » I focused and her voice and was slowly asleep she left the bed and did let go my hand, she pulled the blanket over my body and kissed my left cheek, the smell of her perfume was the last thing I could feel before falling asleep this night

To be continued Chapter 2 [ I don't have a name X.X for the moment]