Carlisle POV
He laid in his room staring at the ceiling as he silently mope. It had been six weeks since Esme broke up with Carlisle and lately Carlisle found it impossible to keep going.
She was my everything...
He sighed and quietly cried a little though nothing came down. He hated himself for making her leave. She was the one and without her Carlisle was nothing but a speck of dust.
"Why?" He ask himself. "Why me?"
A sudden knock on his door made him jump.
"Daddy?" He heard his daughter voice called.
"Yes, Alice?"
She appeared in his room with a look of sympathy on her face. She knew how hard her father was hurting and Alice tried her best to cheer him up.
"We're going to play a game of ball." She said softy. "Wanna join?"
In that moment, Carlisle instantly thought back to the last time he played baseball which had been with Esme. She had been smiling so big throughout the whole time while wearing his jacket with his baseball cap on that had look so darn cute on her that Carlisle could of smothered her with kisses. Esme did so well that day and he was so proud of how she played.
The thought made him shiver a bit and he shook his head. "No, thank you."
"Are you sure? A little sunshine wouldn't hurt?"
Sunshine! My sunshine left me! The only women who could make my day brighter left me!
"Yes, I do not wish to play Alice."
Alice sighed. "I know you loved her and all, but we're worried about you dad and we want you-"
"I don't wanna play Alice." He said more forcefully.
Alice was taken back a bit by his tone. She decided not to push it and leave quietly before Carlisle exploded.
Carlisle closed his eyes and regret everything. He regretted making Esme break up with him and most importantly he regretted how he just treated his daughter.
I don't deserve this life..
As Carlisle started to think about it more.. he was right. He didn't deserve this life and the pain he was feeling right now. He wish for it to all go away, to stop time so he can take a deep breath before hitting play again. He wanted nothing but to end whatever his mind was grieving over.
It's time for me to end it
With that, he got up and pulled his suitcase out. Carlisle started to pack one pair of nice clothes, some essential stuff, a watch the kids got him, and placed the engagement ring he plan on giving Esme in his pocket.
He took a deep breath and walk out of the house, taking one last glance around.
I'll miss you guys
He hop into his car and started driving to the airport..
Esme POV
Esme lazily rest on her couch as she spoon another thing of ice cream into her mouth. If I Stay played on the TV for the sixth time that day because nothing else had entertain her more than a cheesy romance movie about a girl and a boy dramatic love story.
I hate love now..
She was feeling cold and lifeless. She found it hard to get out of bed anymore or up from the couch. Since her break up with Carlisle, Esme saw happiness as the hardest thing ever now. She tried doing things that made her somewhat feel human such as gardening or cooking, however it seem to sadden her more than make a smile on her face. She tried to block Carlisle out, that was impossible, she also tried to find a replacement but no one made her heart flutter the way Carlisle did. Nothing seem to work..
What is wrong with me?
Lately, her diet had consist of ice cream more ice cream and occasionally Chinese's take out to somehow take some of the pain away. Esme couldn't tell whether if she was gaining weight from all the junk food she was consuming or losing weight from not eating enough.
I'm so nasty
She heard the telephone ring, but she had no strength to get up and answer it. She made the decision to let the call go to voice mail instead. That was a mistake...
"Esme!" Alice panic voice yelled into the phone. "Esme please! You have to come over! It's Carlisle!"
Carlisle?
She felt her self instantly sit up as she listen to the call.
"Gosh dammit!" Rose scream in the background. "He gone!"
Esme got up and turn the voice mail off. She felt her heart sink to the floor.
Carlisle gone? He left!
The tears started to come down as she thought of her one true love leaving her forever. Why did she leave him? He was her lover and she broke his heart!
What did I do? It's all my fault!
Esme decided there was nothing she could do. She couldn't stop Carlisle after just breaking him and then leaving. She knew he deserved better than her and with that she went to bed. She must of laid there for hours just grieving the lost of her man.
If could take it all back... I would do it in a heartbeat
Alice POV
Alice panic as her and Rose tried to figure out a plan. They just got back from the baseball game to see a note from Carlisle on the kitchen counter. In the note, Carlisle explain how he was leaving to go back to the Volturi and "End his pain there". Alice was afraid of her father doing something dramatic like this and she was preparing herself for the worse.
"What are we going to do!" Rosalie stress.
Alice hissed. "I don't know! For once, I don't know!"
Rosalie stared at her before going back to her computer, trying to find plane tickets to Italy. Alice sighed and rub her forehead. She felt a little relieved when she saw a darkness of a vision happening.
He had been in pain for a solid two weeks now from Jane wrath. Carlisle laid in a dark cold cellar with no light to shine down. He could feel himself dying inside and his throat burn like fire from not feasting in days.
"Go get the trader." Demanded Caius.
Aro was away in Poland with is wife Sulpicia to celebrate the anniversary of their wedding day. Caius had taken upon himself to mark him in charge while Aro was away and first on his agenda was to rid of the Cullen leader slowly but painfully.
The guards drag Carlisle in as he hang helplessly. They drop him on the dirty floor and Caius walk in a circle around the man. He pitty Carlisle for his weak heart, not understanding a bit of his pain nor caring.
"You don't have to do this Caius." Carlisle spoke weakly. "Aro will be upset when he returns to see what you did."
Caius laughed. "Aro not here is he now?"
"Why don't you just end me now? That's what I came here for."
"Because your a trader!" Caius growled and kick his stomach. "You left us! And for what? To save unneeded lives? Your a fool Carlisle!"
Carlisle just lied there, praying that the kids were safe and that it was just him Caius wanted. In the end, He did not regret leaving the Volturi and becoming a doctor. Because when he become a doctor, he was somehow bless with six beautiful children and although she left him.. he was bless to be given the chance to meet the most beautiful creature on the planet. Something that would never happen if he stayed with the Volturi.
"Go ahead Caius." Carlisle said. "Get your revenge, I don't care. Maybe I'm a fool, but at lease I'm not flicking pain upon others to make myself feel better about life."
Caius hiss in furry. Who was this man! Who did he think he was?
"Guards!" Caius practically screamed. "Bring me the torch! I want fire!"
And then the vision grew weary as Carlisle screams were the only thing remaining.
Alice gasp as she came back. She stood there for a moment, feeling heartbroken that her father would leave them like that. She knew at that moment that she was not letting Carlisle die.
"Grab your stuff." Alice told Rose.
"Where are we going?" Rosalie ask.
"Esme house.."
