What the actual fuck! This has to be a joke. What a jerk!
"You have to be kidding me…" Was the only thing Kevin said to himself. He was about to get rid of the paper. He sighed and look at it closer, maybe it was fake.
Nope, it was authentic, he knew very well Eddward's handwriting, after all it wasn't the first time he sent him a note like this. At first he found them in weird places in his locker but later somehow, Eddward figured out the combination and started to place them where it was easy to see first, just in the middle and above all his stuff. He knew he placed it just minutes before because it wasn't there while he was cleaning.
What did mean that? He was confused and angry, like always. Eddward Vincent was enigmatic for him. He knew him for like three years and he always has been like this, so contradictory to his actions. He bullied him to no end, with actual rage but at the same time he kind of harassed him sexually and somehow tried to date him. Of course Kevin never let him go so far and never ever went out with him, but his rejection made Eddward more violent towards him so yeah, he never understood what was going on with him, he always thought Eddward just wanted to humiliate him but time to time he used to say or write stuff like this.
It was no secret to anyone that Kevin was gay, in fact for that same reason he lost all his friends and became the target of a lot of bullies, but the worst were always Eddward. Kevin knew that he wanted him to suffer in any way possible, so logically making him suffer emotionally making him think that somehow he loved him was something possible, that's why he never fell in it, he wasn't stupid.
But Eddward's actions always confused him, he wasn't sure what to think. Of course he never considered to be with him, he wasn't his type anyway, but he was curious about what was going on in that mind.
He sighed softly again. He continued with his work a little mad, at least it would be the last time. He was sorry? Not his problem anymore.
His locker was a mess, he has some problems of organization and accumulation too. He had a lot of stuff there, clothes, notes, parts of who know what, books still new, yeah, he was a boy. He found a lot of things he thought lost including his old cellphone that thought he lost in the movie theater one time he went to see the premiere of Terminator X with his friends, somehow it fell with some new old books and a note?
Rarely they changed lockers so it wasn't unusual to find things of years ago. This phone and books had at least three years, it was actually before his nightmare begun, and that note was as old as them. He unfold it and read it:
"Today is the Terminator X premiere and I have two VIP tickets. I know this is strange because we barely know each other but please go out with me.
I'll be waiting for you next to the principal door. I hope to see you there early.
Eddward V."
Kevin was so confused, what on earth…? He has never seen this note before, but again it was authentic, a little different but still Eddward's handwriting. He stopped to think a little and connect dots. He remembered it now.
Three years ago, when he was 12 almost 13 and still had his friends, he still lived with his mom but he already knew that he was moving in some weeks with his new family. At the beginning of that year, when he entered into that school none of them knew their lives will gonna change that much, that's why he really tried hard to make friends and he did it, so when the news came he was a little sad but luckily his mom let him stay there. He already knew some of the people because they studied together years ago but still he was new there.
A strange guy took interest in him, his name was Eddward Vincent and he looked nice, but for some reason all his new friends avoided him totally, he didn't know why, he was friendly and kind, and super smart.
One day Kevin and all his friends planned to go to a premiere all together, they went to see Terminator X. Kevin remembered that they actually saw Eddward waiting at the main door and wondered who was he waiting to. They laugh at him a little in silence and tried to avoid him but it looked like he heard them, they felt his glare, specially him, he really was strange, now he understood what they meant.
Eddward was waiting him. And he laugh at him and passed by. Now he realized why he was so offended with him.
Eddward were always a bully with everyone, at the beginning he were kind with him but after what happened in the movie theater it was obvious that he ended being his new target, his favorite target. Until now Kevin didn't know why, why suddenly Eddward hated him so so much. If only he would have read that note before, that very day, things would have been different. But it wasn't his fault, things happens for a reason. But still he wanted to know.
Kevin ended with his locker, he was ready to go. Everything was clean and all his belongings in his backpack. He knew very well that Eddward was watching him since the beginning, hidden behind a wall, waiting him, like always. Kevin knew that he will follow him anyways so he just went to the exit without saying a word.
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Eddward was watching him, making sure he gets the note he left. He saw, he saw him reading it, he saw him angry and then nothing. Was he ignoring him? He didn't blame him but… He just couldn't see him go and do nothing. So he followed him. He had to say something, do something, this can't end like this. But if a teacher saw them… No. He would talk to him outside of school, but his parents were wanting for him. What to do? What to do?
For his luck the Pumpkin decided to go to the bathroom first, now was his chance, now or never. He had to do things right.
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Kevin knew that the only place they would have some privacy would be the bathroom so he went there hoping that Eddward was sincere.
"Did you get my note?" Was the only thing Eddward said while closing the door behind him, this made Kevin a little nervous, maybe it wasn't a good idea being alone with him.
"Yes I did, I accept your apology and I give you mine" When he saw Eddward at the eyes he saw confusion. The wounds of earlier were still there and were his reminder of not falling for anything he could say.
"What do you mean?" Eddward's voice was low, soft, nervous. Kevin never saw him like this. He knew that the moment he saw the other note he would know so he showed it up. But now Eddward was more confused and a little hurt, he could tell.
"…I… I just found this in my locker." He made a pause. "It's the first time I saw it." He explained. "I didn't know. I'm sorry."
Eddward didn't need more explanations. Now everything had sense. He smiled sadly. Destiny was cruel, it wasn't Kevin's fault, probably at his eyes he just was a jerk.
"You didn't know… But it would have made a difference?…. It makes a difference now?" He was trying so hard for not cry, he wanted to cry. Everything was just a misunderstanding, something he could have avoided if only he would have had the courage to actually asked him personally and not using a fucking note. He was so scared of being rejected and he experimented something worse, public humiliation, but it wasn't like that! It wasn't like he thought it was. It was innocent, it was stupid, they didn't know nothing, he didn't know nothing. And for not ask, before or after, for not ask… Kevin almost died. Because he made his life a nightmare, and for nothing, he didn't know nothing!
"I don't know! But… I'm really sorry, ok? We can't change the past now but at least we can say goodbye in peace."
"Don't go. Please stay. I will change, things will change I promise. Just gimme a chance, Kevin." Eddward started to beg. He felt so impotent. He didn't want to just say goodbye.
"N-no, Eddward, I'm leaving, it's decided. I forgive you for all the misunderstanding but still… It had been years of pain and tears, and I just… I don't want to be here anymore." Kevin looked away.
"Come on, Kevin, give me a chance. A date, just a date. If you really don't like me I would leave you alone forever, but at least give it a try, to know if we could have worked together." This was so unreal. He looked so desperate, so soft, so kind again. Looking him at the eyes, not a bit of sarcasm, irony, danger. But he didn't like it, he didn't like this Eddward or any other, he just wanted to be away of all of this.
"I don't think it's a good idea, please stop already."
"JUST ONE!" Eddward yelled while grabbing him by his collar shirt. There he was again. Nothing would change.
"Take your hands off now." Kevin said calmly. Something changed, he wasn't afraid of Eddward anymore, and Eddward could see it too. "I said NOW!" Eddward obeyed. Kevin was pissed off. "Goodbye Eddward." Kevin tried to get out but he felt Eddward's hand around his and heard something fell. When he turned around he saw Eddward at his knees, miserable and pathetic, begging one more time.
"Please."
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A/N: well, this wasn't planned. Again, any mistake please point it out so I can fix it and learn more. Hope you like it.
LykanYouko
