I managed to walk to Marcie and when I stood in front of her I asked.

"So you think you´re too short?"

"Yes. I think so."

"Still think so?" I walked a little closer, so she would see that, my head just reached up to just under her jaw.

"Yes."

"Oh come on, if you´re too short, then I am the size of a pygmy." She smiled.

"Point taken."

"Lex?" Mr. Schue came up to us, with my crutches.

"Yes."

"I have some work to do, before we can go home. Is that all right for you to stay here for a few hours, or should I bring the work with me home?"

"No, it´s ok. I´ve got some homework to do, and it´s easier to concentrate at school, I also have to clean up in my locker, so. It´s ok to stay."

"Hang on" Tyler walked up to me. "You live at Mr. Schue´s? Why?"

"Is that of your business?" I mumbled.

"Ehrm, not…not really… I guess."

"Then why are you asking?" I asked. I turned around and jumped of the auditorium. The corridors were almost empty now, except from the glee- members. Most of them walked past me and just glared at me strange. I turned around and started to pull out things from my locker, with my back towards the corridor. When I pulled out my math book, some other books fell out, one of them turned open and I saw a small, writers block in it.

"I thought I´d lost that one," I mumbled to myself. "I haven´t seen it in like, two years." I put the other things back in my locker, and sat down by a table, and started reading.

Dear Maddie

There´s so much I wanna tell you, but I can´t. That´s why I´m writing in this book, I´ll show you it someday. Because I know we´ll meet again. Someday…

Dear Maddie

I never wanted you to die. I wish I could have died instead of you.

Dear Maddie

Now it´s been a year, I don´t know what to say. I don´t wanna live without you, especially not if that life is with dad. He´s been worse than ever since I got home, ten months ago.

Dad beated me up again yesterday…

It hurts so much…

Maddie please come back

Please

I kept on riffling in the book, faster, faster, faster. While this voice in my head was getting louder and louder.

"You should have died, it´s all your fault. I should be alive, I could have made more of my life, than what you are making." I fell down on my knees, with my hands on my ears, trying to ease the sound of Maddie, blaming me for her death.

Mr. Schue´s point of view.

I sat in my room, whistling on a song, and adjusting Spanish tests when I heard screaming from the corridor. I stopped whistling, and listened a little closer.

"No, no please don´t, please I don´t wanna die." I´d heard enough I almost flew out of my chair, running towards the door. I looked around when I came out the door and listened. The voice came from around the corner, but there was only one voice. I ran through the corridor, and around the corner. When I came around it, I could see someone sitting on her knees with her back against me, crouched, sobbing unstoppable.

"Lex?"

"No, no, please Maddie. Maddie, I never wanted you to die." The sight almost paralyzed me, and for several seconds I just stood there, not knowing what to do. Then my mind became clear again, and I rushed to her side, and squatted down beside her.