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"It's strange how we can lose things that are still right there. How a barrier can go up at any moment, trapping you on the other side, keeping you from what you want. How the things that hurt the most are things we once had."

-ROBYN SCHNEIDER, Extraordinary Moments


A woman patiently sat across from fifteen year old Korinna Rokos. Dr. Winslow could state that she had seen bits and pieces of progress from the teen but there were days where her cement wall would just not come down. Dr. Winslow wanted to know what it was that really made Korinna this way, it didn't matter how much money her father, Dimitri Rokos had put into each session for his daughter. What matter to Dr. Winslow was helping Korinna the best that she could, the woman could remember the first day Korinna's father had to drag her into the office. The girl simply did not want to be around the man, his presence clearly bothered her.

Weeks upon weeks Dr. Winslow took different strategies to help the young girl but Korinna never beat around the bush. If she didn't like something she would make sure that you knew and she didn't have a problem in telling Dr. Winslow how she felt about being here and cursed her father and step-mother brashly in Greek without a care in the world.

This girl's wounds ran deeper than Dr. Winslow thought. However the two were going to look at a different wound on this windy but slightly humid day in Skiathos.

"Korinna...we can't solve the problem if you don't tell me what's wrong. Let down the wall just a little like we practiced." Dr. Winslow encouraged while removing her eyes away from the large window that allowed too much sun into the office.

Korinna swallowed the lump in her throat, restraining herself from screaming from the top of lungs was starting to become unbearable. Everyday she walked around this island exhausted, no matter how many people she surrounded herself with she still felt lonely. It was no secret that her happiness belonged back in Chicago, yet her father thought that this would be a great experience since the only time she's been to Skiathos was when she were three years old. He swore in family therapy that he regained custody over Korinna to rebuild the life he once had with his only daughter. It was all bullshit. Everything about the new "Happy" family were built off lies - Dimitri and Astrid could pretend all they wanted but Korinna decided that enough was enough.

"I found some letters," Korinna started her voice low and her lips chapped from not speaking all morning.

Dr. Winslow moved around her desk to lean against it and crossed her legs over the other watching Korinna, who lay on the fuchsia chaise lounge chair completely at ease. Her dark dyed hair was pulled back into a simple bun out of her face allowing the heavy bags underneath her eyes to spark worry from the doctor. She couldn't be getting a decent amount of sleep and wondered if the girl had been eating, although she was already tiny to begin with. She was also dressed in her school uniform but Dr. Winslow knew that the girl would not have her mind on school since something was deeply bothering her.

"What letters?" Dr. Winslow inquired.

The fifteen year old itched at her thigh for a second before pulling her hands into her lap, "Letters that I wrote to my friends back at home. All this time...all this time I've been writing wondering why nobody wrote me back just to find that Astrid has never sent them. How could I be so stupid? Trusting her of all people to send them off for me. I know my dad had something to do with this too, Astrid she's such a nosy bitch. She snoops around my room and thinks I don't notice and when I confront her she acts dumb. I know how I leave my room every morning and something is always touched. I bet she snooped through the letters and brought them back to my dad who thought he could hide them from me. I can't believe it took me so long to figure this out!"

Dr. Winslow watched as Korinna took long inhales.

"Why do you think they hid them?"

"Because they don't give a shit one way or another if I'm happy or not. As long as they continue on with this 'perfect' vision of a nice family in their minds then hey who gives a fuck if Korinna is happy? They're so controlling you should see them, feeding me those pills that you gave me, Korinna be home by four so you can babysit Syn while we go out and have a life, Korinna don't hang out too late with Anwar and Josie, Korinna keep your door open while you're up there, Korinna do your homework, Korinna come cook dinner and hold a conversation with us, Korinna watch tv with us. It's like they want me brainwashed. They cut me off from the life that I had back on south side, just because my daddy cut me and my brothers off doesn't mean he gets to snatch me away from my home. This place is fucked. I'm going out of my mind staying here, I can't even do any of the things I want to do." Korinna vented, rubbing her eyes making them redder than they already were.

"What are in these letters that would want to keep your father and Astrid from sending them off?" Dr. Winslow wondered.

Korinna shrugged her shoulders, "I only wrote to four people. Four people that I love and I think that's what made them snap. They're jealous of what I have with the people I truly love and they know that they'll never get that shit from me. Ever."

"What are their names?"

"Nicky, Vito, Debbie, and...Carl." Korinna felt the lump appear in her throat again.

Dr. Winslow noticed the change in her tone when it came to the last name she mentioned. Dr. Winslow moved to sit down on her chair, resting her hands on top of the desk. "Does Carl mean a lot to you?"

"Yes." There was no sugarcoating it anymore.

Korinna sat up from the lounge chair her eyes meeting Dr. Winslow's, "I won't let my life waste away here with them. Since you're the only one who wants to listen to me, I will not rot here. I will get back to the life I had - it may not have been the greatest but it's all I have and no one is going to continue standing in the way of my happiness. I will get back to Carl...the people I care about even if it kills me."


After spending lunch in the park with the cult (Korinna's new name for her "brand new" family.) she managed to track down Josie and her busy schedule of life. Josie sent out a group text to both Korinna and Anwar to meet at Anwar's since her mansion sized home was going under some renovations. The dark haired teen made her way up Anwar's curvy driveway following the water trail, when Korinna got to the top she spotted Anwar's tall self washing off his mother's International Harvester Scout 800.

"Honey, I'm home." Korinna called out to Anwar who glanced over from his shoulder.

Anwar held one rag in his hand as he held one arm out to bring Korinna into a hug, "Hey baby, hey baby, hey."

Korinna snorted as she moved underneath the garage for some shade, "Josie's got you listening to Gwen Stefani again?"

"It get's worse everyday," Anwar answered with a laugh, "How was therapy?"

Korinna lifted the strawberry lemonade filled pitcher and poured some into an empty glass, "Got some things off my chest."

Anwar picked up the hose while wiping the sweat from his brow, "That's great. Do you feel a bit better now?"

Swallowing the tangy but sweet drink Korinna one hand out, "I guess. What I shared only pushed me further to try and get out of here."

Anwar had listened to Korinna a few times while drunk admit how she couldn't stay here in Skiathos. This place could never be her home because her heart, soul, and mind was left somewhere else. She was not this person that Anwar and Josie got to see, the lost girl - she had her shit to deal with no doubt back on the south side but she was never this sad. She accepted her drama and lived with it but being near her father and the new life he created for himself made her physically sick like poison was being injected into her system being around him. It wasn't healthy and Anwar knew that Mr. Rokos was aware.

"Want to hear a new poem I've been working on?" Anwar decided to change the subject.

Korinna knew that her friend didn't want her to leave but he would never hold her back.

"Sure."

Anwar grabbed his leather journal from the glove department of the vintage SUV, the sound of a door creaking from behind the two caused Korinna to turn in the stool she sat in to see no other than Josie. Josie jumped off the steps in her tennis uniform, her curly afro bouncing with her as she walked over to the two.

"Hiya." Josie chirped throwing an arm over Korinna's shoulders, pressing their cheeks together in a small hug.

Korinna smiled at the girl, "Hey Jo. Have fun at the tennis court today?"

Josie picked up her own glass from the tray that rested on the small stand beside the stool Korinna sat on, "Yeah I did. Would have been better if I practiced with you, my mom isn't the best when it comes to tennis."

Korinna and Josie both loved to play tennis down at the country club her parents owned. Korinna easily picked up on the sport since it took some of her frustration out but after Josie's father caught his daughter trying to kiss Korinna he immediately banned Korinna from the country club. Apparently it was that deep to have a bisexual daughter and that her focus should be on school only and for awhile Josie kept her distance since she felt embarrassed that she had tried to put the moves on Korinna who happened to only like boys.

Whenever Anwar watched Josie have a conversation with Korinna it always seemed like she tried to flirt with her unintentionally but Korinna always brushed it off.

"Anwar you showed her your new piece yet?" Josie asked from behind the rim of her glass.

Anwar wiped his hands onto his pants, "I was going to before you appeared. Its not finished yet so I don't think I should show it."

"Has Jo read it?" Korinna challenged.

Josie nodded her head, "I made him show it to me. His poetry reading is tomorrow since it's the last day before winter break and he hasn't finished it yet!"

"That's not fair," Korinna argued with a frown, "What makes Josie more special than me?"

Anwar blushed as he rubbed the back of his head as he thought, 'You're definitely mean more to me than you know.'

Josie rolled her eyes, "Uh...Annie and I've been friends long before you came into the picture. Don't forget that sista," She finished with a sass.

"AND?" Korinna rolled her neck a little with a smile on her face knowing a playful argument was about to start between the two.

Anwar let out a groan, "Can you guys not do this today. I'm already nervous that I have to read this in front of almost the entire school and their parents!"

Korinna jumped down from the stool with the glass of strawberry lemonade in her hands and walked over to her friend. She wrapped one arm around his waist since she couldn't reach his shoulders, "Then let's take your mind off it."

Anwar felt his breathing stop for a second as Korinna said this. He didn't know why she said and looked at him the way she did if she doesn't feel the same. He knew that she loved somebody else but the way she moved, talked, and touched him sometimes made him question it. Or maybe he just wanted to see what he wanted to see so it didn't hurt as much.

"Oh no. What are you going to make the poor Annie do?" Josie interrogated with slits in her eyes.

Korinna removed her arm from Anwar's waist and held it to her chest in mock-hurt, "I never make Anwar do anything."

Josie rolled her eyes again as she messed with her large curls, "Yeah right and I'm North West."

"You could be when you grow up," Korinna barked.

Anwar sighed as moved to sit into the passenger seat on the car leaving the door wide open, "What are we going to do to take my mind off this stress? I have a feeling I already know where you're heading with this."

Korinna smiled at the both of them showing her teeth as she slipped her hand up her sweater causing Josie to raise an eyebrow and Anwar to turn his head. Korinna pulled out a baggie from her bra holding it up in the air.

"What the hell is that?" Josie investigated, a frown now setting upon her face.

Korinna grinned, "What do you think it is? Pills."

"Yeah I know that genius, what kinds of pills?" Josie quipped.

Korinna wiggled the bag as she eyed the pills intently. Josie and Anwar both shared a glance as Korinna took her eyes off the numerous of pills with a shrug, "Don't know. Could be a mixture of a little bit of everything."

"Where'd you get them?" Anwar pried, trying his hardest not seem judgmental with the way he stared at the girl.

"A guy. He went doctor shopping and gave them to me at the park where I wondered off after ditching the cult...then I came here." Korinna informed the two as a breeze swept against their faces.

Josie let out a humorless laugh, "And what do you expect Anwar to do with them? You clearly don't know what those pills are so how do you think it's possibly okay to offer them to him?"

Korinna glared at her friend, "I wouldn't let him take them alone. Just like he never let's me go to any parties alone. I wasn't offering them to you, Miss. Timid so if you don't want to take them, then don't. So calm your tits, Jo."

Josie jumped down from the stool, "No. I won't 'Calm my tits,' you don't realize that the shit you do always comes back to bite Anwar in the ass. This is why my parents don't want me to hang out with you because I have a lot going for myself and I won't let some girl from the wrong side of the country mess not only me but my best friend's life up. Just because you're ungrateful with the life your dad is giving you doesn't mean you can put your shit on us!"

"Ungrateful?!" Korinna yelled stepping into Josie's face.

Anwar jumped down from the car quickly moving to step in between the two girls.

"You don't know shit about me. Maybe if you didn't walk around like you have a stick so far up your ass 24/7 maybe you'd know what it feels like to actually be a teenager! Don't try to tell me about myself when you don't know the first thing about me!" Korinna roared, ready to talk with her hands opposed to her mouth.

Josie let out another humorless laugh as she tried to peek over Anwar's tall frame, "Yeah I definitely want to be like you. Someone with mommy and daddy issues, someone whose unhappy when they have a supporting family at home who took you away from a shit place and tried to make your life better, someone who goes to parties to get high and drunk every other day, someone who doesn't give a damn about their education, someone who uses their other two friends to get what they want, someone who thinks cutting themselves and wanting to die is the answer. Yeah I sure want to live your teenage life!"

That's when the glass Korinna had in her hand broke, the glass sliding through her skin but like Josie said it wasn't anything she hadn't felt before. Josie and Anwar watched Korinna with wide eyes as she tried to control her anger. To her it was if she blacked out, all she wanted to do was hurt somebody and that somebody was Josie. Fading in and out of black, Korinna remembered Josie throwing her drink on Korinna and testing her to see if "Would you like to do something?" which Korinna did. She didn't remember touching Josie. She didn't remember throwing a punch to her mouth over Anwar's shoulders, she didn't remember trying to go underneath Anwar's tall frame, she didn't remember Anwar lifting her up, she didn't remember Josie tugging her from Anwar's hands and pulling her to the floor, she didn't remember throwing undercuts to Josie's stomach and almost ending her life with a monkey wrench. No, she didn't remember that at all.


When Korinna opened her eyes she didn't know where she was. As she sat up she realized she were in a bed, but the bed didn't belong to her. Calmly she shoved the covers from her and stepped onto the wooden floor and moved to a small window. With shaky hands she moved the curtains out of the way to peek out into the night, the land could be seen through the night and it appeared as if whatever she were inside of were gliding against something. Water?

Korinna rushed over to the door and stepped out into the narrow hallway. She heard hushed voices as she moved closer to the main area of the boat? She immediately spotted Anwar's mother sitting in a chair with her hands resting over her mouth. Her eyes met Korinna's first and gave her a small smile, "Hello."

"Why am I here?" Korinna's voice came out hoarse.

Anwar lifted himself from the couch turning to face Korinna, "You don't remember?"

Korinna fell silent as she stared at her feet trying to remember anything after the lunch she had with her family, "No, I don't. I wouldn't have asked if I did."

Anwar and his mother shared a glance before Anwar's mother waved her over, "Come sit."

Korinna slowly walked over to the two sitting next to Anwar as his mother stood, "I'll go make you some tea."

"Mom, you don't have to do it. I can go," Anwar began to say but his mother silenced him.

His mother shook her head, her blonde hair falling into her eyes a bit as she slowly stood with the help of her cane. "What's more important is you telling Korinna what's going on."

Korinna felt her heart race at that turning her head quickly back to Anwar's who didn't want to meet her eyes.

"Anwar you're scaring me. What's going on, why am I here? Are we on some sort of boat? Is Dimitri and Astrid here too?" Korinna rounded off some questions as she fully turned to Anwar who stared at his hands.

Anwar took a deep breath as he lifted his almost see-through eyes to meet Korinna's dark colored iris, "You scared me too."

"What?"

"It's not important. My mom decided that taking a early winter break would be best, we're going to Kentucky to visit my sisters. We're on a boat that's going to take us back to the main land where the airport is. First we'll stop in Chicago where you belong and my sisters will come get my mom and I from there." Anwar addressed his eyes searching Korinna's.

Korinna felt her mouth drop in shock, she didn't know or care if her "family" were here with her or not. She was getting a chance to be back with the people she truly loved and she had Anwar and his mother to thank for that. Excitement ran through her veins as she threw her arms around Anwar in a hug. The boy hesitated in wrapping his arms around her in return, squeezing the back of her arms and rubbing gently.

"Thank you, thank you so much for doing this." Korinna whispered, her eyes clamped shut as felt warmth building behind her eyes.

Anwar gave a sad smile from behind her frame, "I just want to make you happy."

There were truth behind those words. Anwar would do anything for this girl he cared about, it only took a few months for him to realize that he liked her and when he admitted it to her he became hooked. He didn't know if Korinna Rokos knew that she continued to hurt him and if she did Anwar knew that she would go out of her way to never do it again. Anwar would keep her safe no matter what happened from this point on and he just hoped she would forgive him once those lies were revealed.


A/N: Are you freaking out because I am! What is really going on here, though? Lol. I have no idea either it kinda just happened. So the next update should be sometime this week or early next week, I have to update two other stories on wattpad and then I'll be back on to update mad hatter and then this will be updated again.

On the plus side Korinna is on her way home! Will this really be the best decision for her? What really happened between her and Josie? (Who is played by Amandla Stenberg) Why is Anwar trying so hard to keep her safe when Josie is a childhood best friend? So many questions that will be be discussed soon. But whose ready to see Carlinna reunite because I sure am, I didn't want to drag Korinna being in Greece out too much longer ya know?

Last night's episode was just as good as episode six! I love Carl again just to let ya'll know, the Carl we all know and love is back and it took for one of his friend's to do something tragic for him to snap back. I feel for him I really do. Also for episode eight, the gash on his head looks like it hurts. FRANK DO NOT GET CARL KILLED OR I WILL DRAG YOU LIKE JOSIE DRAGGED KORINNA OKAY?!

That's all - also I tried to update this last night but fell asleep while writing it and now I'm hurrying to publish this since I have PT in a few hours.

Let me know how freaked out you are with this chapter and we can pray together sometime lol.

See ya!