Hi, I´m at my Godmother´s now. Finally came here on Thursday.
When I came into the choir room, all of the others- except Anna were already sitting there. I stopped right inside the door. I was gonna tell the others about Hayley´s dad, but I didn´t really know how to start. Until Connor looked my way.
"Lex?" The others silent. "What´s going on?" I thought for a minute, and then took a deep breath and.
"….I…" Suddenly Anna came running into the room.
"My brother have broke up with his girlfriend, Joe´s coming back home…. " she said, then she saw the worried looks on everybody´s faces. "What´s going on?"
"Lex?" Tyler asked.
"I… I got a text message from Hayley last night… her dad…. He died, at seven thirty yesterday evening. Hayley… she said that… it was his favorite part of the day. And… and she said that…. His… ehrm…" I pulled out my cellphone, and began searching through it to find the text message from Hayley. As thoughts were spinning in my head so bad, I couldn´t remember what it said.
"Ehrm… his funeral is some time next Friday, and… and she wants us to sing something at it. And…. Well, she doesn´t want to talk to anyone yet." I walked over to the chair next to Tyler. I leaned against his back.
"I wish there was something we could do!" Mariah said.
"We can!" Ethan said. "I`ve got an idea."
An hour later
"So, have everybody got which line they´re singing?" Mr. Schue asked, we nodded, or answered him yes. And then he started the video camera and we started. I was the one talking before the singing.
"Hi Hayley. We all wanted to do something so you´ll understand that we´re here for you. And Ethan came up with this idea, so…. Here it is. And we mean every word we sing. We went through the whole song, we had barely practiced but this just had to work.
Mr. Schue turned the camera off, and then plugged into the camera in his computer, before emailing the video to Hayley.
"Glee club´s over for today then." Mr. Schue said. I turned towards Tyler and Connor.
"Are you coming?" I asked. They both shook their heads.
"Actually, we´ve got something we have to do." Connor said.
"Can I come?" None of them answered, but I could see the answer in the eyes. I nodded.
"Okay, see you on Monday then." I turned around and rushed out of the room, and to my locker to get my things. I walked slowly home, didn´t mind about the others sitting in the kitchen. I walked straight upstairs, and laid down on my bed. Not really knowing what to do. Until someone knocked the door to my room, and in came Tyler.
"What are you doing here?" I mumbled.
"Come with me downstairs, we´ve got something to show you."
"Who´s we?"
"Me, Connor, the twins, Ben, Marcie, Ethan, Blaine, Kurt and Mr. Schue. Come on." I stood up and walked downstairs, where Kurt sat by the piano, and Blaine had a guitar. The rest of the ones Tyler had mentioned, and Burt and Carole sat around the living room. I sat down in the stairs where I could see all the others.
"I´m sorry Lex." Tyler began. "This week, it´s been like, we´ve all had our own problems, and we who haven´t had them, have concentrated on Alice and Hayley. But the fact is…. Hayley isn´t the only one going through such rough stuff right now…. Hayley also said, that you had no family."
"Thanks for reminding me," I muttered. Tyler continued.
"…but in fact, in New Directions, we´re a family. Just one big happy, extremely dysfunctional family." The others laughed, Connor continued.
"And in families, we´re there for each other, and that´s why we´re singing this to you now." The song started. I fought hard not to cry as long as I could until when it had stopped and I leaned my head against the wall, there were tears in silent running down my cheeks.
"Thank you." I whispered, just as loud as the others could hear it. I heard Tyler come up the stairs, he sat down next to me, and pulled me close.
"You know what Ty?"
"No."
"The next thing on my list, is to talk to mum and Zeb, and tell mum what I think about her."
"What do you think about her?"
"I don´t know." I whimpered. "And I don´t think I´m ready to do it yet."
Playlist
For Hayley- What are words- Chris Medina
For Lex- Keep holding on- Avril lavigne
So, stopping right there. So… you know what? Today is seventeen months since the first day without my meds. Or, of course there had been days before when I didn´t take them, I usually didn´t take them at weekends or holidays, but February the sixth, it was the last day ever I took them, and today is seventeen months without meds. DAMN I´M GREAT.
