It seemed like the moment of crying it all out had done well for me, and for the first time in God knew how long, I felt hungry. Mr. Schue drove away to a restaurant and we walked in. When we were by the counter, I started checking my pockets for my wallet.
"No, I´ll pay." Mr. Schue said, I opened my mouth to protest, but then realized I had left the wallet in my locker. Even if Mr. Schue wouldn´t want to pay for me, I had no choice. We got our plates and started taking food from the table. Then we walked to a corner- a bit away from where anyone else were sitting and sat down.
Mr. Schue pov
"Do you want to talk about it?" I asked Lex, she shrugged.
"I don´t know what there is to talk about." She took a bite from the food, probably to save some time before she said something else.
"I just…" she began. "I just…. Like, this last time. I mean, first Kathryn and Zeb came back, and it messed up this whole adoption- thing. Then what happened, happened. Then I had those letters and presents. And then…. The reaction came. And I have been. These last few days, thinking about…. Everything, and… I don´t know… I´m like, so tired because I haven´t slept more than three hours a since Sunday. I´m like… so hungry because I´ve barely eaten for days…. But still I can´t sleep…. Can´t eat…."
"You´re eating now." I joked, she smiled, and nodded.
"Hopefully it will get better now. When I´ve gotten it out of my head." I smiled, nodded and took another bite from my food.
"I don´t understand what happened earlier."
"You had a panic attack."
"What´s that?"
"A panic attack is a sudden feeling of panic, when you have one, you get symptoms you have if you´re panicking. It can come right out of the blue, and can be very scary, especially if you haven´t had one before. But it´s not in any way dangerous, and usually don´t come back. For most people they grow worse during stressed parts in life. And… well, that you have. Sometimes it can get better by talking to someone about it. And, I´ll tell you again, if you want to talk about anything. I´m here for you." Lex nodded.
"I just don´t get why Kath couldn´t have those papers signed immediately. It would have saved me loads of problems…"
"I don´t think it´s that easy to just give up on a child like that."
"She did it once, and then she left us in misery. Why can´t she just do it again, when she knows that I`ll be better up without her." I smiled, and tried to come up with an answer…. When I came up, thinking of a song instead.
"Mr. Schue? William Schuester?" Lex´ voice brought me back to reality. I made a quick note in my head to remember to make fix you at glee- club tomorrow, as a possible song for Danny Gordon´s funeral.
"Sorry, I dreamed away. Are you done?" Lex nodded, I stood up, and took my jacket. Lex did the same. We got in the car and drove in silence for a while.
"Which one´s your next lesson Lex?" I asked, mostly to say something. "Lex?" I turned my head when I didn´t get an answer. Lex was leaning against the car- window, sleeping. I drove onto the side of the road and dialed Burt´s number.
"Hummel!"
"Hey Burt, this is Will." I answered him.
"Hello… is everything all right? Is Lex all right?"
"Lex is fine. But I don´t think she´ll get through the rest of the day. Is anyone home at yours?"
"Yes. Kurt and Blaine should be at home."
"I´ll bring her there."
"Sure everything´s all right? Why are you bringing her home? Is she sick?"
"Nah, but she had a pretty bad panic attack earlier. I drove with her to a restaurant so she could get out of the school for a while. We talked a bit, and now she´s fallen asleep in my car. So I figured I could bring her home."
"Yeah, you do so. Hope it´s not too much trouble."
"No trouble at all. I´ll bring her home now, have a good day."
"Yeah, you too."
"Bye." I hung up, started driving again and turned the car. After no more than a couple of minutes I drove up on the drive way for number 415. I got out of the car, walked around it, and carefully- not to wake her up- I lifted Lex up. I had walked about half up the driveway when the door opened and Kurt and Blaine came running.
"Mr. Schue, what happened?" Kurt asked worried.
"No need to worry. Lex is fine. She had a panic attack earlier, I took her out to eat lunch so she would get out of school for a while. Then she fell asleep in my car. I haven´t got the heart to wake her up and bringing her back now." Blaine lifted Lex from my arms.
"Thanks for bringing her home." Kurt said, and turned around. I turned around towards the car and drove back to the school. When I came through the corridors I spotted Marcie outside my office.
"Hey Marcie." I said. "Everything all right?"
"Yes, fine. Ehrm. I wondered if I could ask you for a favor."
"Yeah, anything."
"I know it´s valentine´s day and so next week. And Ethan told me that new directions usually have a love- theme during the week for valentine´s day."
"Yes."
"But…. My dad´s leaving next Saturday and I was wondering…."
Carole pov
In the afternoon, for once, I and Burt came home at the exact same time. Burt took one of the grocery- bags. And we walked together into the house.
"Hello?" I shouted, no answer. "Hello?" I walked into the living room, and there I saw it. Blaine and Kurt sat in the sofa, Kurt has his head leaning against Blaine´s shoulder, and Blaine has his head against Kurt´s. Lex had apparently been sitting by the foot of the sofa, but now laid with her upper body across the boy´s legs. All three of them sleeping tightly. I smiled and let Burt take my grocery bag, then I couldn´t help but to get my camera and take a picture of them three. Then I lifted up a blanket, unfolded and laid it over Lex.
Lex groaned and pulled up her hand to her face, but didn´t wake up.
"How can that be comfortable?" Burt whispered.
"It can´t" I whispered back, stroke away the bangs from her face. Then I kissed her forehead.
"My poor little girl" I whispered. And then I left the room along with Burt.
The song Mr. Schue starts thinking about- fix you- coldplay
