That weekend, we had to start the whole adoption- process all over again. God knows why, and it would yet take multiple months before ma and pops would be my legal guardians. Of course, I couldn´t wait until it was all done- there only was one problem.
"Alexandria Cara Snow Hudson Hummel? That´s five names." I complained to Tyler on Tuesday. "But I don´t want to take away any of them. Obviously I can´t take away Alexandria, because that´s my first name. I don't want to take away Cara, because I´m named after Carole. I don´t want to take away Hudson or Hummel because I want to have the names of both ma and pops. So Snow would be the ultimate choice. But then both of my biological siblings will still be named after the weather they were born in and I´ll not… Tyler are you listening?"
"Mhm." Tyler said absent.
"Tyler. What´s going on? You´ve seem to be so far away all morning." I reached for a tray in the canteen. And started stretching for the food.
"Sorry… I´m thinking about James."
"Tyler, you know he´ll be fine in no time."
"I know, but… you know… I feel bad about not bringing him home the moment he started complaining about his stomach hurting. James may be just nine, but he doesn´t complain about such stuff unless it gets really bad."
"Ty there was no way you could have known. And James´ coming home today. The wound´s gonna be healed in no time, and James will be back to his hyper- quite annoying self in the blink of an eye."
"What´s going on with James?" Connor had sat down by the dining table next to me.
"We were in our cabin- just me and him. This weekend, and he started complaining about stomach- cramps on Saturday evening. I said he´d feel better in the morning. He didn´t so I started packing our things and then packed everything in the car. I drove home, but when we came. James was so drowsy and in so much pain he couldn't get out of the car. I got dad, he called an ambulance… and well… James was rushed in with appendicitis."
"Is he okay?"
"Yeah. Mum should be bringing him home… about now. It was just a major scare… and you know. I feel bad for not bringing him home when I should´ve."
"Tyler there was no way you could have known." Connor said like me. "And James is fine." Tyler smiled slightly, then stood up.
"I`ll go call my mum." He said and left the table- his food had been barely touched.
"Only glee club left of this day." Aiden exclaimed as he was the last one. Except Mr. Schue, to come into the choir room later that day. "That means, only three days left of school, then no school for ten days. I wish the time would go a little faster." In the middle of Aiden speaking Mr. Schue came walking.
"That´s right Aiden." He said and threw his bag at the piano. "And later we´ll start worrying for regionals. But as we couldn´t have our love- theme for valentine´s day- we´ll have it this week instead. So… nothing hard to understand. This week is all about love songs. About love when it´s new, strong, when it´s ending. Love for a partner, a brother, a sister, a parent. It isn´t any harder than that."
"Mr. Schue?" Teeghan raised her hand. "Can I preform a song?" Mr. Schue nodded and showed her to get out on the floor while he sat down himself, I gave Tyler a meaning gaze. He nodded, and rolled his eyes slightly. We both… hrm… we all knew what was coming.
When the music died out, the last tone. Teeghan lowered her head. There were a few spread claps around the room.
"Teeg," Tyler sighed. "You need to let it go." Teeghan didn't answer, she stood up and walked out of the room. I had started thinking about something, and didn´t react- or even hear the others talking. Before Mr. Schue dismissed the glee- club for today. I said goodbye to Tyler for the day in the choir room. I needed to be alone. I needed to think, when I walked past the auditorium I heard music, when I came out in the stairs. I saw Teeghan there, along with Eli, who sat by the piano. I didn´t recognize the song that Teeghan started singing on, but I knew that Teeghan sang this right from her heart.
I slowly walked down the stairs while Teeghan were singing I clapped a few times as I stepped onto the stage. Teeghan´s eyes were red, and her cheeks swollen from crying.
"Teeg." I started. "I really don´t know what it is I have that makes Tyler want me. I really don't. But Ty is an amazing guy… and… I know that… if you wouldn´t be so much… like this… he would love to be friends with you."
"I don´t want to be friends with Tyler. We had something else. Something called love, Tyler was the one for me. I have no one else, I´ll never find someone else." I bit my lip and thought for a second, then I remembered something that Kurt had told me about telling a guy.
"Imagine…. Fifteen years from now. You´ve got a husband- you love him very much. You love him like you´ve never ever loved anyone else. You´ve got a son, a beautiful little man four, maybe five years old. And you´re on your way to take him to the beach. And then you know, that you couldn´t have been happier."
"Cole." Teeghan Exclaimed.
"What?"
"His name´s Cole."
"Your husband?"
"My son, if I ever have a son his name´s going to be Cole."
"So then, you´re going to the beach with your husband, that you love very much, and your son named Cole." I couldn´t help to giggle. Teeghan bit her lip, but soon started giggling she too. I reached my hand out.
"Friends?"
"For now." Teeghan shook my hand, when we let go I walked up the stairs alone. Alice were waiting for Teeghan further away. When I came out I hugged Tyler really tightly and kissed him.
"You know I love you very much okay?" I said when I could speak again.
"Of course," Tyler ran hi fingers through my hair. "I love you too, all the way to the moon and back again."
Playlist
When it was me- Paula Deanda (though I prefer the DjBonnie version)
White horse- Taylor Swift
