Chp5 summer school

From day one Annie has change our lives. Calm, serene, giving Annie has injected a strong force into our family. She doesn't seem twelve, more like 17. She's been taking care of Ray for the last two-years. She cooks as good as mom or Andrea, our housekeeper. She is so self-contained, so similar to me. Yet she is so open and caring. So bright. The days seem to float by in a happy haze. I find her reading on couch, sipping tea. She goes every day and spends four hours with Ray. She has Mia wrapped around her finger. Mia is more focused and less airhead. Her airhead friends like Lily drift away. They can't compete with the bright, genuine Anastasi. Mia's actual doing her summer reading list and more activities and less mall surfing and shopping. Even guilt-tripped Mia and Elliot into making their bed every morning. I find myself sleeping, no nightmares, just dreams of Annie.

She runs with me in the morning, then makes me breakfast before I head out to my intern job. Ray and her ran every day. So she runs every morning with me, she never runs alone. She very fast and loads of endurance, our runs cover five miles. I originally let her lead the pace. but it disturbs me. Watching her ass bounce and sway always gives me a hard-on. I know I'm not supposed to view her like that, I can't help myself. I have to imagine Elliot in fishnets or Grandma T in a bikini. I feel like a pervert, she so young and perfect. So now I lead, she's fine with that. We run in silence, peaceful. My mind clears of all the issues and I find myself smiling, enjoying the morning, even the rain as we escape the world. I just can't get her out of my head some days.

At night she curls up at my side watching TV or movies. She loves the movies from the fifties and sixties. She made me watch the THOMAS CROWN movie with Steve McQueen so I don't become a megalomaniac millionaire. I found Bogart SABRINE most enjoyable. We both laugh at MAD, MAD, MAD, WORLD. I feel so normal with her. We both hate FRIENDS and STEINFELD, which Mia is obsessed with. I feel so at easy, hell the whole family feels at ease with her.

Mom loves that Mia has positive role model, and friend. That Annie cooks and cleans up after herself, that is always caring and giving. Elliot has another sister to prank, clown with and care about. Dad is the most changed. He seems smite with Annie. She rides into town to the VA hospital with him. They seem to have a connection, at first Mia was jealous. But she started going to the hospital with Annie. They both spent time with dad at his office afterwards. Mia is growing up. They are thick as thieves.

I overheard Mom and Dad talking one night near the pool. How much Annie means to them. How she has overcome so much to be a giving and caring person. They plan on asking Ray to make them guardians if anything should happen to him. I feel happy and yet stressed. I try to see Annie as a sister, but I fail. I see her as person, as someone to protect and cherish. I feel emotions I can't understand. I will have to talk to Mrs. Hawthorne.

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My summer job is going great. Mostly getting coffee, running messages and mail. I start to read the files I carry. At first the spread sheets where gibberish, then after a while everything makes sense. I start to see patterns. I try to understand why the patterns happen, the why and how. I work thru the noise to understand the underlying concepts. I see how so many people are drones, rather than fix a problem just pass it on.

I found a company that was failing. I dug and found the Board of Directors is sinking the company to declare bankrupt so than can sell off the parts of the company, which is worth more than the company and screw over the worker. Two hundred people will lose their jobs, while the board reaps millions. I bring it to my boss attention, but they ignore it. Not their concern. I position some stocks to reap the demise of the small manufacturing company. Every night Annie ask about my job and how I like or dislike something. We talk for hours. I feel connected and normal.

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I sit on the dock, watching the boats sail past me. I feel her. She flops down. We stay speechless for a long while. She leans over and pours ice down my neck. I jump, twist and fall off the dock. Sputtering I lever myself on to the dock. Miss Steele is running for her live to the house and safety of mom. I stand soaking wet, angry, and so planning my revenge. I look up and Annie is in the window smiling. I salute her and fall backwards off the dock. I swim to the boat house, laughing all the way. So much for depression over her leaving next week. I find the world doesn't have room for sadness when Annie about.

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I dread tomorrow, Ray's getting out of Rehab and their going home. Mom is throwing a party. I dance with mom, Mia and Annie. Elliot is clowning with Ray, but hanging on to every word about carpentry. Elliot has always build things. It's his passion. Dad suggest a construction job for the summer. Elliot is in hog heaven. Finally, all those muscle do something besides dazzle girls. I'm sad she going home. I hug her before they leave. It feels; home. I'm empty afterwards. Lost in depression. But I have four more weeks till school.

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I now focus on sex, now that Annie's gone. I need to find a submissive. My therapist is not happy I'm look for payed sex partners. But I can't go around asking the girls in school, if I can tie them up and fuck them. All the sub's want a Dom, since I'm not a Dom they wouldn't work for me.

I final find a Dom, who will train me. An older gentleman name Sid. Who begins my train making me read books and blogs about BDSM and how a relationship is structured? I can only watch videos. And practice. If nothing else, it improves my posture and self-control over the next three months. I attend several demos, always masked and covered. I think it will work for me, I still have trouble giving pain. I focus more on the sex and pleasure parts.

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Private Party: BDSM party: before thanksgiving

I watch a girl getting caned. I feel sick. She thrashes and screams. Sid hold my hand. I want to escape but outward show control and aloofness. I watch as she bleeds. "this Alex is not what the lifestyle is about. That Man is out of control and the girl doesn't seem to have a safe word." "So this is bad Dom?" "exactly, Alex. A scene, always consensual and safe, should end with the submissive willing submitting and receiving pleasure reward." I stare as the girl is dragged away. Another couple start a scene. It more sensual, intense but pleasurable for the ecstasy scream the woman is shouting. "What is the purpose of the scene?" "to make the woman willing submit to the Dom. By prolonging the orgasm, he is demonstrating his mastery over her body. Pay specific attention to the long slow strokes, followed by the hard fast ones. This pace will lead the subs to multiply orgasms."

We wander around the party. He points out good practices and bad practices. I watch an older blondie belt a young sub, maybe too young. She looks familiar but I can't place her. I prefer a scene with intricate rope knots and decorative bondage. I hear a familiar voice. "So Sid another protégé, a little young this time." "Elaina (I prefer this spelling, more fake, gold-digger) your sub seem a little too young for this?" "he's legal, I have his papers, if you like a go. We could trade for a scene." "Afraid not, Alex here is training for a Dom, not a switch. I stare at evil eyes thru her mask. I know her? "your protégé doesn't speak, how very sub." I look aloof and watch the scene, ignoring the bitch. I know if I speak she will recognize me. Shit it Elaine Lincoln. She wanted me the past two years to work for her; glad I didn't. shit does mom know she does this stuff. Mrs. Hawthorne updates mom on my progress and focus, she not overly happy I'm exploring BDSM. They spar back and forth. Till I walk away to watch a demo of Kegel balls and pony girls. The balls fascinate me; the pony girl disgusted me.

"Alex stay away from that woman, she is obsessed with age and status." "I know; I know her she a friend of my mother." "she's a bad Dom and a pain freak. She loves to torture her subs even to permanent damage" "she been after me to do odd jobs at her house, she gives me the creeps" "don't ever accept. She would harm you, did you see the scars on her sub, and the girl from earlier was one of her as well." I shudder, "I've seen enough let's leave"

we leave as I exit I see Elaine sub throwing up. He looks up without his mask, it Todd Frasier from school; shit he's fifteen. In the Car I tell Sid. He calls the party host. Than make a dozen calls. "Elaine has to many friends. I can't get her blacklisted" "I'll tell my dad, he can help." "Are you sure, he doesn't know about your entry into the lifestyle?" "no, but mom knows, besides this is more important than my embarrassment. She a pedophile."

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next day at Grey Manor.

Mom, Dad we need to talk. Going into dad office I sit, then get up and pace running my hands thru my hair. "I don't know how to start. I sorry if this disturbs you. But I've been exploring, looking into a"

"Christian, Dr. Hawthorne has updated me, you can calm down. Express what you feel." Mom says nervous but assured.

"It kind about that but it worse. Dad I've been taking training in BDSM." There I said it. I watch as they process the information. I not sure what to say.

"Christian as long as it consensual and safe. I'm not happy about the pain aspects." Grace interjects.

"I'm not into that part very much. I like the control of being a dominate. But that not why were here." I breathe, focus you can do this.

"Why are we here then Christian" dad says.

"Last night I when to a Party, a BDSM party. I saw something that disturbed me and I can't ignore it. A classmate from school was there, a fifteen-year-old kid from school. He's a submissive, his Dom beat him with a belt, till he was scared. "

"That abuse and rape Christian, I don't want you into this shit, do you understand" dad demands.

"the lifestyle isn't like that, this abuse is why I needed to talk to you, not about the lifestyle, but about his Dom, I recognized her. Mom, dad it's Elaine Lincoln, she's a pedophile."