"That´s a weird question!"

"I know but… you can have all those girls. I mean… they´re tall, have got the longest silkiest hair, pretty eyes…"

"You´ve got pretty eyes. Look… I´d been dating cheerleaders since Junior High, that was just what everyone expected from me, and when I after years of been in love with her- got together with Princess- yes! Her name is Princess. Thompson, no one was surprised. It only lasted for a couple of months, and people questioned me why I had broken up with her, every boy in the whole school was in love with her, including couple of lesbian girls. But, being together- she was very controlling, and checked my text- messages and phone- calls, and later also facebook."

"Who the hell names their baby princess?"

"You tell me." Tyler laughed. "It was like that through the end of Junior High, and the beginning of High school, when I started the second term, right after Christmas last in my Freshman year, Teeghan had just moved here from like, Alaska."

"Explains why she´s always so cold when she´s close to me." Tyler pushed my shoulder and chuckled.

"Yeah right. Well, she moved here, then I was together with this girl named Gracelyn Payne, her name suited her because she was a real pain to my wallet. I bought her everything she wanted, or, more likely everything she asked for. Because she asked to have everything she wanted, and she had me wrapped around her finger and knew exactly what and how to say to make me buy what she wanted. And if I didn´t she wouldn´t talk to me until I had anyway."

"Gracelyn Payne? Isn´t that like, the head cheerio?"

"Yep, that's her. I was together with Teeghan until right after Christmas in Sophomore year, after New- years- eve, as I as usual had been celebrating with mum, dad and James in the park, and she had been to this party with half of the school." Tyler sighed.

"She cheated on you?!"

"Yep." Tyler nodded. "And she had been doing it for a long time I got to know, so I was done. But, all those months with her had taken away all my self- confidence, and I didn´t even had the courage to stand up to her myself and break up."

"Poor baby, did mummy do it for you?" I joked, I could see in Tyler´s eyes that I had been wrong.

"Oh no you didn´t."

"I did. I let James do it for me… over the phone."

"NO WAY. Oh, Tyler, shame on you." I joked.

"It wasn´t more than a couple of weeks until Teeghan started showing… ehrm… her interest for me. It was clear from the beginning that she wanted us to be a couple, and… I didn't have the courage or confidence to stand up to her to tell her I wasn´t ready yet. So… it became as she wanted. We were together for about six months, short time to be together most people say. But for me… there were extremely long months. At last, in the beginning of August, I stood up to her and told her that I wasn´t going to be her boyfriend anymore, then I turned around, and walked out the door."

"But she couldn´t accept it." Tyler nodded agreeing.

"Then, in the beginning of September the school started, and soon it was time for the auditions for New Directions. And… we were a bit spread out in the chairs in the audiotourium, I and Connor were pretty close to the stage, we had watched Ben and Anna, and Patricia Brick, and then… there was one left after Trixie´s complete fiasco. You came out, all the way from where we sat. We could see that you were limping, and that you had a quite nasty bruise on your arm and hand, and in your face. And… I had seen you a couple of times before, but never really paid attention to you, but then… I felt this strange willing to protect you. To keep- whoever who was hurting you from doing just that. And… you looked around the audiotourium, and for just a split second your eyes met mine." Tyler sighed.

"And?"

"Those were the most beautiful eyes I´d ever seen. And I just fell for you… and… you know it´s not about choosing. But… that was the very first time I was in love for real… and something told me that you wouldn´t be as… all those others. And God knows I wouldn´t have been able to have another one of those."

"So why did you choose me?"

"I didn´t. Something that I couldn´t control chose you, and it was for the best." I leaned against Tyler, he put his arm around my shoulders.

"I love you."

"Love you more."

Mr. Schue POV

When the last lesson was over, I had to stay for a couple of hours and do some after- work, with righting some old tests. When I was finally done, the students that had the longest day had just ended the day, therefore the corridors were dark, but walking towards the car I heard something from a classroom, and I could see the light was on so I walked towards it and opened the door slightly. Tyler stood leaned against a bench in the front row, the sound I had heard was his sobbing.

"Tyler?" He looked up as I called his name.

"Mr. Schue?" Tyler cleared his throat and did his best to dry away tears with his sleeves. I pulled out a tissue from my bag.

"Here… is everything all right Ty?"

"Yes I´m fine." Tyler did an attempt to smile.

"Tyler?" I looked into his eyes. That was all that was needed to make him crack up again, He leaned his head to my shoulder and sobbed as if his heart was breaking. I laid my arms around his shoulders in an embrace.

"It´s all right." I comforted him. "It will be okay." It was almost another ten minutes until Tyler had stopped crying and leaned back again. I reached him a tissue again and he used it to dry away the last of the tears.

"You want to talk about it?" I asked him, he shrugged.

"I don´t even know why I started crying. I guess… there´s just been a lot lately."

"Okay…" I looked to my watch. "Won´t your parents be worried you´re not home yet?" Tyler shook his head.

"There´s this… whatever it is at James´ school today, they won´t be home for another few hours."

"Want to go grab a burger, and talk."

"Let´s see…" Tyler seemed to think about it. "Burger and talking with you, versus soup from yesterday, homework and video games. When we´re going?" I chuckled.

"Now, you just get your jacket." Tyler nodded and we walked together down the corridor and towards my car.

"You know," I said after sitting with Tyler in my car, eating for a while. "I did this with Lex once, when she´d just joined New Directions."

"Was it then she told you?" I shook my head.

"No, she never did. She forgot her bag at school one day, and I drove to her with it. When I came inside, Mr. Ralston had already kicked her nose, and when I drove away. I drove around the corner and stopped to call the police."

Lex POV

On Tuesday, it was time for the first planning- session with New Directions for Regionals. Mr. Schue came last into the choir room, and when he did, he immediately looked to me- God! What was he planning now?

"Lex," he began. "I found a song and I want you to be the lead in it."

"Kay," I took the paper he reached me, and while he was handing the papers out I read through the lyrics, and then Brad started playing.

"Mr. Schue I can´t do this." I stopped singing and exclaimed in the end of the first verse. Because this really didn't feel right to me.

"What? Why not?"

"Because on sectionals it was all about me, and everything with Brian and Wyatt being there, I don´t want Regionals to be all about me as well."

"Lex." Mr. Schue jumped down from the piano. "You´re without a doubt one of the best singers in here, and this song could make a really good number for Regionals, so… well… let´s at least go through the full number once, and then we´ll see what´s the best." I nodded. "From the top." We did the whole song once, and even I had to admit, it would be great for Regionals.

"Sit down everyone." Mr. Schue told us and we did it. "So, everyone who thinks we´re gonna have this as a number for Regionals stand up." Tyler was the first one to ge on his feet, along with Ethan, Ben, Connor, Marcie, Hayley Mariah and Liam. After a couple of seconds with hesitating, also Anna, Aiden, Amy, Jasper, Alice and Johnny had stood up. Alice looked down to Teeghan.

"Come on." Teeghan just glared back at her, but slowly also she stood up.

"So, will you do it?" Ben asked.

"But…" I had only said one word when the others started making attempts to talk me into it, all at once.

"OKAY, OKAY" I shouted at last. The others silent. "I´ll do it."

"Looks like we´ve got number ready for Regionals." Mr. Schue half- shouted.

The next week just flew by, on Wednesday, I started having stomach cramps, I didn´t recognize this kind, but as I had enough to worry about, I just ignored it. I had enough to worry about, also before I came home from school, to find ma and pops sitting by the kitchen table.

"Lex, there´s something I need to tell you." Ma said, and her tone and expression on her face made me worried.

"Has something happened, is Finn okay? Kurt? Blaine?"

"They´re all fine." Pops said. "But… sit down."

"O… kay." Carole had tears in her eyes.

"Lex, I have always had a feeling I´d seen you somewhere before, and earlier today, I finally remembered where."

"Where?"

"Oh… this is one of those moments when I wished I could show you what happened instead of telling you…

Carole pov, flashback

It had been an unusual calm day in the ER when we got the alert, two girls, only ten and seven years old had been shot, and we were ready when the ambulance came. I took the first one that came in.

"Madelyn Ralston, seven years old, shot in the chest." The rest of the things that the paramedic told us I´d forgotten through the years, and then we pushed Maddie´s bed into one of the trauma- rooms, and the other girl was pushed into the room just next to.

"MADDIE." Came shouts from the girl. "MADDIE. LET ME SEE HER LET ME SEE HER. MADDIE."

"You go check." Dr. Wilson told me, I nodded and walked through the doors between the rooms to the older girls´ room.

"Alexandria Ralston, shot in her back, unconscious at the place, but woke up in the ambulance."

"MADDIE. WHAT ARE THEY DOING TO HER? MADDIE. MADDIE."

"Sch, sch." I comforted, and kneeled down so I could watch the poor girl in the eyes. "It´s okay."

"MADDIE. WHAT ARE THEY DOING? MADDIE, MADD… MA…" fastly, Alexandria was drifting off again.

"How´s the other one?" Dr. Kip asked me. I turned around and walked into the other room, just as Dr. Wilson used the paddles to try to get Madelyn´s heart to start beating.

"Charging 360. Clear." He gave Madelyn´s heart a shot, nothing changed.

"Still Aysystoli." I told him. "Should we try again?" Dr. Wilson sighed, then shook his head.

"No… time of death… thirteen thirty eight."

The next time Alexandria woke up, I had asked to be the one to tell her about Madelyn. The doctor´s had chosen to keep her unconscious for a while, until the worst, most painful part was over, and when they had made sure there weren´t any infections, and woken her up, it was time.

"Hey sweetie." I sat down on a stool next to the bed where Alexandria sat up.

"Where´s Maddie?"

"Listen sweetie." I took Alexandria´s hand, but she pulled away. "When you came in here, Maddie´s heart was just barely beating. The bullet she was hit with had damaged her heart very badly."

"Where´s Maddie?"

"The doctor´s did everything they could to make it start beating better, but it stopped, they tried to make it start again… but it was too injured."

"Where´s Maddie?"

"I´m sorry sweetie… Maddie died."

"NO, NO, NO, NO ,NO. WHERE IS MADDIE? WHERE IS SHE? I WANT TO SEE HER. MADDIE."

"Sch," I embraced Alexandria as she tried to get out of the bed. "Sch, it´s all right." Alexandria changed from trying to get me away to sob violently, and the words she spoke over and over again while sobbing broke my heart.

"She´s all I´ve got. She´s all I´ve got. She´s all I´ve got."

End of flashback.

"And you kept on exclaiming, she´s all I´ve got." Lex sighed, put her elbows on the table and her face in her hands, then she stood up and walked out of the kitchen.

"Lex please… say something." She turned around.

"There´s nothing to say… Carole." She turned around again and started walking upstairs. Burt patted my hand.

"Give her some time."

Lex spent the rest of the afternoon and evening on her room, and the next morning she came running down the stairs, swearing about having over- slept. She pulled a hoodie on while running.

"You look a bit pale, sure you feel all right?" I asked her.

"Yes I´m fine. I just couldn't sleep last night."

"Really, I think you´ve got a temperature." I felt her forehead.

"I´m just warm after being under the covers for so long. I gotta OW." Lex stumbled and fell.

"Lex."

"Lex." Both I and Burt ran to her side, while Lex was already getting on her feet.

"I just stumbled, I gotta run, we´ve got the last glee- practice before tomorrow today. Bye."

"At least eat something."

"NOT HUNGRY BYE." Lex ran outside, and while pulling her jacket on she ran up the driveway.

"She wasn't warm after being under the covers." I said.

"I know." Burt answered. "She´ll come home if she starts feeling worse don´t you worry." Burt kissed my cheek and then walked outside to get to work.

Mr. Schue POV

During the whole glee- practice Lex seemed very pale, tired and not at all as concentrated as she usually was, I worried, but there were no time for that. After just about half the practice, she suddenly collapsed.

"Lex." I rushed over to her. "Lex."

"My stomach, it hurts so much." Lex whimpered.

"Where?" Liam and Ethan had kneeled down, the two of us that were the best with illnesses.

"Where I´ve got my hand."

"Can you just take away your hand? I think I know what it is I´m just gonna check." Ethan forced Lex to take her hand while Liam pulled up Lex´ shirt and laid his hand on the right side of Lex´s stomach.

"AAAAAH." Lex´s shout echoed between the walls. Liam looked to me.

"She´s probably got appendicitis, we need to call an ambulance now." Tyler pushed Liam out of the way and lifted Lex up.

"Tyler what are you doing?" I half- shouted after him, as he rushed out of the room with Lex in his arms.

Well, cliffy, cliffy. I thought a lot about bringing in Carole´s flashback in this chapter or later, do you think I made the right choice?

Doesn´t it just break your heart how ten- year- old Lex just keeps on saying "Where´s Maddie" when Carole´s telling her what happened?

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