I have started on the first chap of the first sequel for this. Yay
On the ride home there wasn´t much said, all of us either slept or just sat there.
Riding on a bus
Riding on a bus
We have just lost Regionals
Riding on a bus
Liam sang, but of course it wasn´t with the happiness as he had sung the first song, and he only sang it once, then he sighed and kept on staring out the window.
Ma and pops had wanted to come to Sidney, but as they both were working, they couldn´t, though they waited for me on the parking lot outside William McKinley, I looked to them, and shook my head before walking over to them.
"Second place." I told them, as I put Ned´s hutch into the back seat into the car so I wouldn´t have to look at them.
"Hey." Burt laid his arm around my shoulders and pulled me close. "We love you, your friends love you, and you´ve still got New Directions, that´s what matters." I nodded, but as it was right now I couldn´t really take his words in. I stepped into the car to go home and sleep on it.
The next day, I knew he was right, and I had come up with a way to cross number two from my list, but first I had to do number three. So on Saturday, I and ma drove to the florist, we found some purple flowers. On the grave they probably wouldn´t last for long as it was still winter, but I didn´t care too much. We went to the church and walked between the rows of gravestones, then ma helped me to plant them. Then I stood up and pulled up the list from my pocket.
"Maddie" I began. "I had a list of ten things that I wanted to do when I got away from Brian, I´ve already done seven things, now I´ve done eight, number three was to plant purple flowers on your grave, but I´m crossing it now. Eight down, two to go. I love you, and I´ll come back.
I sent out a text- message to the others in New Directions about that I wanted a meeting in the choir room a Monday, Mr. Schue began it.
"Lex wanted to say something today, so…. The floor´s yours." Mr. Schue said right after he had started, I walked out on the floor and jumped up on the piano.
"Yesterday, when I first spoke to Burt and Carole, Burt told me that they still love me, so does my friends, and I´ve still got New Directions, that´s what matters. Right then I was so disappointed and tired I didn´t really take in his words, but right when I woke up this morning, I knew he was right. It´s not about a competition where one team will win and loads of others will be disappointed. It´s about working together. Being a team, and have loads of fun. And I cannot tell you… how much New Directions have meant to me this year… you know, when I started this year I was getting abused, and God knows everything. Now I´m getting adopted by a pair of folks who loves me. But things haven´t been easy, but I knew I´d get through it, because I had friends sticking out for me, and this song´s for you. Brad?" I looked to Brad who started playing, and as soon as it was time, I started singing.
"So, I´ve got my list," I pulled out the when- I- get- away- from- my- dad- list when the song was finished "And number two is, have a group of friends I can talk about anything with. Mr. Schue you got a pen?" Mr. Schue picked one out of his bag, and reached it to me. "And I´m crossing number two now." I crossed it. "One thing left."
"What?" Connor asked.
"Go to Maddie´s grave, tell her I´m able to let her go. But I think I´m gonna change it a little bit…. I´ve got a better idea."
"What?" Tyler asked me.
"You´ll see." I pretended to zip my lips together, he just chuckled and shook his head.
That night I sat in the window seal in the living room, staring out on one of the winter´s last blizzards. As I heard ma and pops come through the door, I barely even moved, but mumbled a hi.
"Everything okay?" I heard Burt. "You look so thoughtful."
"Can you imagine all the choices I have made, just these last six months, that had led to that I´m here today."
"What do you mean?"
"You know, if I hadn´t joined New Directions I would still have been living with Brian… and earlier, when I wrote that list, if I had remembered the dream about swimming with dolphins, then it would have been on the list instead of learning how to knit, then Mr. Schue wouldn´t have brought me here to see Carole, and then I probably never would have met you. And…"
"Lex stop it." Burt laid his arms at my over arms and held me. "So what? It´s what happened, you know, some things are just meant to be… and we were meant to be a family, it would have happened one way or another." Pops embraced me, ma came and hugged us both.
"I love you two so much." I said. "But I don´t know how to return everything you do for me."
"Lex, that´s what you´re doing, every day, just with being you, you brighten up the day." Ma said. "So don´t ever think you can´t return the favor because you do." Ma´s voice was shaking now.
"Ma, pops. I know I said… well you know…. But… would it be okay if I called you mum and dad." With this, ma actually sobbed and hugged me even harder.
"You don´t have to ask about that."
Burt´s POV
I knew it was only Monday, but I felt as we had something to celebrate, so I bought a cake that we sat in and ate the whole- three persons during the evening. When it was late Lex fell asleep leaning against me.
I picked her up in my arms and together with Carole we walked upstairs, I laid her on the bed and looked away while my love pulled Lex´ clothes off and pulled on one of Finn´s T- shirt´s and Kurt´s sweat pants. Maybe we would have to get Lex some own pyjamas already.
I and Carole laid Lex down in her bed and pulled the covers over her. Carole stroke her forehead.
"We love you my little girl." I said. Then I turned around and walked together with Carole, but right before I reached for the door Lex said something very drowsy.
"I love you too, all the way to the moon and back again."
Well, there are still a few chapters left, but from here, there will be a jump, from here to July the first. I´m trying to write as much as possible for this now, as I wanna start on the new one.
Playlist
Lex- Right here, right now- Agnes
