Note: I usually update each chapter everyday but chapter four might take a bit longer to update due to the report I have to write L But things are starting to get interesting so please keep reading and thank you to everyone that has read my very first fan fic!

Italy's pov

I was walking home from Japan's house, It felt like the longest walk in my life. Japan had comforted me and gave me advice he told me I should find something to take my mind of the subject and try and move on or just tell Germany how I feel and maybe something might happen since Japan had always thought Germany felt something for me. I could never tell Germany he would probably just laugh in my face and would never talk to me since it would be awkward and I know how much Germany hates awkward situations. I tried to think of the positive side of the situation like how good of friends me and Germany are, How we always have a good laugh, How he cares for me and takes care of me….. I felt like my body was ripping apart when I thought of this I started to shake and tremble. Why do I feel like this? It's not like I had anything with Germany but just thinking of him with another person made me want to just disappear. I felt like without Germany bringing me happiness I couldn't be me the normal happy always smiling Italy. I feel like another person right now this isn't how I usually am. I have only felt like this once before that's when my childhood love left and never came back.

I finally got back to the house. Germany wasn't back yet so I headed up to my room, I was in an absolute state as I looked in the mirror. I looked awful not cute at all maybe if I was cute Germany would like me or if I was a girl. As I stared at my own reflection I just felt so disgusted with myself. I started to frantically looked through my desk drawer I knew exactly what I wanted to find. I pulled the golden letter opener from the drawer and took it over to my bed, I curled up into a little ball and stared at it. I just wanted the pain to be inflicted on me so I would have worse pain than I felt in my heart.

"Italy can I come in?" A voice called from behind my door I instantly knew it was Germany and my heart started pounding with fright.

"Oh um Germany give me a minute" I replied quickly

Before I could move Germany walked in and saw the letter opener in my hand.

"Italy wha-"

"Germany look it's not what it looks like okay! I was opening letters and then I realised there was no pasta in the house and now I'm just so hungry and sad." I just thought something up on the spot praying he wouldn't question me.

Germany's eyes narrowed and ran over to the bed. Before I could react he was on top of me he grabbed the letter opener out my hand. The serrated edge was pointing towards Germany now. With him being on top of me I felt a little excited it then realised I had a throbbing erection happening in my trousers, I hope he doesn't notice!

Germany the threw the letter opener to the floor and shouted

" You dare do that again what are you thinking!"

"I-" I was suddenly cut of by Prussia's voice coming from the hall

"The awesome me has returned guys, I know right no need to all jump with joy all at once"

I was so glad to hear Prussia's voice.

Germany lifted himself off me but grabbed my hand to go see Prussia but I couldn't get up or he would see my erection.

"fine be that way " Germany spat as he left

A few minutes I heard Prussia's loud shoe's climb the stairs.

"Yo Italy! West said that you look and so me being the most awesome human being to walk this earth and a former country may I add, Came to see if your all right."

" yeah I'm totally fine Prussia thanks" just as I said that Prussia pointed to my crotch

" Ah I see what's going on here, Oh Italy I'm so flattered you know I always thought you were just for West but now you can changed to me and what a god choice you have made!" Just with that he leaned in and planted a kiss on my lips.