"I'm in love with you, and I know that love is just a shout into the void, and that oblivion is inevitable, and that we're all doomed and that there will come a day when all our labor has been returned to dust, and I know the sun will swallow the only earth we'll ever have, and I am in love with you."
-Augustus Waters
NATSU'S POV
I'm an idiot. I mean what was I thinking losing my control and kiss her? Gah! Now what am I supposed to do? She didn't go to the guild the very next day and clearly I know the reason why she hasn't and I'm afraid things would get worse if I went to her apartment, so I decided not to. I understand that she needed some time to process the idiotic move I had done to her. I let out an exasperated sigh, what if I pushed the boundaries too far? What if our relationship gets weird and awkward and she decided to push me away from her? This is my entire fault, but she didn't rejected me when I kissed her so at least she feels even a little something for me right? Ugh this is stupid, where's Happy when I need a distraction. I need an outlet to let out this steam, maybe a fight with Gray? Yeah that sounds perfect! I was near to my destination and once the building was visible to my vision, I rushed and busted my way through the doors spotting the idiotic Ice-freak who was now topless immediately.
"Hey Ice-freak, parading naked early in the morning?"
"What are you sayi – oh shit! When did that happen?"
"Tch. Idiot"
"What did you say flame princess? Want to start a fight early in the morning eh? Got a problem where you lost your ego or something?" he retorted as I greeted his forehead with mine, our aura completely surrounding the both us taunting anyone menacingly who would interrupt.
"Why can't you just shut up and greet my fist" and with that I hit him square in the jaw, his repulses were quick as I received a blow in my jaw seconds after releasing my punch. I tackled him and we were on the floor now, exchanging meaningless punches. His out of nothing, and mine out of the anger from myself. After what seemed like forever, we both stopped and ran out of breathe, breathing rapidly as we catch for air that we lost. He sat up and nudged me on my shoulder.
"What's the problem this time, flamehead?"
"Eh? What do you mean?" I stared at him confusingly acting like I was innocent, he always seem to see pas through me, damn bastard.
"Look, you don't just enter the guild early in the morning looking for a fight, at least someone has to piss you off and that's my job. So what did you do this time?"
I huffed out as I crossed my arms behind my head "I kissed Lucy" I half whispered so only he could hear me
"You kissed Lu – ff mff" I shoved my hands into his mouth to stop what he was about to say
"Shh, pipe it down Stripper."
"I mean, how? When?"
"Two days ago, we were locked in the cellar and I lost control and kissed her"
"Has she talked to you yet?"
I shook my head "Not yet. I haven't seen her yesterday either"
"You're an idiot"
"I know"
"Look, if she ever goes to the guild today you need to talk to her. If she doesn't show up, go to her apartment"
"Psh, thanks captain obvious. Like I didn't know what to do"
"Don't be so cocky. Speaking of which, there she is right now over there"
I spun around to see the most beautiful woman I have ever seen. Her hair was tied up into pig tails which made her look like a child, her smile beaming and her eyes were shining. As if on cue, a light was hovering above her, like spotlight and I chuckled knowing that only I can see that particular light.
"Well what are you waiting for, airhead?" Gray smirked
"Shut up" I snickered. Alright Natsu, man up. It's now or never. I sucked up a huge amount of air before I approached the table she was sitting together with Levy, Wendy and oh great, Erza. I was meters away from them when my eyes locked with hers, I tried flashing a smile and surprisingly she returned one.
"Hi Natsu!" she said gleefully, Mavis just hearing that voice makes me want to crush her in my arms
"'Sup Luce!" I raised my right hand in mid air to greet her and grabbed a chair to join them
"How are you?" she asked, a little too cheerfully. Something was off with her voice
"Great! You?" I replied immediately knowing what to say when she throws me this kind of conversation with that tone of voice, uh-oh don't tell me she's –
"Great!" Yep, she is. She's pretending like it didn't happen. Typical Luce, still the same traits even with her loss of memory, I guess that's Lucy for you. She avoided my eyes and engaged a conversation instead with Levy. I let out another frustrated sigh
"Something the matter, Natsu?" Erza asked I shook my head and stood up from my sit
"I'm fine. I gotta go, I need to settle something with Gray"
"You two aren't going to fight, are you?"
"O-of course not Erza" I chuckled nervously feeling sweat forming at the back of my neck, damn she's scary. I guess I just have to talk to Lucy tonight, but not here, not now.
I'm actually standing in front of her door right now, my fist in mid-air as if waiting for some signal to knock. Why am I doing this again when I could just jump through her window? But then again she'll get mad at me, so if I want to engage into a serious talk with her it's best to enter this way. This is it, I gulp as plenty of air I can and I knock three times at the door.
"Coming" I heard the rustle of her footsteps as she approached the door, my heart pounding in my chest rapidly and my palms are incredibly sweaty.
"Natsu?" her eyes wide when she opened the door to see it was me
"Hi Luce, can I come in?"
"S-sure" I came in without second thoughts and sat comfortably on her couch
"Do you like anything?" she offered as she approached the kitchen
"Nah, I'm good. I'm actually here to talk" I gulped, here it goes. She sat by the space beside me and after a few second of awkward silence, she was the first one to speak
"How are you?"
"Good, you"
"Great" we both flashed a smile at each other knowing it's just a mask covering what we really feel. I gave up and exhaled heavily
"Look Luce, what happened in the cellar between us –"
"It's okay, really Natsu." She cut me off "We can pretend like nothing ever happened. I don't want to get awkward between us and I'd be devastated if our friendship got ruined, we can forget that ever happened. So what do you say, friends?" she offered her hand waiting for me to shook it while I stared at her wide eyed while I try to process what she just said. She's afraid to cross the boundary because she's afraid to lose our friendship? That thought made me happy that I found myself chuckling
"What's funny?" she asked and I flicked her forehead
"Ow! Did you just flick my forehead?"
"Ba-ka (idiot)" I teased and I swear I was wearing one of the biggest smiles I ever had
"Wh-what?"
"You didn't even let me finish" I leaned closer until our faces were only inches apart; I lifted her chin with my right hand and looked into her beautiful brown orbs.
"I don't regret kissing you Luce. Days, weeks, months and years will pass and I will never regret that kiss I shared with you"
"B-but why? Why me?" she asked, her voice soft and I swear I saw a blush creeping on her face. She's too cute when she's all flustered and stuttering. Damn the restraints I tell myself just to stop my urge to grab and kiss her.
"And why not? Luce you're the most amazing person I have ever met. You were my hope when I had my doubts, my lifeline of sanity when I feel myself slipping away. I thought I would lose my mind when I saw you unconscious for days in that bed and my world fell apart when you couldn't remember me"
No more chickening out Natsu, I've waited too long for this, to have her back in my arms again.
"Natsu, we can't. I don't know if I could take that risk" I saw the hint of tears forming that were threatening to fall. No, I wouldn't give up that easily.
"Why not, Luce?" my voice was rising now "I'm willing to risk and throw that friendship away into the window and take the next step, with you and only you. I never liked you because I have loved you from the first day we met, I know it's crazy but I know what I felt when I first saw you."
"Why didn't you tell me?" tears were falling in her eyes now and pains me to see those tears that I, myself, have provoked
"Because I was afraid you wouldn't feel the same towards me. Please Luce, tell me if you feel anything towards me, even just a little and if you don't, I will leave and we can live tomorrow and pretend that today never happened"
And that's where she broke, she was sobbing in my chest clutching my scarf in her hands. I ran my hand up and down her back whispering soft coos into her ear
"I-idiot" she sniffed as she looked at me with a smile plastered on her face
"How can I not love you? You've been always beside me since day one, you never gave up on me and I'm not giving up on you either. I love you, Natsu"
She wrapped her arms around my neck as her face inched closer until finally, finally my lips were on hers. Dancing and tangling with our kiss, we never left each other's embraces and I vow I will never let go of her now that she's mine once again.
A/N: It's short, I know T_T
I'm sorry everyone. I felt like I kinda rush this chapter so forgive me. I wasn't planning on writing this cause I told myself I would finish the book I'm reading but by page 86 I got tired and I was reading some of the lines over and over so I decided to write this chapter instead
Anyway, thank you so much for the reviews guys! Gosh we're already at 80 and I NEVER expected I would reach that far so thank you very much, you guys make me cry :')
Next chapter's the Lemon part sooo yeah. Oh and Happy Easter to all!
