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For the Love of Domination: Chapter 6

Propositions, Female Dommes, & Cell Phones...

BPOV

The next morning I woke up to doggy breath and sunshine. What a combination! Whatever happened to good old Folgers? Mojo was desperately trying to get my attention, so I opened one eye and noticed that it was a beautiful sunny day in Seattle.

I reluctantly rolled my lazy ass out of the bed; grabbed my robe and with Mojo trailing at my heels, I stepped out onto the balcony into the rays of warm sunshine. I took a moment to stretch the kinks out of my stiff body, while Mojo hopped up onto a chaise lounger. I guess the moment called for a little unscheduled sunbathing.

See even the dog likes it here, that has mean something... right?

Something... I just need to figure out what!

The morning air still had a bit of a bite to it, but it was tolerable; I snuggled a little deeper into my fluffy bathrobe. There is so much difference between winters in Washington verses those in New York, we wouldn´t dare try this at home.

I take a minute to breath in the clean crisp air, while admiring the beautiful view of the Olympic Mountains. Behind them the sky is a beautiful shade of blue and the clouds look like soft fluffy white balls of cotton. I can´t help but smile!

Simple... yet beautiful!

I sigh at the simplicity of the beauty of nature. Why can´t the life I live be this simple? Ever since I can remember I´ve always had a solid plan for my life. It has by no means been easy to get where I am today, especially being so young, but I set forth goals and I achieve them. Once I accomplish one, I immediately move on to another. That´s just the way I am. I´ve never had to second guess myself... well, not until now.

Why exactly are you second guessing yourself again?

I thought this is what you wanted? What we wanted?

It is... I´m scared.

Don´t let fear of the unknown keep you from finding happiness!

You trust Alice don´t you?

Yes...

Then let her help us!

Mmmm... I wonder if anyone´s ever had their conscience´s IQ tested!

Because mine, is one intelligent and smart-mouthed bitch!

Internally, I give myself a fist bump and decide it´s time to talk to Alice. As luck would have it, she must have been thinking the same thing.

¨Morning,¨ Alice´s chirpy voice rang throughout the bedroom.

Speak of the devil, and the devil shall appear!

I turn around smiling, as I take in the two steaming cups of coffee in her hands; I silently thank God for my wonderful best friend. I could definitely use my morning fix of caffeine.

¨Good morning sunshine,¨ I reply taking a cup of the liquid gold from her hands. Sipping the hot liquid, I can´t help the moan that escapes my lips! Perfect! Just the way I like it, with both low-fat and condensed milk, no sugar.

I had the pleasure of visiting Spain with Phil and Renee last year, and fell in love with their café leche leche. Mmm... the original is always better, but this - this is a strong second.

¨God,¨ I moan, ¨have I told you lately how much I love you?¨ I say in between sips.

¨Yeah, I am pretty great, aren´t I? Though you should probably take this time to remind me, you know, since it is so close to Christmas and all.¨ Alice teased. ¨We wouldn´t want your name to end up on the naughty list.¨ Alice got this faraway look in her eyes, almost as if she was reliving a naughty memory of her own. ¨Then again... the naughty list does have its advantages,¨ she winked.

Is she talking about what I think she´s talking about?

You don´t think they got their playroom on last night... do you?

Can you say... awkward!

Then why is the thought of that turning you on?

I need a shrink!

No... we need a good hard fucking!

Can´t argument with that logic, where do I sign up?

Unable to look her in the eye, I blush as I notice the faint markings around her wrists.

Oh shit!

They were in there last night!

While I was sleeping downstairs!

Not that I wanted to, but why didn´t I hear anything?

¨Because the playroom is sound proof, silly.¨ Alice replied as if we were discussing the weather.

¨Fuck! Did I just say that out loud?¨ I gasp clapping my hand over my mouth in embarrassment.

¨Uh... yeah, you did.¨ She grinned. ¨Look at you all red faced and embarrassed; if you´re going to be a sub, you´ll need to control that blush in the playroom – or more than your cheeks will be turning red, well the ones on your face, anyway.¨ She giggled sipping her coffee.

Too stunned to speak, I just sat there staring at Alice, like she´d grown a second head. I don´t know what´s more embarrassing: my knowledge of Alice and Jasper´s romp in the playroom, blushing about it, or the sticky wetness that was gradually soaking my already wet panties.

Get over it Swan or you´ll die a virgin!

Noooooo!

Switching back to her perky self, Alice brought me out of my moron induced coma. ¨Now, where were we? Oh, right, you were trying to kiss up to me for a better Christmas present.¨ She sang proudly waggling her eyebrows.

I grin at the absurdity of her statement, not only do I not like to receive any presents, but also would never - in a million years - kiss up for one. Unless of course it´s nice new pair of comfortable Chucks, now those are worth kissing up for. Ha! Are you kidding, this is Alice Cullen we´re talking about here. Chuck who? She only does Jimmy Choo, boo-boo! Pfft... I do not need another pair of those death traps; I´ll pass thank you very much. Since this is Alice – and it is the season to be jolly; I decide to play along.

I kiss her on the cheek on my way into the bathroom. ¨In that case, Mary Alice Cullen, future Mrs. Whitlock, I. Love. You! In fact, if I was into girls, I would so do you!¨ I yelled while turning on the shower.

¨Flattery will get you everywhere, Ms. Swan!¨ Alice teased. ¨I´m glad I appeal to you and since you just admitted to wanting to do me; I think it´s a good time to tell that...

you´!¨ Alice spit the words out so fast I was left reeling; between the noise of the shower and her speed speaking, all I caught were the words female and Forks.

I poke my out head out of the bathroom, so I could hear her better. ¨Ooookay! Mind repeating that... only in English this time?¨ I giggled at Alice´s silliness.

Looking down at her foot toeing the carpet, Alice repeated, ¨you´re going to be training with a female Domme when you get back from Forks.¨ All this came out in one breath.

My brain had taken a mini vacation and her words didn´t register right away, so I responded with an, ¨okay, cool.¨

Helloooo! Did you hear that?

She going to get some woman to tickle and tease our girlie parts!

I froze. Time stopped as I watched my conscience cower in the corner with both hands firmly cupping her sex. The light bulb went off, and so did I! Just not fast enough for my conscience.

¨Are you crazy?¨ My mind shouted. ¨Did you not just hear what she said? What part of F-E-M-A-L-E did you not understand?¨

Ewww!

I feel so dirty!

¨Alice, what the hell!¨ I jump up and start pacing around the room. ¨I´m not letting some strange woman feel up my girlie parts!¨ I can´t believe she would even suggest such a thing. Seriously, I don´t know if it´s a good idea to trust her.

¨Jeez Bella, calm down.¨ She pleaded. ¨No one is going to be ¨feeling up¨ your girlie bits, ¨ she stated making air quotes with her hands, ¨well not unless you want them to.¨ She giggled.

¨Funny Alice, real mature!¨ I huffed.

I balled my fists at my sides, trying to will myself not to smack her. I was appalled that she dared to make light of a serious situation. I was already nervous enough as it is, I didn´t need the added stress.

Picking up on my mood, Alice quickly became serious again. ¨Look Belly, I´m sorry, I know that you´re nervous, but I would never do anything to hurt you or make you feel uncomfortable, in fact, if you would just sit down for a second; I´ll tell what I came up with.¨ I hesitated for a moment before joining her on the bed.

I was still on edge and didn´t want to get too close, so I decided to keep a little distance between us... just in case I had to make a run for it. Mojo chose that moment to make is presence known; sorry little dude, as soon as I´m safe, I´ll send Charlie back to bust you out.

Ha! Female Domme, let´s see if she´ll spank the chief!

My heart is nearly jumping out of my chest as I wait for Alice´s explanation; this had better be good. Crossing my arms over my chest; I try to look intimidating - on the outside at least. On the inside, I´m a cowering bundle of nerves, not to mention my conscience still has a death grip on her vajajay. I give a cursory nod for her to continue.

¨Okay, for starters, Jasper and I know this really great and responsible Dom; who just so happens to be in need of a submissive. He to recently had to release his last submissive from her contract.¨ She must have caught the look of doubt that registered on my face, because she hurried to finish her explanation. ¨Before you go into worry mode, he is a seasoned Dom, who has been in the lifestyle for over ten years. He will be perfect for your training; there´s also a possibility of collaring, making your arrangement more permanent. He´s strict, but fair and he demands obedience; she was not willing to obey. The thing is he won´t be available to set up a test scene with you until sometime after the first week in January.¨ She explained.

So far I´m still here, that´s a good sign, right? I was actually starting to like the idea of meeting this guy. I had read online that collaring was a really big deal. God I would love to find someone permanently; I really don´t want to have to go around baring my uncharted territories to all of Seattle. I don´t want this to turn me into some kind of whore. I thought it best to find out more about this mystery Dom.

¨Alice, how do you know this guy? Are you sure that I can trust him to keep my secret?¨ Privacy! I had to be sure that was etched in stone. For me that was a deal breaker.

I didn´t want all kinds of scandalizing rumors spread throughout Seattle tarnishing my professional reputation. That was my biggest fear. That´s what kept me from searching for a Dom in New York! That and... Edward.

¨He and Jasper were trained and are mentored by the same Dom, so you´ll be in very good hands. Jasper and I trust him with our lives 100%.¨ She paused seeking confirmation that I was still with her. Again, all I can offer is a weak nod.

¨You have nothing to worry about, he´s a working professional and one of Seattle´s most eligible bachelors, as a matter of fact all his subs are required to sign a legal and binding non-disclosure agreement, before he will even agree to do a scene. He would never risk his reputation or yours.¨ She stated with confidence.

So far so good! My conscience is slowly loosening the vice grip on her muffin.

¨Second, I thought it would be a good idea, in the mean time, to set up some soft play with a female Domme I know. She would introduce you to some light bondage, sensual stimulation, impact toys, orgasm control, and fellatio technique. Trust me on this - with your lack of sexual experience - not only will it give you insight, but also give you and idea of what you can expect to experience during your test scene. We don´t want him to know just how inexperienced you really are.¨ Alice explained in great detail.

¨I don´t know Alice, I´m not into girls. I don´t know if I would feel comfortable doing those things with some strange woman.¨ I whispered timidly. This was one of those unknowns I was referring to earlier.

¨Bella, she wouldn´t be a complete stranger. You don´t know her per se, but you do know of her. If you want, I can be at all your sessions. She´s a wonderful Domme and a couple of times I have done a few scenes with her. We´re practically family!¨ Alice said non-nonchalantly.

What the fuck! Family?

What do they have some kind of secret fucking society?

It´s becoming more and more obvious to me that nothing is as it seems anymore.

¨Just don´t let me hear that Carlisle is spanking mama E´s ass that would just about kill me!¨ My conscience spoke, finally finding her voice.

Uhh... not the best visual!

This shit just keeps getting deeper by the minute, I can´t believe what I´m hearing, Alice with a girl? Not wanting to jump to any conclusions; I decide to ask the million dollar question. ¨Uh... Ali, you do ´it´ with girls?¨ I said in a hushed tone, like talking lower would make the situation any less awkward, or my blush any lighter. I chewed my bottom lip while I awaited her response.

¨No silly, I don´t ´do it´, with girls!¨ She laughed. ¨I sometimes train with Rose if I want to push one of my limits or maybe modify a hard limit to soft. Being the perfectionist, I prefer to do with her first; that way if anything happens and I´m unable to complete the scene for some reason; I won´t disappoint my Master. During our time together, I´m always in some state of dress and it´s never intended for sexual gratification. Although, sometimes things can get intense and the body wants what it wants... release. Even in those cases I always take care of myself, even though I´m comfortable with her watching; she knows that her participating in my release is a hard limit for me. I can assure you it doesn´t happen often, because my orgasms belong to my Master and he prefers to share in my release.¨ Alice spoke calmly, a trait I´m not use to seeing her display.

As I listened to Alice speaking, trying desperately to absorb the meaning of her words; I was beyond speechless. I was hanging on her every word, completely enthralled by the fact that she could speak so openly about her lifestyle. She had such an air of confidence about herself – especially when she referred to Jasper as her Master – it was making me jealous.

I wish that I could go on to eventually become half the submissive that she is. It´s like she´s morphed into a totally different person. Gone is the bubbly flamboyant pixie, and before me sits a woman – confident in her submission.

Jasper must be extremely proud to have Alice as his sub. Hell, I´m proud to call her my best friend. Tears form in my eyes, as I realize how special this moment is that we´re sharing. It will be an honor to have her as my mentor.

Despite the beauty in the moment we´re sharing, my doubts still somehow find a way to creep in. How are we going to keep my virginity a secret? I couldn´t imagine any ten year plus Dom wanting to train with me. That´s the equivalent of being given the option to buy a dog already house broken, or one that´s still pissing all over the place.

Well, I can guess which one we are!

Have I told you what a bitch you are lately?

Not my fault we´re not house broken; and while you´re at it Scooby, you might wanna let little Mojo there outside, before he christens Alice´s carpet.

Grrr...!

I was so busy growling at the bitch in my head for being a smart ass, that Alice´s voice startled me.

¨By presenting him with your limits and a contract to sign! Then if he agrees to your terms, there will be a test scene.¨ Huh? Damn! Did it again! I didn´t even realize I asked that out loud.

Oh well, next question...

I don´t know about...?¨ Now that my desire to train as a sub seemed so close to becoming a reality, I was having second thoughts. I was still nervous about delving into the unknown. My life was always somewhat scripted, this felt totally out of my comfort zone.

What if I´m not really sub?

What if it´s just my twisted obsession with Edward, that´s behind all these crazy dreams, and it´s slowly causing me to lose my mind?

¨What are you talking about? We want this? No! We NEED this!¨ The voice inside my head screamed. She was right. Without this I would never feel whole – but that still didn´t stop me from being a bit scared.

¨Bella,¨ Alice interrupted my inner musings, ¨stop it, I can literally see the wheels spinning in that head of yours. Don´t over think this! I´ve seen how unhappy you are first hand, remember? Think about yourself, and for once do what makes you happy!¨ Alice kissed me on the cheek and headed to the door, ¨now get a move on and stop wasting my goddamn water!¨ She laughed.

Oh shit! I forgot all about the shower running.

¨It´ll serve you right if your ass freezes off from not having any hot water; now get your ass in gear, I´m leaving in thirty minutes! With or without your!¨ She yelled from somewhere down the hall.

¨Bye bye sub, hello crazy ass pixie! Hey Al, do me a favor, let the dog out please!¨ I hollered from the bathroom.

¨Bitch, I heard that! Mojo, here boy!¨ Alice said from outside the bathroom door.

¨Fuck!¨ I hissed, nearly jumping out of my skin, hearing her voice so close. I chuckle to myself as I step into the shower to have a speedy wash. Grateful to the water fairies, I was at least able to get a twelve minute luke warm shower – and that was hair included.

Impressive, now if you could just get your head out of your ass and get us laid, you´d be on a role!

God I want to kill you!

Not having much time left, I hurriedly transferred the things I would need for the week into a smaller suitcase, and stuffed Mojo´s toys and clothes into his bag.

I dressed in a pair of Ralph Lauren skinny jeans, a white men´s button down dress shirt, and a gray Ralph Lauren wool angora v-neck sweater. Having about eight minutes before Alice had a hissy fit; I threw my hair in a messy bun and topped it with one of my favorite hats. I slipped my feet into my favorite pair of black Jimmy Choo motorcycle boots and stopped for one last look in the mirror. Alice is going to shit bricks! I smile... mission accomplished!

Who the fuck says Swan can´t do Choo!

I was washing out my coffee mug, when I heard Alice´s overly dramatic intake of air behind me. She is such a damn drama queen! ¨Bella, what do you have on?¨ She shrieked.

¨Clothes Alice, ever heard of ´em?¨ I sarcastically replied.

Must we go through this today?

¨Don´t be a smart ass Swan! I cannot believe you are going to pick a car worth a quarter of a million dollars dressed like that?¨ She said with mock horror.

I just laughed sliding my arms in my Ralph Lauren Down snow vest, this was typical Alice. I could give less than two shits about what I wear; I dress for fucking comfort.

Ignoring Alice, I change Mojo into his little gray hoodie, that`s right fuckers we match! I turn around only to be met with an annoying and obnoxious pixie, ¨sorry to inform you dear, but my mink is at the cleaners, now let´s go bitch!¨ I bundled up my dog, grabbed our shit and march through the kitchen door to the garage.

Alice followed behind me, prancing out to the car in her mile high Coach boots, complete with matching purse and sunglasses. She´s such a Blair Waldorf, while I on the other hand, am more of a free spirited Serena van der Woodson – minus the drugs and a romp in the hay with Nate of course.

Once I load all my unnecessary shit into the trunk of the car, I climb in and give Alice a big fat raspberry, before I buckle my seat belt. ¨Let´s go!¨ I squeal. ¨I can´t believe I´m finally getting my baby today!¨ I can hardly contain my excitement as Alice puts her Porsche in reverse and backs down the driveway. Not even she can rain on my parade today.

¨You would never make it with children,¨ said Alice out of the nowhere.

¨Why is that?¨ I ask, shocked by her assumption.

¨Did you not see all that shit you packed for Mojo? He´s a fucking dog; for crying out loud!¨ She said waving her arms around like a lunatic.

¨Don´t start with me Alice! You´ve got some nerve, when you´d show up at my condo in New York with for four suitcases, for two days.¨ I defended. ¨Talk about the pot calling the kettle black!¨

¨That´s not the same and you know it. Maybe if you would pack less shit for Mojo and more for you, I wouldn´t say anything.¨ She said giving me the famous Alice bitch brow.

¨Now why would I do that? I´m just going to Forks Alice! There only two requirements: a fucking umbrella and rain boots. The place is a goddamn rain forest! So, don´t worry your pretty little head, stilettos aren´t a requirement!¨ I was getting depressed just thinking about my trip, but it´s something I know I need to do.

_FtLoD_

On the thirty minute drive over to the dealership, I go over my-to do list mentally in my head, double checking what I need to get done before I leave.

Thankfully, I´m always prepared and Charlie´s gift was already taken care of. Every year I buy him some type of new fishing gadget – to be shipped FedEx the week before Christmas. That will be one less stop on my ever growing list of things to do today.

First, I needed to finish some last minute Christmas shopping, even though the Cullen´s and I celebrate the holidays separately every year, we still kept up the tradition of exchanging gifts.

Everyone always bought individual gifts, even though we always pulled names, so we each end up with two gifts from the same person.

Esme always pulled for me since I lived in New York, she was the only one I trusted not to cheat. This year I mysteriously got Edward... maybe my trust was slightly misplaced, but I am so not complaining.

Lucky bitch!

I know right?

Growing up in Chicago, Christmas at the Cullen´s was always great! Since marrying Phil, Renee always chose to schedule a trip during Christmas and New Years; I would normally spend that time with Charlie, but once I met the Cullen´s all that changed.

Carlisle and Esme always insisted that I spend the entire holiday with them – saving me from a soggy Christmas in Forks – leaving Thanksgiving break reserved for Charlie. I embraced the tradition with open arms.

Alice and I have always been joined at the hip and always hated to be separated, not to mention, a certain hot big brother was mandated by Mama Esme to be present and accounted for every Christmas. Holidays were a really big deal in their house, though sometimes Esme had pity on me and let Alice spend Thanksgiving in Forks with me.

Being with the Cullen´s all the time, taught me what it truly meant to be a family. They had this tradition, they call the twelve days Christmas; Esme would give each one of her children a special gift each of the twelve days. She also set aside one day during that time to spend with each one of them individually, that serving as the special gift for that day.

What I loved the most about Esme is that she had more than enough money to buy the world, but she never used it as substitute for the love she had for her family. Imagine my surprise when she included me in this tradition my first Christmas with them.

I have no words to express my overwhelming flood of emotion when she informed me that we were going to have a special Esme and Bella day. It was the first of many I would always remember.

I was afraid that when I moved to New York that I would miss out on the tradition, but being the phenomenal woman she is; she always made it a point to make sure I still got my day. The first time she showed up at my doorstep in New York, I cried for almost twenty minutes before we could leave.

I never had these types of experience with my parents. My grandparents were very loving and I love spending time with them, but when they died, so did my family time.

Charlie was, well... Charlie. You just didn´t expect much from him, well not in the emotion department, anyway. The poor guy was such and introvert. Fishing and working, even though he doesn´t have to.

And Renee, don´t even get me started on her; she can´t even take care of a pet hamster. No... really she can´t! She managed to kill both my pet hamsters – Chip and Dale – in the same day. And like it clearly states in the Good Parent Handbook; she didn´t even try to fool me, by buying replacements.

Can you say ¨lacks parental skills?¨

Though in her defense, she was one hell of a good friend. Guess she´s just not so hot at multi-tasking, but she loves me in her own quirky way, just not like... Esme.

¨Well, are going to just sit there, or are we going to pick up this fuck hot ride?¨ Alice´s voice brought me out of my haze. I didn´t even realize we were at the dealership. Reaching between the seats to unsnap Mojo´s car seat; I grabbed my purse, attach his leash and stumble my way out of the car.

Damn Porsche! The fucking car is so low; she might as well be driving a fucking skateboard with a motor.

¨At least you would have that far to fall!¨ Laughed my

conscience.

This is your last warning... shut the fuck up!

Touchy... touchy!

I scan the parking lot looking for Alice, while Mojo takes a leak, aiming at her back tires. Hmm... sweet revenge! That´s what she gets for dissing on my dog packing. I look up to see her talking with the most beautiful woman I´ve ever seen. She was at least 5´9¨ tall, and the 4¨ fuck me pumps she was wearing, brought her to well over 6¨. My mouth was hanging open and if I didn´t know any better; I´d say drool was running down my chin. I wiped, just to be sure.

Soooo... maybe a little time spent with a female Domme won´t be such a bad idea after all.

I thought I told you to shut the fuck up!

As much as I wanted to disagree, the wetness pooling between my legs, was saying something entirely different. I tried to discreetly squeeze my thighs together for a little relief, before I headed in their direction.

The closer I got, the more I noticed the woman´s mannerisms, she commanded attention... no, demanded it almost. Funny thing is it had nothing to do with her looks, which were fuck hot, by the way. No. This had everything to do with her being in charge, of what, I have no idea; but this chick was not to be fucked with.

¨Hey, Bella, come here, there´s somebody I want you to meet.¨ Alice sang, waving me over to where she and the girl of my dreams were standing.

Whoa! What the fuck! Girl of your dreams! What are you, a muffin licker now?

By the time I reached Alice´s side, my face was redder than an apple, little did I know... it was only going to get worse.

¨Hey Bella, I want you to me Rose, Em´s girlfriend.?¨ Alice was chirping away with her introductions, but I couldn´t tell you what she said after Rose.

My mind was immediately taken over with Rose standing before me with a black latex corset, a latex thong, a pair of the tallest knee high patent leather boots, and a black flogger with my name on it. Did I mention that I was kneeling before her in only my panties? I shook my head to dispel the erotic visions of serving Mistress Rose, from my head, trying desperately to find my way back to reality.

I´m totally fucked!

I could see Alice´s lips moving, but the sound was distorted and I couldn´t make out what she was saying. Way to go retard! Just like a bitch to kick me when I´m down. I didn´t even have the mental capacity to spar with my inner bitch. Then a sound unlike I´ve ever heard before, brought me back from stupor.

My head snapped up at the sound of Rose´s husky, extremely fucking sexy laugh. The wetness in my panties just tripled. Linking her arm in mine, ¨come on little one, I think we should take this conversation inside to a more private location.¨ She winked.

She winked!

Mistress Rose, fucking winked at me!

I know dip shit, I was there.

Now would you please stop acting like a fucking retard!

Don´t fuck this up for us!

I could feel my blush warming my entire body. Chewing nervously on my lower lip, I lower my eyes. I was suddenly very interested in my feet. I vaguely hear Rose call out to someone to bring my car around to the parking lot.

Rose leaned in to me, she was so close, from this angle; I got quite the eye full of her voluptuous breast. I involuntarily licked my lips, as my mouth dried and my eyes widened.

I wonder if their as soft as they look?

Jesus... what the fuck is wrong with me?

¨It´s okay, Isabella,¨ she breathed huskily. ¨I won´t bite... unless of course you want me to?¨ She grazed my earlobe lightly with her teeth. I whimpered, thank God she was holding my arm, or else I would´ve faced planted. I swallowed desperately needed some kind of moisture in my mouth, it felt like it was full of cotton.

¨Rose if you´re going to keep mind fucking Bella, while she blatantly eye fucks your tits... I suggest you two take this little lust fest to your office, shall we?¨ Alice said waving Rose and I through the door she was holding open.

Funny... I didn´t remember my feet moving?

Probably cause you were riding Rose´s tits down the hallway!

God... please just let the floor open up and swallow me now?

¨No such luck, fresh meat! Now sit your ass down, so I can get to know the other woman in my man´s life.¨ Rose said, letting out a throaty chuckle.

Fuck! I said that out loud?

Even her laugh is beautiful...

Swoon...

Did you honestly just fucking swoon?

Uhh... your man? I... I´m so... sorry, I don´t know who your man is.¨ I fumble over my words, shaking like a fucking leaf.

¨Alice you didn´t tell me how funny she was, no wonder Em´s always going on and on about his little Belly this and his little Belly that.¨

¨Emmett? This is Emmett´s Rose!¨ I can´t believe what I´m hearing. ¨Alice,¨ I whisper yell, even though Rose is perfectly capable of hearing me.

Instead of Alice, it was Rose who answered. ¨ The one and only, your little Emmy bear, just so happens to also be my Monkey man.¨ Rose winked again. I really wish she would stop doing that.

Cue the awkward blush...

¨I´m really... uhh... sorry!¨ I blurted. ¨I´m promise you I´m not a lesbian; I really didn´t mean to ogle your breasts.¨ I hung my head in shame.

Talk about a lasting impression!

She will definitely not forget you!

¨First things first, relax B, girl you´re wound tighter than a pocket watch. I´m sorry, can I call you B?¨ She asked. I simply nodded in agreement. She could call me any fucking thing she wanted, just as long as she called me. ¨Second, stop apologizing, because you´re not sorry you ogled my breasts; besides that was my intention, so no problem... mission accomplished. And lastly, just because you find me beautiful – and can openly appreciate that beauty – doesn´t make you a lesbian. It makes you secure in your own sexuality.¨ She explained while turning to look at Alice. ¨I think your right Alice, with the right Dom, she´ll make one hell of a sub.¨ She said simply.

What the fuck? Was this some kind of test? Were they playing me? I immediately became defensive, ¨what the fuck Alice, was this some kind of test? God Alice, I trusted you!¨ I slumped back in my seat, willing the traitor tears filling my eyes, not to fall. I feel like such a fool.

I see Rose get up from behind her desk to approach me, for the first time; I take a moment to truly take in her appearance. She´s wearing a beautiful red silk blouse that´s barely containing her breast, a navy blue pencil skirt with a pair of red-fuck me pumps that make her legs go on for days. Once again, I´m left gaping. Can´t she just sit down for fuck sake; I think squeezing my thighs together painfully.

Do you think they´ll notice if we run to the bathroom and handle this sticky situation?

As tempting as that sounds, I think we better not.

¨Whoa... slow down there tiger, we´re only trying to help.¨ Rose said, placing a hand on my shoulder. It must have been obvious I was ready to bolt.

¨Alice and I have been living this lifestyle for quite some time now, we just want to help. I have been a Domme for over six years and sweetie... I´m very good at what I do! I knew exactly how to play you to get the response I desired.¨ She circled the chair ending up behind me.

I made a move to turn, when suddenly her hands stopped me – none to gently, I might add. ¨Face forward Isabella!¨ Huh? Isabella?

Suddenly, the entire atmosphere changed, the hairs on the back of my neck were standing at attention. I could find nothing in me to want to defy her by turning around. The tone of her voice made me want to obey. I could feel the heat of her body against my back. In that moment, Alice ceased to exist; there was only me and Mistress Rose.

Running her hands lightly up and down my arm, I felt her warm breath brush across my face. ¨See Isabella, I told you, I know exactly what I´m doing. I can see your nipples pebbling through your shirt.¨ My breath hitched, suddenly there wasn´t enough oxygen in the room. ¨Deep breaths Isabella close your eyes and just feel. Let me make you feel good.¨ She cooed.

Holy fuck! Now I can see how the snake got Eve to eat that fucking apple!

She´s a fucking snake charmer! I can´t not obey!

And fuck if it doesn´t feel good!

I manage to somewhat get my breathing under control. ¨That´s it Isabella, good girl! Now I want you to close your eyes my pet,¨ she whispered, closer to the nape of my neck. ¨Concentrate on my touch, concentrate on how good I´m making feel.¨

I was so fucking turned on. My body was on fire. My nipples were so hard it was painful, and my clit was throbbing with every beat of my heart. I was pretty sure that all the blood in my body was now taking up residence between my legs.

Her touch was so fucking sensual, but at the same time it´s so light; I can´t be certain I´m not imagining it. My breathing picks up, but not from lack of oxygen this time. How the fuck is she controlling me like this? This is a total mind fuck! My brain is going into sensory overload, if I don´t cum soon, I´m going to go into cardiac arrest.

Taking my right hand in hers, she places it between my legs, using it to cup my wet sex. Why does this not embarrass me? Because she totally fucking owns us! This orgasm is going to be epic! Gently pressing my hand, she´s gradually adding pressure where I need it most. I´m close. I´m so fucking close to the promise land! I can feel the coil tightening in the pit of my belly.

Just when I thought I was going to get my release, Rose has other ideas. ¨You better not fucking cum without my permission Isabella,¨ she hissed. ¨You wouldn´t want to see me mad; I promise you won´t like it, and neither would that fine ass of yours.¨ I´m sure that was meant to scare me, but fuck if it didn´t turn me on more.

¨Now, Isabella, is there something you want to ask me,¨ she questioned.

Huh? I don´t know? Is there? I´m fucking dying here! I have absolutely no idea what she´s talking about.

Fuck Bella! Think! What does she want you to ask?

I´m almost in tears, I can´t concentrate; as I sit there unabashedly grinding my clit into the palm of my hand. Too many things are happening at once, I feel like I´m fucking going insane.

¨I don´t have all fucking day, Isabella! Is there not something you want to ask me?¨ She hissed again in my ear. I don´t know! ¨What the fuck to you need, Isabella?¨

Just like that, the heavens opened up and the choir started singing hallelujah! I knew the answer to this question. I needed to cum, and now!

¨Cum!¨ I yelled, a little too loudly for our current location.

Yanking my head back by my ponytail, ¨is that any way to fucking talk to me slut?¨ She barked.

Whoa... welcome to the big leagues.

She is so fucking hot!

¨No ma´am, please! Please, ma´am! May I cum! I need to cum, pleeeeeeeeease!¨ I was too fucking gone to give a flying fuck who heard me. Thankfully, I had the good sense, not to call her Mistress.

I couldn´t risk anything cumming between me and this orgasm.

Definitely, no pun intended!

¨That´s my good little pet,¨ she crooned. Then she spoke the most beautiful words that a girl could ever hear ¨cum for me Isabella. Now!¨ She commanded.

Three things happened at once: Rose yanked my head back, while Alice came out of no fucking where and clamped her tiny hand over my mouth, and my body exploded so hard it was almost painful.

¨Arghhhhh... Fuuuuck!¨ My cries were muffled by Alice´s hand as my body stiffened, resulting in me seeing stars. That was the best orgasm I have ever had in my fucking life!

It felt like my orgasm lasted for hours, but in reality it lasted only minutes. The best motherfucking minutes of my life, I might add! Slowly my breathing returned to normal. My hand was a bit sore from gripping the chair so tight. As the reality of what I had just done set in, I pulled my lip between my teeth, suddenly shy and very embarrassed.

¨So, do you still don´t think it´s not a good idea to train with a female Domme?¨ Alice laughed. I just groaned covering my face with my hands.

¨So Isabella, are you interested in my help or not? If I´m going to train you. I need to get it okayed with Emmett first.¨ She informed me.

¨What! NO! You can´t tell Emmett! Can´t it just be our secret? It´s not like we´ll be having intercourse or anything.¨ I pleaded, begging her with my eyes to understand.

Rose laughed, ¨Bella, it´s not about whether or not we´ll be having sex – which we won´t – but Emmett is my collared sub; I can´t have you in our playroom if he´s not okay with it.¨

What?

Hold the fucking phone!

Emmett is a sub?

Emmy bear?

Who the fuck, are these people and what the fuck have they done with the Cullen's?

Emmett is like a five thousand pound 20 foot beast!

Okay, so he´s not that fucking huge, but you get the point!

¨Emmett is a fucking sub?¨ I ask. I feel like I´ve awaken in Wonderland.

Anybody seen that fucking rabbit?

¨Yep,¨ she said, popping the ´p´. ¨My Monkey man is quite the little pet,¨ she grinned wickedly.

¨Yeah, Rose, no disrespect, but not the visual I was hoping for.¨ I said grimacing.

Emmett gets his ass spanked!

I can´t wait to see him!

I suddenly get the eerie feeling that my secret is not so much a secret anymore. Covering my face with my hands again, my voice is muffled when I speak. ¨Does Emmett know about me?¨ I cringe on the inside waiting for the answer.

¨Well yeah,¨ Alice´s cheery voice rang out from my left. I groan.

¨No worries, Bella, Emmett would never tell anyone.¨ Alice tried to reassure me, but the look on my face told her... I was not convinced. ¨Think about it, he´s a linebacker for the NFL, for goodness sake! WHO WOULD HE TELL?¨ She made a very valid point.

Touché Ms. Swan, but you know that won´t protect you in private.

Then again, if Rose can make me orgasm like that all the time, it will be so worth putting up with Emmett´s bullshit.

That´s exactly what I was thinking!

Blushing uncontrollably, I whisper a timid, ¨okay.¨ This is an opportunity I just can´t pass up.

¨Good choice Isabella, I can´t wait to turn that hot little ass of yours a pretty shade of pink,¨ said Rose, grinning wickedly.

¨If you don´t mind, can I use your bathroom to umm... freshen up?¨ I ask shyly.

As if I hadn´t spoken, Rose tapped one of her blood red fingernails on her chin musing, ¨I wonder if all your cheeks blush?¨ She looked me over from head to toe, almost predator like. There was a sparkle in her deep blue eyes, as she smoothed her long blonde tresses, ¨I´m going to have one hell of a time finding out.¨ She winked.

Good thing my panties were already wet.

How does she do that?

I gulp, ¨Alice, would you get my bag from the car please?¨

¨No need, hot stuff,¨ she said as she tossed me a fresh lacy black thong.

I opened the door to the bathroom, turning I start to ask, ¨How did you...?¨ Then realization hit, ¨you two and your fucking plans!¨ I closed the bathroom door to the sound of Rose and Alice cackling like hyenas.

_FtLoD_

By the time I was Zest fully clean again, Rose and Alice were outside walking Mojo again. He and Rose seemed to be getting a long quite well.

Oh shit! I forgot all about my fucking dog.

Yeah, mind blowing orgasms tend to have that effect on a person.

I wonder if they damage brain cells over time!

Hmmm... good question.

You should Google.

In all my inner turmoil and post coital bliss, I missed the fact that Rose owns the dealership. Looking at the Hale´s Foreign and Domestic Auto sign, I´m somewhat blown away. She is fucking awesome. Rosalie Hale is my new hero! We decide to grab lunch at a nearby mall, so I can pick up Emmett´s gift. Kill two birds with one stone.

We end up at TGI Friday´s laughing and having a good time like old friends. Rose is a riot. It amazes me how she can let loose and have fun, then morph into a no shit taking Domme in two point two seconds.

She comes off as this hard ass bitch, but that couldn´t be farther from the truth. She was actually very sweet. We laughed and talked like we´ve known each other for years. I now knew that the Jimmy Choo´s I got her for Christmas were perfect.

I ended up getting Emmett several things from an Ed Hardy outlet, so Alice could make him his own Christmas tree of presents. I learned a long time ago, when it comes to presents Emmett Cullen is worse than a five year old.

Our last Christmas together in Chicago, he actually fought with his little cousin over a video game. His brilliant defense was; Julian got the one he wanted, never mind that Julian was six and Emmett was twenty-one. In Em´s eyes, injustice has no age. What a ham! We still tease him about the time out Esme gave him to this day. Mysteriously, the game he wanted showed up the next day.

Since I´d already gotten Esme and Carlisle the Claude Monet oil painting, La Promenade, Alice two pairs of Jimmy Choo´s with matching purses, Jasper a limited edition James Burton Telecaster electric guitar by Fender, and Kate and Garrett and cruise to the Bahamas; that just left Edward, now that Emmett was out of the way.

Ever since I can remember, Edward has always loved classical music. He plays the piano and acoustic guitar extremely well. I decided season tickets for the Seattle Symphony´s 2011 concert series was perfect. I made sure he would have the best view in the concert hall. After all, nothing was too good for my Edward.

Slow down there speedy, last time I checked... he wasn´t exactly your Edward.

Pfft... fucking technicalities!

A girl can dream, can´t she?

In that case continue on... a little dreaming never hurt anyone.

Done with my shopping, I entrusted the wrapping of Emmett and Rose´s gifts, along with retrieving Esme and Carlisle´s from the art gallery to Alice. I left her and Jasper´s gifts with Esme, I didn´t trust Alice not to peek. She was an expert at rewrapping presents. Don´t ask! I would save Edward´s for when he returned from Switzerland. We all planned to save a few gifts to open with him, per Esme´s orders, of course.

At 2 o´clock, I kissed the girls goodbye and headed over to Whitlock, Cheney, Newton and Assocs. Jasper was a trooper and let Mojo run around his office while I met with his father. My dog had some weird fetish with carpet, but not the plush kind, he prefers industrial. Yeah, still trying to figure that one out!

My meeting with Jasper Sr. went extremely well; I was tentatively scheduled to start the last week in January, giving me time to find a place to live after the holidays. A six figure salary, signing bonus, access to the company jet and the fact that they would pay for me to get my Masters in Family Law, was a pretty sweet deal. All in all, I´d say the meeting went fucking great.

It was 3:15 p.m. by the time Mojo and I started our trip to the soggy little town of Forks. I cranked up the volume on my Kings of Leon CD, to keep me company on the ride. My car was fucking awesome! It drove like a dream. The ride was so smooth, it almost felt like I wasn´t moving. Mojo was curled up in his car seat taking a nap, and the only indication of my speed were the blurring trees I passed on the highway. I took the time to mentally go over in my head what I planned to say to Charlie about Jacob, needing to find some way to gently break the news!

Yeah, you got anything, cause I´m coming up blank?

How about he was a fucking douche bag that couldn´t keep it in his pants?

Yeah, remind me not to ask you for anymore advice!

This should be interesting.

Ho... Ho... Ho... Merry fucking Christmas!

EPOV

This trip is exactly what I needed to get my mind off of the fuckery, which has currently become my life. As I sit in my apartment staring out into the bustling streets of Geneva, I think back to last night´s jazz concert I attended. I couldn´t help sitting in the intimate little club thinking about how nice it would be to share this experience with Bella!

Cullen, don´t go there!

She´s married now!

Let´s face it, you blew it man!

Fuck! I´m such a masochistic! No matter what I do; I can´t get her out of my fucking mind! Every time I look into a pair of brown eyes, I can´t help but make the comparison. I called Esme – when Alice didn´t answer her phone – just to make sure she went through with it.

It wasn´t necessary really, after all, the evidence was staring me the face from my laptop screen. She was a fucking angel. I´d never seen her look more beautiful, and it was all for that pompous looking prick! He didn´t fucking deserve her! She was fucking mine!

Whoa there killer!

You fucked this one up all on your own!

It´s not like she had another choice!

I didn´t see you beating down her door!

Let it go Cullen, and move on!

I threw my head back downing the last of my Johnny Walker, and tugged none too gently at my hair. The fucking monster in my head was right. How the fuck, do you lay claim on something that was never yours.

I throw my head back and laugh without humor. Edward Cullen, the big bad fucking Dom. Pfft... the big bad fucking coward, is more like it! I slam my glass on the table, immediately pouring another. Inebriation is so much fucking better, so that´s how I spend my days off – getting shit faced and wallowing in self-pity.

It beats playing the fucking what if game all the time. What if I´d told Bella how I felt? What if I wasn´t a sadistic bastard, that got a fucking hard-on from spanking and tying up women? What if I was younger? What if I had another chance?

What if?

What if?

What the fuck if?

My fucking chest was on fire, and it had nothing to do with the alcohol that I was consuming. No. I fucking wish it was that simple. There´s been a dull burning ache in my chest ever since I found out Bella was getting married.

Fuck, I don´t know; I guess I thought I still had a chance. I kept a close eye on her through Alice. Over the years there was never any mention of anyone serious that she was dating. I mean, I would never want to begrudge her a life, but the thought of that arrogant looking motherfucker putting his hands on her – making love to her – made my fucking blood boil.

Rushing into the bathroom and empty the contents of my stomach, as the bile mixed with alcohol burns my throat. Just like every other fucking time you sit and obsess over her! This is not healthy! You need to get laid; a good random fuck – will make it all go away.

I slam my fist into a nearby wall. Fuck! That shit hurt! Hey, numb nuts! What the fuck are you doing? Those are our fucking livelihood! Get a fucking grip! Since when did you become such an emo pussy ass wimp? I was an emo pussy. There was no denying that. The tears that soaked my sheets at night were a testament to just how emotionally broken I was.

How?

How am I supposed to move on?

How the fuck do you move on when you lose your only reason for existing?

Cue the fucking violins!

Damn dude, you are such a fucking girl!

Are you sure Tanya was your bitch and not the other way around?

I groan at the thought of her name, instantly feeling another round of nausea. To be rid of that psycho bitch, was worth spending the holidays away from my family.

_FtLoD_

Tanya had been driving me crazy, calling my phone non-stop before I left Seattle, even showing up at Escala a few times, until I gave her name and picture to security. I pay a mini fucking fortune to ensure that my home is safe. I would never forgive myself if something happened to Mrs. Cope. Thank God she was staying in Port Angeles with her family until I return to the states. That was one less thing I would have to worry about.

At the advice of Jasper, I got a new cell number and gave the old phone to Jasper, just in case something happened. He told me it would come in handy for evidence; in case I needed to get a restraining order or something. I was sure the problem would be solved with the new number, because she didn´t have my home number, nor access to my home. Thank God!

About three days before I was scheduled to leave; I was working off my last shift, when a loud commotion coming from the hallway drew my attention away from a chart I was studying at my desk.

Stepping out into the hallway to see what all the fuss was about; I immediately regretted my decision, when I saw a streak of strawberry blonde hair swaying frantically.

¨Fuck!¨ I hissed. This could not be fucking happening. Before I could duck into a nearby linen closet, Tanya spotted me.

¨There he is,¨ she screeched, ¨I told you he was here!¨ She snapped at Megan the nurse that was on duty. I had to make sure I apologized to her; after all, she was only following my orders to tell anyone not on staff, that I wasn´t here today.

¨Tanya,¨ I spoke through clenched teeth. ¨May I remind you that you are in a hospital, a children´s hospital, might I add; keep your fucking voice down!¨ I hissed close to her ear, as so not to be over heard by the staff. Not wanting to make a scene, I lightly placed my hand on her lower back and guided her down the hall to my office.

As soon as I shut the door, I fucking lost it. ¨What the fuck are you doing here?¨ I growled. I was having a hard time keeping my voice down; this was not something I wanted the staff to be gossiping around the hospital about. That would not bode too well with my father.

¨Eddie, I... I¨ she stuttered, but one look at the fire in my eyes had her back tracking.

¨I... I... I mean Edward; I just wanted to see you. Why won´t you return any of my calls?¨ She whined.

¨I told you Tanya, we are over. Do you not know what that means?¨ I asked. ¨Well let me explain it to you, OVER, DONE, FINISHED, SEVER ALL TIES, CUT YOUR LOSSES AND FUCKING RUN...! Do I need to give you anymore examples? All communications ceased to exist between us, before the paper shredder finished shredding the goddamn contract! I have nothing more to say to you. WHAT PART OF THAT, DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND?¨ By this time I was breathing erratically and my head was fucking killing me. I didn´t need this fucking shit!

Tanya sat there staring at me as if I´d grown another fucking head. I did not have time for this bullshit! I had another set of rounds to do before it was time for me to leave.

¨Are you just going to sit there staring at me like a fucking statue all day, because if that´s all, I need to do my rounds. You need to leave!¨ I had seriously lost my patience with this nut job.

¨Edward, please,¨ she whispered.

¨Please what, Tanya?¨ I mimicked her whiney voice. ¨I have told you before; I CANNOT be what you fucking need anymore! I do not now, nor will I ever LOVE YOU! Can´t you get that through your fucking head!¨ I seethed, by this time I was enraged to the point of wanting to physically remove her from my office, but logically I knew that was not an option.

Well at least for me it wasn´t. I would have to call security.

You know you sure can pick ´em! Look at this mess you´ve gotten us into!

Tell me about it!

This chic is a few nuts short of a Pay Day!

I flopped down in my office chair pinching the bridge of my nose, trying with everything in me to gain my bearings. Shit was getting out of hand. I had to try and calm myself and diffuse this highly fucked up situation.

When I was sure that I could control my voice, I spoke. ¨Listen Tanya, I have no idea where this all went wrong, but all I can say is, I´m sorry. I´m sorry if I ever gave you the impression that I... that we,¨ I waved my hand back and forth between us, ¨could be anything more than Dom and sub. I apologize. That was never my intention. As a last resort I added, ¨that´s why I chose this lifestyle; I´m not looking for a commitment. Tanya, you are a beautiful woman... but I´m not interested in changing the way I live my life. That´s why I only have sex with women who willingly sign a contract; I´m just a fucked up individual!¨ I ended, hoping she would fall for my ´it´s not you, it´s me´ ridiculous bullshit excuse.

Damn Cullen, that shit was epic!

¨You even have me believing that bullshit!¨ The monster said, wiping crocodile tears from his eyes.

I know right. Watch this shit!

Cue the grand finale!

¨Edward, I... I don´t know what to say, I...¨ Tanya muttered with a look of confusion on her face.

Bingo!

Time to strike while the iron is hot!

¨Listen T,¨ I know, bitch move using the nickname, ¨I just need some time. I just need some space, away from the lifestyle, from us, from everything.¨ I confessed, running my hands through my hair and sighing in frustration. ¨I just need time to think about what it is I want to do.¨ I looked at her through my lashes, praying that she saw the intended look of conflict, in my eyes. ¨Can you give me that? Can you give me time to think about things... about us? My head hung and my shoulders slumped as I put on the performance of my life.

For good measure, I even threw in one of my panty dropping smirks. It had been known to have an adverse affect on the decisions women made in my presence. I was praying to any God that would listen for a little extra help with it today. I chanted over and over in my head... please fall for this shit! Please fall for this shit!

¨Oh Eddie,¨ she started, but recoiled from the growl that slipped from my lips. ¨I mean Edward; I can do that. Baby, I can give you time, if that´s what you need.¨ Tanya said, beaming at the thought of another chance to be with me. I on the other hand threw up in my mouth a little when she referred to me as baby.

The fucking monster in my head stepped up to the podium in his super fly black Gucci tuxedo – with tails – tapped his baton on the podium in preparation, and directed the fucking heavenly choir in a round of Hallelujahs! It was fucking music to my ears.

And the Oscar goes to...!

Edward fucking Cullen!

Thank you... thank you!

I´d like to thank my mom, dad, Em, Ali... blah... blah... fucking blah!

I immediately jumped to my feet, rushing to her side, so I could get her the fuck of out of my office, and out of my life! I wasted no time yanking Tanya, none to gently from her seat and shoving her towards the door.

¨Edward,¨ she cried as she damn near face planted into my desk.

¨Sorry T,¨ yeah, I´m milking that shit for all it´s worth. ¨I´ve just got a few more patients to see before I get out of here. I´m kind of pressed for time,¨ I lied.

¨O... okay, well... I don´t want to keep you. I´ll call,¨ I nipped that shit in the bud before she could get it out of her psychopathic mouth.

¨NO!¨ Her eyes bugged in shock at the harshness of my voice. ¨I... I... mean, I´ll call you. Time remember, I need time.¨ I reminded her.

¨O... okay,¨ she conceded grudgingly.

This is one clingy bitch!

Tell me something I don´t know!

Just then I had a brilliant idea, ¨hey, why don´t we get together Sunday,¨ her blue eyes glazed over at the mention of us getting together. Whoa... there Pocahontas! It´s not what you think! ¨For drinks,¨ I quickly added just to clear up any confusion.

¨Where?¨ She beamed.

¨Umm... I´m not sure yet! I´ll call you with the time and place.¨ Never mind that I would be safely on a plane headed to Switzerland Saturday morning.

You sly dog!

I know, what can I say?

I opened the door, trying to calm my urge to shove Tanya – head first into the hallway – and waited for her to leave. I could tell by her body language that she was going to try and kiss me. I let her slowly move in for the kill, waiting until she closed her eyes. I then strategically stepped out of the way at the very last second causing Tanya´s face to – accidentally on purpose – collide with my office door.

¨Ouch!¨ She wailed.

¨Oh! I´m sorry! Are you okay?¨ I asked, trying desperately to cover up my snickering with a cough.

¨Uhh... yeah, I´m okay,¨ she shook her head. I imagine trying to get rid of those tweety birds that were flying around that empty tank of hers.

I notice a slight bruise forming, ¨you might want put some ice on that when you get home,¨ I suggested no longer trying to hide the rise and fall of my shoulders with my laughter.

I shut my office door and did the fucking moon walk all the way back to my desk.

Cullen, you my man are a fucking genius!

I popped my collar and got back to work.

I managed to drag my sorry ass to bed, after brushing my teeth and stripping down to my boxers. I tried to shake the thoughts of psycho-sub out of my mind, so I could get some much needed sleep.

It was much needed for two reasons, the first being I have a fifteen hour shift tomorrow, and second, I had a date with a brown eyed beauty waiting for me in my dreams. Sleep was the only place that Bella was truly mine. I know. I know. Masochistic... remember! I set the alarm on my phone and prayed for sleep to overtake me. After what seemed like hours, I drifted it off into a peaceful sleep.

_FtLoD_

I kept feeling a weird tickling sensation under my nose. I was sleeping peacefully, and whatever it was, was irking the hell out of me. I grunted and attempted to roll over, when I heard it; the one person who could warm my body from head to toe, just with the sound of her beautiful voice.

¨I know you´re awake,¨ she giggled.

That sound was fucking music to my ears. I pretended to still be asleep just to prolong her game a little while longer. I loved waking up to a playful Bella; it always meant I was in for a round of mind blowing sex.

Her tiny hands began tickling my sides. Oh no, did she really want to go there. In the blink of an eye, I had her back pinned to the bed.

¨Do you really want to go there with me?¨ I growled, playfully flexing my fingers in her face.

¨Edward no, I was only kidding, please!¨ She begged, batting her eyelashes and trying desperately to distract me. I threw my head back and laughed, all the pleading in the world´s not going to save her from this.

¨Ah... a... ahh, my little chocolate eyed beauty,¨ I whispered seductively in her ear; as I lightly ran my hands up and down her sides, making sure to skim her breasts with each pass.

She closed her eyes and moaned, relishing in my caressing touches. I chuckled to myself, surely she didn´t think it would be that easy. I continued making the circuit, watching as her tantalizing nipples hardened before my eyes. The thin cotton tank she was wearing left little to my imagination.

I could feel my cock springing to life, with the beautiful sight before me. Unfortunately, he would have to wait just a few more minutes, before there would be any chance of him entering the warm heaven, which only my beautiful Bella can give him.

I continued with my slow and sensual touches, listening to the sweet musical moans falling from her lips. ¨Baby, you like that? Hmm... ?¨ I asked, dipping the tip of my tongue into the outer shell of her ear.

¨Mmhmmm,¨ was all she was able to get out.

¨Good!¨ I snapped, attacking her without warning.

Bella squealed and squirmed beneath me trying to get away from the attack of my fingers. I don´t know who was suffering more, Bella or my poor rock hard dick. With each brush of her delicate body against mine, my cock just got that much harder.

¨Ed... Edwa... Edward! I´m... going to... pee in your bed! Stop!¨ She begged and pleaded breathlessly between giggles. I would never tire of the sound of my brown eyed beauty´s laughter. It was music to my ears.

Finally relenting, I flipped us over so she was lying on my chest. Her breasts were rising and falling rapidly as she tried to catch her breath. The skin on her face and neck shown a beautiful pick hue, her pulse point was just begging for me to suck it.

Not one to disappoint, I latched on to her neck causing her breath to hitch and a moan to vibrate deep in her throat. I sucked harder, wanting to leave my mark of ownership. Bella was mine! I wanted every motherfucker to know that she was off limits.

¨Edward,¨ Bella moaned. ¨That feels amazing. God I love the feel of your mouth on me,¨ she said while grinding her hot core into my erection.

It was my turn to moan this time. ¨Bella, fuck...¨ I hissed, grabbing her by the hips to still her motions. ¨Baby if you keep that up, I´m gonna cum,¨ I breathed into her neck, kissing and sucking the tender flesh there.

¨Baby, I need you,¨ my little sexy vixen said, resuming her tantalizing ministrations. My breath caught and my eyes flew open at the shock of warm little hand gripping my cock.

¨Bella, fuck...¨ I hissed, thrusting up into her palm involuntarily. I wasn´t use to letting a woman take charge, especially in the bedroom, but this was different. Bella was different. As much as I loved my role as Master in the playroom; I loved that we were partners in the bedroom. She was the half that completed my whole.

Pumping my shaft up and down, she was making harder by the minute, as if that was even possible. My body hummed at the attention she was giving it. Just when I thought it couldn´t get any better, Bella began kissing her way down my chest.

Each of her open mouth kisses felt like hot branding irons searing my flesh. My body was on fire. No one had ever made me feel the way she does. She fucking owned me and I wasn´t ashamed to admit it.

¨Fuck... Bella! God baby, I love the way your mouth feels on me.¨ I breathed. I was a fucking pussy and didn´t care who knew it.

Licking circles around my belly button, she looked up at me through her lashes. ¨Tell me, Edward, tell me what you need? Tell me what you want?¨ She said seductively, nuzzling her nose in my happy trail.

¨Bellaaaa...¨ was all I could get out. She was fucking teasing me! She knew exactly what I wanted.

Her fucking mouth!

On me!

Now!

¨Ah... ah...¨ she whispered into my skin. The movement of her head shaking no was sending bolts of electricity straight to my dick, causing it to twitch. ¨Hmm... looks like big ´E´ knows exactly what he wants,¨ she purred. She clucked her tongue, ¨tsk... tsk... Edward,¨ she sang. ¨Time is wasting, we don´t have long.¨ She warned.

That fucking woke me up from my stupor. If we were pressed for time, there was no other place I wanted to be, but buried balls deep in Bella´s tight wet pussy. ¨You!¨ I growled. ¨I need to be inside you,¨ I snapped, gripping her shoulders and drawing her closer to me. As soon as she was within my reach, my lips crashed on hers.

I knew that there was a good chance I would leave a bruise, but I couldn´t control the all consuming need to have her. I ran my tongue across her lip, desperately needing entrance into her sweet mouth. I couldn´t control the moan that escaped me as my tongue met with hers.

Our tongues danced a heated tango, moving rhythmically together in fluid motions. She was my drug, and I so desperately needed to get high. High on my beautiful Bella! Hating, but needing to breath, my mouth moved to devour her breast. I rolled my tongue across her left nipple, while my hand automatically reached for her right.

My beautiful angel was writhing and mewling at the onslaught of my affection. Thrusting her chest further into my mouth and gripping my hair she held me to her, taking from me what she needed. I was all too happy to oblige.

Never releasing my hold on her nipple, I used my free hand to remove her boy shorts. Bella lifted her bottom so I could finish removing her shorts. Fuck! She was so wet! Her arousal was dripping all over my stomach. I couldn´t wait any longer; I had to have her.

My sexy little vixen looked me in the eye, chewing on her bottom lip as she ran my steel rod between her sopping wet folds. It took all the control I had not to fucking cum all over her chest.

How the fuck, does she do that?

There she was biting her lip looking like an innocent angel, but working my cock like a fucking pro. It was the best of both fucking worlds!

I purred – yes, I fucking purred – at the feel of her heat on my shaft, and just when I thought I´d seen it all, she impaled herself on my dick, sheathing it completely in her tight little hole.

¨Fuuuuuck!¨ I shot up involuntarily, ceasing all movement. All I could do was hold her to me. Each time we came together was more than just sex, it was an explosion. My heart nearly exploded out of my chest at the feeling of being inside her. I needed a minute to get my bearings.

¨Edward,¨ Bella moaned into my chest. ¨Baby, you´ve got to move,¨ she wiggled her hips for emphasis. ¨I need you to move. I need you to make love to me,¨ she whined and rolled her hips into me, sucking my earlobe into her mouth.

How could I deny her anything? I would give her the world if I could. I begin to slowly thrust in time with the rolling of her hips. Grabbing the hair at the nape of my neck Bella tugged gently, bringing my lips to hers. This kiss was a far cry from the almost brutal kiss from before. It was slow, but building, just like our love making.

I was fighting with everything within me to keep it slow, but Bella wasn´t hearing it. She tugged at my bottom lip sensually, looking at me through lust filled eyes. Fuck, if she wasn´t trying to make me cum.

¨Ungh... Bella, fuck baby...¨ I was struggling to verbalize just what she was doing to me. ¨I love you so fucking much,¨ I confessed.

She exhaled, her sweet warm breath fanning across my face. ¨I love you too, Edward,¨ she reciprocated, pushing my shoulders toward the mattress. ¨I love the feel of you filling me, but I... ungh... need... harder Edward, please...¨ she pleaded, picking up speed. She leaned back gripping my knees, riding my cock like a jockey.

My fucking stomach muscles tightened. I could feel her pussy clenching my dick; she was close. I could fucking feel it! Bella began drawing lazy circles around her clit. Fuck! It was too much. Bella fucking touching herself, the sound of skin slapping ringing throughout the bedroom, and Bella´s pussy muscles clapping down on me each time I pulled out.

¨Edward,¨ she called, ¨I´m so close baby. Can you feel how close I am?¨

¨Fuck Bella, yes...¨ I hissed. ¨You feel so fucking good baby... ungh...¨ I responded while gripping her hips. I couldn´t take it anymore, my grip on Bella was almost too tight; but I didn´t give it a second thought, as I pounded a relentless rhythm in her very welcoming pussy.

¨Aaa...¨ she mewled. ¨I´m going to...! Edward!¨ Bella yelled as her pussy clenched my cock greedily.

¨Fuck, fuck, fuck!¨ I chanted with each powerful thrust.

¨Bellaaaa... fuck, I´m...¨

Buzz... buzz... buzz...

What the fuck?

¨Ungh... ¨ I groaned as my orgasm hit and cum filled my boxers. My orgasm and the buzzing seemed to go on forever, neither one wanting to relent.

I reached for the source of the annoying sound and looked at the screen of my phone. Alice? Why would she be calling at the ass crack of dawn?

¨What!¨ I barked, still a bit breathless from my orgasm.

¨Tis the season to be jolly, Edward,¨ she chirped.

I sighed in exasperation, ¨you´re right Alice, but that´s only after I get eight hours of sleep¨

¨Sorry big bro, didn´t mean to interrupt your erotic dream time, but it´s important.¨ She chirped.

How the fuck, does she do that?

Fucking psychic pixie!

Let´s not go there!

Like I´m going to discuss my wet dreams with my baby sister!

Fuck that!

¨What is so important that you had to call me a 7:30 in the morning?¨ I asked. Is someone dying!¨

¨Edward, don´t be such a drama queen!¨ She scolded. ¨No one is dying per se, but it is a matter of life and death.¨ She explained.

¨Okay, now you´ve piqued my interest. Care to share with me what this matter of life and death is? Or do I have to guess?¨ I knew it was important – contrary to what one might think – Alice always preferred to give, rather than receive. She rarely asked for anything.

Well... I need a huge favor, and I promise I wouldn´t be bothering you if there was any other way.¨ Alice huffed in desperation. Hmm... something´s off, Alice doesn´t do desperation! Well, not unless she´s trying to convince Jasper to do something, but even then, it doesn´t take much.

Yeah, because you´re BFF is a PWP!

A PWP? What the fuck is that?

A pussy whipped pansy!

So true my good man, so true.

¨Alice,¨ I sighed, ¨would you just spit it out. I have the strangest feeling that I´m going to say ´no´ anyway.¨ I warned, wary as to where this was headed.

¨Edward,¨ she whined.

¨Alice¨ I mocked.

¨Listen, here´s the thing,¨ she took a deep breath and continued. ¨I have this friend, she´s looking to get into the lifestyle, and needs a Dom...¨ I cut her off right there, not wanting to hear anymore.

¨Alice, the answer is no! I was having enough trouble with psycho sub before I left. I am not looking for another submissive.¨ I said with finality. I hated telling Alice no, but I will not budge on this.

¨Edward please, just hear me out,¨ she begged.

Never being able to deny Alice anything, I concede. ¨Fine, I´ll listen, but I´m not making any promises.¨

¨Edward, she´s coming out of a really bad relationship, he cheated on her Edward... a lot. She has serious trust issues. Thank God, he never knew about her desire to submit. She´s really afraid! It´s been two years and she still hasn´t actively sought out a Dom.¨ She said.

¨She´s afraid, what am I supposed to do with her? I´m not some miracle worker, Alice! You know I don´t like novice subs; I would have to start from scratch.¨ I argued. ¨I´m sorry, I prefer my pets housebroken.¨ I chuckled at the cheekiness of my analogy.

¨Pleassssseeee... ¨ Alice pleaded. ¨Edward, she´s a professional and only wants the utmost discretion, that´s what she´s afraid of... not being a submissive.¨

¨Alice, why don´t you call the club? I´m sure you can find an available Dom willing to test with her. They would be just as discreet.¨ I suggested.

¨Edward, she´s my friend! She trusts me! And I want someone I trust!¨ She screeched, causing my ears to bleed.

Could you fucking get rid of her already!

She´s going to give us an aneurism with all that fucking screeching!

I´d much rather be fucking dream Bella!

The monster makes a valid argument.

¨Look Ali, what the fuck do you have planned? You wouldn´t have called if you hadn´t thought this through. Spill it Pixie!I was growing weary with this back and forth shit. My fucking boxers were sticky with cum and I needed a fucking shower.

¨Well,¨ she dramatically began, ¨I was thinking that when you get back you could have a test scene with her, but she has a few... uh... stipulations.¨ She stated vaguely.

¨Stipulations,¨ I laughed. ¨Who the fuck does this chick think she is? She needs me, not the other way around!¨ I spoke with a bit more harshness than I intended to, after all, it wasn´t Alice´s fault. She was only being the incredible friend she always was. She´ll make a wonderful mother someday; she just has the natural ´Mama Bear´ gene.

¨Sorry Alice,¨ I apologized.

¨It´s okay, Edward,¨ she spoke softly. ¨What she wants really will benefit you both. She would prefer to remain anonymous. During the scene she would be blindfolded, and the rest of her face would be covered with a mask. If for some reason this doesn´t work out, she thinks it would make it less awkward, should you guys ever meet somewhere out in public.¨

It actually wasn´t such a bad idea! Why the fuck didn´t you ever think of something like this? It would have saved a lot of grief from psycho sub. I guess this would officially make the pixie smarter than me.

¨Is that all?¨ I questioned, turning the idea of a little playtime over in my head.

¨Well, no, but nothing you need to worry your pretty little messy head over.¨ Alice was definitely hiding something, but I was still intrigued. My dick twitched at the prospect of flogging some beautiful virgin skin.

¨All you need to know right now is that Rose will start her training next week. I´ve also had a package sent to you by messenger, which should arrive right about... now!¨ She squealed with excitement, at the same time my buzzer rang.

¨What the fuck Alice?¨ I startled.

¨I´ll hold,¨ was all she said.

I walked to the door and sure enough, I was greeted by a guy holding a small brown package. I signed the necessary forms and handed him a nice tip for coming out so early.

Only Alice fucking Cullen could have a package delivered at ass crack:30 in the morning – between countries. Balancing my cell between my neck and shoulder, I opened my little package to see what was inside.

I laugh.

¨I take it you found my little surprise?¨ Alice´s tinkering laugh vibrated through the phone lines.

¨So you thought you´d butter me up with a couple of bags of Hershey´s kisses? You know me to well Ali cat,¨ I joked. Of course she would try to bribe me with my favorite candy.

Continuing my investigation of the mysterious box, I hear Alice chime in. ¨Soooo... will you do it? Please, please, pretty pleaseeee!¨ She begged. If you do, I´ll tell you who pulled your name this year...¨ She bribed.

Damn, she´s playing dirty!

You know you want to know!

Only because Bella´s name was in the box too!

Fucking Emmett!

He pulled Bella´s name this year!

He wouldn´t switch with me, not even when I offered him a hundred bucks!

Fucker!

I really hope I don´t regret this, ¨Fine Alice! One scene! That´s all I´m promising!¨ I finally concede. ¨Now care to tell my why you sent me a fucking cell phone?¨ I asked puzzled as I discovered the phone beneath a shit load of Hershey´s kisses.

¨Oh, that, well it´s for privacy, duh!¨ She explained as if I were a three year old. ¨I thought it would be easier for you guys to communicate, this way you can kind of get a feel for each other.

Hmm... once again, not a bad idea pixie!

¨Does she know my name?¨ I ask nervously.

¨That would kinda ruin the whole ´anonymous´ vibe, wouldn´t it?¨ She said in a duh stupid kind of tone.

Dude, truthfully, I´m kind of worried about you; myself.

Ignoring both Alice and the monster, ¨fuck, I meant to ask who do I ask for, or who will she ask for, when she calls?¨

¨You are Sir and she is pet. She will only answer things concerning the life style and what you expect. Nothing personal!¨ She informed me. ¨I trust after your time with psycho sub, this sounds rational.¨ She stated, matter-of-factly.

¨Good work Alice. I couldn´t have come up with a better plan myself.¨ I agreed.

¨Well big bro, I´ve got to run. Gotta deck the halls and all that shit,¨ she giggled.

¨Hey,¨ I stopped her. ¨When am I going to hear from her, and this is just a onetime thing. No promises!¨ I reiterated.

¨Yes Edward,¨ she sighed in exasperation. ¨I´ll leave the option to enter into a contract between the two of you.¨ She promised. ¨I will only say, that I have a really good feeling about you two,¨ she added as an afterthought, ¨Edward, she could be the one for you.¨

Fucking match making pixie!

Why does everyone feel the need to meddle in my life!

Arghhh... it´s fucking infuriating!

¨Look Alice,¨ I decided to change subject,¨ did you say she was going to do some training with Rose?¨ I asked, not sure if I heard her correctly earlier.

¨Yes, they´ve got something set up for next week,¨ Alice replied.

¨Well have Rose call me, or inform her that I will be calling her. I want to know exactly what´s going on,¨ I stated, slipping into Dom-mode.

¨Yes Sir,¨ Alice giggled.

¨Oh... Alice, tell my little pet; starting as of right now, her orgasms belong to me.¨ I stated. ¨If she wants me, then we do it my way. Got it!¨

¨I wouldn´t have it any other way,¨ came her reply. ¨I´ve got to go. Thanks a million Edward; I promise that you won´t regret this. If you go into it with an open mind; she just might be the best thing that has ever happened to you.¨ She said cryptically.

Fuck! Why was everyone talking in riddles?

First Esme and now Alice?

Now is not the time!

Focus!

She´s trying to renege!

She didn´t tell you who pulled your name!

As if she could read my mind, ¨Bella,¨ Alice spoke softly and then the line went dead. I shamelessly jumped out of bed and begin to fist pump my way to the shower.

She pulled my name...

She pulled my fucking name!

_FtLoD_

I rushed through my morning rituals, you know the usual three important S´s: shitting, showering, and shaving; because I was on a mission. I wrapped and towel around waist and flopped down on the bed. When my laptop booted up, I went straight to Tiffany & Co., fuck being married; I was going to find the perfect gift for my brown-eyed beauty.

As I browsed the endless possibilities, my eyes fell on the perfect gift. It was perfect for my Bella. There you go with that fucking my shit again. I´m beginning to think your delusional! I ignored the monster while I entered my credit card information, Bella´s gift would now be shipped to my mother. It was a beautiful medium heart tag with diamonds on a charm bracelet, all made in 18k white gold.

I´m glad that my buying her a gift won´t raise any questions with my family. Traditionally, we all bought gifts for each other over the years, as we got older nothing had changed. Thankfully, I bought her a present every year, as did she, but I´d never gotten her anything so extravagant and personal before. Especially, since I paid extra to have the letters BEB engraved on the heart.

Way to be inconspicuous!

Won´t that raise some red flags!

Maybe, but we´ll cross that bridge when we come to it!

I refused to let my mind be clouded with regret. I didn´t care if she was married; this was the only time of year I could show her how much she meant to me, without everyone becoming suspicious. What´s done is done... no going back now.

_FtLoD_

The days flew by quickly in a mirage of consultations, emergency room visits and mainly wrapping up our little stint here in Switzerland. I was putting in long hours at the hospital and the little out-patient clinic we were overseeing, I was fucking beat. I couldn´t wait to get home to my mom´s cooking and the craziness that´s my family.

Though I was suffering from a massive case of fatigue, I still found time to obsess over the mysterious cell phone and the fact that it hasn´t rung. I would come home after my shifts and stare at the nondescript phone, almost willing it to ring. While it in turn continued to mock me, by remaining silent.

Call her dickhead!

No!

If she wants to play, we do things my way!

You are such a fucking idiot!

When you fuck this up too, don´t say I didn´t warn you!

_FtLoD_

I unlocked the door to my tiny, yet comfy apartment, glad to finally be home. While everyone else was spending Christmas with their families; I had just finished a brutal eighteen hour shift. Everything that could have gone wrong... did. I just wanted a hot shower and a good night´s sleep.

I´d spoken to my family earlier in the day, so hopefully no one would the need to call and interrupt my hibernating. Grabbing a beer from the fridge, I headed into the bathroom to rid myself of the hospital grit and grime.

Once again mocking me, I spot the cell phone on the nightstand. For my own piece of mind I touch the screen, you know maybe it was off and that´s why she hasn´t called. Hey, if it helps you sleep and night, we´ll go with that! Feeling disgusted with myself I open the drawer to remove the offending gadget from my sight.

I nearly piss myself and drop my beer when the phone began to ring. Fuck!

What the fuck do I do now?

I don´t know genius, answer it maybe!

You are such a fucking idiot!

Taking a deep breath, I push the green button to answer the call.

¨Hello,¨ I breathe.

¨Sir, it´s me, pet,¨ responded the most beautiful voice I´d ever fucking heard.

Four words...

Four words and she had me!

What the fuck was I getting into?


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