I was right about not getting any sleep I stayed awake staring at the ceiling when I came back with my glass of water. I almost threw up from drinking it, I couldn't figure out what was wrong with me, but Yuzu made me drink it since I went all the way downstairs to get it.

The morning light was soon shining through the window irritating me to no end. I tried to roll over and hide from the light, failing miserably. I groaned pushing myself tiredly off the mattress and to a sitting position. I closed my eyes and sighed finally excepting that lying here was no use I wasn't going to sleep anytime soon.

Pushing myself to my feet I immediately took off towards the door. I don't know why but I felt sick, incredibly sick. My vision blurred and I stumbled more than once on the way to the bathroom. I wondered if it had anything with gaining my Soul Reaper powers recently. Kisuke had told me that because of me being used to being nothing more than a human the sudden power gain and too much training could make me sick. I wasn't my brother and I never would be as powerful as him.

I barely made it to the toilet before I started vommiting up the contents of my stomach. Acid, that's all that was in my stomach and it burnt my throat. By the time I finished puking Ichigo was squatting next to me holding my hair out of the way.

I rocked back on my heels wiping at my mouth but not failing to notice I was shaking like a leaf. My brother sounded annoyed when he started talking, "Though you do train quite often...since you haven't in the past few days don't you think this is probably about lack of training?" He was blaming me...though Kisuke had also said something about lack of training. I wasn't listening when he talked about it though because I never planned to skip a day of practice. I need all I can get I don't want to depend on others.

I gagged and attempted to answer him, "I couldn't...Toushirou..." I wanted to hit myself for not being able to finish a single sentence, for being so weak. My mind suddenly flashed to my dream and I knew it wasn't because lack of training. My eyes shot opening and my stomach lurched forward in pain. These dreams were just as real as they seemed and something or someone was using them to hurt me.

I felt like I was being stabbed from the inside out but before I could say anything it was gone.

I realized my face had gotten a lot closer to the floor and Ichigo had his arm in front of my shoulder to keep me from falling the rest of the way...things just got a lot more complicated.

I shot to my feet wobbling on my unsteady balance. Ichigo shot up too somehow realizing that this was more than training sickness, "Whoa, Karin maybe you should lie down." I ignored him stumbling towards the one place I felt would take it away. The same place I was going the night before.

I knew not why or when I came to the conclusion that someone who was asleep and powerless could help me. It didn't help my labored breathing or sickness but being near Toushirou made me feel safe like nothing could touch me.

I realized now that was untrue because the sickness had to be caused by the person in my dreams, the ominous voice. But even as my brother tried to pull me away from the bedside I sought comfort in Toushirou, refusing to move. My forehead was resting on the cool sheet Toushirou was lying on. There were only a couple of inches between the top omy head and his face.

Sometime throughout the night Toushirou had rolled over again this time facing the closet, or away from the wall anyway. His hand was next to my face but not quite touching me, the other hand under his head. The only part of him that was touching me was his warm breath fanning over the top of my head and disappearing into my hair.

I suddenly grew tired of my brother's attempts to move me and shouted, "You're not helping! You're jostling me around and only making me want to puke more! Leave me be." The last part was only a whisper unable to be anything louder because of the overwhleming sick feeling running through my body. He stopped his hands retreating from my shoulders, only seconds later the door was slammed behind me.

I gently lifted my head from the bed to stare into Toushirou's calm face. This time his breath fanned over my face and I had to shy away from it. Not that it was his fault but Toushirou had bad breath at the time and it wasn't helping any. Careful not to further upset my stomach I pushed myself up once more and climbed over Toushirou. I curled up behind him on the bed not wanting to touch him because I had a feeling he could sense my bad moods and good moods, when I was here with him and when I wasn't.

I didn't want to have anything awkward for him to bring up when he woke up. I pushed myself against the wall trying to be as close but as far away as I could get to him. I felt myself finally drifting into sleep a dreamless sleep no one would interrupt.

...

I woke deep in the night staring at Toushirou's back. I was still curled up in a ball and I felt like I could do anything. Like shatter trees or make it rain blood. I don't know why I had gained so much power or how. But at the moment I didn't care. Though I had a good sleep I was still greatly tired, and I fell asleep once more with a smile on my face and calmness in my heart.

I was lucky to have Toushirou, whether it was him or not that took away all my problems I was grateful to have him. And it was in that moment on the brink of sleep and reality that I realized nothing would ever be the same between me and him. Not because of the cliff and not because I depended on him but because I realized one of the most important things that night.

I loved him.

Hi guys so yeah I just finished a book and I was bored so I thought why not update fanfictions? I just now threw this together but hey I do that to all of my chapters, because if I think ahead I lose enthusiasm for the fic. Hope you liked r&r

BTW Avatarfan444 and ichiruki45 guessed Karin would go see Toushirou. That's where she was going so you two get together or something and tell me a chapter length I'll write it no matter how long it takes me. XD