Ok guys this chapter because of it's length is going to switch POV's in the middle that way you can see a little of what's happening on each side. I'm sorry about how long this took but school and me being extremely freaking lazy can get in the way of writing

Karin POV

Soon after Gin snatched me out of Grimmjow's room I was roughly thrown to the floor in a blank white room...it kind of looked like a throne room. I could see the full out of the long skinny windows to either side of the throne.

Aizen was siiting there staring amused, but not so amused at me. Amused that I had survived so long, and not so amused because...well I was just guessing on the first one and I couldn't really think of why he'd be mad at me other than the fact that he seemed to be irritated at everyone everytime I had been around him. That couldn't be true right? He had to be happy sometimes, didn't he?

I wasn't exactly willing to stay around and find out. My thoughts were quickly interrupted by Aizen's rough voice, "I see you're still in those unflattering human clothes. I'll have that changed as soon as you get your own room." I blinked wondering what my room would be like...if it was going to be like Grimmjow's or if it was going to be boring and lonely.

Aizen sighed, "You know sometimes I get bored so being my hostage you will entertain me."

I bolted up, "What, no!" I slapped my hands over my mouth immediately after that scared of what might happen. He stood up from his throne deeply frowning. I urged my body to take a step back but I was frozen in place. Crap, this wasn't going to go well.

He stopped in front of me and leaned down to speak in my face, "You will do as I say when I say. You hear me? Nobody, not your brother, your friends, or your boyfriend scare me so don't think you'll get away with speaking out of turn." I know it would've been smarter to keep my mouth shut and listen to him. It would've saved me so much harm, but I couldn't. I was a girl who stood up for her rights which for some reason possesed me to say,

"Get out of my face you bastard."

It earned me a slap in the face, with such force behind it, it knocked me to the ground. Moments later I heard him speak again, "Gin. Take her to her room. Make sure she doesn't get dinner tonight. Maybe that way she'll learn her lesson."

What was I? A kid who had stayed out passed curfew? I didn't matter to Aizen and that was that. I was just a stepping stone in his plan and there was no way out of it. I would probably be killed and no one here would care.

Gin yanked me up by the arm and started dragging me out of the room, I was more confused than I was scared but I knew that would change soon...or not. He suprised me with a comment I never expected from him, "Be glad that I could get you out of there. Everyone is scared of him, so don't expect me to save you if things get out of hand."

I was silent for a few moments before I came up with a response, "What do you mean?" I didn't get an answer which left me even more confused and alone. I don't know if I heard him right but did he just say everyone is scared of Aizen?

Before I could come up with a logical answer I was thrown to the floor once more. This time in a lifeless room, it had no color and the only furniture was a bed...Well I'll be bored here.

The door was slammed behind me and I sighed...If Aizen was someone I trusted or someone I would willingly obey it wouldn't have fought against his order. But I wasn't going down without a fight. If I went down at all I would go down while being me and openly showing it.

I sat awake for a long time before falling asleep in the floor. I had a dream about playing soccer...all those years ago with the middle schoolers. How I had bruised my knee and Toushirou came and helped our team. I dreamt about how he had saved me from hollows several times before. And finally I dreamt about the faces that I wouldn't see again if I died here.

I woke up with a start and tears running down my face I was staring into emotionless green eyes. I jumped back and started wiping the tears off my face, "What are you doing in my room?"

"Hush."

That was probably the last thing I expected to hear out of Ulquiorra's mouth...ever. I expected a "Shut up" or something. He stood above me looking down, "You know from seeing how brave you can be earlier I wouldn't expect you to be crying so easily. Aizen already getting to your head?"

That was the first time I'd heard him adress Aizen without a -sama at the end of it. I frowned, "No he was in my head before he came back. He's not the one making me cry dumbass. And you're right I don't cry easily." Though I seemed like I was doing a lot of it lately...

A more smug voice sounded from behind Ulquiorra, "I told you, you shouldn't have gotten so close to her face Ulquiorra. She's got enough to be scared about as it is without having to wake up to you."

Ulquiorra glared at the blue haired espada leaning against the wall, "You get on my every last nerve."

"Oh yeah? Then why are we working together?"

"We have the same goal now please just shut up before someone hears your screaming down the hall."

They sounded the same but I couldn't believe what was coming out of their mouths. They sounded like best friends fighting over the last cupcake or somehting stupid. I couldn't help but laugh.

They both looked at me annoyed, "What're you laughing at?" It suprised me that Ulquiorra didn't call me trash or hadn't since he got here but I chose not to bring it up and simply answer their question, "You sound like friends fighting over something idiotic. O-Or kinda like a couple who can't decide on which one of their favorites is better."

Ulquiorra glared at me, I was still laughing, and I backed into the corner almost afraid I had gone too far. At the same time I also was too amused by the situation to stop now, "Hey you asked I'm just speaking the truth. I'm starting to think all my brother told me about you guys is a lie. He told me frighteningly powerful and prideful. That Ulquiorra kept to himself on all except how disgusted he was with everything that wasn't good enough. And Grimmjow just was someone who wanted to show off how powerful he was. That he'd track Ichigo down just to pulverize him. But to me you seem more like immature kids who try to act like adults and fail miserably."

I fell onto my side and continued laughing unable to stop. Grimmjow snorted, "The hell with what you're thinking." Ulquiorra continued the thought, "Just because we haven't killed you doesn't mean we can't. We could very easily finish you off, but at the moment we've got a plan for you that might benefit all of us. I guess you won't get to hear it, considering you you think we're immature kids."

I stopped laughing, suddenly the situation wasn't funny anymore, "I'm listening."

Grimmjow stepped closer to me, "You are our ticket out of this stupid place. And your own ticket out I guess...that is if you don't screw it up and get us all caught."

"How would I possibly benefit you guys? And what do you mean ticket out? Aren't you on Aizen's side?" Grimmjow jerked me up by the arm so that he wasn't staring down at me, "We don't want to be here any more than you do idiot. Ichimaru already gave you a hint stupid girl, try to think back on why we would be here. Why would we want to be somewhere where we don't even have our own free will?"

"Power?"

He shook me, "I told you to think back idiot!"

And I did...what had Gin told me? Why were they there?

Everyone is scared of him, so don't expect me to save you if things get out of hand.

Was that it? "Are you...scared of Aizen?"

Ulquiorra sighed, "As much as anyone here hates to admit it, yes. We're just pawns in his little game. What he does with our lives is up to him, we have no power to control him. He could kill us with a swipe of his hand."

Grimmjow stepped in, "So we expect you..."

"No! Stop right there I'm just as terrified as you are. I'm even less important to him than you are. I stand even less of a chance than you do...I just, I want to go home. But not if I'm going to go home with memories of something he's done to me..."

Grimmjow stepped back looking at me with what seemed like pity. Maybe it was disappointment I didn't know.

The look was quickly gone and the frustrated look he always had was back, "Fine we'll leave you out of it but just so you know you're giving up your only chance out. Come on Ulquiorra."

Ulquiorra glanced at me then followed Grimmjow out of the room. I slumped to the floor out of breath and totally scared. Why me? Of all people why me?

Of course I had always stuck out in both spiritual pressure and personality but not nearly as much as Ichigo. Why doesn't Aizen just take my brother and fight him instead of trying some horrible battle plan to lure him here? Sometimes I wonder where evil mastermind has gone these days.

I didn't ask for any of this to happen and of course I would withstand anything Aizen threw at me the best I can but what I said to Grimmjow was true I don't want to go home with horrible memories haunting me. I don't want to have to depend on someone else for comfort...that's why I stopped crying so long ago. I want to be able to take care of myself and not worry others.

I'd always been like that and I always would be like that.

I lifted myself from the floor and walked to the small iron-framed bed. It's sheets were a blank white but somehow looked comfortable in the events that had happened. I climbed in the bed and curled into a ball under the covers.

I fell asleep sometime in the night still in fetal position.

~Meanwhile~

Toushirou POV

"Would you just trying to be so calm? We all know you're just as messed up about this as everyone else is, Toushirou." Kurosaki had his arms crossed and was glaring at me menacingly.

While it was true that I was very upset about Karin getting kidnapped I wasn't going to lose my calm in front of everybody else. I had just woken up from a coma in which I was trapped in for some unknown reason, Karin had been kidnapped by the very man who was sealed away 6 years ago, and it was 4 in the damn morning.

I had been awake since 6 something yesterday morning needless to say I wasn't very happy. I glared right back at Kurosaki, "I'm naturally calm Kurosaki. I'm not going to lose my cool when we all know that you're going to chase Aizen down without a plan to get her back."

He growled back at me, "What's that supposed to mean? Karin worried herself sick over you and you're not even going to react to her being kidnapped by Aizen? What the hell is wrong with you?"

I snorted and started walking towards the door, "I'm leaving, it's not like any of us are even in here for a reason, you don't plan ahead. The only reason any of us could possibly have to be here is to persuade you to make a plan. Which you're not going to listen to and all our time that could've been spent on getting ready for battle and such would be wasted on sitting here and trying to get an overprotective older brother to change his mind about immediately rushing after his little sister."

I opened his Urahara's shop door and walked out ignoring his angry glares and everyone else's mumbles. Of course Kurosaki had to get the Head Captain to allow Matsumoto, Abarai, Madarame, Ayasegawa, and Kuchki to come back to the living world for "an important meeting." Right before I was out of earshot from them I heard Abarai say, "You he's got a point..."

I smirked, of course I did. What was bothering me most about this is that no one will tell the Head Captain what we're up to. Everyone thinks he will move on without considering Karin, but that's not what he did before right? He just didn't tell Kurosaki that he would provide help or anyone for that matter.

He would help right?

The crisp night air made me think of how nice Fall and WInter were compared to Summer. It had already cooled down and there wasn't half as much humidity. Though weather isn't what I needed to be thinking about right now. I needed to think up my own plan for getting Karin back.

Aizen was back and there was no telling what he could do now. I wasn't ready to risk everyone's lives for this. Sure I'd give up my own life for Karin but it's not fair for me to take others' lives in my own hands. I'd never be like Aizen, nobody has the right to harm anyone else unless it was for an ultimately good purpose. Like eliminating the threat of the world. (A/N: evil smiley face from me :))

The only problem with going on my own is that not only will I have a lesser chance of living and I'd probably get punched by Kurosaki, considering he would want in on his sister's rescue. Karin would need more than just my help if she was at all injured in Hueco Mundo and she would probably be mad at me for putting myself in danger to protect her.

I couldn't wait and let her find her own way out, and I didn't want to either. I couldn't accept help from my small group of friends knowing that some of them may not make it back to home. And I couldn't go on my own, now that I think about it, because of how little a chance I would have of succeeding. I'm ready to die trying to save Karin but I want her to know that she will be safe if I do.

Unlike Kurosaki I overthink my plans...and this could be a bit of a problem for me considering I'm stuck for what to do. And Kurosaki knows already that if the Soul Society refuses to help and we can't come up with a good plan to save his sister, that he'll rush in there without thought and save her. I guess we both have pretty bad problems. He doesn't think and I overthink.

What am I even doing? Comparing myself to him! That just shows how much I think...My God, what would Karin think if she knew? I could just hear her now, "Why do you bother comparing yourself to anyone? You're you and nobody can change that..." And then she'd give some stupid example that says how much she's like her brother, "It's like when you're a hobo and you want so badly to be a millionare but nope you're still a hobo."

I smiled sadly at how silly she was sometimes and how much I already missed her. I just couldn't believe that after the sort-of coma I was in that I couldn' t see her or talk to her it just didn't feel right to me. True I had contacted her when I was still in comatose state but that felt like forever ago.

I shook my head and took a deep breath trying to calm my erratic heartbeat. If only she could see what she did to me but nope she's just as oblivious as Kuchiki is to how Kurosaki stares at her and vise versa. Everyone else sees it but them.

Sometimes I wonder how people can be so clueless...

I found myself at the soccer field where I had helped Karin's team win so long ago. I moved to a soccer goal and sat down leaning against the metal bar.

I could still see Karin running and laughing, all the while kicking a soccer ball and trying to get me play a game with her. I could see her lying in the grass and pointing up at the bright blue sky, trying to find shapes in the clouds. I could see her looking completely confused at me when I had said she was more than a friend to me. I smiled sadly at the memory, she was just completely innocent wasn't she?

She couldn't even see it when I told her. She had said she didn't know what I was talking about. And I...swallowed the urge to cry and forced a laugh. I told her it was nothing and asked her if she wanted for me to walk her home...

By the time all my memories were done running through my head the sun was rising, bringing back memories of a sister, a friend, and a betrayal. I saw a completely different but somehow similar girl laughing and calling me "Shiro-chan" I saw hercrying as she drew her blade against me, confused and manipulated by Aizen. I could see her lying on the ground bloody and not moving. I could see her lying in that bed in the 4th company, in the same comatose state I was in not too long ago.

And finally the memory that sticked the best was the smile she would give when she got her way. Momo and Karin.

I loved them both in totally different ways. It was then that I realized that I would not let Aizen hurt another one of the people I held dearly. I started to see it Kurosaki's way. Why plan when you can go in there and give it your best? With my new found determination to save anyone and everyone around me without a plan, I stood up and raced toward Urahara's shop hoping Kurosaki was still there. I no longer would be manipulated by Aizen knowing my every move. Knowing that I would plan before coming...

Well not this time. I know that the last time I rushed into battle I had almost gotten myself killed, but honestly I didn't care if I died as long as Karin was safe. I wouldn't lose I had too much confidence, something I tend to stray from..

Besides I'll have the overprotective big brother by my side, I doubt he's going to let anything stop him from saving his sister. And damned if anything was going to stop me from saving her life once more.

OMG guys! It's been sooo loong...Well yeah first it was writer's block then it was laziness and then I was mad at my boyfriend and started writing again...Strange huh? Well please REVIEW I need to know what you thought after soo loong. This chapter as requested is between 3000 and 4000 words long and boy was it a hassle...especially when it swtiched to Toushirou's POV that was difficult...

Tell me your thoughts, PM me about something I don't care as long as you're reading this...but I would still like a review thanks... XD