"Welcome home lil' man." Dirk said this as he opened the door to our apartment, letting me inside. It was nice to be home.. Away from the nurses and doctors who constantly treated me like a mental patient. And it was really nice to finally be out of the therapist's office. Yeah... It was better than a mental institution.. But I still felt alone since no one was allowed to touch me until the therapist finally decided I wasn't crazy.. Just depressed. He told Dirk this and my bro cried. He didn't let anyone see him cry.. I only heard him when he thought I was asleep.. But it was strange. I had never heard him cry the way he did. It sounded so unnatural.. So broken.. And I couldn't help but listen to him as he quietly apologized for not being a better brother.
But that was all over now. I was home and Dirk was smiling just as much as I was. I did realize one thing different though.. And I had to point it out.
"Hey bro.. Where are all your stupid puppets?" I looked at him from behind my shades, smirking quite a bit.
"I put them away. I know you don't like them so-"
"It's kinda weird not seeing them around.." I said this almost as if I had been gone for months and the whole apartment had been changed. It was true though... Everything looked pretty empty without the weird plush assed puppets scattered about. Not to mention I was used to keeping an eye out for the damn thi-
"I'm glad you're home Dave.."
My thoughts are cut short at the sound of Dirk's voice. Why did it sound so much closer than before..?
"Yeah.. I'm glad too.." I turn my head to look at him and he's right in my face. I can't tell what he's thinking though, his face totally expressionless, and it honestly makes me a bit uncomfortable. "Uh.. You want to get out of my face bro?"
He shakes his head a bit and before I know it, his arms around me in a tight hug and he's pressing a kiss to my forehead in which I can feel my face heat up. Thank god I have shades to hide the blush...
"Jake and I broke up.."
And I can hear in his voice the same emptiness that had been in mine the day John broke up with me. I hug him tight and he nuzzles his face into my hair. "I'm sorry.. I wish I could make you feel better.."
And then I can feel it..
It's something about the way he squeezes me just the slightest bit tighter and pulls me just the tiniest bit closer that tells me there's more to this break up then he's telling me. So... I look up at him with sympathy and ask the question I'm sure he's expecting.
"Why'd you break up..?"
For a while... He just stares at me, as if he's thinking over his words... But then he says something I didn't expect at all.
"I broke up with him because he was jealous of you."
I don't know how long I just stare at him, my heart beating fast and my cheeks aflame... But soon I decide I need to say something, so I do.
"You broke up with him because of me..?"
"Well yeah. B-but it's not your fault if that's what you're thinking!"
I laugh slightly at the way he tries not to upset me and he gives me a look of confusion from behind his stupid anime shades. "What's so funny?"
"You are bro." I chuckle, trying not to laugh more as I nuzzle into his chest.
"What?"
"I said you're funny." I look up at him with a smile and I can clearly see that he's thinking I'm crazy. "I can't believe you left Jake because of me.. I'm not worth losing your boyfriend."
And that's when time stops.
I feel warm all over and my whole body tenses at the feeling of another set of lips on my own and I can't stop my whole face from going red.
There is NO WAY Dirk is kissing me! It's got to be a dream! It has to be!
But then he stops kissing me and I stare at him with the most confused, most flustered face ever and he starts apologizing.
"Fuck.. Dave I- Shit. I'm sorry." and then he turns to go to his room. But I don't let him. Instead... I grab his wrist and hold it tight.
"Bro.. Don't go.." I say this quietly, more than shy to ask my older brother to stay. He turns back though, looking just as nervous as I feel. "Dave... This is wrong. I can't do this to you.. I'm sor-" and that's when I shut him up with a kiss of my own.
It takes a minute... But soon Dirk relaxes again and begins to kiss me back. He's gentle, not grabbing me like he had grabbed Jake, but his hands do go to rest on my waist and he pulls me closer. My heart is beating a mile a minute and I can't help but smile into the kiss. I'm so happy now.. I finally have him.. The one guy I love the most.. And he loves me too. Or.. At least I think he loves me the way I love him..
I pull back and stare at him for a moment before speaking. "I.. I love you Dirk.. So much.." My whole face is on fire now and my shades have slid down my nose to reveal my unnaturally red eyes. He stares back at me and finally.. I see that smile.. The same one I saw before him and Jake had dated. "I love you too Dave."
I hug him tight, hoping he truly means what he says. "You promise..? You don't still love Jake..?"
He shakes his head and kisses me softly. "I promise. Dave... After everything John's told me.. I couldn't possibly love someone else."
I frown. "So.. It's a pity relationship. Isn't it..? You feel you need to love me like this because you're afraid I'll hurt myself again..?"
"No Dave.. I love you because you're you. You're cute and smart... Not to mention you've always been here for me.." He hugs me tighter and I try not to cry as I take in his words, my heart beating strongly. "I've loved you before I even dated Jake... I- I just thought you'd be disgusted with me. A guy falling for his younger brother..? I thought you'd hate me. But then John told me about the picture you found.."
I blush and look at my feet. Great. Now he knew I jerked off to a naked photo of him. "Sorry.."
He chuckles and shakes his head. "Don't be sorry.. Just come here and kiss me you little shit."
I smile, more than I ever had in the past few weeks, and then do as he told me to, kissing him softly with my hands on his shoulders.
