FLASHBACK

"Dean why are you so nervous?" Damon asked.

"I'm not nervous." Dean said running his hands along his legs. "I just never done anything like this."

"Well me either but I want to with you." Damon said looking at Dean who was sitting next to him on the bed. "You don't have to do this Dean."

Dean looked over at Damon. "I want to do this with you Damon. You're the only person that I trust."

Damon leaned over and softly kissed Dean on the lips. Pulling back he stars into Dean's green eyes. "Do you want to keep going?"

Dean slowly nodded his head and leaned in for another kiss. Soon they were both lying on the bed. Damon was on top of Dean looking down at him. With his eyes still focused on Dean he let his hand slide down Dean's body. His hand went under Dean's shirt and felt all over his chest. "Is it bad to tell you that I think you're hott?"

Dean smiled "If it is then it's bad for me too."

They kissed for about another minute or two then Damon's phone rang. He rolled off of Dean and answered it. "Hello...now...but can't I come home later...alright I'm on my way." He hung up the phone and looked over at Dean. "I have to go, I'll see you tomorrow."

Dean nodded "Yeah and you are a really good kisser."

Damon chuckled "Yeah so are you." He looked down. "Um I knew we've been friends for a while and if anything happens because of this I don't want it to affect our friendship."

"It won't." Dean said sitting up. "We're just two friends fooling around with each other, no big deal, right?"

"Right" Damon said. "Well I better go."

END

PRESENT

"I was nervous too." Damon said.

Dean looked over at Damon then back at the road. "What are you talking about?"

"The first time we kissed I was nervous too." Damon said.

Dean smiled "How did you know that I was thinking about that?"

Damon sighed "Vampire, remember."

Dean's smile faded "Right I almost forgot."

"If I remember correctly that was the day that everything changed for us." Damon said "Honestly that was the first time I feel for you more than your friend."

FLASHBACK

A few weeks after there first night together Dean and Damon were always together outside of school. In school was a different story because in school Dean was dating another person and that was a girl and Damon didn't like that. So one day after school when Damon was walking to his next class he was pulled into the janitor's closet. He already knew who it was so he didn't fight it. When the light flicked on he was meet with Dean. "What is it Dean?"

Dean frowned "What's wrong with you?"

Damon sighed "Nothing but I have to go or I'll be late for class."

Dean grabbed his arm. "Since when do you care about gym? We always skip gym to be alone."

"Well I just don't feel like fooling around with you today alright so let me go." Damon went to leave again but Dean held onto his arm. "Dean let me go."

Dean shook his head. "Not until you tell me what's wrong with you."

Damon looked down "Do you like that girl Ashley?"

"Why would you ask me that?" Dean asked.

"Because in school you're always with her and I was wondering if you two were going out or something." Dam asked.

"Well if I don't people will start to think that I'm-"

"Gay" Damon said finishing his sentence.

"I'm not gay Damon." Dean said almost yelling.

"Then what is this with us!" Damon yelled.

Dean pulled Damon close and kissed him. "This is two friends just fooling around. I'm not saying that I'm gay. I'm not ready for that yet but I'm also saying that I'm not straight." He pulled back "I don't know what I want right now but I know that I don't want this to stop."

"Me either." Damon admitted.

Dean stepped closer to Damon. "I'm sorry if being with her upset you but I need her just like I need you."

Damon nodded "So you get off with me while you're dating her."

Dean stepped back "What's your problem Damon huh?"

"Forget it you don't care anyway." Damon pushed pass Dean and left the closet.

Dean went after him, glad that the halls were clear. "Damon stop." He grabbed his arm.

"No, either you stop seeing her or whatever this is between us is over." Damon shrieked.

Dean opened his mouth then closed it. "Damon just calm down." Dean reached out for him.

Damon moved away. "Don't."

Dean moved closer and grabbed Damon by the shirt. "No, I don't want this to end and neither do you. I'm not sleeping with her I'm just pretending to go with her until I get my feeling sorted out. I don't know how long it will take but I hope that you will be here when I do."

Damon groaned "Fine, do you want to come over tonight?"

Dean smiled "Yeah"

END

"So you were really upset about Ashley huh?" Dean asked.

Damon nodded. "Yeah I was."

"I never slept with her Damon. I never even kissed her, just pretended to like her so that-"

"People wouldn't think that you were gay?" Damon said looking over at him.

Dean nodded. "Yeah and knowing how it was for Sam I didn't think I could handle all the names and harassing. I might have been a little cocky back then but I was also scared to death."

"Scared of what Dean?" Damon asked.

"What people would think when they found out about you?" Dean sighed "You have no idea how hard it was for me to accept that I had feeling for you but I didn't I just ran."

FLASHBACK

A couple months have passed and things with Damon were getting serious for Dean. The little make out sessions and shows of affection were getting the best of him and he was starting to fall for him. His dad was suppose to be back three months ago. He's been here for almost nine months.

Dean was sitting on the bed in the hotel room watching TV when someone knocked on the door. He got up and answered it. "Damon what are you doing here?"

Damon sighed. "Why are you avoiding me Dean?"

Dean let go of the door "I'm not avoiding you I just needed some time alone."

"To do what?" Damon asked walking pass Dean into the hotel room.

Dean shut the door. "To think about us."

"And what did you come too?" Damon asked.

"I think we should stop this." Dean said looking down.

"Why?" Damon asked sitting on the bed.

Dean sighed "It's getting a little weird for me now. I'm starting to feel-"

Damon looked up at Dean. "You're starting to feel what?"

Dean turned away from Damon. "Nothing just forget it."

Damon got up, grabbed Dean by the arm and turned him toward him. "No, you're not going to do this to me again. You're not going to hide what you feel so just tell me what to do and I'll do it."

"I want you to leave that's what I want." Dean said "This isn't right, what we're doing is wrong. I don't want to dissopint my father by telling him I like guys. I'm the older brother and I'm suppose to be the man when my dad's not here."

"Why are you so concerned about what your father will think about you?" Damon asked almost yelling.

"Because he's my father and I want to be a good son and this is a perfect way to go to hell" Dean yelled.

Damon let go of Dean. "Dean I love you."

Dean stepped back. "You what?"

"I love you and you love me too." Damon said reaching out for Dean.

Dean moved away "I don't love you I told you that what happened between us was just two friends-"

"Don't give me that crap Dean. It was real for me just as it was real for you."

Dean shook his head. "You're wrong I told you that it wasn't going to mean anything and it doesn't. I don't love you and I'm not gay."

"Nine months Dean, we've been together for nine months and-"

"We weren't together Damon we were just fooling around." Dean said.

Damon grabbed his arms. "I know that you're lying to me Dean. I know that you love me because I can see it in your eyes. What are you so scared of?"

Dean moved away and walked to the door. He grabbed the handle and turned the knob. Opening then door he stared at the floor. "Please just go Damon and I don't think we should see each other anymore." Damon stood there for a minute then walked out the door. Dean shut the door and leaned against it. He closed his eyes as tears fell from them. He reached into his pocket, pulled out his phone and called his father.

"I was scared because I didn't want to dissopint my father. I really did love you Damon but I let my fear of my father keep me from saying that I love you too." He pulled up in the hotel parking lot. "Truth is that I never stopped loving you." He looked over at Damon. "And I'm sorry for putting you through all that because I really didn't want to hurt you."

Damon smiled "its okay Dean."

They stared at each other for a while until Dean looked away. "But Sam and I are here in a job so we can't let this interfere with that okay."

Damon nodded "Maybe after we sort everything out we can talk."

"Yeah." Dean said. "That sounds good."

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