So please babe
So please don't judge me
And I won't judge you
Cause it could get ugly
Before it gets beautiful
Please don't judge me
And I won't judge you
And if you love me
Then let it be beautiful

"Hey, thanks for meeting me…I brought you coffee, just the way you like it." I said, after sitting down on the bench.

"Thanks." Lucas was still some what cold towards me, and that broke my heart even further.

"What is this place?"

"The Rivercourt. I grew up here…learned how to play basketball here. It's a place of clarity for me."

"Oh."

"Ya."

"I'm sorry…"I had silent tears running down my face. "I should have been more open to the idea of moving up here to be with you. Should have encouraged you to pursue your dreams. I should have asked you if you were happy. I should have been a better girlfriend. I am so sorry…I need you, I need you in my life. My life has been miserable without you."

"You weren't a horrible girlfriend, you were the best thing that ever happen to me." He grabbed my hand on the table. "Pretty Girl, I should be the one apologizing. I'm the one who went around your back to get the job. I lied to you. I lied to the one person in my life that I love the most and that kills me. I shouldn't have done any of those things to you and I am truly sorry."

"You may want to hold off on that until you hear what I did. I made a horrible mistake Luke…"

"It's ok…we can make it through it now. I love you and I don't want to lose you ever again."

"You say that now, but wait…I kissed Julian."

"You what?" Lucas asked perplexed.

"I briefly kissed him, but it meant nothing. I went to this party and I had a bit too much to drink. He was there and we started talking about us and everything else and before I knew it his lips were on mine. But I quickly pulled away. It made me realize that I miss you more than I really thought I did. It was after that that I made the decision to come up here. I didn't want to be without you for any longer. And I know what you are thinking, but the kiss meant nothing I swear to you. I can prove it…" I reached under the table and grabbed a shoe box. "There's letters in here from every day we were apart…I missed you like crazy and here is my proof. I want you to have these. I love you." Lucas was stunned to say the least.

"Can I read this now?"

"Of course…I have to check in with work…I was promoted to manager."

"That's great to hear…congrats." Lucas just looked down and started reading the letters.

"Letters 20 and 21 are the most important ones." He gave me a quizzical look as I walked away.


"Hey B…what are you doing up this early? Everything ok?" Rae asked me before I could even get one breath out.

"Ya, everything's fine. Just wanted to let you know that I won't be able to check in that much today, you know…like a good manager should." I started smiling. "I'm in Tree Hill."

"Tree Hill? Why does that sound so familiar?"

"Lucas lives there."

"Did you go up there to see him?"

"Yes…" I sat on the ground near the passing river, far enough away from Lucas so I knew he wouldn't be able to hear the conversation.

"Are you ok?"

"Actually…I am. It took awhile but I realized in my heart that he makes me happy and that I need him in my life so I'm willing to do anything to get him back."

"Ok, as long as you're happy."

"He will always make me happy and fill my heart with love."

"Does he know about the baby?"

"He's finding out about it now through the letters."

"You think he'll be upset you didn't call him at all when it all happened?"

"I don't know…if he's anything like I think he is, he's going to be more upset I had to go through it on my own. He wasn't there…and that was when Haley and I weren't talking."

"Does it still hurt?"

"Sometimes."

"When you see Bella?"

"Yes in the beginning. Now, not so much." I noticed Lucas was walking towards where I was. "Hey, I gotta go…call me if you need anything."

"Ok, and you do the same thing. Let me know what happens." I hung up the phone just as he was sitting down next to me.

"Rachel?"

"Ya, she's covering me today incase this get nuts since I'm up here." A silence fell between us as he put his arm around me and pulled me close.

"You sure you want me to keep them?"

"Yes…they are yours…I was just too scared to actually mail them out to you."

"Does Rachel know what happened?"

"With the baby or us?"

"Both."

"Yes, but she only found out about it all after I lost the baby."

"And Haley?"

"She found out about us maybe a week after you left cause I shut myself off from the world, and she got nervous that I wasn't talking to anyone. The baby was after because we weren't really speaking at the time."

"Oh." A silent tear came down my face.

"Luke, I'm so sorry about losing it…it's all my fault."

"Stop…it's ok…maybe it just wasn't in God's plan for us to have a baby so early."

"I know…I just keep thinking that it would have brought us back together sooner. And we would enjoy that time together as a family."

"You are my family Brooke, when are you going to get that? I love you with all of my being. I've told you once and I'll tell you again; my love will always be there…nothing's going to change that. We'll have a baby when the time is ready that's all. I just hate that you had to go through that scary time on your own."

"I know you do, and I'm so grateful for that. But I chose to do that. I was embarrassed in the beginning to tell anyone. Looking back at it now, I wish I would have told you the most. You could have been my rock through it all. We could have helped each other get through it…together…just how it's supposed to be." Lucas just planted a kiss on my temple and pulled me closer. We just sat there taking in the stillness of the entire court and river. Lucas is right…this place is magical. After all of the fighting and the miscarriage, we could not be happier just sitting there in each other's arms so in love; now knowing that nothing will ever come between us and the love we have for one another.