And this is my beautiful life
The only thing certain is everything changes
Lows and the highs
And all those goodbyes
As hard as it gets I know it's still amazing
To be alive
It's a beautiful life
Today was going to be a tough day, it was my last day here; I was leaving for Tree Hill tomorrow morning and never coming back. Of course I'll come back to see Haley, Nathan, and the baby once in a while, but that is it. I couldn't handle being here anymore, I needed to get away. I needed to be with Lucas. I didn't know how to exactly say goodbye, I planned on spending the day with Haley and Bella.
"Hey Hales, where's this girl's food? She's hungry over here." I asked, sitting on the couch holding and playing with Bella.
"I'll bring it in, when I finish doing this."
"What are you doing in there?"
"Making the bottle, stupid." Haley said, making both of us laugh.
"Did you hear the Bella? Your Mommy thinks she is funny, but between us she's really not that funny."
"I heard that."
"Good."
"Ok, can you come here and get her bottle?"
"Mhm." I said, walking in and making Bella laugh hysterically.
"She really likes you."
"Yea, most people do."
"I was being serious, she's gonna miss you like crazy. And hey, I know people who hate you, Peyton and Julian."
My face froze…"Not funny."
"Too soon?"
"Yea."
"I'm sorry."
"That's ok. Why don't you go sit down and have some time to yourself while I feed her and put her down for the night before we watch a movie?"
"You sure?"
"Mhm. I don't mind. I want to spend as much time with her as possible before I leave." I said with a weak smile.
"Thanks Brooke, you're a great person. And she really does like you."
"Thanks Hales, you are a great person too."
I fed Bella and cleaned up the kitchen a little bit while Bella was playing in her high chair. I was trying to help Haley out because Nathan is always working much later than she is. When I was done, I picked up Bella and started walking towards the living room, listening to her blabber on and on.
"What is that Bella? You think your Mommy is crazy because I totally agree with you on that."
"BROOKE!"
"What?"
"You are going to fill her head with such bad thoughts."
"Don't worry about it, I'm only kidding and she knows that. Right Bells, we both know that your Mommy isn't crazy, but is an amazing person. See?" I said, sticking my tongue out at her.
"Ok, now let me say goodnight to my daughter." I handed over Bella and just watched the scene unfold; my best friend in the world interacting with her child, the perfect relationship. And that brought a smile to my face. "Night Bella, Mommy loves you."
I took Bella upstairs and into her room. I changed the baby and did all the normal things; it wasn't the first time I've done it, so she was used to me putting her to bed. And while I was sitting with her in the rocker, I started saying goodbye. I knew that she couldn't fully understand why I was leaving, but I still felt that she deserves a goodbye; and little did I know Haley was listening in on the monitor from downstairs.
"Isabella Brooke Scott, I've said it once and I'll say it again, you have a powerful and strong name. Now, I need you to be strong for me. See, Aunt Brooke is going far away. You probably don't understand why, but just trust me on this. I need you to be strong for Mommy. You see, with me gone, she's going to be very upset, so I need you to be there for her. Smile when she's upset, and try not to wake her when she's sleeping; she really loves her sleep, but of course, not as much as she loves you. And I love you too. Whenever you need me, I'm just a phone call away. I will always be there for you. Be good for Mommy and Daddy, I'll miss you so much." And by the time I was done, she was sleeping. I gave her a kiss and placed her in her crib and just watched her sleep for a little bit; trying to compose myself and prepare for the next goodbye because that one was going to be the hardest. After sometime, I came down the stairs and found Haley silently crying on the couch.
"Please don't do this Hales, because then I'm going to start, and then it will just never end." I pleaded with her as I took a seat next to her on the couch. I took a calming deep breath, trying to figure out the words to say. I didn't know how to even start. Haley is my best friend, my sister; always by my side at the drop of a hat. But now I'm leaving and going six hours away.
"This isn't goodbye forever, you know that. This is just an I'll see you later. It is so crazy that we have only known each other for a short period of time, but our friendship has grown into such a meaningful and powerful bond that can not be broken, even by distance." The tears were coming and they couldn't stop. "Anytime you need me and if I can't be there, I'm right there in your heart….always. You are like my big sister. You taught me so much and without you I don't know where I would be. You're always looking out for me and teaching me right from wrong; that's why I knew you were going to be a good mother. This distance won't change us. We can Skype every week so I can see the baby. And besides you are going to be so busy with working now and taking care of her that you won't have time for me anyway."
"Never…you bite you're tongue on that. Of course I will have time for you. You're stuck with me forever."
"I know and I like the sound of that…and hey just think…it's three months until Bella's birthday and I wouldn't miss that for the world. So we will most definitely see each other then. And besides I want Bella to know and be close with her cousins."
"B?" Haley just gave me a quizzical look.
"Noooo, I'm just saying in the future. I want Bells to have the same relationship you and I have with my future daughter too."
"Hearing you talk about your future kids freaks me out and makes me feel old." Haley started smiling, despite the tears still coming down her face.
"You're a knuckle head. You and I have a sister like bond and I want our kids to have that too, that's all I'm saying."
"I know and I'm sure they will. You are like my sister too. Love you Tiger."
"I love you too Tutor Mom." By this time we were both crying and just consoling each other. Neither of us wanting this night to end, cause we really didn't want to say goodbye. Even though it wasn't really a goodbye forever. Haley will still be in my heart and I'm in hers; nothing is going to change that…best friends, who became each other's family, for life no matter what.
I tapped on Lucas's shoulder, hoping he would turn around. I surprised him at the café today. He had no idea that I was coming up a day earlier than expected. As soon as he turned around to face me, I jumped in his arms. Finally happy that we were in the same place, with one another.
"I am so happy that you are here."
"Me too Broody, me too."
"I love you." He planted a kiss on my lips and everything just felt right. Like this is where I belong and where I'm supposed to be happy. I had to go through all of this heartache and troubling times to get here and be with him. I could honestly say that I wouldn't change any of it. People who are meant to be together, always find each other in the end. And I fell like Lucas found me through all of this. Through the hard times, he found me and saved me. I knew that he was the one I wanted to spend the rest of my life with, together. This is honestly true love and the love between us is so strong. Our life together starts right now.
Alright guys, that is this end of this story. I hope you all liked it and I wanted to thank everyone for their time in either reading it or reviewing it; it meant the world to me. I am thinking about working on a sequel, not sure when I will exactly be finished with it so be on the look out for it. I am open to suggestions on anything you may possibly want to hear about in it. PM if you have any ideas/notes about it all. Thanks again and I hope everyone has a nice day.
