Chapter 12 ; Uneasy Feelings

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Last chapter, we found out a lot more about Sky and Embry's relationship with her, we also saw everyone's reactions to the imprint and how Helen and Embry feel about Sky and her behaviour, and lastly we saw the nights events through Paul's view, and we left with Paul and Sky falling asleep with each other, so how will Sky react to that? And some feelings she might be having already about a certain wolf?

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Sky's POV

Warmth surrounded me as I came to.

My eyes fluttered open and all that was in my view was a russet colour as my eyes adjusted more I saw that I was looking at someone's throat and jaw line.

What a strong jaw line I thought randomly and then seemed to pull myself together, and I realised that my hands were wrapped around the person's neck.

I also noted that it was guy I was holding onto as he had such a strong masculine scent that made my entire body tingle and I could feel his strong arms wrapped with muscle wrapped around my own body, I leaned away from the guy slightly and looked up to his face and saw it was a vaguely familiar face.

Where did I recognise him from?

Last night.

And with that it came back in flashes, Kane offering the drugs, me saying no, the fight with Celia, the hurt of how Embry lied to me about who he was with, the call, him, Ian, the argument, the pain, the want to escape, the want to forget all about everything feel nothing feel as light as air, I saw the alcohol, the weed being passed around and then myself taking a few hits, the lines of cocaine in front of me and then remembered the feeling in my body as I inhaled it, then the dancing it was all fuzzy I couldn't remember what happened exactly but Kane had been on top of me in only his boxers and me in just my underwear then he came in.

Paul.

The most breathtaking person I'd ever seen in my life came in and looked straight at me just thinking about the look on his face as he stared into my eyes sent a warmth racing through my already heated body.

Then he had turned furious and ripped Kane off me and had him by the throat, before I knew what was happening Embry and all of his friends burst into the room, after that it was pretty much a surreal blur as Embry punched Kane, I think I was sick at some point, and I was back in my clothes the truth about why I'd turned once again to the drugs had come out. Ian. Embry didn't need to be told he guessed and I remember his anger leaving instantly as he hugged me. I also remembered talking to Erin and a stinging pain on my cheek at some point, then I'd wanted to go home and Paul had offered to take me, but the last thing I remembered was looking into Paul's deep chocolate brown eyes. I smiled as I remembered looking into them.

But what had happened after we had gotten home and how had we ended up in bed together?

He was one of Embry's friends, what if I'd had sex with him? Sure I weren't too bothered by that fact but I just wish I could have remembered it, if I had in fact had sex with him, I could imagine he'd be good.

Paul let out a little sigh in his sleep and his arms tightened around me.

Then a thought hit me. I had to get him out before Embry came in or Helen they would murder both me and Paul most likely.

But what do you say to a guy who you have no idea whether you've had sex with him or not, but then I'd been in more awkward situations, but he was different. Paul was different, his eyes, his face, his smile… just everything was different.

I would just deal with it as I always done, no fuss get him out usually if I was at home I'd hope for my parents to see but that was so not the case here I didn't want Paul to actually die.

It was then I realised Paul's chest was covered in a white t-shirt, true it strained nicely against his bulging muscles even as they were relaxed, I took a moment to run my eyes over his sculpted chest and felt a sneaky smile spread over my face and an odd feeling in the pit of my stomach. I also noted I was still fully clothed, okay so nothing had happened. Shame, but at least when I did shag him I would remember it now.

I drew my hands back from around his neck and placed them on his shoulders and shook him gently he didn't appear to have noticed anything.

"Paul." I whispered as I shoved him again, he just sighed in his sleep. I wriggled free from his arms and felt cold surround me instantly I shook him repeatedly and called his name but still no response I would have thought he were dead if it weren't for his chest rising and falling and I could feel his breath on my face. Sighing I sat up and moved so I was looking down on him, I called his name again he was a seriously deep sleeper this guy. But I knew how to get his attention quickly. I pushed the covers down off of both of us and straddled him, I hovered over him on my knees, then I lowered down onto his jeans and grinded hard against him and all at once it had worked, both the person Paul and what I would some may call 'little Paul' (but in his case it was seriously not 'little' in any way, I smiled as I thought this) 'woke up' I guess you could say Paul sat up slightly and looked at me in surprise.

"I knew thatwould wake you up." I told him smirking.

"You are dangerous." He mutters as he lies back down.

I lean forward so my chest is pressed against his and I move me lips to his ear.

"Don't you like a bit of danger?" I breathe.

He flips us over so he's hovering over me he stares straight into my eyes.

"More than you know." He said grinning as though there were some joke I wasn't in on.

I then pushed him off me.

"What's with the changing ideas?" he asked.

"I just needed you to wake up, and you're a guy, I'm talented and me shouting at you didn't work, but now we have to get you passed my brother." I told him smiling and sitting up and getting out the bed.

"Is that all you wanted?" He asked raising his eyebrows in a suggestive manner.

"Now that would be telling." I told him smirking; he too got out of the bed and moved to stand in front of me, leaning down slightly his breath washing over my face his eyes burning into mine, I felt my heart speed up ever so slightly as I gazed back at him, everything about him drew me to him and it made me unsure about him. I didn't like this feeling, this want to be closer to him, sure I was like that with guys but this was different I didn't just want him for sex this was more I just wanted to hold his hand, I didn't want this feeling it wasn't right. Well not for me anyway.

I stepped back from him and shook my head.

"Let's get you out of here." I told him.

"Embry and Helen both know I'm here." He told me.

"Well you still need to leave." I stated.

"And why is that?" he asked moving towards me a slight smile on his lips.

"Because I have things I need to sort out with my family." I told him my voice blunt.

"Oh you mean what happened last night?" He asked me in a gentle tone his brows furrowing and a frown forming on his lips his eyes sympathetic. I found myself wanting to talk to him wanting to tell him everything but just as I opened my mouth to say 'yes' I caught myself. What was wrong with me? I didn't know this guy at all my business had fuck all to do with him. But why was that such a hard concept for my mind to grasp?

"It's got nothing to do with you." I told him and moved to open the door and motioned for him to leave.

I watched as his face fell and felt a sudden pain rush through me but my head pushed it away I wouldn't have my mind changed by some random guy.

He walked out the door and down the stairs I followed him and he turned round when he came to the door, and I stopped a little bit away from him, his warmth seemed to draw me a bit closer to him and I hated that feelings.

"So I guess I'll see you tomorrow." He said to me.

"Yeah at school, and errr… thanks for taking me home last night." I told him fiddling with my hair uncomfortably, being grateful to people was odd for me.

"No worries at all, Sky would you like to do something after school tomorrow?" Paul asked me his face unsure but his smile was somewhat confident.

"I'll think about. And let you know tomorrow." I told him smiling; I couldn't stop myself he seemed to radiate happiness towards me.

"I'll take that as a yes." He said winking at me and grinning at me.

I huffed at his comment.

"Don't be so sure of yourself, I'm anything but predictable." I told him winking back.

He laughed at headed out the door, he looked back just before he shut the door and said, "I never thought you would be predictable, Blondie." With a final cheeky wink in my direction he shut the door while I was smiling and shaking my head at him.

Walking back up the stairs I went into the bathroom and looking at myself in the mirror. I looked like complete shit. And Paul had seen me like this; large bags under my eyes, my eyes themselves where bloodshot and my hair was just a bundle around me but it didn't look too bad sort of stylish but still it had seen better days. As I was walking out of the bathroom Helen called my name from her bedroom. I walked over and opened the door she was still in bed but was propped up watching telly.

"Come on Sky why don't you watch something with me." She said, I shut her door and got in next to her but she turned the telly off and turned to face me sitting cross legged I done the same facing her, I knew she'd want to talk but was I ready?

"We can watch a film a little alter but now, we need to talk about what happened last night." Helen said in a kind voice reaching out and taking my hand.

"I know." I told her, and looked down. "But it's hard to remember everything, I was thinking about it when I woke up and a lot of it is blurry I suppose you could call it. Helen, I'm so sorry, I know I said I wouldn't bring trouble to you and please forgive me I can't lose you." I told her my voice rising dread flooded me as I thought about what Ian had said, what if he was right why would they put up with me?

"Sky, you will never lose me. I will be here for you until I'm gone and even then I'll look over you and Embry I will never leave my children." She told me her eyes staring into mine as she gripped both my hands tightly I felt tears trickle down my face, she saw me as her daughter, as though I was her child.

I have never felt such contrasting emotions inside me. I was tore up because of what had happened last night as well as everything over the past three nearly four years then I also felt the pure happiness inside Helen had included me as one of her children and I believed her, I felt loved I felt as though someone actually gave a shit about me and my life and it felt good.

Over the rest of the day me and Helen spoke about a lot of things, we went through about two large tubs of Ben & Jerry's ice-cream. She wanted me to go see someone to talk to professionally about my issues, but I'd point blank refused that, there was no way I was going to a shrink.

We spoke about how the drugs had to be stopped and if I ever felt temptation or felt I needed to go back to them I was to talk to Helen or Embry or someone I felt I could. It was also agreed that I would try to cut down on the smoking, Helen understood that it helped with calming me down but as she reminded me I needed to take stability of my life back and I didn't want to be dependant on this anymore. Alcohol was agreed that I was still allowed to drink but not to a stage where I was paralytic. Helen was patient and listened to everything I had to say she hugged me when I really needed one and told me how everything really was going to get better and how their was no changing how her and Embry felt about me.

We talked about Ian and Carol, I persisted that I wanted nothing more to do with them. Ever. Helen had sighed but agreed we would leave it at that for the day although she had asked me about Paul I was curios as to why she'd asked but I'd told her how I thought he was a nice guy stupidly good looking but why was she asking, she'd just replied that he seemed nice bringing me home last night.

We had moved downstairs and were talking on the sofa about Kane, and what Paul had walked in on.

"Sky I know you wanted to escape all these feelings and wanted to just leave it all behind but darling you sleeping with Kane wouldn't have changed that." Helen told me a caring expression on her face.

"I know that but… I don't even know how to explain it." I told her in a confused tone.

"Well just try, I won't judge anything you say, you know you can talk to me about anything." Helen told me looking straight into my eyes I nodded and thought more about why I done everything I done other than to escape from the memories.

"I know that. I suppose its control." I mumbled still unsure how to explain.

"Control? In what way?" Helen asked her face only slightly confused.

"Like I can control it, when I drink it's my decision how much I have, with drugs it's my choice it's me having some form of control over my life, and with guys its control over who I chose to sleep with and my decisions. It doesn't even make sense to me but it's what I think it is, they took everything out of me, and just wore me down and all they told me was they were in control, but it's my life they can't be. It's not right!" I ended up shouting and tears were streaming down my face, they had they took everything out me and left me as some bitter person who hated the world and virtually everyone in it.

Helen grabbed me and pulled me into a tight hug and rubbed my back while I sobbed into her shoulder.

After a few minutes I pulled away from her and she reached up and wiped away the stay tears with her fingers, her face wet too her eyes red I hadn't even realised she'd been crying.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to upset you." I told her but she just shook her head at me.

The door opened and then Embry, Quil and Jake were stood in the doorway to the front room. They all stopped in their tracks at what they saw, me sat across from Helen on the sofa tears pouring down both our cheeks.

Their faces frowned and their eyes sympathetic as they looked at me.

That was the last thing I wanted someone's sympathy. I didn't want to be pitied.

I got up and walked through them and went straight upstairs without a backwards glance I herd my name being called a few times by Embry and Helen but I carried on.

I shut my door and laid back on my bed my hands over my face and let the tears come once again, it was an odd feeling for me as I virtually never cried no one ever saw me cry only Embry and Helen had once I'd finally given up trying to please my 'parents' having Jake and Quil see me cry hurt me more than should be possible, this whole guard I put up had weakness in it when it came to certain subjects but usually it showed through anger never tears and they had seen me cry.

Embry's POV

As Sky pushed through us and walked upstairs I called her name but she didn't even turn round, but then she was crying she didn't want Jake and Quil to see any more of her tears.

I herd as she shut her door and lay down on her bed and her tears return and her pain increase I could virtually feel it through just the sound of her sobs.

I turned round to look at my mom whose face was red a puffy her eyes wet with tears, I walked to her and hugged her and sighed as I felt her cry against my chest.

"It's gonna be okay, she'll get through it all, she has before and she will again." I told Mom, I felt Jake and Quil walk into the kitchen even though they'd still hear our conversation but by them leaving it made it easier to actually talk.

"She'll get through the drugs, smoking and alcohol no problem, well I'm not saying it won't be hard but she'll get through all of that eventually, but it's what they've done to her. They've got inside her head so bad Embry, making her hate everything, scared of everything, and we both know she never shows it but it's there, the fear of letting people close to her she's so afraid that someone's going to hurt her that she ends up hurting them, and I know she doesn't let much bother her but I just think what's that doing on the inside of her, her head must be so messed up she started screaming about how wrong they are, and they are they tried to control her so much everything she done was wrong and she snapped, we already knew that but I never realised it had affected her mind so much this whole control thing." Mom told me although she seemed to be speaking more to herself as she looked around the room as though something would help.

"Mom we knew she had issues when she finally snapped, but a lot of them were slowly starting before she finally did snap, I mean come on she had the whole anger thing since she was little, but what do you mean by this control thing? Like I know that's what done it in the end they controlled or tried to too much and it made her want to control her own life but has she said something more?" I asked Mom.

"Sort of, she explained why she does everything she does, it's all something she can control she said its her choice its her taking charge of her life and her actions even if their wrong its like their her mistakes to make and she can say that it was her decision no one forced her." Mom explained to me I sighed and went and sat down on the sofa.

"I think were gonna have to accept that she has this whole control thing but just do what we can to help her with it." I spoke to Mom who sat on the other couch.

"Yeah, I suggested she spoke to someone professionally about it all, but she wouldn't hear a word of it just telling me she wasn't mental and wasn't going to speak to some shrink." Mom sighed.

"I'm gonna go up and see her okay?" I asked Mom and she nodded, I spoke at the same level to Jake and Quil. "Give me a little while and I'll be down again." I herd them both say that I should take as long as I wanted.

I walked upstairs and waited outside Sky's door, I knocked once.

"Go away." She pleaded in a croaky voice.

"No chance." I told her as I walked in without her permission, I saw her lying on her bed hands over her face she sat up as she herd me come in and wiped her eyes with a tissue that was in her hand. She looked so miserable and upset that I could feel something inside me ache at her expression, she didn't deserve this.

"Sky…" I trailed off and she got off her bed and ran to me hugging me tightly, I returned the hug and felt her tears on my shirt and could feel her sobbing in my arms. I bent down and kissed the top of her head.

"It's going to be alright." I told her taking her back to her bed and sitting next to her with my arm around her.

"How can it though Em? All I ever hear is their voices, their shouts, all I see is their faces, everything just makes me so mad and I hate them for what they done, they took everything out of me, I remember being happy, and I mean really happy like I was when I was little but not anymore, that's gone, sure I'm happy sometimes but you know how I feel. I've told you enough times." Sky spoke in a hollow tone.

I knew what she was on about; she had described it as a hollow feeling inside her no matter how happy she was she always felt this emptiness sure it was not always there when she was really happy but that was very rarely.

"Well just think, you won't have to see them in a very long time and then once you're eighteen it's your decision what you want to do, and you have us now, people who love you so much, and there's nothing wrong with you, you've had a shit past, but that's exactly it, THE PAST, you can move on from it all, and I'll be right here with you, you know that and you will be happy again you just have to go through some shit to get there." I told her pulling her tightly against my side again.

"So… Jake and Quil…" She trailed off although I knew what she was trying to say.

"They won't say anything, and believe it or not Sky, it's actually normal for girls to cry in fact for people to cry." I told her lightly.

"But I'm not most people." She countered.

"True." I laughed trying to get her out of this mood. "Look come down, we can watch a film or go out for something to eat or whatever you want to do, the guys won't mind." I told her.

She raised her head already coming back to her normal self she wouldn't be kept down for long not my sister, and she would always be strong even if the inside showed different, it was her way of shaking it off to act like nothing had happened but I think she was finally starting to show some more emotion and that meant things were looking up.

"Well if it's my choice… Chinese take out and movie in the front room." She said looking at me with a slight smile on her face.

"Well I guess I did say it was your choice." I laughed and she hugged me tightly again then got up, took out a make-up wipe and cleaned her face even though she had no make-up on just to freshen up. She looked back at me smiling.

"Well are you ordering this Chinese or not?" she asked me in a harsh tone, I just shook my head and walked out the door with her following.

Sky's POV

I had been curious as to how Jake and Quil would act towards me after what had happened at Chris' house last night and then them walking in on me crying, but they acted no differently to me they were just their same laughing, joking selves.

They made a few comments asking how I was dealing with the hangover, but I'd just replied that headache tablets and lots of cold water were a life saver.

The night went quickly and before I knew it Jake and Quil had left and I was going to bed and left thinking about what tomorrow would be like and what it would be like.

School.

Oh joys.

"Sky, unless you want to be late on your first day and have to walk there get up NOW!" Embry shouted at me.

"Out of my room now." I stated, he huffed but left me alone, I slowly got out of bed, went and had a shower and washed my hair, I got out and put some underwear on and blow dried my hair and straightened it so it was big yet straight and applied a light amount of make-up. I pulled on a pair of light straight legged jeans and a white top that was short in the body so you could see my skin from the waist of my jeans to my bellybutton and made my boobs look good, I put a plain belly bar in that was just a gem on the end, I took out my bag that was a small one that went over one shoulder and rested on my hip it had a gold clasp on the front I put the necessaries inside; i-Pod, make-up, cigarettes, a pen and my purse, which had all my recently changed pounds into dollars and two condoms, I always kept a few in my purse, because as they say you never know when your gonna need one. I slide my phone into my jeans pocket and put on my white pumps, grabbed my jacket and walked downstairs.

"Morning sweetie." Helen said to me coming and giving me a hug which I returned.

"Morning." I replied and sat down next to Embry who was eating his eating his breakfast.

"What would you like?" Helen asked me.

"Errr… I'm not hungry really, so I'll just have some orange juice please." I said.

"If you're sure." She said passing me the jug of orange juice and a glass.

"That tops a bit short in the body don't you think?" Embry asked me with a disapproving glance, but his voice was calm.

"I think its just fine actually." I told him sharply.

He sighed and I realised that he was just trying to look out for me again so I changed the subject.

"So when are Jake and Quil coming round?" I asked Embry.

"Their not coming with us today, I thought it would be good if you and I could talk on the way to school about some stuff." Embry said looking at me smiling.

"Yeah that's fine with me." I told him.

After Embry finished eating he grabbed his jacket said bye to Helen as did (getting a warm hug and a whisper of 'good luck' as well) I and we walked out to his truck.

As we climbed in and Embry started the car and drove out of the drive he spoke to me.

"So, how are you feeling today?" he asked gently.

"Alright I suppose, like I'm not emotional today. I'm back to me." I told him laughing once without humour.

"Your always you, but sometimes different sides of you are shown." Embry spoke to me in a voice filled with truth.

"I suppose… but I'm the normal me today." I said smiling at him.

"Please don't create too many problems today, remember it is your first day. And I'll take you to the office to get your schedule." Embry said smiling at me but his eyes flashed back to the road ahead again.

"So am I only with you for 'Gym' then?" I asked putting an emphasis on the word Gym; it was odd because I was so used to calling it P.E.

"Yeah, and lunch and break, but you should be fine in classes, you have Seth and I'm sure you'll make friends." Embry said reassuringly.

"Yeah, I'll be alright." I said nodding to myself, I was strong enough, I could cope with a new school, and I had Embry, and his all of his friends.

"What are the lessons like?" I asked him.

"Just lessons really, like we sit in class the teachers talk we take notes, we do projects, papers, text book work from certain subjects… I'm sure the same as what you had back in England." Embry replied.

"Do I get any free periods?" I asked.

"Depends on what classes you're in." He explained.

He then pulled into the school parking lot; he was a fast driver and had taken a few short cuts that I would have to remember.

He cut the engine and stepped out and met me just as I climbed out.

"Ready?" He asked.

"Em. I was born ready." I told him and he cracked up laughing.

He chucked his arm round my neck giving me a brief hug and then started walking in the direction of his friends as they all waited outside a building laughing and joking I noticed that Erin was there with them as well. Paul was there too and as I thought about him he turned round and his face lit up as he saw me a blinding smile that made my heart beat falter fro just a moment and my feet stop moving, I quickly shook my head and carried on as normal and refused to let my face flush red as I carried on walking over to them, Erin had also turned round and seen me and she smiled and waved at me smiling and then I pulled Embry to a stop, he turned and gave me a confused look.

"What's wrong?" he asked quickly.

"How much do they all know about… you know stuff?" I asked him unsure of how to put my question.

"They know about the drugs." He said his face a mask showing no emotion other than his eyes which were wary to see how I would react.

"How much do they know exactly?" I asked him sharply, I could feel my jaw tightening.

"Well… they obviously know what happened Saturday night, and they know that you used to take drugs quite often but that you stopped two months ago, and you were doing really well, they all understand that Saturday was just a little slip up because of that- that- bastard." Embry snarled angrily and his body had begun to shake as he spoke of Ian.

"They don't know details do they? Like…" I trailed off and his face showed he understood what I meant.

"No they don't know details just that you were on drugs, they don't know what either, but Sky it's not hard to guess after Saturday…" Embry said his face showing he didn't want to talk about this but knew he had to.

"I know but… you know I won't go back to the harder stuff ever again…." I told him swallowing hard, he took me hand and squeezed.

"I know. That's behind you now. And they don't think your some kind of druggie." He told me smiling.

"Don't they? What would you think if you walked in on one of their sisters in the same position as me?" I asked Embry, he didn't answer me he looked over my shoulder at nothing in particular but his jaw just flexed and I saw his shoulders shake slightly. "Exactly." I told him in a choked voice, Embry would never say it aloud but I knew what he was thinking. Slag. Druggie. Alcohol problem. Not that I was any of those.

"No Sky I don't think that. I wouldn't think that not if I knew they had gone through what you have. And they all know you've had so much complete shit handed to you, from the people who are suppose to care about you the most. They won't judge you. And besides they all have their own issues. Like Jake and Quil they didn't treat you any differently last night did they? They were just the same as always, they would never judge, they were even pissed with me because I hadn't told them about you and the drugs because I should have known they wouldn't have judged you for it. So don't be judging them alright? I know what's going through your mind and don't instantly shut them out just because you think they've made an opinion of you alright?" Embry finished his explanation in an angry tone.

And he was right I suppose, it was wrong of me to assume they would judge me and then, I knew whether I liked admitting it or not, I would have most likely been off with them just because I'd thought they would be with me. God my head was so fucked up. But I understood what it all meant and how it all kept people away, just how I liked them.

"Yeah, alright, and I wouldn't be off with them." I told him.

"Yeah sure you wouldn't." Embry said laughing.

"Oh shut up." I told him and pushed him out of the way laughing and walked over to the group, Erin came forward and hugged me tightly.

"I'm sorry I didn't come round and see you yesterday but I thought it would be best if I let you sort things with your family." Erin told me as she pulled away.

"Yeah don't worry about it, me and Helen had a lot to talk about I guess." I said smiling slightly.

"So, your first day of school, you up for it?" She asked a smile playing on her lips.

"Yeah, throw all you got at me La Push High." I told her smirking.

"You should be able to take anything it throws at you." Erin said smiling.

"Yeah, you do seem one tough girl." Kim said coming over and hugging me as well.

"And the worst thing you'll probably face here is girls like Celia hating on you and we already know you can deal with that." Beth said hugging me as well.

"Yeah, she'll be an idiot if she tries anything with you again." Kim laughed.

"Now where would the fun in her just giving up be?" I asked smiling evilly.

They all laughed apart from Embry who had a smile on his face that he couldn't quite hide.

"Can you lay off her for just the first day?" Embry asked hopefully I just looked at him and he sighed. "Take it easy then, you're being kicked out on the first day."

"Oh I wont kicked out." I said sure of myself.

"And how did you work that one out then?" Collin asked curiously.

"Your head teacher's a guy right?" I asked and they all laughed apart from Paul and Embry who glared at me.

"So where's all your stuff?" Brady asked me confused they all had bags but mine was hidden by my jacket slightly.

"Here." I told him opening my jacket so he could see my bag resting on my hip, his eyes widened as he took in my exposed skin and the low hanging jeans.

"Yeah that jackets staying on all day Sky." Embry said.

"What if I get hot? And besides you saw it this morning, and per the rules in your head, everything's covered." I told him smiling sweetly.

"You're in La Push you won't get hot. And covered? Barely." Embry said his eyes narrowed.

"Embry's right. They'll be all over you." Paul said in a panicked tone everyone's head turned to him most showing a smile while Erin's showed confusion, mine anger and confusion and Embry's was torn between a smile and a glare he couldn't seem to decided.

"No offence, well actually take whatever offence you want but seriously what the fucks it got to do with you?" I asked him bluntly, it hurt seeing the pain on his face for some reason but .

Paul looked speechless but was about to reply when Kim spoke.

"So what have you actually managed to fit into that bag of yours?" she asked me effectively changing the subject and Paul to close his mouth again.

I opened my bag up and rummaged through; Kim came over and looked inside to see what I had managed to fit in.

"So yea basically some make-up, my i-Pod, cigarettes-" Embry cut me off.

"You brought a packet of cigarettes to school?" he asked in an exhausted voice.

"Well you know what these places do to me, and yeah, it helps and before you ask I'm still not addicted." I told him.

"Well, you'll get in trouble if you get caught smoking on school grounds." Embry told me.

"Then I won't get caught. And since when have you cared for the rules?" I asked him.

"Since I want you to actually get an education and a shot at having a decent life." Embry told me bluntly and I narrowed my eyes at him, he apologised with his own eyes and I nodded understanding he hadn't meant it in that way.

"Oh that's a cute purse." Kim said taking it out of my bag and looking at the design on it.

"Yeah a friend got it for me from New York." I told her.

"Well you have seriously nice friends, because this isn't a cheap purse." Kim said.

"Not really, he was just rich." I told her, she laughed and opened the purse to see the designs inside and saw the photo of me and Embry when we were children sat together on a bench he had his arm round me and was holding my and she 'awwwed' at the photo.

"Show me." Beth said and held her hand out, as Kim passed my purse to her she took it the wrong way up and all the money from one section came out as did the condoms.

I went to grab all my money and condoms but Erin beat me to it and picked up all of it, she stood up laughing.

"Here you go." She said chuckling.

I took my purse back off Beth and started putting my money back into it and tried to put the condoms back without Embry noticing but yeah, that plan failed as he took them out of my hands.

"Condoms at school? Are you serious?" he exploded at me.

"Well I didn't bring them on purpose did I now? And I always keep some in my purse." I said in a smaller voice and ruffled my hair.

"Why do you keep them in your purse?" Kim asked confused but her face was smiling.

"Well… you like never really know when your gonna need one." I said uncomfortably, normally I wouldn't have minded her asking but Embry was standing right next to me and he was seriously not going to see the practicality in this or the humour some of the others seemed to find in it.

I herd Embry breathing deeply in and out trying to calm himself I also noticed that Collin, Seth and Jared moved closer to Beth, Erin and Kim, while Paul seemed to inch his way slowly towards me.

"But yeah, let's not talk about that, and errrr could I have them back you know so there's like the end of this conversation." I suggested in a reasonable tone.

Embry handed them back and turned and walked away with Jake and Quil towards another part of the school.

"I'm sorry." I called out feeling bad, I never wanted to upset him.

He didn't even turn around.

"Oh and I've got a pen." I told Kim.

"Well yeah, you've come well equipped for a day at school." Kim said sarcastically she looked torn; upset for Embry and his anger but laughing at what had just happened as well.

"I'm sorry, but I've got to ask, why do you have different sizes?" Erin asked confused.

"Well you never really know what your dealing with until it's too late to have thought to bring a smaller one." I told her to which she laughed.

I herd a growl behind me, and as I turned I saw it was Paul.

"Errr… you alright?" I asked him unsurely.

"Fine." He said in a tight voice his figure shaking.

"So where am I suppose to get this schedule timetable thingy from?" I asked everyone who was still there.

"I'll take you to the front office to get it." Paul told me in a tight voice still but it was gentler than before.

"Alright, I guess I'll see you guys later." I said and Paul led me towards the main office, his face looked murderous, but he seemed to move closer to me, so close in fact I could feel scorching body heat even without physical contact.

"Hey are you sure you're okay? I mean you look like you wanna punch something." I told him.

"I do." He muttered.

"Well let's find you a dickhead to hit… know any?" I asked him deadly serious.

"Don't tempt me." he replied his voice like steel but his face lit up in a slight smile.

He took me inside and led me to the office.

It looked just like the reception area at my school in England he took me to a middle aged woman sat behind a wooden desk.

"This is Sky Call she's just starting today." Paul told the woman.

"Hello there Sky, welcome to La Push, we've got all your records set up and here's your schedule and locker number and combination." She told me handing me a piece of paper that had a timetable on it as well as two sets of numbers.

"Cheers." I told her and walked out the office I could feel Paul walking behind me.

"So I'll show you where your locker is and your classes." Paul said.

"Oh yeah that would defiantly make this easier." I told him putting emphasis on this.

"And by this you mean school huh?" he asked in an amused one.

"What gave it away?" I asked sarcastically.

"Seriously it's not that bad here, and you've got all of us, so yeah everything's pretty much set up for you here." Paul said laughing.

"I suppose, but I can look after myself, I just don't want to cause problems for Em." I told him.

"Even so you still have everyone; I mean if you need anything you can come to me." Paul said smiling, I felt my defensive retort of 'thanks but I'm fine.' Get caught in my throat as I looked at him, there was such kindness in his face and sincerity in his eyes and maybe a flicker of hope. I couldn't bring myself to bit back to his comment, how could I when just looking at him made something inside me warm.

"Thanks, I'll bear that in mind." I told him smiling briefly.

"So this is your locker." He told me as we came to a stop at a random locker, well not random anymore I suppose, mine, number 401.

"Oh right, so wanna show me where… Biology is?" I asked after checking my schedule.

"You've got that with Seth, so if we go back to the others he can take you." Paul said.

"Okay." I replied, confused slightly, I felt a moment of sadness, didn't he want to be around me anymore? Wait. Did I seriously just ask myself that? Why should I care about if he wants to be around me?

"Or I could just show you myself." He suggested, after the unease I had felt at just a simple comment by him, I wanted to distance myself from him, why was he making me feel… whatever this is that I'm feeling, whatever it was I had felt.

"No Seth will show me, and I want to see Embry." I told him, and I watched as his face fell slightly, I wanted to tell him that yeah he could just show me but it was because of that feeling again that I kept my mouth closed and walked out with Paul by my side, and I felt myself move slightly closer to him without my permission.

We walked in silence back to the group waiting outside and they all watched us with varying expression.

I saw Kim and Beth's faces smile slightly as they saw me once again move closer to Paul as though I couldn't help it but then I purposely took my next forward and away from him. Embry seemed to smile as he saw me move away but I didn't think anyone would notice the slight movement I made. Oh god I hope Paul hadn't noticed. I shook my head as I thought that. Seriously Sky what the fuck is wrong with you? I demanded of myself.

"I'll be with you in a moment I'm just gonna… have a look round." I told Paul, but in truth I was going to go and have a cigarette, these weird feelings were making me edgy and unsettled.

"The best place is either on the edge of the woods over there, if you don't want to be noticed" he nodded with his head towards the woods just besides the parking lot but quite a way from where we were stood. "But in all honesty as long as you stay away from the main buildings you should be fine." Paul told me, as though he knew exactly what I was planning on doing and clearly he could.

"Right well, I'll be over in a bit then." I told him and turned towards the entrance exit to the school, I would just go out on the road, as the woods were further from me so I chose the easiest.

"I'll come with you." Paul said easily and walked besides me, but I stopped in my tracks and turned to face him.

"No, go back to your friends I don't need a babysitter alright? I appreciate you showing me where stuff is yeah but I can take it from here." I told him maybe a bit more sharply than I had intended, but only because he made me feel uneasy by how safe I felt around him and how relaxing his presence was I didn't like it.

"Fine, don't get lost on your back English." He said to me, turned and walked back to his friends.

"It's Sky, American." I called after him which he in turn looked over his shoulder and winked at me, I couldn't help the smile that pulled at my lips and shaking my head at him to which I could see made his smile even bigger. I just turned and walked out of the school, and took out my cigarettes and lit one up, taking the first long comforting pull on it.

I saw people walking past a few looked at me curiously but one stood out from the rest.

Kane.

He had a large plaster type thing over his nose two black eyes no doubt from Embry breaking his nose and he looked in pain and seriously just plain shit. He saw me and just averted his gaze. I suddenly felt bad for him. He got beaten up, well not beaten up but one punch from Embry's got to hurt and was threatened by some seriously big guys.

"Kane wait." I called to him as I tried to catch him up.

"Sky, no offence to you, but I don't feel like getting beaten up today okay?" Kane said to me.

"Don't worry, you wont, I'll make sure of it this time." I told him.

"What do you want anyway?" He asked as we began to walk into school.

"I wanted to say I was sorry." I told him. "And you should actually value an apology from me because I virtually never apologise." He laughed at that.

"Look, I didn't want you to get hurt, and it wasn't your fault no matter what you think it actually was my fault." I told him.

"I would say don't worry about it, but as you can probably tell, Embry broke my nose. But in all honesty with you a lot of Saturday is a blur to me." Kane admitted.

"Same here, I remember parts but not all of it. So yeah I just wanted to like apologise and see how your doing." I told him.

"Well apology accepted and yeah I'll live so… friends?" He asked holding out his hand.

"Friends." I agreed taking his hand and pulling him in for a hug.

Looking over his shoulder I could see Embry and the rest of his friends watching me with a mixture of looks ranging from disappointment to surprise to anger. I pulled back.

"Yeah I better go now I can practically feel their eyes burning me." Kane laughed. "But your related to Embry right?" he asked.

"Yeah he's my brother why?" I asked surprised.

"Just wondering and I knew he'd have to be someone important to you." Kane said.

"How did you work that out?" I asked him sharply.

"The fact he punched me in the face after threatening me to stay away from you, there was also the fact that he was the only you seemed bothered by as in his reaction from what I can remember." Kane said.

I didn't say anything I just looked at Embry whose eyes were staring straight back at me.

"I'll see you around Sky." Kane said

"Course you will." I told him as he wondered off.

I myself then made my way back towards Embry and the others. Erin came forward towards me.

"Don't tell me. The eyes right?" she asked mockingly raising her eyebrows and smiling at me.

"What are you on ab-" I started to ask but it shook something in my memory, I had defend myself by saying Kane had nice eyes, but Erin had replied with a 'yeah if your into the no pupil look.' "Oh shut up Erin." I told her to which she laughed and dragged me back towards the others.

"Oh and for the record, they were fine today." I told her.

"That's actually a surprise; maybe he's changing his ways." Erin said in a mock shocked voice.

I just laughed as we reached the others.

"So apparently I've got Biology with you." I told Seth.

"Yeah, show me your schedule. And I'll see what other lessons you got, you probably have a lot with me." He said holding his hand out I gave him my schedule which he looked at briefly and then handfed it back to me.

"You've got every lesson with me, apart from like two but that's only Chemistry and History. And you have home room with me as well." Seth said smiling.

"And then you have Gym with most of us last period." Kim said smiling.

"Seriously I thought you were joking when you said you had 'Gym' everyday." I complained.

"Nope, and everyday minus Wednesdays, don't worry you'll get used to it. How often did you have it in England?" Jared asked.

"Only two hours a week so like yeah twice." I told him. "Now I've four fucking hours." I complained.

"Well just deal with it." Embry said.

The sound of the bell cut off my retort and everyone started moving towards the schools main entrance. As we walked in people started going their separate ways after saying bye and a few said good luck.

"Sky just try to behave yeah, and if you need anything text me okay?" Embry asked.

"Okay." I replied hugging him and walking with Seth we came to a classroom and he held the door open for me.

I felt all the looks of people in the class and chose to ignore most of them as I walked to the back of the room and took a seat and Seth sat next to me.

First day, you can do it Sky, I told myself as a teacher walked through the door as another bell rang.


Okay so i know there was a lot to take in from this chapter, hopefully its not tooo much and your overloaded by infoo "/

But anyways, she's acknowledge that she feels something more for Paul but she doesn't like the feeling so is trying to push him away even though it hurts her "/ silly girl eh?

And it's her first day at La Push what will it hold for her?

Please review they honestly mean so much to me (: knowing what you all think helps and encourages me so much (:

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