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Some people have said I'm a good story writer but this is actually the first time I write in English! So it's really nice to hear you like it. And that's why there might be, or probably will be and have been some mistakes 'cause English is not my main language so.. hope you understand.
Well that's all I wanted to say, so, right to the point :) and I still don't own Friends, which is unbelievably sad..
Chapter Three
Chandler was sitting on the couch and watching TV in their living room. It was afternoon and he hadn't gone to work. Monica was home too, still pretending to have a stomach flu.
Monica walked out of their bedroom. She looked at Chandler who looked unusually concentrated, staring at the TV screen. She sat on the armchair, and swallowed hard.
Just do it.
"Honey, look.. we need to talk", she finally said.
Chandler turned to look at her. "OK... What do you wanna talk about?" He said with a slight smile, and leaned closer taking her hands in his. He thought Monica wanted to talk something like the wedding or organizing the dishes, but she had this weird, serious look on her face which made him a little concerned.
Monica opened and closed her mouth few times before getting the words out. "Um.. I'm.. I.." She stuttered quietly, staring at their hands. "I can't decide what kind of wedding dress I want", she said, rolling her eyes to herself. She looked up to Chandler. He raised his eyebrows, looking slightly confused.
"Right.. Well.. Why don't you ask Rachel and Phoebe for help", he said then. "I'm sure Rachel knows what looks good on you. I mean, of course, everything looks good on you. See -.."
"OK, I'll ask them", Monica smiled, cutting him off. She squeezed his hands while leaning in and giving him a gentle kiss. "Thanks", she said quietly after pulling off. She rose from the chair and walked to the kitchen shaking her head and mentally kicking herself.
Damn it, Monica.
That had already happened several times. Random topics were running out. It had been two days since Monica found out she was pregnant. Phoebe and Rachel had been acting surprisingly normal around her, Chandler and the others, which Monica appreciated. She had tried to tell Chandler about it but it was difficult. She would have to tell her something that would change his life forever. She had another thing to tell him too, which was even harder. And she didn't want to see Chandler hurt. Deep inside she knew Chandler would never leave her but she was still afraid for some reason..
Monica decided to go to the coffeehouse right away, maybe the girls would be there and help her out somehow.
She entered the coffeehouse, seeing Phoebe sitting alone on the orange couch.
"Hey", Monica said sitting next to her.
"Hey, pregnant lady!" Phoebe said with a grin. Monica looked around, glad there were no one she knew. "When are you going to tell Chandler?" Phoebe asked.
"I don't know, I've tried for like a million times but I always end up asking something ridiculous about the wedding or something", Monica said and sighed.
"Come on, what are you afraid of? He's going to be so happy, he's gonna be a father!"
Monica sighed again. She looked Phoebe in the eyes. She has to tell someone. "OK. I'm going to tell you something incredibly awful, but please don't judge me. I can't help it anymore. I just need your help, okay?" She said, sounding serious. Phoebe nodded.
"Promise?" Monica asked. Phoebe nodded again. Monica closed her eyes and sighed. "Okay.. So.. The day when Chandler and I got engaged, remember how I went to Richard's?"
Phoebe's hands flew to her mouth. "Oh my God! You kissed him!"
Monica shaked her head slowly and rubbed her forehead.
"Thank God!" Phoebe sighed for relief.
"I.. I.. We had.. I slept with him", Monica said quietly looking down. She was so ashamed. She didn't dare to look at Phoebe.
Phoebe gasped for breath. How could Monica do that to someone she loves so much? "What..? How.. Why?" She asked in shock.
"I don't know. I don't know.. I was down and he was comforting me.. We had those drinks and.. and he kissed me, I didn't stop him. I shoud've.. One thing led to another.. I wish it didn't happen.. but it did. Oh my God I'm a horrible, horrible person! Chandler's so going to leave me", Monica said, starting to cry. Phoebe didn't know what to say. She stroked crying Monica's back trying to figure out something to say.
"No.. Chandler's not gonna leave you.. You'll find a way to work it out, it was just one time, right? He loves you so much Monica, and you love him. You're pregnant and all -.." Phoebe stopped her sentence, and stroking. She just realized the problem. Monica sobbed and looked up to Phoebe. "Please tell me he is not the father of your child", Phoebe said almost robotically, giving a blank look.
"That's the thing. I don't know", Monica whispered, feeling desperate.
Phoebe closed her eyes. "For the love of God Monica.. I can't believe you", she sighed.
Monica was supposed to be the good one? Never trust Gellers!
"I know, I'm a horrible person. But you promised to help me, Phoebe. What should I do?" Monica said quietly, tears in her eyes.
"God, Monica.." Phoebe sighed again and turned to look at her, finally. "I don't know what to say.. Have you.. Are you sure it could be either one of them?"
"Yes."
Phoebe thinked. She wanted to help her friend who was in trouble. Real trouble. It could destroy the whole friend group if this wouldn't work out.. and that was even more than possible.
"OK, fine. Let's just say, this disgusts me. But because I'm your friend and you need my help, I'll do my best. So, you have two options. One: Be a bitch and take a risk, tell Chandler about this and see and make him hurt like hell. And Richard too, of course. Handle the consequences and make a paternity test after the baby's born. Two: Be a bigger bitch and don't tell Chandler or Richard never ever about this, and just suppose the baby is Chandler's. And feel guilty like, forever", Phoebe explained. Monica listened, trying to wipe her newest tears. They were both quiet for a few moments.
Monica knew Phoebe was right. "I'm gonna do it", Monica said then, staring into space. Phoebe looked at Monica, looking confused. "I'm gonna tell him what I did. I can and I deserve to take the consequences for what I did", she continued nodding to her thoughts. "I know Chandler doesn't. He doesn't deserve any of this, or me. But he deserves to know the truth", Monica said and rose from the couch, wiping her last tears with the back of her hand. "I'm gonna tell him everything, right now. Thanks Pheebs", Monica said and left the coffeehouse.
Phoebe sat there alone. She didn't know what to think. She just knew that next time she'd see Monica, she possibly wouldn't be wearing a ring in her ring finger.
Monica entered their apartment. Chandler was there, and so was Joey. Damn it. Joey was eating as usual and Chandler was sitting on the counter.
"Hey babe", Chandler greeted Monica and jumped off the counter.
"Hey", Monica said and kissed Chandler on the cheek.
"Did you get any help from the girls?"
"What? Oh, sure", Monica said and smiled a little awkwardly. She had almost forgotten their conversation before.
"Mon, what do you think, should I shave my hair? I look pretty good in that bald wig, you know", Joey said, food in his mouth.
"Well, yeah, why not", Monica said from the couch, looking lost in thought. Chandler and Joey shared a look.
Joey finished his meal soon and left to his apartment across the hall. Chandler went with him.
"What's up with Monica? She looked pretty serious", Joey frowned when they closed the door behind them.
"I know. She's been starting these conversations like "we need to talk" and then she just asks something about the wedding and stuff", Chandler said.
""We need to talk?"", Joey asked, looking slightly concerned.
"Yeah.."
"That's never a good sign, man.."
"You think so? I mean, I know it's not but.. What could it be and why can't she say it?"
Joey shook his head. "I don't know.. I'm sorry to say but maybe she's leaving you or something."
Chandler gave a small laugh. "Sure. She got engaged with me few weeks ago and she's already planning the wedding like crazy but decides to leave me."
"You never know, women are crazy", Joey shrugged. "You know, she met Richard. Maybe she still has feelings for him and they came alive as she met him. Maybe she's planning their wedding with you!"
"That makes no sense", Chandler said shaking his head.
"Women's thoughts."
"So you're a woman now?"
Joey rolled his eyes. "Forget it, I'm probably wrong. Monica isn't like that. Talk to her", he said and patted Chandler on the back and went to his room.
Chandler thought so too, Monica wouldn't do that. Listening Joey is never good anyway. Still his mention of Richard was repeating in his head. Maybe Monica still had feelings for him? She never said she'd stop loving him.
He sighed and turned to go back to his and Monica's apartment.
Sorry guys, no raccoons this time! But this was longer than the two previous chapters. And damn I hate this Doc Manager editing thingy.. it just can't behave.
Chandler's probably gonna find out in the next chapter, so keep reading.. :) Reviews please!
