You guys make me fly! High! :D So I'm smiling here like and idiot (I do that a lot)... and yes, that's because of you! Thanks for the reviews again, and if there's any silent readers - thanks to you too! But if you have something to say, let me hear you :)
Shyfighter~ I know, I almost kinda hated writing when he finds out (that's why it's such a short scene haha!) but I was just lying on my bed and got this kind of storyline and I thought it was somehow different so I wanted to write it :) and hope you'll continue reading and enjoy!
Verdissima ~ To be honest, me neither!
Ghee Buttersnaps15 ~ Thanks! I know :D Maybe I can add raccoons in some chapter.. :P
And just to let you know, I like Richard's character and probably won't make him a "bad guy" 'cause he's actually really sweet. But Mondler's just RIGHT, isn't it? ;) But I ain't telling you what's gonna happen :D actually even I don't know that yet..
This was kinda quick update.. Well, I don't have anything else to do so why not?
I wish I owned Friends but that's not gonna happen (what's with all the negativity?) so.. too bad.
But now to the fourth chapter.. which begins where the previous one was left off!
Chapter Four
Monica heard the door open and saw Chandler coming back. She stood up from the couch and gazed at him. She was going to tell him, now.
"What?" Chandler frowned after shutting the door behind him.
Monica bit her lip for a second. "OK, honey.. We really need to talk", she said, sounding surprisingly calm.
Chandler stopped, remembering the conversation with Joey a minute ago. That's never a good sign. "You know, I don't think we do", he said and scratched his neck.
"We really do", Monica said, she frowning now too.
"Really? I think talking is overrated. I mean, how many terrible tragedies, for example, would've not happened if people hadn't talk? And besides, I don't even like talking. You have to say the words right, choose your tone and it's just all about the words, really", Chandler explained.
Monica sighed. "Fine", she said and walked up to Chandler. He seemed relieved, but soon confused as she grabbed his arm and pulled him on the couch. She sat next to him, now holding his hands. "I'm the one who has to talk", she said quietly.
"Well, I'm not a fan of listening either -..." Chandler started but was cutted off by Monica's finger on his mouth. She swallowed, now staring at their hands. Now she has to tell him.
No way getting out of this anymore, Monica.
"Are you OK, Mon?" Chandler asked with a concerned look on his face. He tried to look at her in the eyes but she kept looking down.
Maybe she's sick? No, she can't be.. not Monica.
Monica smiled slightly, still looking down. "I'm fine.. I guess. I-It's just that I'm.." She finally looked up to Chandler, who looked extremely concerned. She sighed. "Here it comes. Chandler.. I.. I'm pregnant", she said looking him in the eyes. She was scared as hell of how he was going to react.. and that wasn't even all.
Chandler felt a lump in his throat. His expression didn't change.. He sat there, staring Monica in the eyes. He didn't know if this was a bad joke or true. In that moment he didn't know which was better, but he had a feeling this was real. They were quiet for few minutes.
"Y-you.. You what, again?" Chandler asked then with a small cough, his voice trembling slightly.
"I'm pregnant", Monica said, smiling to let Chandler know it was okay to her. Chandler's gaze dropped down on her belly.
"You're not kidding?" he asked, still frowning and having the same concerned look on his face as few minutes ago. Monica shaked his head, smiling nervously.
Chandler let go of Monica's hands and stood up from the couch. He walked around the living room, rubbing his temples and forehead. Monica was shocked he still hadn't run away from the apartment.
"Let.. let me just.. Are you actually telling me there's a.. a new person growing inside of you?" Chandler asked with a slightly stronger voice, pointing to Monica's belly.
"Well.. At least I hope it's a person -..."
"What do you think about it?" Chandler cut her off.
"What? The baby? Honey, you know I've always wanted to have a baby.. now it just came by surprise", Monica said with a smile, almost forgetting the other thing she needed to tell him. She was starting to feel really good with the fact that she was going to be a mother.
Chandler sighed and suddenly moved to hug Monica, tight.
"Well that's.. another unexpected surprise?" Monica said, confused.
Chandler was quiet, hugging her for several minutes until Monica broke the silence. "Chandler.. what do you think about it?"
He broke the hug slowly, looking again at her belly. He swallowed hard. "I.. I-I think it's.. it's fine. It's great, amazing.. I know it makes you happy."
"What about you?" Monica asked quietly again.
"What makes you happy, makes me happy.." Chandler aswered with a smile. Monica gave him a serious glare. "I.. I'm confused. I mean, I can't believe it.. I don't know, it's.. It's exciting", he stuttered.
Monica smiled again. "So.. you're not gonna leave?"
"What? Why? What makes you think I'd leave?" Chandler frowned. Monica rolled her eyes. "Fine.." Chandler said then. "But no. I am not gonna leave. Never."
Monica kissed Chandler slowly on the lips. Chandler gave her a warm smile and then Monica remembered; she wasn't done. Someone up there made this even harder.. But he just said he's never going to leave. Maybe he'd be able to forgive her and..
"Can I?" Chandler cut her thoughts off, referring to put his hand on her belly.
"No, because you are not my fiance and the father of the baby", Monica said and rolled her eyes. She knew the last part might not be true.. and the first one might not be for long. "But you won't probably feel anything though", she added then.
Chandler put his hand on Monica's belly and smiled. Monica smiled to his smile. She loved his smile.. and the next thing she'd have to do is to take that smile away. Maybe forever.. Maybe she wouldn't see that warm, loving smile again. Before she knew, tears were falling down her cheeks.
"Mon? Are you OK?" Chandler asked when he noticed Monica was crying.
Monica nodded. "Happy tears", she whispered. Chandler smiled again. This was killing her.. but what was coming, it would kill him. But she had to do it.
"This wasn't all", she said, wiping her hears with her palm. Chandler frowned. "I have another thing.. to talk about", she said.
"There's more?" Chandler said, stunned. Monica nodded. Chandler nodded too and took her hands in his again.
Monica sighed deeply. "Before I tell you this.. I.. I have to say I'm incredibly sorry and - and.. I love you so much."
Chandler smiled a little confused. "I love you too", he said.
Monica shaked her head, new tears in her eyes and took a deep breath. "I'm just gonna say this.. Chandler, I -..."
She was cutted off by Phoebe who entered the apartment. She stopped. "Oh.. Did I interrupt?"
"Well.. I just told Chandler about -", Monica started but was cutted off by Phoebe again.
"Oh no.. Well, you're taking it pretty good.. I thought you would never forgive her", she said to Chandler, looking surprised.
"What?" Chandler asked.
"No, no, no! Why would it be my fault that I'm pregnant? Chandler wouldn't blame me about that!" Monica yelled, trying to make Phoebe realise she hadn't tell him about the another thing.
"Well no, no, no! I was talking about you having sex with Rich -", Phoebe started but stopped her sentence. "Oh..." She said after realizing the thing.
Monica and Phoebe turned to look at Chandler. His eyes were wide. They stood there in silence for a moment.
"I-I don't think you guys need my help anymore", Phoebe said then, breaking the silence.
Monica and Chandler didn't even turn to look at her as she left the apartment. Monica was still staring at Chandler. He closed his eyes.
"Did she just say -"
"That I had sex with Richard. Yes", Monica said quickly, cutting Chandler off.
"That's not true, isn't it?" Chandler chuckled nervously.
Monica sighed and sat down on the couch again.
Chandler walked to the kitchen. "Please say you're kidding me", he said, leaning on the table.
"No, Chandler. I am not.. I wish I was. And before you ask; the day we got engaged, his apartment, it meant nothing to me, and... I'm not sure if.. if you're the father of.." Monica said, not being able to look at Chandler. It was nothing like her. She knew how much Chandler loved her and how much she loved him. She didn't have feelings for Richard anymore. She didn't know why had she done that, why hadn't she stopped him, why had she taken his pants off.. She loved Chandler. She was incredibly ashamed of herself.
They were quiet for a minute again.
Chandler couldn't believe it. After all these awful relationships and disappointments he thought he'd finally found the one. The one who would love him and be faithful to him. But it seemed it didn't matter how well you know the person before dating her. Before getting engaged. It seemed like she was just like all the others.. but she was the only one he truly loved.
"Monica.. I just.. I thought I knew you", he said softly, feeling tears coming up in his eyes.
Monica was all crying. She didn't know what to say. "I love you", she sobbed.
Chandler sobbed too. "Sure", he muttered and wiped his eyes. He left the apartment and slammed the door. Monica felt desperate. She wasn't surprised of Chandler's reaction but she felt terrible. So many times more terrible she could've imagine. Chandler had left her.
Suddenly the door opened again. Monica stood up and looked at Chandler, who stood there, staring at her.
"You know what, I'm not going. I promised I won't leave. So just to let you know, I'm going for a walk, you know, fresh air. And I would not be too surprised if I'd bump into dear Richard of yours", he said and left the apartment again, slamming the door.
Monica left alone, sobbing. She was about to run after him at first but she knew she couldn't stop him. She had never seen that look in Chandler's eyes, it was something that almost scared her. But she was relieved Chandler didn't leave her. At least he'd said so. She wanted Chandler by her side, no matter was the baby his or Richard's. She didn't know if she deserved that, but she didn't care. It was killing her to know that just few minutes earlier they were smiling to each other with all their love, they were happy about their baby, and kissing each other. What about now? Was Chandler ever going to forgive her?
Dum dum dumm.. Now he knows, then :D there were lots of 'quiet moments'!
A little longer chapter again.. I wanted to make that baby thing a little different, like.. yeah. Like that :) I'm a fan of different and that's why they call me weirdo. Ok they don't.. but I am, especially in the middle of the night like now. But you don't care about that so anyways, hope you liked it! Reviews, reviews.. :)
