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Chapter Nineteen

Monica heard the door open and turned to look who was coming. "Hey", she said to Chandler. She had thought about the possibility of Chandler having a child with Kathy all day. She'd really been taken abackby it. She found herself staring Chandler expectantly, eyes wide open, waiting for some news.

"Hi", Chandler said and closed the door behind him. He noticed the look on Monica's face, still unaware of the fact that she'd heard his and Ross's conversation before. "Are you.. okay?"

"I, um.. Yeah", Monica said and continued fluffing the pillows on their couch.

Chandler took a few steps around, thinking about how to explain everything. "You know Mon, I think we should have a talk."

"Yeah?" Monica said and turned to look at him again.

"Yes, a big one."

"Oh", Monica said quietly. She knew it was necessary for them to talk things through thoroughly, but she was afraid it would turn into a huge fight or something. Facing these subjects together wasn't easy, they had seasoned that already. She was surprised Chandler was the one to bring it up but kind of relieved too, 'cause now she didn't have to.

"So.." Chandler started, sat on the couch and pulled Monica next to him.

"You go first", Monica said quickly.

"Damn", Chandler sighed, not knowing what to say. "Um.. God, where do you want me to start?"

"I don't know", Monica said. "From the day you found out.. everything, I guess. The day that ruined our relationship."

"It's not ruined."

"It's not?"

"Maybe not. Do you want it to be?"

"No, no. No."

"Me neither."

"Really?"

"That's kinda why we're having this chat. Or trying to have."

Monica smiled. "Speak."

"So.. I've tried to forget that day but unfortunately I remember every single detail of it.. When you told me you're pregnant, I.." Chandler's gaze drifted down on Monica's stomach. "Well it did scare the hell out of me, but.. I liked the idea. I honestly felt sort of happy for those few minutes before Pheebs came in and.. y'know. And now I've realized if Richard's the father, I'm not. Although it has been pretty obvious for a long time", Chandler explained. "But.. I guess it would be better off that way. I mean what kind of a dad would I make? I don't know anything about babies and stuff. I'd be just terrible.. Which is odd 'cause my dad is a fine role model", he forced out a laugh.

"I'm sure you'd be an amazing dad", Monica said and nudged his knee gently. "Trust me."

"I don't."

"It's not about experience or knowledge. Those things might help but you're willing to learn and that's important", Monica said. "Have faith in yourself. You'd be amazing."

"Okay, for the first time ever in her life Monica Geller is wrong. Now how does it feel?"

Monica chuckled. She was happy to hear him joking around her again, it felt normal. "I am not wrong", she said. "To be honest, I really want this baby to be yours. I can't deny, I'd be so happy. I mean I'd love it just as much, no matter who's the father, but.."

"What?"

"Well did you not hear your speech or..?"

"What about it?" Chandler smiled.

"You want this baby to be yours, too, and it's pretty obvious that's what should happen."

"Yeah 'cause otherwise I'll never have a kid."

"So Kathy's kid wasn't yours?" Monica asked.

"What?" Chandler frowned. "Where did you-how do you know about that?"

"I overheard you and Ross talking earlier and after you left, Ross told me."

"Oh.. He forgot to mention that." Chandler met Monica'squestioningeyes. "No, Kathy and I don't have a kid together."

Monica couldn't hide her enthusiasm. She smiled and hugged Chandler briefly, glad about the news. He noticed how much it had really worried her.

"Anymore."

"What?"

"She.. She told me she had an abortion after we broke up."

Monica's smile faded as she stared at him. "Are you serious?" she whispered. Chandler nodded. "Really?" Monica asked in disbelief.

"Really."

"I'm so sorry, Chandler", she said then and hugged him again, longer this time.

"It's been like three years, it's not like I wanted to have a kid back then.."

"Yeah but oh my God", Monica cut him off and pulled back from the hug. "She told you today?"

"She did."

"She didn't tell you before?"

"No."

"I can't believe this", Monica said and shook her head. "She should've told you."

"Yeah, people keep saying that", Chandler muttered. Monica was glad Chandler wasn't the father of Kathy's baby but the abortion was shocking news. She felt bad for him, he'd done nothing wrong and after three years he finds out something like this. "But I don't wanna talk about it now", Chandler said.

"Really? Are you okay?" Monica asked.

"Yeah, yeah, sure. There's nothing I can do about it", Chandler said and put his hand on her belly, "but what we need to talk about is this guy over here."

Monica gave him a warm smile. "I think he'd like some attention."

"He?"

"Or she, I don't know", Monica said quickly.

Chandler studied her face for a moment. "You want it to be a boy, don't you?"

"What? No, that's ridiculous", Monica laughed. Chandler gave her a look. "Okay, just a little", Monica admitted. "But it doesn't matter! I just have this weird feeling it's a boy. And besides, you said our first kid would be a boy, too."

"I don't think we can choose that."

"No pressure", Monica said. She smiled at him and shifted slightly in her seat. "Do you think we could.. work things out some time?"

"I don't know.. It partly depends what will happen, I guess", Chandler said and glanced down at her stomach again.

"You know we can't be together just because of the baby, right? I know it was hard when your parents split up and all, but we should have another reason to stay together. I know I have, do you?"

"You know I do. I mean I still can't trust you and stuff but.. maybe it'll fade away in time or something. We could try."

"You think?" Monica asked quietly, looking at him in the eyes.

"If you let me share the bed with you again."

"Anytime", Monica grinned happily.

"Oh boy.. I guess I have no choice but say yes, then", Chandler said. Monica gave him a confused look. "Answer to your fifth question", he clarified.

Monica remembered her fifth question very well: 'Is there any hope of us being together in the future?' She smiled at him again. "I love you", she said.

Chandler glanced at Monica's blue eyes which he loved, and his mind told him to get over all the crap he was making up inside his head. The fact was, he didn't belong sleeping on the couch, definitely not alone. He needed Monica. Opening up had made him feel so much better, and he wanted back all the happiness they'd used to have. He leaned in and pressed his lips again hers. He kissed Monica softly,longingly and felt her responding in a very familiar way he'd missed.

Moments later Chandler pulled back, and swallowed thickly. "I still don't have the answer to the fourth one", he said.

"Oh well.. It's notreallythaturgentanyway", Monica said and started leaning in again, but stopped. "You're not drunk this time, are you?" she asked. Chandler smirked and shook his head before she kissed him eagerly.

In that moment for both of them, it clearly seemed like there was hope left. Lots of it.


So the question is, will these nice things last?

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