TOOTHLESS

HAROLD POV

As far as we can remember, we've always been allied - Dragons and humans. Fighting the evil together, as one. Rare are those who have the chance to bond with his soul mate, because of the weak probability. Too many humans for so few dragons.

The population has quickly begun to idolize the ones that were picked by the creatures. They were heroes - superheroes. A few, with their new powers, became good but and most of the chosen fell into the dark side of the role. They have let the thirst for power or revenge, or both, invade them. Suddenly, the specials found themselves separated into two sides - the good and evil. The fights have soon raised and they were already trying to kill each other.

Being a dragon rider is kind of difficult, even more so when you refuse to be it. Apparently, when a dragon and a human transform to be only one, the feeling is impossible to describe. It's like your heart was saying, "There you are! I've been searching for you everywhere!". I've never united with Toothless, and I think he doesn't like that. His eyes say that it's what he wants the most for now. I mean, it's not that I am scared, but I don't want to be a hero, or be related to this title. After all, I'm just Hiccup the Useless, hated and bullied for who I am.

When the Night Fury and I have made the bond, we've been given many new abilities. I can talk with Toothless in my head and have a conversation even if there were miles and miles between us. I don't think the others riders can do that, but it doesn't really matter. I also have gained a speed and a strength that took me days to control - luckily, our get together happened in the middle of summer two years ago.

I know this look, says Toothless, making me startle. You are lost in your thoughts.

Well, isn't it good? I ask, half-joking.

Sometimes, it's dangerous. I shoot a glare at him, but he ignores it. Look what happened when you tried to put on my old tailfin while I was eating! Reckless one-legged Viking, huh!Suddenly, he notices my bad mood and stops his teasing. What were you thinking about?

I shrug and turn to the left, facing the lake. I don't even know how to talk about it to Toothless. After all, the fact that I am almost rejecting our bond, in a way, is painful for him, I see it in his eyes. I know he wants so bad to unite with me, I know it so well, but… I'm starting to repeat myself.

I decide to say the truth.

I was thinking about us. The transforming thing and our bond.

The eyes of my best friend become full of sadness and pain. I suddenly regret my decision, but Toothless look away, clearly disillusioned. I'm sorry, bud. I've managed to make you sad and disappointed, like everyone else in this freaking town... All those words won't come out, so I stay silence.

I don't want to admit it, but the expression on his face hurt me way more than any Snotlout's fist. My chest tightens and my eyes feel like burning. I realize that I'm crying when I touch my face. My tears roll down my cheeks and my throat hangs. I finally walk away, not wanting Toothless to see me that weak.

I'll be back tomorrow.

Hiccup?

I ignore his worried tone and exit Raven Point. I shouldn't have come with my mood, I wasted my best friend's time and a lot of tears.


I am still crying when I reach my house. Why am I so upset? I guess that what Toothless think of me really matters to me. I don't want to concede that I am offended and injured in my ego. I didn't know I have an ego again after all these years of bullying and mental harassment.

I push open the door of the mansion and stare at the empty entrance hall. It is so silent that I already know that my father isn't home. He would often sleep here but most of the time, he would just not come back – without even telling me where he is. It can take weeks before I see him again.

I notice a piece a paper on the counter of the kitchen. "I have an appointment in California, I won't be present for the next three weeks. – Stoick." Absent almost one month for a rendezvous? Yeah, right! He really does think I'm stupid. He didn't even excuse himself... and didn't do the groceries, obviously, as I open the door of the fridge.

I don't want to go to Gobber's because right now I just want to curl up in a ball and cry to sleep. I wince at the thought that I am way too emotional when it concerns my best friend.

My feet seem to weigh as much as anvils when I start climbing the stairs. I don't want to sleep, or eat, or just... think. I don't even know what to do. It's like I am too weak emotionally to do whatsoever.

So, I just drop myself on my bed and stare at the roof.

Finally, my eyes start to tear up for the second time of the day and a sob come out of my throat. Gods I am so pathetic. I face the wall and try to stop my sobbing, but I just couldn't. It is the very first time that I'm crying like that. I remember all the things that Snotlout has said to me since I am a little boy. Lame, pathetic, alone, nerd, asocial, weak, ugly, scrawny...

It's not my fault. My father hates me and doesn't buy me food. Everyone keeps pushing me down like I am a piece of garbage that won't go in the trash. I lost my leg because I was so... stupid. And because of me, my best friend can't fly without me...

I turn on the other side. An idea just hit me.

Maybe if Toothless could fly on his own, maybe he would like me again? That he wouldn't be disappointed in me anymore?

He might leave me...

If I was him... I would. If everyone thinks that I'm lame, maybe it's the truth?

What should I do?! I feel so lonely... I wish my mom was there, by my side.

Suddenly, I stand up and slap myself.

"Come on! Don't let those thoughts push you down! Enough of it!"

I should've let myself break that way. I will just go see Toothless tomorrow and ask for my forgiveness. And keep ignoring Snotlout and my bullies, because it's the best that I can do.

I'm a forgiving person.

It's in my nature to forgive, whatever I like or not.


Yay! It was so hard to write it because even though Hiccup is just an imaginary character, I have some tendencies to see myself in him. ^^'

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