I DO NOT OWN DEATH NOTE!
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Chapter 23 – Fear and Joy
It was dark. So dark he couldn't see his hand in front of his face. He felt panic welling up in his chest. He listened, but he couldn't here a thing. He tried to sit up but his stomach protested the movement and he bit back a scream. His panic was climbing higher. He couldn't hear anything. Shouldn't he be able to hear the machines? Shouldn't there he the light out in the hallway illuminating the room? And where was Mello?
Near whimpered softly as he reached out and felt the bed next to him. His eyes filled with tears when he felt nothing but empty sheets. Where was he? Why was he alone? Where were the lights and the sounds he had grown used to in the hospital? His breathing started coming hard and fast. The pain was coming back. He could feel the burning ache spreading through his stomach and up his broken arm. Where was the nurse with the pain killers? She always came at the right time. Just when the pain was starting to come back.
He reached to the side of the bed, feeling for the railing where the call button for the nurse was. But his hand met nothing but empty air. What was going on? He started to cry in earnest as he laid there for what seemed like forever. The pain was getting worse. It hurt so much. It was getting hard to breathe as the panic took a firm hold on him.
Mello jumped when he heard a blood-freezing scream rip the air. He tore open the shower curtain and almost fell when his feet slipped on the tile floor. He flung open the door and was on the bed before he could blink. Near was covered in sweat and screamed again when Mello pulled him into his arms.
"Shhh. I've got you, Near. It's alright." Mello rocked the shivering boy and held him tightly against his wet body. "It's okay. I've got you. You're safe. Slow your breathing for me now, okay?"
Near whimpered softly and turned his head until his face was pressed against Mello's chest. "Why is it so dark? Why is it so quiet?"
"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have closed the bathroom door." Mello looked over when he heard the lock click on the door and it was pushed open to hit the wall. "Close the door." Mello glared at Roger as he did as Mello said.
"What happened? I was at the other end of the hall and heard the screaming." Roger approached the bed at frowned at the boys. "Why are you nude, Mello?"
Mello shot Roger a nasty look before turning back to Near and stroking his hair gently. "I was in the shower." He closed his eyes and shook his head. "I shouldn't have done that while he was asleep."
"Where are we?" Near had calmed enough that he could now look around the room in the pale light that filtered into the room from the open bathroom door.
"In my room. At home. I'm so sorry I left you alone, Near. I just wanted a shower. I swear it wont happen again."
"Home?" Near blinked his eyes clear and looked around the room again. Now that he could see, he remembered that he had come home. He had fallen asleep in Mello's arms in the room they were now sharing. Near's eyes fell on the table where they had eaten lunch and he felt himself blush remembering what they had done in that chair. He turned his eyes away from the table and looked up at Mello. He frowned when water dripped onto his face from Mello's hair. "Why are you wet?"
"I was in the shower."
"Oh." He relaxed completely now and closed his eyes for a moment. "I need my pills. I hurt really bad right now, Mello."
"I'll get them." Roger picked up the pill bottles from the table and Mello couldn't help but laugh at the look of confusion on his face.
"I color coded the lids. He needs one of the green pills. It's the big pain killer."
"No. Those make me sleep. I don't want to sleep again right now."
"Okay." Mello tightened his hold on Near when he began to shiver again. "Okay. One of the blue ones then. The smaller pain killer." Mello glanced at the clock and looked up at Roger. "One of the yellow and one of the red as well."
"Which are those?" Near looked over at Roger and caught sight of a lot of bare Mello. His face flamed and he tried to sit up, only to be pulled back against Mello when he sucked in a sharp breath.
"Don't move just yet. The yellow one is the antibiotic and the red is the mild muscle relaxing pill."
"You're naked, Mello."
Mello's lips twitched as he pressed them to Near's forehead. "Yes. I just said I was in the shower. I didn't exactly take the time to grab a towel when I heard you scream."
"Oh." Near hunched down in Mello's arms and tried to ignore the fact that his back was pressed against all that bare skin.
"Here you go, Near." Roger handed the boy three pills and a glass of water.
"Thank you." Near put the pills in his mouth and swallowed them all at once with a mouthful of water.
"Everything alright now?" When Mello and Near nodded, Roger shook his head at them and walked to the door. "Put some clothes on, Mello. I will check on you two again later. Would you like me to bring you dinner?"
"What time is it?" Near tried to see the clock but the nightstand was blocked by Mello's bare chest.
"It's almost 8. I came to ask you if you wanted dinner around 6 but you both were asleep and I didn't want to wake you. Would you like dinner now?"
"I cant eat right now. Not until the pain is gone. But after that I should eat."
Roger nodded and put his hands in his pockets. "In an hour then. I'll bring you dinner. I'll leave you alone now. Put some clothes on, Mello." Roger left and Mello heard the lock turn.
"You okay now? I'm so sorry, Near. I shouldn't have taken a shower until you were awake. I should have been here when you woke up." Mello put his forehead against Near's shoulder and pulled him closer. "I'm so sorry."
"It was so dark. I couldn't find you."
Mello's heart clenched at the broken sound of Near's voice. "I'm so sorry."
"Don't leave me again, okay? If you need to use the bathroom or take a shower, wake me up first. Or leave the door open so I can see the light. Don't leave me alone in the dark again."
"I wont. I swear it." He kissed the side of Near's neck and ran his hands up and down the boys arms. "You have no idea how much it scared me to hear you scream like that."
"Probably about as much as waking up alone in the dark scared me." Near shivered as Mello moved his hands from his arms to stroke his chest. He moaned softly and left his head fall back against Mello's chest. "That feels good."
"Does it?" Mello nipped lightly at the boys neck and started to unbutton his shirt. "You're all sweaty. We should get you into some clean clothes."
"Can I have a shower?" He hissed as Mello's fingers brushed one of his nipples.
"Yes. The hospital sent us home with a special chair for the shower. So you don't have to stand. Want me to carry you in there?" He trailed his fingers carefully over the bandages wrapped around Near's middle and played with the waistband of his pants.
"Not just yet." Near lifted his hips slightly when Mello's fingers brushed against his erection. "Don't stop touching me yet."
"Didn't we just do this a few hours ago?"
"I don't care. I want more." He moaned loudly when Mello gripped him through his pants. "More."
Mello grinned and slipped out from behind Near, laying him on his back again. "Want to try something new?"
Near frowned. "Not really. I want your mouth on me again."
Mello put his knees on either side of Near's hips and leaned over him, careful to keep his weight off the boy. "Are you sure?" Mello pressed his lips to Near's at the same time he ground his ass against Near's crotch. Near sucked in a breath and shuddered at the sensation.
"What are you suggesting?"
"There's one thing we haven't done yet. We have touched each other, sucked each other. I have been inside of you." Mello kissed down Near's neck until he could flick his tongue over his right nipple. "But you haven't been inside of me."
Near's eyes went wide as he watched Mello start to work his pants off of his hips. "I hadn't thought about that."
"Do you want to try it?" Mello moved off of Near so that he could pull his pants off and tossed them to the floor. He picked up one of Near's legs and started kissing and licking the inside of his thigh.
"I cant think with you doing that." Mello stopped and put his leg back down. Near took a deep breath and looked at him. The blonde was hard, standing straight up against his belly. "Is that something you would want?"
Mello smiled and leaned over him again to kiss him softly. "I'll give you anything you want. Do you want to try it?"
Near swallowed hard and looked down between their bodies. What he really wanted was to feel Mello inside of him again. But he knew they couldn't do that until he was healed. He looked up into Mello's eyes and smiled softly. "Yes. But I cant. I cant move very well right now, Mello. It wouldn't be a good idea to try."
Mello laughed and kissed Near hard. "Silly boy. You don't have to move. Just lay there. I'll do the work." He kissed Near again and pulled open his nightstand for his bottle of lotion. He sat up again and put a good amount of lotion on his hand. "Watch."
Near watched. He felt himself grow even harder and Mello reached between his own legs and pushed two fingers inside of himself. Mello groaned and shivered with pleasure. "Do this often?"
Mello nodded. "Just my fingers. It feels good." He moaned and added a third finger.
"Nothing but your fingers?"
"Just my fingers." Mello opened his eyes and looked down at Near. "Did you think I had done this before with someone else?" When Near blushed, he smiled. "You're my first any my only, Near."
Near smiled. "Can I do that?"
"What?"
Blushing, Near looked away and bit his lip. "With my fingers."
Mello pulled his fingers out and took Near's hand. He put some lotion in his hand and spread it over the boys fingers before moving his hand between his legs. "Go ahead."
Near ran the tips of his fingers between Mello's legs, feeling the tight hole. He pressed gently and the tips of three fingers pushed into Mello's body. Mello moaned and rocked his hips forward, making Near's fingers slide further into him. "You're hot inside."
"Mhmm. That's normal. You feel the same." Mello moaned loudly when Near hooked his fingers and brushed against his prostate. "Do that again." Near complied and Mello's body convulsed around his fingers. "Okay. Enough. Any more and I'm going to cum."
Near pulled his fingers out and took his own erection into his hand. "Now what?"
"You just lay there. I'll do everything." He pulled Near's hand away and took the hard shaft into his hand. He shifted his hips until the head of his shaft was pressed against his opening. "Try not to thrust, okay? I don't want you to hurt yourself."
"I'll try." Near sucked in a breath and groaned as Mello started to lower himself down onto him. "You're so tight."
"Shh. Let me get all the way down." Mello bit the inside of his cheek as he continued to slowly work himself onto Near. It hurt more then he thought it would. Near wasn't that long, maybe 4 ½ inches, but he was thick, thicker then three of his own fingers anyways, which was as much as he had put inside himself before. He moaned loudly when his hips finally settled against Near's. He rocked his hips slightly and Near moaned and shivered, grabbing his hips in his hands and digging his fingers in. "Am I hurting you?"
Near shook his head. "No. You're just really tight. It feels really good." He gasped when Mello rocked against him again. "I don't think I'm going to last very long. You feel to good."
Mello smiled and raised himself up a couple inches and eased back down. "Oh, God. This feels incredible." And it did. Now that he was getting used to it, it was the best thing he had ever felt. Even better then being inside Near. "I wont last long either."
Near nodded and watched as his cock disappeared into Mello again. He could feel himself getting really close. "I'm almost there, Mello."
"Me, too." Mello started moving faster. "Cum for me, Near." Near moaned loudly and his fingers dug harshly into Mello's hips. His hips bucked and Mello felt his insides filled with a sudden warmth. The feeling drove him over the edge and he pumped his cock in his hand as he rocked his hips against Near's and came hard. He groaned and put his hands on the bed before he fell on Near. "Oh, God, Near. That felt so good."
Near could only nod. He groaned as Mello slid off of him and laid on the bed next to him, putting his head on his shoulder. "That was amazing."
"Yeah." Mello looked up and touched Near's face until he look down at him. "I really enjoyed that. Did you?"
"Yes. I really did. Can we do it again sometime?"
Mello smiled. "Anytime you want." Mello kissed Near and sat up to look down at him. "Did you like it better then me being inside of you?"
Near blushed and looked away. "Why do you want to know? Once I'm better you can be inside of me again. I like that, too."
"I want to know, Near. I love you. Please tell me."
Near's blushed deepened. "Yes. I liked it better. I didn't think anything could feel as good as you being inside of me, but I was wrong. I want to do both with you, though."
Mello turned Near's face to him and kissed him again. "I'm glad. I liked that better, too."
Near's eyes widened. "You did?"
"Yes. I did. Something about you being inside of me." Mello shivered and put his head on Near's shoulder, pressing his face against the soft skin of his neck. "It turns me on like nothing else ever had before."
Near smiled and ran his fingers through Mello's drying hair. "You liked it that much? Well then, you can have it anytime you want it."
Mello chuckled and sat up again. "I'll take you up on that offer later. Right now, we need a shower before Roger gets back with dinner."
