A/N: Thanks for all the reviews, things should start to make sense in this chapter.
Supergirl no I am far past that stage - I remember watching the Helen Slater Supergirl when it was first released.
"How's Alex?" Winn asked as J'onn approached him.
"In surgery. Where's Kara?"
"She isn't in the observation room?" Winn asked surprised.
"No."
"What about the training room?"
"No. I tried there. I haven't seen her since I brought Alex in. I assumed once she had recovered from the Kryptonite she followed us back."
"I've not seen her." Winn said, but on seeing J'onn's threatening expression he added. "But I can try to find her."
"Hurry Mr Schott, if she isn't here, she is out there, and there is Kryptonite out there."
"She isn't answering her phone." Winn said as he typed. "But I can track it. She's at her apartment. Or at least her phone is."
"I'll go and get her." J'onn said. "Let me know the second there is news on Alex."
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"Kara, open up." J'onn said knocking on the door. Getting no response he phase shifted through the door only to find an empty apartment.
Frustrated he took out his phone and rang Winn.
"She's not here. Try again." J'onn said.
"Her phone is still at her apartment." Winn said confused.
"I know. I'm looking at it." J'onn said. "Find another way of finding her."
"Without her phone the only way I can track her is through radar contact, but I can only do that if she flies. Which she isn't doing at the moment." Winn explained.
"Damn it Kara, where are you?" J'onn asked looking round for a clue. After a minute he asked Winn. "Any news on Alex?"
"Still in surgery." Winn said.
"Okay, I'm going to get Eliza. You need to keep searching for Kara. You have authorisation to send a team to get her once you have found her. And Mr Schott, I want you to detect and track any Kryptonite that shows up. If we can't find Kara at least we can find the threat."
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"Kara? What are you doing here? You're drenched." Lena said as she returned to her office and saw her friend, soaked from the storm outside, standing by her assistant's desk.
"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have come. I'll go." Kara said as Lena threw a questioning glance to Jess only to get an equally confused look back.
"Nonsense, why don't we go into my office?" Lena said trying to usher Kara away from the foyer of her office. "Jess, could you bring in some coffee and see if they have any blankets downstairs?"
"Yes Ms Luthor." Jess said standing and hurrying off.
"Why don't you sit down?" Lena said directing her to the couch.
"No." Kara said suddenly becoming aware of how soaked she was. "I'd ruin it. I should go. I shouldn't have come. I'm not sure why I did come. I can't ruin your life as well. I'll go."
"Kara, you are starting to worry me. Please sit down. It is only furniture and it is going to get replaced soon anyway. Sit please." Lena said.
When Kara eventually sat Lena watched as her friend nervously played with her hands, seemingly oblivious to the fact that anyone else was there. Not entirely sure what to do Lena gave Kara space and waited for her to speak. Just as she thought the silence had been going on too long the office door opened and Jess walked in carrying some blankets and coffee. Silently Lena directed Jess to put the items down on the coffee table before silently thanking and dismissing her. She then picked up one of the blankets and unfolded it before wrapping it around Kara's shoulders. The sudden contact seemingly snapping Kara out of her trance.
"Lena?" She asked.
"I'm right here." Lena assured her as she sat next to her friend. "Are you hurt?"
"No. Just like always I'm fine." Kara said bitterly.
"Where have you been to get so wet?" Lena asked.
"I don't know. I needed to think. It must have rained." Kara explained.
"How long were you out there?"
"I don't know...since Alex."
"What happened?" Lena asked reaching over and squeezing Kara's hand.
"I screwed up again. My sister got shot. I failed her."
"Is she okay?" Lena asked eyes wide.
"I don't know."
"Why aren't you at the hospital?"
"No one wants me there. It's my fault. They all told me to get away from her."
"I'm sure they didn't mean that." Lena offered confused by the statement.
"If they didn't they should. I've ruined her life."
"Kara, I don't know what you think you've done, but I am pretty certain you haven't ruined anyone's life. You are a good person, you bring hope not misery."
"You're wrong." Kara said suddenly standing before she started to pace. "Alex's life would have been so much better if I hadn't shown up. And now she's been shot because of me. I'm the one who is b- … she shouldn't have done it. I don't understand. Why would she do it, especially after all that I have cost her."
"Kara come and sit down." Lena said trying to guide Kara back to the couch. Having herded her back she said. "I can't follow half of what you're saying but clearly something bad has happened to your sister and I know things seem bad right now, but it will get better. Do you want me to take you to the hospital?"
"I can't go. They don't want me there."
"Do you want me to call the hospital and find out how your sister is doing?"
"She's not in a hospital, it's a government facility." Kara said as she stared at her hands.
"Why don't you ring that facility?" Lena suggested.
"I don't have my phone. I didn't want to be found so I left it."
"You can use mine." Lena offered handing over her cell phone. "Why don't you call and I'll find some food? I'll be right back."
Once Lena had gone Kara stared at the phone in her hand. Slowly she started to type in Winn's number when she started to doubt herself. It was clear no one wanted her at the DEO and during the Narth visions she had seen first hand how good everyone's life was without her. Feeling lost she lay down and stared at the phone. She was desperate to know if Alex was going to be okay, but she refused to get in the way.
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"Director, oh hey Eliza." Winn greeted as J'onn escorted Eliza through the DEO.
"Where's Alex?" J'onn immediately asked.
"Just been moved to the infirmary. Surgery was a success."
"Thank god." Eliza said shutting her eyes and offering a small prayer.
"I'll be back in a minute." J'onn said to Winn guessing that the IT technician needed to speak to him. He then placed a hand on Eliza's back and ushered her to the infirmary.
When Eliza stepped through the door and saw Alex she quickly rushed to her side. The sudden movement breaking Maggie out of her bedside trance.
"The doc said she would be fine. It, the bullet, missed everything important." Maggie said standing and backing away to give Eliza room.
As Eliza squeezed Alex's hand she nodded her thanks to Maggie before noticing someone was missing.
"Where's Kara?"
"She's gone missing." J'onn confessed, knowing there was no point in lying.
"What do you mean missing?" Eliza questioned momentarily glancing away from Alex.
"After Alex was shot Kara tried to help, but the bullet had Kryptonite in so we had to get her away from Alex. And then our focus was on Alex and Kara just flew off." J'onn said. "We know she went back to her apartment, where she left her phone, but we've not seen or heard from her since. But I promise I am looking."
"I put out a BOLO as well." Maggie said.
"Thank you, Maggie?" Eliza guessed.
"It's nothing." Maggie said as she nodded to confirm her identity. She then confessed. "And I think it may be my fault. I mean I was trying to look out for her and keep her away from the Kryptonite, but I'm not sure she was taking much in and then she just flew off. I thought it was to come back here, but obviously not."
"Kara does her own thing, especially when Alex is involved or when she is upset." J'onn said. "If you'll excuse me I need to check on things. You know where I am."
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"Tell me you've found her." J'onn said walking up to Winn.
"No. Not yet. But I have found the Narth."
"Send a team to retrieve it. Make sure full body armour is worn and no one touches it." J'onn ordered before giving Winn a couple of minutes to follow the instruction. Once he was done J'onn asked him.
"How are you doing with the Kryptonite?"
"I think the sensors are working, but the aren't showing anything yet." Winn said.
"Keep searching."
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"Ms Luthor?" Jess greeted when she approached her desk the following morning and saw her boss sitting at it typing away.
"Good morning Jess. Sorry I have hijacked your desk." She said shutting down her laptop.
"Is something wrong with your desk?" Jess asked.
"No. But Kara fell to sleep in my office last night and I didn't want to disturb her with my typing."
"Is she okay?" Jess asked.
"I really don't know." Lena said. "She wasn't making much sense."
"Would you like me to fetch some breakfast?" Jess offered.
"That would be lovely." Lena smiled. With that Jess disappeared again whilst Lena stood up deciding to check on Kara. Entering her office she looked to the couch only to find it, as well as the rest of the office, empty. Seeing a small white piece of paper on the coffee table Lena walked over to it and picked it up, reading the two words which said.
'I'm sorry.'
TBC...
A/N: Thanks for reading and reviewing.
