"Hey, you guys want me to come back later?" Maggie asked entering the infirmary before she realised both sisters were awake.

"No." Kara said quickly.

Looking to Alex for confirmation Maggie sat down before commenting. "I just had an interesting visitor at the precinct."

"Who?" Alex asked.

"Lena Luthor."

"Why? Is she okay?" Kara asked.

"She was worried about you. She thought you had gone missing."

"I should go and see her." Kara said standing.

"Not while there is Kryptonite out there." Alex said.

"I can't hide here forever. Plus I need to go to work. I actually like my job and really don't want to be fired."

"Kara it's not safe."

"Nothing is ever completely safe." Kara pointed out. "Besides Winn is monitoring for Kryptonite if he finds any I can come straight back here."

"Fine, but if you aren't back here in four hours I am coming to find you." Alex warned.

"Really don't need babysitting." Kara responded as she headed to the door.

"Before you go, there's something else." Maggie said still uncertain if she should bring it up.

"What?" Alex asked.

"Lena left a message for you that I think implies she knows that you are Supergirl." Maggie explained looking at Kara.

"What?" Alex asked wide eyes, before noticing Kara's expression causing her to ask. "You told her?"

"She's my friend." Kara said. "And I didn't tell her. She figured it by herself. Same as Maggie."

"Kara what if she isn't as good as you think?" Alex asked trying not to display any anger incase it spooked Kara into running.

"She is good. I trust her. And if she is bad why would she have persuaded me to stay in the city?" The question momentarily silencing Alex who eventually asked.

"Just be careful? Please."

"Always." Kara said before leaving.

"Kara having someone to talk to is a good thing." Maggie said after looking at Alex frown for a few minutes. "She had confided in Lena that she was thinking about leaving and Lena stopped her."

"Lena maybe a good person, for Kara's sake I hope she is. But Clark thought that about Lex." Alex said. "Kara is so fragile right now, what happens if Lena is like the rest of her family?"

"Perhaps you just need to trust Kara's judgement." Maggie said.

-00-

"Kara?" Lena asked when her friend was shown into her office. "I'm happy to see you, I was worried that you had left."

"Well apparently I can't even run away without screwing up." Kara said, frustration and bitterness in her voice.

"Well I'm very glad you are still around." Lena smiled.

"I'm sorry I disappeared."

"Well I'm just happy you are still here, but I'm also surprised." Lena confessed. "As much as I hoped you would stay you seemed pretty determined last time I saw you."

"I was ready to go. I had written letters to Alex, Eliza, J'onn and you." Kara said. "Then Alex showed up on my doorstep and blackmailed me into staying. She basically said if I disappear she'll leave the infirmary again and hunt me down. So now if I leave I'll still ruin her life. I need her to understand I need to leave and she needs me to leave."

"Where would you have gone?" Lena asked.

"I don't know. I considered going to see Barry."

"Barry?"

"A friend from another Earth. He's a metahuman and he's been a hero for longer than me, but he's gone through a lot of what I have and offers really good advice."

"Sorry did you say another Earth?" Lena asked confused.

"Yes."

"As in multiverse?"

"Yes."

"And you have friends on these other Earths?"

"Well technically only one of them." Kara said.

"You really do lead an exciting life." Lena smiled.

"Trust me I don't want it. All I have ever wanted was to be normal." Kara said sadly. "To fit in, feel like I belong."

"And you don't?" Lena guessed.

"How can I? I'm an alien. I can never truly fit in. I will always be different."

"Does Alex make you feel different?" Lena asked.

"Alex has been the one constant thing in my life since I arrived on Earth. She has always been there for me and because she has always known the truth about me I've been able to talk to her and share things with her that I couldn't with anyone else. I was so concerned with fitting in and wanting to be normal I never considered that Alex might not feel normal, that she might need someone to talk to. So I shared, she listened. She shut part of herself off and kept it hidden. She must have felt so alone all those years. Now she's happy. She has Maggie and there's this light about her and I don't want to ruin that, but I miss her as well and part of me wants it to go back to how it was and I hate feeling that. Alex's whole life was ruined because of me and I know that, but I still have these selfish thoughts."

"Everyone has those type of thoughts. It is called being human. Clearly you have spent too much time around us." Lena smiled.

"But I am meant to be better than that." Kara said.

"I know it isn't the same and I can never replace Alex, but I am always here for you. And you don't have to hide anything from me. Plus I am pretty confident that there is nothing that you could say that would shock me or lessen my opinion of you."

"I wish that were true." Kara said. "But I have a dark, selfish side."

"Kara, do you really know anyone who deep down is actually one hundred percent good?" Lena asked. "Take Alex, has she really never, even unintentionally, hurt you or lied to you?" She probed causing Kara to remember her first encounter with the DEO as well as the death of Astra. Seeing the pain cross her face Lena quickly apologised. "I'm sorry I didn't mean to open up old wounds. But my point is we all have the capacity for good and bad. We all experience good and bad thoughts and we all do good and bad things. But if the good outweighs the bad then that's good enough."

"I've been bad. I was exposed to a chemical it stripped away my inhibitions I became so mean and selfish and scary."

"I remember the news reports." Lena said struggling to keep up with Kara's rapid changes of conversation direction.

"They didn't cover half if what I did." Kara said sadly. "The whole thing scared me so much. Up until then I never really believed that I could be that type of person. Then all of a sudden I was. I don't want to be that person again, but now I know that all those thoughts are there simmering away, when I act on any of them, it ..."

"Scares you?" Lena finished for her. When Kara nodded Lena said. "I actually know exactly how you feel. When Lex went mad I couldn't stand losing him. I knew the fault was his, but deep down I hoped and prayed that your cousin was to blame. I actually considered joining Lex's crusade, not because I believed in his cause, but I wanted to believe in him."

"But you didn't." Kara said.

"No I didn't, because I knew it was wrong but that didn't mean I didn't think about it."

"I had a run in with a telepathic creature." Kara said, seemingly jumping topics again. "It made me have visions. Some of them were what life would have been like if I had never come to Earth. Alex was happy and had a dad. Fort Rozz never made it down here. Life was peaceful. But then I had other visions as well, where I did come to Earth, they were in the future showing how I would effect everyone and in the visions...I caused pain."

"You lost control?"

"Big time. I used my powers for bad. I hurt people."

"Kara, it was just a vision. The fact the vision scares you so much proves that you are good person. We all have inner demons. You can't get rid of them. All any of us can do is suppress them."

"What happens if I can't. What happens if I get exposed again or wake up one day in a bad mood and rampage through the city? Why are you laughing?"

"I'm sorry." Lena quickly apologised. "I'm not laughing at you. It's just when I imagine you in a bad mood I picture you dishing out some not so cutting, but extremely polite, insults before walking off. Not rampaging through the streets. Despite what inner demons you have buried away you are just too nice for rampages and something tells me you have learned how to control your anger."

"You don't know that."

"Yes I do. I met Cat Grant and I am sure at times she made your blood boil. I am sure some of the aliens and Generals you have contended with have raised your blood pressure, but you have never rampaged."

"I've really felt like it."

"But you stopped yourself." Lena pointed out. "Every day we all have to fight those dark urges. The trick is accepting that those feelings are temporary. At the end of the day you are good and you do good."

"Yet here I am doing to you what I did to Alex. I am so selfish. I mean, your mother is in jail and I am just sitting here complaining about my own problems."

"Kara, you are suffering. Your life is in turmoil and your sister is in the hospital. You should be the focus of the conversation. And I know that when the time comes and I need you, you'll be there for me." Lena said as Kara's phone rang.

"Sorry I have to take this." Kara apologised before answering.

"What is it Winn?…..Where?…...I'm on it." She said before hanging up and looking back at Lena.

"Sorry I have to go."

TBC...


A/N: Thanks for reading and reviewing.