I couldn't contain my laughter after seeing Alice rush in and devoir her food. Oz and Gil did just about the same thing. Looking around I noticed Break looking in through the door way. He was wearing Liam's coat instantly I assumed something had happened and got up rushing to him. He looked no worse for wear until I noticed something smudged on his chin. Blood perhaps? Grabbing his arm I silently pulled him to his room.
"What happened?" I asked.
"What are you talking about we went to go meet Duke Barma and that's it Charity-Chan." He said over happily.
"Then why is there blood smudged on your chin?" I ask my face filled with worry.
I do not get an answer in fact I receive nothing but him staring at me. This angers me and confuses me, ever since that night when we kissed I have been worried about him and more drawn to him, but he on the other hand has started to distant himself from me. He rarely pops up in my room to wake me, he no longer teases me, and Emily's verbal assaults towards me have ended as well. I do not know why he is choosing to close himself off from me but I know it had to do with that night. After holding in the questions that I have been wanting to ask him for over 2 months I finally let it out. I ask him why is he avoiding me? Why do you no longer pay me surprise visits? Have I done something wrong? That and many more questions flow out of my mouth until finally he covers my mouth with his hand only to pull it away due to the fact of shock that he had felt my tears poor on to his hand.
"Charity-Chan…" Was all he could manage.
"Tell me what I have done wrong so I can fix it." I say weeping.
"You've done nothing wrong it's me that has done wrong." He says sighing.
"What are you talking about?" I ask.
"…I shouldn't have kissed you…" He stated.
Just like that I feel my heart constrict and break into a million pieces. I felt like I was used as if everything was just a game to him. I don't know why I took his words so much to heart. More tears poor out and a sob escapes my lips making him flinch slightly. Just when he is about to say something else I turn my back and leave quickly wiping the tears away from my face. I do not want to have anyone see me cry. I refuse it. Going into my room I quickly get ready for bed hoping that sleep will come to me quickly; it doesn't. When morning arrives I feel as if I have been awake all through the night. Every part of me feels numb for the rest of morning. After being summoned by Sharon I learn that me, Oz, Gil, and Alice will be going out into town to eradicate an illegal contractor. Before I knew we were all ready and set off into town.
I had recently joined Pandora, true I had no chain to work with or use, but I had skill with knives and close range combat. When we got to town it was around sunset perfect time to go out and investigate. I had managed to convince the others to allow me to go on my own that way we could cover more ground. I walked aimlessly around town deep in thought. Break's sentence has forever seared it's self in my mind and each time it echoed in my head it felt like a knife was twisting and digging into my heart. I was suddenly snapped out of my thoughts by the sound of crying. Looking around I began to walk to the source it was a young girl. She was curled up against a wall in an ally way holding her head.
"What are you doing out here late at night? It's dangerous out here." I said putting a comforting hand on her shoulder.
"Yes…Yes it is dangerous." She said turning around her eyes glowing red.
Instantly I back away as she shifted into her true form. She looked like a doll crossed with a prey mantis. Instantly she began to spit green like liquid out of her mouth at me. Instinctively I dodged it and it was good that I did too, for the concrete was melting. I began to throw a ray of knives careful to not get to close. After a while I began to notice the knives were doing little to no damage. The shell of the bug was too thick and hard. I gasped in pain and surprise when I felt myself being pulled up by my ankle with its sharp pinchers dig into my skin and dangle me upside down. The more I struggled the tighter the grip on my ankle became making me whimper and scream. Moments later I was dropped and caught by none other than Oz. They had thankfully came to me rescue.
"Charity-San are you ok?" Oz asked as we watched Alice do her work.
Strangely enough I couldn't talk or move and my body felt as if it was on fire. I wanted to scream but when I opened my mouth the only thing that happened was me taking big gasps of air. Everything was spinning and black spots filled my vision and soon I was consumed by the darkness that came with it. It didn't last long though for I found myself in a bed and looking up at everyone barely conscious. The face I focused on the most was the one that held the red eye that was peering down at me with worry. I felt my lips move but I didn't quite understand or hear what I said. At this point it didn't matter I knew that the chain had poisoned me when it dug its way into my skin. I must have slipped out of consciousness again for i found myself rising out of my bed with the blare of candle light in my eyes. I felt movement on my bed and noticed a tired looking Break beside me.
"Done taking your nap are we?" He asked cheerfully.
"I guess." I said unsure if I was actually alive.
"You were poisoned by the chain, luckily we were able to extract the poison from it and make an antidote for it that worked successfully." Break said.
I looked at Break with a mixture of curiosity and embarrassment for thinking back I now realized what I said. I had confessed my feeling to him. I had thought I was going to die and quickly blurted out my feelings as I was barely clinging to consciousness. I could tell he knew what I was thinking about for he was patiently waiting for me to say something. It never came I couldn't find words or a subject to speak of. Suddenly I felt myself being pushed back onto the mattress. My face instantly became red due to Break hovering over me.
"Charity-Chan." He said closing in on my face.
"Please don't…" I say turning my head away with tears welding up in my eyes.
Break suddenly looked taken aback by my plea as if he was confused. Why would he be confused? Unless…I had mistaken his real feelings, I did not consider that there might be an alternative motive as to why he said he shouldn't have kissed me until now.
"Why did you say what you said?" I asked tears still in the corner of my eyes.
"…Do you really want to know?" He asked after a moment of silence, a serious look on his face.
I nodded unsure of what he was going to do. I became more curious when he got off the bed and stood up in front of me. My face turned hot when he began to unbutton his shirt. I bit my lip containing my overreacting remarks. Removing his shirt my mouth dropped and my eyes widened in horror. He had an illegal contractors seal the worse of all it was complete. I was shocked into utter silence I looked at him and he looked back at me his face unreadable. I then began to realize why he said what he said. He thought if we got closer and I found out the truth I would be disgusted with him. He is a waiting for it, for me to turn him down. Instead I went over to him and with embarrassment and all my courage placed a kiss right directly on the seal making him tense.
"I'm not going to hate you for that." I said simply laying my head on his chest.
Slowly his arms wrapped around me pulling me into an embrace. I looked up at him a small smile on my face which was slowly returned, and at that moment I knew he would always be by my side.
