Prompt from DarkOne: how about an 'I Didn't Know I Was Pregnant' scenario. The child was conceived via rape/dub con on Snoke's orders as part of Kylo's training and he put it out of his mind. Either there are no signs of the pregnancy or the occasional vomitting and a little weight gain. Either way Kylo goes into labor during the Bridge scene which allows Han and Chewie to take Kylo back to the Falcon with everyone, except Chewie, unaware exactly what the problem is. (plus some other stuff in a later comment that I'm not including because I did sort of pick/choose my way through it).

So my brain sort of took this prompt and went its own direction with it (it's funny the stuff happening in the unwritten parts of the fill are more accurate to the prompt then the stuff actually shown within it). I think it's still loyal to the spirit of the prompt but still… sorry about that.

Also Leia sort of took over because my mind was like 'if he went into labour at the bridge it'd make better sense for him to give birth at the actual resistance base' and, then, well, Leia took over.

Oh, I've never been pregnant before (and have no intention of ever becoming pregnant) so I hope I described contractions right. I mean I did some googling and the response was a bit 'different for everyone and often different between contractions'.

Sorry the start of it is a bit more summary than fic but well, how many rewrites of the bridge scene penned by me do we all actually want?

His world is falling apart. Everything he has spent the last fifteen years working towards seems to be falling apart around him over the last week. At the start of the week he was sure he was about to obtain the map to his uncle and finally have the face off he truly deserved. Now he stands before his father unmasked and feeling like everything is tumbling down around him.

He's about to plunge his lightsaber into his father, about to end at least that horrible connection to his past and the light, when some part of his stomach knots up terribly. It's not a horrible pain, but a sharp one, like the feeling one gets after they eat off food. It's not unbearable or even that terrible but it is enough to distract him. Enough to distract him and his father takes the chance to pull the lightsaber from his grip.

"Ben you're coming home," Han says and the world must really be turning upside down because Kylo Ren feels drawn to listen to it. Feels drawn to agree with what his father wants him to do.

If doing everything right seems to be leading to everything falling to pieces maybe going home might give him the chance to fix everything and return to Snoke with success instead of the constant failures that seem to be accumulating. Might give him a chance to complete the goal he had at the start of the week even if not in the originally planned way.

His trip to the ship involves two more twists to his insides, but he pays them no mind. They're probably nothing. Probably just a physical reaction to all the stress of the past few days. A reaction to watching so many years work being undone in such a short amount of time.

It makes sense that it gets worse once he is on the Falcon. Gets worse as he gets further and further away from the Supreme Leader and closer and closer to his family. Maybe the Force was guiding him wrong in that moment, maybe it wasn't the Force at all but his weakness telling him to go with his father.

Chewbacca is annoyingly concerned about him. Constantly asking if he is feeling okay and advising him to settle down, to rest. He's worse after the twinges of pain, making sad noises as if he can sense that Kylo is suffering from something. Which he shouldn't be able to, because Ren has been schooling his features and while he isn't the best at it he can do a passable job (then again his uncle knew him as a child, perhaps his face will always be a book to his family).

With enough angry words and threatened violence (even without his lightsaber Kylo Ren is hardly without means of defending himself) the Wookie reluctantly leaves him alone.

He thinks that maybe if he comes up with a plan the pain will stop. If he knows what he is going to do once he gets to resistance and figure out how it will help him complete the Supreme Leader's wishes he will stop having a physical reaction to his anxiety. The punishment for making the wrong choice will go away once he finds the way to make the best use of it.

Instead he finds the pains grow both in level and frequency. By the time they reach the resistance base they have turned from sporadic ignorable aches to semi-regular sharp feelings that he cannot help but grimace and breathe through.

There is relief between them though and he hopes his inevitable march through the base is during one of those moments. He does not want to be seen by his enemies when he cannot help but flinch in pain. He wants them to fear him so when he inevitable figures out the true reason he has been led to them and he returns to his rightful side they will still feel terror when they face him.

His luck is not such and his insides burn when the ship touches down. It will pass eventually like all the others have so he just stays where he has hidden himself on the ship, far away from the other passengers and crew. He hopes it will go away before they come to find him.

His mother is the one to come get him. She finds him just as the pain takes a turn for the worst and he cannot help but curl around his stomach in response to it.

His mother calls his name (his birth name, the one he abandoned because of the weakness it represented) and moves so she can reach him. So she can come and help support him as the pain tears its way through his body and he cannot bite back a groan at it.

"Ben," she says, her hand coming to rest on his stomach. "Just breath. I know it hurts but you have to breathe through them."

How can she know it hurts? What shared experience could possibly be at the base of this? His pain is his body making physical the uncertainty he feels about his decisions. Every decision his mother ever made in life is one she had been sure of. She would never let her uncertainty blind her to a point where she gained a physical reaction to it.

The pain goes away as it did every other time and Ren prepares to regain himself. If the only person who saw him weak his mother he can live with it. She had been witness to his childhood and as such so much more of his weaknesses than he'd allow any other person to know about and live. One more before his victory over her was an acceptable insult to bear. Still, he does not want to make her believe the weakness is a trait he had continued in her absence. Wants her to know it was only a momentary lapse of control and strength. So he will remask himself into Kylo Ren (as much as he can without his actual mask) now he is able to. Apparently she has other plans.

"How close together are they?" she asks. Her hand not leaving his stomach where she seems to subconsciously rub her thumb in a comforting motion.

"How close together are what?"

"Your contractions." She says it as if it is simple and obvious. Like it is a truth they should both just know.

It is impossible. He cannot be having contractions because he isn't pregnant. He can become pregnant. He had known that since he was a child when his uncle accidently fell pregnant and it was decided that it was probably getter to get him tested so when he was older he would at least have warning if it was possible. He can get pregnant but he wasn't. Despite the fact he was completely capable of falling pregnant and every test available said there wasn't anything physically stopping him from falling pregnant he wasn't. Despite his many (Supreme Leader ordered) attempts at getting pregnant he wasn't. He isn't pregnant and therefore cannot be having contractions.

He tells his mother as such. Not about the attempts or the tests, just the fact that he is not pregnant and therefore cannot be having contractions. He puts his anger into the words, his anger at himself and the Force for leading him back to her and into the conversation. He puts his anger into his words and hides the fear that she might be right and the tests wrong.

She gives him a sad, knowing smile. One that even on her aged face is exactly the same as it had been when he was a child. "You can't feel it?"

"There is nothing to feel." He is not pregnant. If he is not pregnant he cannot be in labour. If he cannot be in labour he cannot be having contractions.

"There is," his mother says and she reaches up with one hand to grab one of his. He could overpower her, could pull his hand away and attack her. Could snap her neck and end it all now. Maybe that is the reason the Force led him here, to remove the Resistance's most competent leader.

He doesn't.

He lets her take his hand and place it on his stomach. Lets her rest her own hand over his.

She reaches for him with the Force and he almost cries just at that. The feeling of his mother is a nostalgic ache. One last felt when he was very young and nervous about being left to his uncle's care. An aching that makes him want to reach out and hold her and never let go. He hates his mother and what she stands for but he craves the feeling of her in the same way a child craves their bed the first night they sleep away from home.

She doesn't let it rest. Doesn't let him bask in her energy and the feeling of closeness that comes with it. Her presence moves and beckons him to follow. He does and finds it leads him to within his own body. Finds it leads him to his stomach and womb and the not quiet fully formed consciousness that rests within it.

She is right and the tests are wrong and going by the feeling of his body around the unborn consciousness he is in labour. He is in labour and the pains he has been feeling are not the Force cursing him or his body giving physical pain to the uncertainty within him but contractions.

He tears himself away but not fast enough. He feels the next set of contractions both inside and out. He feels his waters break and the child's panic at it.

He cannot help but reconnect to try and calm it but his mother pulls him away.

"It's a waste of energy," she tells him, trying to calm his rage at her actions. "They can't understand what is happening. As far as they are know the world is ending."

It takes a couple of seconds for the reality of it all to settle into him. He is pregnant. Had been for a while despite the lack of physical evidence and tests that said otherwise. He is pregnant and the Force had guided him back to his family for his labour. Guided him back either because he needs to be there or as punishment. He is not sure which.

He feels his legs collapse under him. Feels his mother catch him and hold him up. She was always much stronger then she looked.

The contraction and shock passes but he cannot rebuild the mask of Kylo Ren. There is still too much panic and uncertainty in him. Too much of him trying to desperately piece together what he knows and find out what path he is supposed to take. Too much of Ben Solo using the distraction to regrow the childhood weaknesses within him.

"Come on. We need to get you a medic." Skywalker's don't do childbirth well. He remembers his mother and uncle making that joke after his cousin was born and all evidence suggested that it was a truth. Maybe that is the reasons the Force guided him to go with his father. The First Order may not have fallen but Starkiller base had. There is no knowing where he would be if he had stayed there. Not knowing how many resources would survive. The resistance base is no specialised medical facility but its resources are better than nothing and his mother will ensure he will get anything he needs so long as it is obtainable.

It is better he suffer humiliation at the hands of his enemy then risk them both dying.

Fear is quick to take its chance at tugging at him. Takes what he knows and fuels its own flames. Whatever indicators the tests were looking for must not have been there. His body has not been acting pregnant despite being so. The child has somehow survived despite his body seemingly not responding to it until now. What other things will it fail to do?

For the moment Kylo Ren does not exist. Kylo Ren has been beaten out by Ben Solo. Ben Solo is scared and desperately needs someone to tell him that there is some likelihood of them both surviving.

Ben Solo would follow his mother anywhere if it meant obtaining that.