A/N: Everyone's reviews are great, love them all. Continued thanks for following, favoring, and taking time to write reviews. I appreciate all of it. Love all you guys, you're the best. Now to answer some concerns/comments from reviewers, we will get a glimpse of what Bo said to Lauren when she went back to Dyson. Also I will explain in this chapter why Bo did what she did. Like I originally said I feel like things on the show come way too easy for the succubus so in my stories I like to make her suffer a bit, lol. To the Guest reviewer and LostGirlz, I did find it necessary for Bo to go back to Dyson to realize there was nothing there (instead of those glances she always gives him on the show). The Guest reviewer who listens to songs while reading the chapters, all I have to say is you hit the emotions spot on with the songs you pick. With all that said there is still a long road ahead for Doccubus and CopDoc (again not saying who the doctor ends up with). Just enjoy the ride!
Bo stood still watching Lauren through the small window. The doctor finished looking at her own blood slide before adding it to a file of slides. The blonde also picked up the small tube of her blood putting a label on it and adding it to a stand of other blood tubes. Kenzi went to grab Bo's arm, "Let's get home." The brunette ignored her friend as she put her hand on the handle of the door to enter the lab. The little goth saw what she was doing, "I think this is a REALLY bad idea," her words faded as the succubus entered the lab. The small human threw her hands up in frustration as she followed after her bestie. If she couldn't stop her from entering the lab she would stop her from digging herself a bigger hole.
The doctor was holding the small case of blood tubes when she heard the succubus. "Lauren what's going on are you okay," the brunette spoke softly but it still surprised the blonde. The case cracked in her hands. The human looked down at all the broken blood tubes that were all splattered all over the arms of her lab coat. She turned around to look at Bo but didn't get to say anything as the succubus moved towards her grabbing Lauren's hand. The doctor looked down and saw the piece of glass tube sticking out of her palm. Great, wonder whose blood that was that is now sticking out of my hand. Bo's eyes widened a little "Are you alright," she asked again.
The blonde didn't even feel the glass piece in her palm. She pulled her hand out of Bo's as she went over to the medical sink pulling the glass out and cleaning the wound. The brunette was by her side. "I saw you," she never took her eyes off the blonde. Kenzi stood in the corner not wanting to interrupt but was there in case she had to. The doctor watched the blood ooze out of her palm. "Saw me what," she didn't face the brunette instead she was placing gauze on her palm as she wrapped her hand. Bo was trying not to let her slightly colder demeanor bother her. "Look at your blood under a microscope. Is everything alright," she didn't care if they weren't together she was in love with this human and she would do anything she could for her.
Lauren sighed before facing the brunette, "It was an experiment that's all and yes I'm fine." The scientist didn't tell Tamsin the full reason she made the injection she certainly wasn't going to tell Bo. "An experiment on yourself," she repeated the doctor's words a bit in disbelief. "Wait is this why you had Xena kind of strength in the room before. I felt it I couldn't keep my footing," realization was hitting the succubus from there encounter not that long ago. The blonde looked at her ex not realizing how close Bo was to her. She was standing only inches in front of her. "It's not really of your concern anymore," the doctor's voice returned to the softness it usually had.
The succubus couldn't stop herself she lifted her hand pushing Lauren's hair out of her face, "It's always going to be my concern." She couldn't believe she was so stupid that she let her go. This human was her heart she was her everything. Bo knew without the blonde there was nothing to her and now knowing that something was going on with Tamsin was more painful than any physical fight she had to endure.
Soft brown eyes were looking deeply into each other's. "I see more of you now that we aren't together. You can't do this Bo," Lauren stepped to the side moving away from her ex. The scientist couldn't help but wish she was this attentive when they were together and now that they aren't she decides to be all that she wasn't. Before the brunette had a chance to respond the blonde gazed over at her, "Do you just want whoever it is that you no longer have?"
Bo jolted her head back shocked at her ex's words. Her brows furrowed together, "What is that supposed to mean?" Kenzi pushed herself off the wall taking this as her cue to intervene. "Hey I think we have a client we are supposed to meet," her small friend said as she looked at her wrist where a watch should be but wasn't. The succubus ignored her as she headed back towards Lauren, "What is that supposed to mean?"
The blonde tilted her head to the side, "Do you need clarification on it? When you were with Dyson you wanted me, when you were with me you wanted Dyson and now you are with Dyson so I guess I'm up again. You want whoever you can't have and then complain that you no longer have it. Did you ever think to take some of that blame yourself?" The doctor didn't want to come across as cold but this brunette got into her head like no other person or fae could. It literally drove her crazy. Every time she thought she had her ex figured out she did something like this. When she thought Bo loved her and got into a relationship with her it wasn't long before she was questioning it. Now she wasn't with the brunette knowing who she truly loved yet here she was acting like Lauren was the love of her life. It was infuriating.
Her words verbally cut through the succubus. She knew that's how it would have appeared to someone observing it. Which explains why Kenzi felt the need to get Dyson's love back but that wasn't the case at all suddenly the expression not everything is as it appears to be made sense to the brunette. Technically she wanted Lauren first but was too afraid that she would kill the human. Dyson became her second and safe choice. When she realized she was able to be sexual with Lauren and not hurt her, the doctor was in the lead till she thought it was to impress the Ash. She did go back to Dyson but only to hurt the blonde the way Bo was hurt by her actions. When Dyson lost his love she just accepted it because deep down it didn't matter. Deep down she still had who she truly wanted and then there was Nadia. That was excruciatingly painful. It led her into the arms of that obnoxious dark fae Ryan. "You couldn't be more wrong about me. I thought you knew me better than that," there was an edge of anger to her voice. She should've said she was no longer with the shifter but no of course those weren't the words that came out. This human had the ability to hurt her more than any enemy.
Kenzi was still trying to get Bo's attention but the succubus continued to ignore her. When it came to the doctor the brunette was unable to focus on anything else. "I did too but it would appear I was wrong because the Bo I thought I knew wouldn't have done what she did to me," Lauren stated calmly. Bo hated that about her. Even when she was angry she didn't ever really scream like the time they fought and she told Bo being a doctor would appear to be easy to someone who didn't even graduate high school. "Yeah well we are even doc because the Lauren I knew would have never screwed Tamsin," the brunette's own anger was starting to get the best of her yet again.
The blonde put her one hand in her lab coat while she closed her eyes running the other hand through her hair in frustration. "It will keep coming back to that. It was the night you left. The night you chose Dyson over me, I went to the Dal and Tamsin saw me and that night is when it happened. I didn't go there with those intentions." Lauren decided to finally just tell her. Maybe now the succubus would let it go. She finally got the answer to the question she asked about three times or more. Bo's face hardened. The succubus was not prepared for that answer. That night! It was like three kicks to the gut. That night! Kenzi jumped in front of Bo seeing the blue eyes come back. Lauren gave a half smile, "That's right Bo that is the solution. You will never change."
The brunette was furious thinking about that night. She wanted to kick her own ass and that's why she was so angry. Bo should have known it was Lauren who had her heart. When she finally got the doctor after years of trying she screwed it up royally. She didn't want to hurt Lauren actually she did what she did for the opposite reason. In Bo's mind she wanted to ease the blonde's fears as well as her own. Since her and Dyson never did get a proper break-up there was always that small part of her mind, not her heart that thought about it. She knew the doctor always feared that she loved and wanted him more. Her blue eyes started to return to brown as the anger was melting replaced by sadness.
"Trying to show the doc what the word stalker means," Tamsin said as she walked into the lab. Bo glared over at her. The blonde fae was wearing a black sports bra with black stretch capris and sneakers. If that wasn't enough to get her blood pumping again she watched as the dark fae gently kissed the doctor taking her hand in hers turning it over to see how it was wrapped. "She bite you," the Valkyrie nodded towards the brunette. Her blue eyes were firmly in place at watching the way she kissed Lauren and seeing how she was holding her hand. Lauren glanced past the dark fae, "Bo just go we can talk when you calm down." The blonde fae turned her head making sure the succubus wasn't going to try anything.
Kenzi got in front of Bo putting her hands on her friends shoulders, "Dude come on let's head out of here," leaning closer to the succubus so only she could hear the goth she continued, "you're going to make this so much worse with one of your monster fits." Her words finally broke through to the brunette. Regaining her composure she stepped right next to Tamsin completely ignoring it, "Tonight? Can we talk tonight?"
Tamsin smirked, "Sorry doc is spoken for tonight." Lauren put her attention back on the dark fae, "Is that how you dress to work?" The human raised an eyebrow at seeing the sexy workout clothes the dark fae was wearing. "Jealous, it's cute on you. Actually I talked to your boss about training you how to fight. If you are going to be coming on cases there is a chance someone is going to try and kick our asses. I'll fight better if I'm not worried someone is knocking you out hence the training. Couple hours a day I get to kick that cute ass," the Valkyrie grinned at her knowing it was what she wanted and proving she listened. Lauren smiled she was surprised that a dark fae went to the leader of the light for her. "Bo tomorrow night I will call you," she answered the succubus not wanting to ignore her.
The brunette just nodded and left with Kenzi. "I want to break Tamsin's face," she said to her small human friend as they were leaving the compound. "I know you do Katniss Everdeen," Kenzi smiled at her. She felt bad for Bo. The goth couldn't begin to imagine what it felt like to know you found the love of your life only to let her slip through your fingers. And Dr. HotPants was so close but still so far away with a dark fae in the way.
LAB
Tamsin smirked, "She come in for her distemper shot," the Valkyrie teased. "You going to tell me what happened to your hand or do I have to start throwing out guesses?" The doctor was taking off her lab coat remembering it was covered in her blood and fae blood. "Bo startled me and I broke the blood specimens I was carrying over to the centrifuge." The dark fae pressed her lips together, "Yeah you lost me." The blonde human smiled at her pointing to the cylinder that spins the blood tubes. "I don't have clothes on that I can train in," Lauren said as she looked down at her outfit of black boots, fitted button down shirt and jeans. The blonde fae grinned, "Good thing your place isn't far from here doc."
DAL
Bo pulled her car into the parking lot Kenzi opened the door to get out till she noticed the brunette still sitting in the driver sit. The succubus started hitting the wheel of her car. Kenzi cringed, "Bumble Bee is very sorry if he upset you in anyway," she tried to make her friend smile using a Transformer reference. "You just going to sit there because I'm pretty sure it won't help get back the doc." Bo finally turned towards Kenzi, "Why you always hated her anyway," there was mean sarcasm in her voice. "One ouch and Two I was a complete ass who is trying to help get your lady back." She knew Bo was lashing out on her but she wasn't going to stand there and keep giving her an escape route. The goth closed the passenger door and headed inside the pub.
The brunette decided beating up her car wasn't going to help her in this situation and went into the Dal. Kenzi was already sitting at the bar talking to her grandfather. It didn't take a rocket scientist to figure out they were talking about her the way the Blood King eyed her when she walked in. "What, I know some kind of lecture is going to happen," the succubus figured it was best to get this out of the way first. Trick shook his head he was hoping after her Dawning she would learn to grow up. "Bo you attacked an employee of the light fae do you know what Hale could have done." The brunette didn't look at her grandfather when she spoke instead she kept her head down not wanting to relive one of her petty moments. "I didn't attack an employee of the light I attacked Tamsin the dark fae." Trick sighed he knew she didn't want to hear this, "Who is dating an employee of the light." Bo snapped to attention, "They are actually dating?" She thought it was a possibility but she also was hoping she was the only one who was thinking this and someone would tell her she was wrong.
"Honestly Bo I don't know I try not to pry in anyone's personal business. Lucky for me I have all of you to drag me into everything," her grandfather gave one of his subtle looks. "Can we go to your chambers and talk," the brunette wasn't asking since she was already heading down there. Trick smiled to himself this is what he was just saying being dragged into personal business. He looked at Kenzi, "Don't take the good stuff." She put her hands up as if she was saying who me.
Bo was sitting on his couch and the second he stepped in the room she started talking. "In my Dawning there was this weird thing where I was a cop and Lauren was my partner but I think she was Dyson. I said that I was in it for the long haul but she gave up her love so that had to be in reference to Dyson. Then I was married to Dyson who was a doctor and kept trying to give me medicine that was making me sick. What the hell does all that mean? I have been trying to wrap my head around it since then and honestly gramps it was one of the reasons I went back to Dyson." She was off his couch speed walking all around his chambers as she spoke rapidly.
Trick was trying to follow her with his eyes but felt like he was going to fall over. "Bo sit down you are walking in circles making my head spin. Let's start with something simpler, you're in love with Lauren so why did you go back to Dyson." The succubus frowned and plopped back into his couch, "That is not a simple question it comes in four parts. One because of Kenzi she risked her life for us and I mean literally risked it while all of you guys locked me up. Two the Dawning I felt like it was trying to tell me something that I wasn't getting. Three we never got to truly say good-bye and it made Lauren always question my feelings for her as well as for him. Honestly, I knew my heart belonged to her but there was a small part of my mind that didn't let Dyson go and I had to know why. Which turned out was just closure. And the last reason was for Dyson he has done so much for me that I felt like I owed it to him. Are they shitty reasons yeah I already got that so we can just move past it." She stood back up and was pacing around his chambers again Trick decided to just close his eyes and listen to her it would be easier. "It sucked too because the minute I went back to him I knew it. I felt it. Everything was different. I wasn't as happy as I thought I would be. Definitely not as happy as the Dawning made it seem like I would be. Then I thought if we were together sexually, sorry I know you didn't want to hear that, well I thought that would bring back the missing spark but it didn't." Again she stopped pacing sitting on the edge of the couch leaning her arms on her thighs putting her head in her hands, "The worst of it was I had to picture Lauren to get through it. Picture her touch and her kisses," Trick cut her off he certainly didn't want to hear the details of his granddaughter and the doctor.
He sat next to her on the couch putting his hand on hers. "Bo for once you did the right thing. You know there was a question in your mind about Dyson and instead of ignoring it you found out what it was. You were honest with Lauren and in turn it gave you the answer you needed. It is unfortunate that it may have cost you her but if you do get her back no one can ever question what Dyson means to you verses Lauren not even the doctor would need to worry. Now if you don't mind me asking what did you say to Lauren that night?" He knew it might be a personal question but to give his honest opinion on everything he would need to hear it all.
The brunette slumped her shoulders as she recalled that night. They got back from camp and Kenzi pointed out how she saw the Klingon before. Bo instantly knew Lauren was in danger. Her heart was thudding the whole time she floored it over to the doctor's. Walking in there seeing that stupid kid beating her up made the succubus furious. If Dyson didn't come in she would have killed him which made her feel even more indebted to find out if there was anything left. She remembered not wanting to talk to Lauren about it anymore after seeing her all beat up but the doctor insisted on it. Now she knew she just didn't want to say it at all it had nothing to do with the blonde's current physical condition. The succubus was using it as an excuse. "I told her at the Dawning Dyson told me he had his love back and I know she thinks that I love him but I don't think it is that. She already started crying and I went to comfort her and she pushed me away which hurt. I told her I never doubted my love for her or wanting to be with her but there was a part of me a very small part that couldn't wrap my head around the fact that Dyson and I never got to say good-bye. We didn't just end like a regular relationship and sometimes that confused things. I said it was probably nothing but I owed it to him, to me and to her to see if it was just closure or maybe a small tiny chance that it wasn't. I told her for all three of us I needed to know. She told me to get the hell out and stay the hell away from her. I left and went to Dyson. I was crying but not because I had him back but because I lost Lauren. I just didn't get what my heart and apparently all my friends knew, except Kenzi. Oh and that's the night Lauren slept with Tamsin I can tell she was mourning the loss of our relationship by celebrating," Bo knew she shouldn't have added that last sentence in but the thought of Lauren and Tamsin really made her blood boil.
Trick rubbed his forehead not really wanting to say what he was about to, "You're saying she found comfort in the arms of someone else the same way you did with Dyson. Only you were not wrong but she was." He was trying to find a way to word it so his granddaughter would understand exactly what she was saying. "Well when you say it like that it, never mind, you suck," the brunette realized Trick had a very valid point. The Blood King knew he was getting through to his extremely stubborn granddaughter. "Then you found out they were going to work together on a case and went to warn her but instead ended up getting angry from jealousy. As soon as you found out they were together the previous night. And then after you found out they were intimate you went there in a rage and fought Tamsin. Did I get all that accurately," Trick questioned his granddaughter already knowing the answer. Bo's brows furrowed together, "Yes, Kenzi didn't leave a thing out," she knew where her grandfather got his information.
"I understand you are upset learning the things you had to and the way you had to learn them. Do you think that is the way to win Lauren back? That you left and then carry on yelling at her for decisions she made from the one you originally made?" Bo just kept her head down but the Blood King saw the water in her eyes. They didn't spill over but they were clearly filling her eyes. It hurt Trick to see her in so much pain but the best way he could help her was give her the best advice he could. "I know it is painful Bo but show Lauren you have matured. Don't yell no matter what you learn. Instead be there, be a friend because right now that is all you can hope for. Be happy she is happy and make sure she is treated how she should be. If you have Lauren's heart the way she has yours you will find your back to each other. If not you have to live with the consequences of your decision. There is a saying that I believe the humans started that you do not know what you have till it's gone. The truth to that is you know what you have you just didn't think you would lose it. That is what happened here. You left to officially close the book on Dyson and yours relationship, to get closure, and to reassure yourself as well as Lauren. You knew Lauren possessed your heart and hoped you would be able to go back assuring her once and for all that it was just her. You took a risk and this is the result of that risk Bo."
The tears were slowly falling down the brunette's face. "It's harder than that Trick. When I hear Tamsin talk about her I lose control. Today I was at the lab when Tamsin came in. I saw her aura towards Lauren but what was worse was I saw Lauren's towards hers. It wasn't as bright as when she was with me but it definitely wasn't dim either. When I think of that I lose control of myself." The Blood King turned her head towards him, "Then don't Bo, don't lose control." She tried pulling herself together but was failing miserably, "What's even worse is she is doing everything I didn't. She always came first to me and I never showed it. I never thought to ask her to come out on cases I thought she liked the sciency part not the action part. I don't know if I can watch them together." Trick understood what she was saying no one wants to watch the person you love with someone else. "You don't have to for now. Be her friend when Tamsin isn't around. Do not judge or make comments but listen like a friend and when you are ready you will have to be around the two of them as hard as it will be. It will show Lauren you are mature Bo." Her grandfather knew the doctor was very mature as was the Valkyrie and his granddaughter had a tendency to throw temper tantrums.
Trying to change the subject a little bit not completely since the next thing he had to say included Lauren. "Now your Dawning, I have a few theories of why you saw the things you saw. You saw Lauren as your police partner because she was your partner in your love life. You knew Lauren was worried that you would leave her for Dyson which is why you were telling her that you were in it for the long haul. Dyson was the one you married because that was Lauren's fear and since she had your heart it was your fear. Not being with her, making a mistake and being married to him. The injections you were getting in reality were no longer working so the ones in the Dawning were making you sick. Your Dawning was more like a premonition. You did end up with Dyson although you were in it for the long haul with Lauren and you had to work with her even though she wasn't yours. Sounds very much like what is happening in your life right now."
Bo knew Trick was right it all made sense. This is why thinking wasn't her thing. It always was for Trick and Lauren because she wasn't good at putting together riddles. Now it was too late and she was going to have to find a way to be friends with Lauren. How can she look at her and not pull her into her arms? How can she sit across from her and not want to lean over being able to kiss her whenever she wanted? How was she going to make it every day without being able to run over there and just lay in her arms?
LAUREN'S PLACE
The doctor was upstairs changing into workout gear while Tamsin was waiting for her downstairs. The dark fae was a little surprised to see Bo at the lab but not completely shocked. She knew Bo was regretting the decision she made. The blonde fae smirked the succubus's loss was her gain. Tamsin was pretty sure the two were dating even though she knew the human was still in love with the brunette. It would take time but that was fine with her. The dark fae needed time herself. Feelings and caring where still so new to her she had no clue what to do. She figured this was a good start she knew how to fight and she was good at it. The blonde human wanted to learn so she was going to teach her. It was a small gesture but more than her ex did for her so it had to be a step in the right direction.
There was a knock at the door and Tamsin answered it, "Who the hell are you dude?"
"Isaac Taft, and you are," the man asked as he sized up the Valkyrie.
