After few days Joan tried to get Denis back to her…failingly. She decided for the worst solution.

How shall I tell him…Oh God, I know I shouldn't have done this , but he…foully abused me and abandoned me ! I had to…or he would have leaved me ! But I repent and I will never repeat it ! I promise !

Joan's prayers were quickly interrupted by cracking of the main doors.

,,Luke…'' she fastly stood up on her feet and rushed downstairs. ,,I-I need to tell you a…a bad news-'' tears in her eyes.

,,Mom ? Mom what happened ?'' Luke was confused and worried after seeing his mother crying. ,,He hurt you ? Or what happened ?''

,,He- Yo-your father…he died on anaphylactic shock…yesterday evening, they found him today's morning in his car. Bees attacked him-'' she cried even more hardly as every single word bit into her soul.

This was worse than her guiltiness of having sex with her own son.

,,He…he died ?'' Luke start slowly watching his mother walking upstairs.

,,Hmm-'' she whimpered weakly, stepping in her bedroom.

She leaned her back to wall, could not stand this pressure on her conscience and slid down the wall to the ground gasping for air.

,,I…I'm so sorry Mom,'' Luke followed her on the floor, hugging her tightly, she cried in his shirt.

I AM SO SORRY ! For breaking family, for using you, for killing your father, for failing in everything…

,,So-sorry Luke…'' she sobbed, clutching him closer.

They were just sitting on floor for a long while, Joan still crying and Luke couldn't calm her down.

,,….I-I am weak, but Thou art strong…'' he start singing slowly. Joan looked up at him with her red face.

,,Jesus, keep me from all wrong…

I'll be satisfied as long

As I walk, let me walk close to Thee !'' he smiled at her, petting her cheek, wiping away her tears.

She slowly joined him with shaking voice ,,Ju-Just a closer wa-walk with Thee,

Grant it, Je-Jesus, is my plea,

Daily wa-walking c-close to Thee…''

They sang together ,,…Let it be, dear Lord, let it be.

When my feeble life is o'er,

Time for me will be no more…

Guide me gently, safely o'er

To Thy kingdom shore, to Thy shore…'' she leaned closer to his chest.

He hugged her closer again ,,I remember how you sang A Closer Walk to me when I was 8…when I broke my arm, I was crying and crying and you were standing behind me in hospital, holding my hand and singing…you always stood behind me.''

And I will my boy…I will repent to the rest of my life, I swear to you Lord I will…and I will protect my son In Jesus Name ! And I will stop taking advantages of him-

,,At least…he won't harm you ever again…and we can be together-'' Luke patted her arm.

,,-No…Lu-Luke I…I don't want to continue in , what we are doing. This…shook with me really hardly, and we need both start again. We must do better, than until now…do you understand me ?''

,,I think yes…alright if it is really your wish,'' Luke uttered sadly, but still hugging her.

,,I think we- we should move on…completely…everything is reminding me of Denis-'' her eyes searched over the room.

,,We'll find something fine mom, just you and me hmmm,'' he smiled at her.

Yes, something fine, as soon as possible.


Half year later.

Joan and Luke moved to New Orleans, next to Miss Robichaux's Academy. Joan during this half year became more strict to her son, to keep herself from abusing him, more tough and more pious. Completely surrendering herself to Almighty and Jesus. Repenting every day what she had done.

Almighty…and Luke won't stop provoking me. Look at him…

,,Where's your modesty ? Put your shirt on !'' Joan growled putting a tray with fresh lemonade on tipper truck, looking up at her half naked son.

,,It's totally wet mom…'' Luke protested.

,,Hell is naked before Him and distraction has no covering…''

Joan noticed three girls on the next door Academy's balcony…they made her nervous.

,,Get in the house, put on a clean shirt…''


A.N.: And now go and read Only Jesus Can Save You…if you liked this story of course ;-)ZiZi hugs and ZiZi kisses xoxo